Not as Dusty [Rebirth]

Chen Ai had been hiding from Xia Jiarong for almost a semester, and he was very embarrassed.He has said positively that it is impossible to like Xia Jiarong, but Xia Jiarong will put on a tolerant and affectionate attitude and say that he does not mind, is willing to wait, as long as I like you is enough.Did he really meet this affectionate man on TV?But Chen Ai always felt that his appearance was deliberately made for himself, and fun was the second priority. However, Chen Ai really couldn't deny that Xia Jiarong really liked him.

It is precisely because I really like him—Chen Ai is too embarrassed to say that Xia Jiarong said he loves him. It is too shameful to say it like this, so Chen Ai can't directly swear at each other. He is not that kind of character, but if he really finds a girl to be His fake girlfriend acted for Xia Jiarong?Although there are quite a few girls chasing Chen Ai when they go to college, and they all blatantly make an appointment directly, but with this kind of trick, Chen Ai will always feel that they are too much towards Xia Jiarong, as if they are extremely disgusted with homophobia——

He didn't dare to pat his chest and say how real he is, and it's not that he hasn't done it with men, and he didn't have any nausea and vomiting reactions when he did it!

Well, Chen Ai has to admit that this is indeed a lack of decisiveness and quickness in his character. Just like in his previous life, Xia Jiarong liked him, but he didn't like Xia Jiarong, but in the process of grinding the frog, he didn't understand it. How could he have had a substantive relationship with Xia Jiarong after hesitation, and lived together for a while.But in this life, after he has regarded Xia Jiarong as his best friend, he thinks that before he really likes Xia Jiarong, it is best not to give him any hope and misunderstandings, lest he cannot Responding, on the contrary, hurt Xia Jiarong even more.

So he hides and hides.Fortunately, the teaching areas and living areas of the two majors are far apart. Chen Ai often observes his surroundings with his eyes and ears listening to all directions. Running around on the bicycle, coming to class is always stuck on time and never arrives early. Except for the evening self-study in the freshman every night, he must study in the designated classroom. Usually, he changes the classroom after each class to avoid being caught by Xia Jiarong live.

The normal class order was not affected, but outside of class, there was nothing to do, especially in the dormitory, Xia Jiarong often bought a lot of snacks in his dormitory to share with his roommates, waiting for him to come back , and the boys in his dormitory were bought by Xia Jiarong a long time ago, and they only tipped off Xia Jiarong, thinking that he was a "unrighteous person" who ignored his old friends when he went to college, and instead advised him to reconcile with Xia Jiarong quickly.

How could Chen Ai tell the real reason why he hid from Xia Jiarong?Naturally, it is impossible to say, so I can only play haha ​​and perfunctory.

One chases, one hides, one thinks this process is getting more and more interesting, and the other feels that hiding and hiding is used to it. If one day I don't get used to the scene where Xia Jiarong catches him, the final exam will come.

This is too fast!Chen Ai was not only amazed.He didn't pay much attention to the passage of time. Apart from being immersed in books, he only remembered to hide from Xia Jiarong. He hadn't participated in several club activities and small gatherings in the class. Both boys and girls said that he was the most difficult to date. one that came out.It is precisely because I have not calmed down to enjoy life that I feel that time flies so fast.

Chen Ai, who was reviewing the subjects for the final exam, suddenly didn't want to hide from Xia Jiarong anymore.In this critical period, when it is doomed to get a scholarship, Chen Ai is not in the mood to fight wits with him anymore. Moreover, it is not a problem to hide like this all the time. He can hide for a semester, but he can’t hide for four years, right?

So he was half preparing to study, half waiting for Xia Jiarong to catch him.

So Xia Jiarong caught Chen Ai who had been resting by the lake.

The lake is very cold in winter.Xia Jiarong was originally afraid of the cold, but now he was fully armed, wearing gloves, a hat and a scarf, and came over shivering. The first thing he said when he met Chen Ai was:

"Why are you studying in this cold place? Aren't you cold?"

Chen Ai admires Xia Jiarong's seemingly calm and unhurried attitude the most, because he looks like he is not worried that someone will not follow his wishes, so everything is under control.

He stretched out his hand to show Xia Jiarong.His hands are still ruddy, not pale, full of blood, and one can feel that the hands must be hot right now.Xia Jiarong not only looked at it like this, but also took off the gloves and held them on. He sighed in satisfaction at the heat of Chen Ai's hand, and said:

"I really envy you, you are like this every winter, you are not afraid of the cold at all."

Chen Ai withdrew his hand a little uncomfortable, feeling that this behavior was too intimate.When he used to think that Xia Jiarong was just a friend, he often lent Xia Jiarong his hand to cover in winter, but now thinking about it, he felt that it was too inappropriate.Xia Jiarong didn't mind. He put on his gloves again with a natural attitude, and glanced at the lake which seemed to be freezing because of the thin ice, and tilted his head to signal the small pavilion beside him:

"Can't you learn in another place? How about we go over there and talk?"

Chen Ai followed.He has been studying by the lake recently, because near the end of the period, many students who would not step into the study room on weekdays also flock to the study room, and they are all proficient in the skill of "occupying a seat". No matter which study room I go to, I feel that there are books on every seat, and the sign is "There are people in this seat, please do not sit."He couldn't sit on the seat he already occupied, and he was embarrassed to follow suit to occupy a fixed seat—mainly because he was hiding from Xia Jiarong before, and he didn't have a study room that he often went to, so he thought Anyway, he is not afraid of the cold, so he might as well come to the lake, it is quiet and comfortable.

Chen Ai has already sat on the stone bench in the pavilion.Many people sat here during the season when the pavilion was nearby, but it was not suitable in winter, so no one came over, the stools were covered with dust, and Chen Ai still sat on his book.Before he had time to hand over a copy to Xia Jiarong, Xia Jiarong sat down absent-mindedly. As soon as his buttocks touched the stool, he stood up with an "ow" and kept complaining:

"It's too cold! It's freezing me to death!"

He only saw the half-delivered book from Chen Ai at this time, but after thinking about it, the book is not warm, and it must be cold in the wind, so it's better to stand up.Chen Ai was sitting and he was standing, so a condescending feeling suddenly rose in his heart, and then he turned to the topic and said:

"Chen Ai, why didn't you hide this time?"

"You need to study hard to prepare for the exam. Why, you don't need to prepare?"

"There is nothing to prepare, just the content."

Xia Jiarong said that he didn't care. Judging from his expression, he really grasped it, so he didn't feel that the exam needed to be treated with caution.Chen Ai suddenly remembered what kind of talent he was, but the little jealousy in his heart did not arise.

Really got used to it.

"Let's do this, it's not a problem."

Chen Ai took the initiative to talk about his feelings.Xia Jiarong listened intently to what he said, and before he knew it, he squatted down in front of Chen Ai, looking up at him intently.

"I have always regarded you as a good friend before. I also feel very sudden when you confessed to me so suddenly. Besides, how could we be together? Let's talk about homosexuality. You have your own parents, your parents and family Can you accept that you like a man? I have no family concerns, but I have never put being with a man in my life plan. To be honest, although architects can also be classified as art, And there are many homosexuals in the art industry, but in China, if others know that I am gay, it will definitely affect my work. It is a bit secular to say that, but I don’t have the kind of mind to challenge the secular and deal with others’ surprise I just want to study hard now, find a good job, throw myself into it, and live my life well.

Even if I don't talk about this, Xia Jiarong, I don't have feelings for you other than friendship.How can I fall in love with you?I've liked other people, especially, so it's hard for me to imagine what it would be like to turn my feelings for that person into yours.

So give up, Xia Jiarong, really, give up, don't waste your time on me, and find someone who really suits you. "

What Chen Ai said was extremely serious, some were his real thoughts, and some were his exaggerated statements to make Xia Jiarong give up, in short, there were no words against his will.

Xia Jiarong also listened very carefully. After listening to it, he thought for a while, and then said slowly while thinking:

"Look, Chen Ai, people are selfish. I like you, and I just want you to be with you. I can't stop chasing you just because you say you don't like me, no matter what the reason is. Run away, so sorry for me! You also know what kind of person I am, so I can't let you go.

Now tell me what you're worried about.Are you afraid of worldly eyes?There is nothing to be afraid of, we can keep it a secret, and my parents can handle it, they are not so old-fashioned, and after realizing that I have to be you, they will accept you.You have a stable personality, and I also know that this matter is special, as long as you don't show it outside, who knows what relationship we have behind closed doors?Even when we are old, others will be surprised by our unmarried, we can still cover it up!Whether it's a fake marriage or a lesbian to cover up, how many ways can solve it!For me, this is not what I am worried about. What I am most worried about is that you don't like me.

How many couples are together, not necessarily because of love, so why can't we be together?Since you say you like someone, but judging by your appearance, you may not be able to be with her. In that case, why can't you be with me?If you want to start a family, I can be your other half, and it's not troublesome to hide; if you don't want to get married, that's even better!You will only have me by your side, love will grow for a long time, even if love does not come out, we also have other affections, can't we just make do with each other!We can stay away from each other first, and we can get along as we did before. Anyway, you can no longer avoid me. To be honest, my liking didn't cause you any practical troubles, did it? "

The author has something to say: Thank you for the mines of deep sea fish, dear~

It seems that everyone is touched by me, so I will start daily updates~ Not to mention I will ask for leave on Weibo.