How many weeks are you going to confess?

Bian Jin hung up the phone, but there was no reaction for a while, or rather, he didn't know how to react at all.

Five years ago, Lian Li said to him, "Bian Jin, goodbye." He knew that the two would never meet again.

At that time, he laughed at himself very heartily that he was really a rescuer, as long as he helped Lian Li escape the National Day, his mission would be over.

He knew that Lian Li had transferred to an ordinary high school in Yuandu City, and he also knew that Lian Li had become the number one student in the college entrance examination in Yuandu City, because the happy news was posted on Xia Chuan, and there were many discussion posts on the Internet, he couldn't do it if he didn't want to see it .

To be honest, he was very happy, but also quite unwilling.

I am happy because I am happy for Lian Li's good grades, and I am not reconciled because I feel that he has not changed a bit after leaving me.

After the results of the college entrance examination came out, Jiang Chenyan organized a teacher appreciation banquet in his class. I heard that Lian Li was invited, but Bian Jin didn't know whether Lian Li went because he didn't go at all, and spent the whole night with Jiang Lesheng Lu Xu and the others. .

Their scores in the college entrance examination are just like that. Jiang Lesheng passed the second grade, Ah Hao passed the undergraduate grade, and Lu Xu was the best among them, and he was also the number one scholar in liberal arts in their class.

The grades were checked by Jiang Lesheng for Lu Xu. When he saw the grades, Jiang Lesheng's mouth could be filled with two fists, and he muttered to himself: "How can I become friends with a top student like you..."

As for Bian Jin's results, after passing a line, it can be regarded as an explanation for Bian Huahai and Yu Shu.

Because the scores of the few of them were too different, their volunteers were almost not filled together.Both of them, Ah Hao, enrolled in the local Polytechnic Institute in Xiachuan, which is very close to their home, a ten-minute drive away.Lu Xu accepted the admission invitation from University B. Jiang Lesheng originally wanted to apply to a university in City B, but he couldn't get his grades to apply, so he could only apply to a normal university in province H next door.

Bian Jin was different from them. He went to the northeast by himself, and his accent was taken away within two days.Jiang Lesheng laughed at him for a long time, and then he was also taken away.

Originally, I thought youth was scary, but in fact it was just a blink of an eye.

A few people would come out to get together when they were in college, sharing their stupid roommates and stupid majors.

Lu Xu and Jiang Lesheng were finally together. Bian Jin remembered that it was just after the first semester of the freshman year. It snowed heavily that day. Several people found a hot pot restaurant and ate meat. They all drank.

Holding the cup, Jiang Lesheng stood up suddenly, his cheeks were flushed, he was obviously drunk, and he staggered to clink glasses with them.

"Respect, friendship, belch—" he shook his head, "Oh, no, Lu Xu and I are no longer pure friendship."

Bian Jin was very calm, and the two Ahao brothers didn't react at first, "Is that... the relationship between father and son?"

Jiang Lesheng waved his arms and put his arms around Lu Xu's shoulders, "Go! It's a male-boyfriend relationship!"

Lu Xu smiled and nodded.

Ah Hao and the two: "Fuck!"

So the money for the dinner that day was born by Lu Xu and Jiang Le.

Bian Jin remembered that Jiang Lesheng howled for a long time after he woke up the next day and found that his balance was three hundred less.

Thinking of this, Bian Jin was happy, but the smile just hung on the corner of his mouth and then slowly disappeared.

Without Lian Li, he can still live, study and work safely.

But all of this is based on the fact that he doesn't touch it, doesn't recall it, and takes the bandage around and around, sealing it tightly.

Bian Jin is now like a doll that has been pulled out of the battery for a long time and is suddenly put into the battery. It always freezes for a while, and after the circuit is cleared, it will run and jump unscrupulously.

He called Jiang Lesheng with a trembling voice.

"How did you know the news?"

Jiang Lesheng said bluntly, "I came to Xiachuan on a business trip, and my company sent me to do a news investigation... He jumped off the building on his own initiative and died on the spot, five hours ago."

Bian Jin fell down and sat on the bed, "Understood."

He hung up the phone, and it was past five o'clock. The sky outside the window was unusually rich in color, and the dark clouds looked as if they were about to fall down. It must be a cloudy and rainy day tomorrow.

Go and see him tomorrow, Bian Jin thought.

***

Bian Jin woke up and subconsciously touched the phone by the bedside, but instead of touching something cold, it was something warm and somewhat soft?Like human hands?

...? !

He opened his eyes suddenly, and took two steps back unconsciously, with a look of lingering fear.

The girl in front of him was startled by him, "Brother Jin, what's wrong with you?"

Bian Jin was taken aback, and looked around.

He was on the second floor, and downstairs was a hall. A large group of people were eating and drinking downstairs. He was leaning on the railing, holding a wine bottle in his hand.

The girl in front of her looked a little familiar, she should have seen it before, but she couldn't remember her name.

"Who are you?" Bian Jin asked.

The girl's expression changed, she was a little embarrassed, "Brother Jin, we haven't seen each other for a few months, so you won't even forget who I am?"

Bian Jin suddenly realized something, took out his phone and turned on the screen, and two lines of words appeared on the top.

22:03

Friday, June 12.

A person came up from the stairs, Jiang Lesheng with black hair, his suspicious gaze swept back and forth between Bian Jin and the girl, and he leaned close to Bian Jin and asked in a low voice.

"Brother Jin, are you in conflict with Yao Nana again?"

Oh, Yao Nana, no wonder she looks familiar but can't remember, after all, she hasn't seen her since graduation.

Jiang Lesheng wanted to say something, but suddenly the back of his hand was grabbed by Bian Jin, and it turned green immediately, and he jumped three meters away with a cry.

Aggrieved and asked: "Brother Jin, why are you pinching me?"

Bian Jin: "Does it hurt?"

Jiang Lesheng showed him his bruised back of his hand, "It's all like this, can it not hurt?"

"Then it's not a dream." Bian Jin stuffed the phone back into his coat pocket and walked downstairs.

Yao Nana looked at Jiang Lesheng confusedly, "Brother Jin...?"

Jiang Le twitched the corners of his mouth, "Maybe he just stepped into the adult world, so he's not used to it."

Yao Nana: ...

Bian Jin came back again, although he didn't know why, and he didn't know why he would return to the day of his coming-of-age ceremony.

But, he came back, and he returned to the time when Lian Li was still alive.

When I was leaving the hotel, I met Lu Xu, who had just arrived, and asked him where he was going.

Bian Jin smiled brightly and said, "Go be a hero."

Lu Xu patted him on the shoulder: "Understood, a man is a teenager until he dies, and everyone has a secondary dream."

Bian Jin made a sincere suggestion: "Don't be led away by Jiang Lesheng's boundless brain power, you are going to be a lawyer."

Lu Xu glanced at him suspiciously, with a puzzled expression on his face, "Did I mention my wish?"

Bian Jin twitched the corner of his mouth, "I have something urgent, let's talk about it later."

Well, it was just to whet his appetite, after all, the two of them fed Bian Jin a lot of dog food afterwards.

It is still snowing outside, and there is already snow on the flower beds and trees. According to this method, there will be a thick layer of snow on the road tomorrow.

Bian Jin wore very little, and his overcoat was also a very thin windbreaker. As soon as he got out of the hotel, he mercilessly slapped him in the cold wind, which made everyone blindfolded.

He rubbed his face, and didn't plan to go back to add clothes, maybe he could use this to make a fortune.

Last time, Lian Li took the initiative to let him out of the hotel. As soon as he came out, he saw Lian Li standing by the flower bed at the door, his face flushed from the cold, which meant that he had been waiting outside for a long time.

After waiting for so long and not being discovered by Lu Xu, who arrived last, he must be in a remote and dark place.

Then there is only one place that meets the above requirements——

The small supermarket next to the hotel.The small supermarket is run by a couple of elderly people, and it only operates until five o'clock in the afternoon, and the street lights are out of order during this time.

As for why Bian Jin remembered it so clearly, it was because Jiang Lesheng fell in the dark in the dark last time, the fall was bad, his arm was broken, and he had to put on a plaster cast for a month.

Bian Jin's pace quickened even more, but when he was only ten meters away from the convenience store, he was afraid to go forward.

What if Lian Li is not there?

Really there, what is he going to say?

Lian Li came today just to say goodbye to him, so what could he do to keep Lian Li behind?

The dark place in front suddenly lit up with a light, and the screen of the mobile phone illuminated the profile of the person sitting there.

The hair should have not been cut for a while, it has already covered the eyebrows, the eyebrows are stretched, the eyelashes are long and thick, casting a fan shadow under the eyes, the bridge of the nose is straight, the lips are a little thin, and the curves are beautiful.

Even after five years, Bian Jin can still recognize at a glance, this is Lian Li, yes Lian Li.

He raised his hand to say hello, but his voice stuck in his throat.

He is afraid.

Bian Jin just stood quietly in the wind for a while, when a gust of cold wind blew by, scratching the tip of his nose, causing a shiver, and a sneeze.

Lian Li turned around after hearing the sound, the front of his eyebrows gradually raised, his upper eyelids slowly lifted, his pupils shrank slightly, and his tone was unbelievable.

"Bian Jin...?"

"Yes, it's me." Bian Jin rubbed his nose and laughed a few times, feeling that God couldn't stand his cowardice and told him to hurry up.

Lian Li glanced at the hotel behind him, "Aren't you supposed to be there?"

Bian Jin walked towards him, "I thought you would come, so I came out to look for you."

Lian Li took a step back subconsciously, then stopped again, and said with a chuckle, "Happy birthday, Bian Jin, happy coming-of-age ceremony."

Bian Jin stretched out his hand to him, "Where's my gift?"

Lian Lilue was embarrassed, "I'm sorry, I came too hastily."

"It doesn't matter, your coming is the greatest gift you can give me." Bian Jin said.

If you want a puppy made of snow, even if you put it in the freezer, you won't be able to keep it.

Lian Li asked, "How are you all these days?"

Bian Jin: "They are all very good, but I am very bad because you are not here."

Even Li Lianmou didn't say anything, his fingers were trembling faintly.

Bian Jin narrowed the distance between the two of them again, and Lian Li was forced to be next to the door of the small supermarket. Bian Jin continued: "Because you unilaterally announced that you will no longer contact me, because you have nothing to do with me. Say, because I know you came today to part and say goodbye to me."

"Do you still remember how I answered you when you asked me why I like you?" Lian Li lowered his head, and Bian Jin had to lower his head to look at him. The height difference between the two brought a sense of oppression.

After a while, Lian Li said in a low voice, "You said it was because of fate."

"Yes, it is fate." Bian Jin said firmly, "Because no matter how many times you and I make wrong decisions, I have the right to regret it, so that I can modify the wrong options."

Lian Li took a small step to the side, trying to break away from Bian Jin's mental restraint, "Sorry, I don't quite understand what you're talking about."

"I just want to tell you, don't break up with me, don't break up with me, don't ignore me, don't choose to bear everything by yourself, as long as you look back, you can see me."

Lian Li took a deep breath, and with the weak screen light of his mobile phone, he could only see his slightly trembling jaw and red ears, and he didn't know whether it was from the cold or what.

After a long time, he said: "Thank you for your liking, but I don't think I'm worthy of your liking. You can like someone who is worthy."

Bian Jin's anger suddenly rose, and he gritted his teeth forbearance, "Do you think I don't want to? There are many people who have confessed to me, but I subconsciously compare them with you. This eye looks like you, and that nose looks like you."

"But none of them are you."

Lian Li walked around and was about to leave without saying a word, but Bian Jin grabbed his wrist.

"Will we meet again in the future?" This is the second time he asked Lian Li.

This is also the second time Lian Li replied, "Bian Jin, goodbye."

***

Lian Li was walking on the road, took out his mobile phone, opened the ticketing app, and changed the pre-booked high-speed train to Yuandu at 11:30 in the morning to the last train tonight, at [-]:[-].

He originally wanted to wait until the last 5 minutes to call Bian Jin, but then he felt that he was quite sick, and he couldn't make the call, so he had to come to Xiachuan City.

Later, he felt relieved again, so let's take a look at it every few months. After all, he grew up in Xiachuan.

Lian Li and Zhou Sijie now live in Grandma Zeng's old house in the countryside. Although no one has lived in it for more than ten years, the old people nearby will occasionally help clean it and repair the tiles if they are broken, so they can still live.

It was already 02:30 in the morning when he got home, he tried to walk as lightly as possible, he did not tell Zhou Sijie when he went out.

The structure of the old house is simple, there is only one main room, one bedroom and one kitchen. The toilet is not with the house, it is next to the courtyard just entered.

There was only one bed in the bedroom, and Lian Li made a bed in the corner.

He pushed open the door, and by the moonlight, he could see Zhou Sijie sitting beside the bed, wearing a coat.

Lian Li Xin was startled, "Mom, why haven't you slept yet?"

Zhou Sijie looked straight over and asked, "Where have you been?"

Lian Li's eyes dodged, "I didn't go anywhere."

Zhou Sijie's voice suddenly rose, and it sounded terrifying in the middle of the night, "Where did you go?! I've been waiting for you since nine o'clock! Have you gone to Xiachuan? Have you gone to see Bian Jin?"

Lian Li pursed his lips tightly and said nothing.

"How many times have I told you to stop contacting him? How long have you known him? Are you so reluctant to part with him?" Zhou Sijie said viciously.

"He is the chief culprit who made your ugly past public! And he is a poor student with no knowledge and skills. His father spent money to get into the rocket class. He doesn't need to study hard to have a very good future. You No way, Lian Li, your future is only your own..."

When it came to the end, Zhou Sijie cried out in pain, resentful in a low voice, "Why do you encounter all bad things... You are obviously a very good child... You should not have been born in the first place, and you were cast into a good family... ..."

In the past two months or so, what Zhou Sijie said most was "regret for giving birth to you".

Every time, Lian Li would hug her tenderly, stroke her madly messed up hair, and comfort her softly.

"Mom, compared to those disabled people, I am very lucky. I am very healthy and rarely get sick. I have no intellectual problems. I am a very normal person."

Should he consider himself lucky?

he does not know.