fall in love in winter

Chu Ning'an was shocked when she received the news. After the matter of coming out was settled, Lu Hanqiu moved the time forward a few days, so it may not be appropriate to say it now.

She wanted to go to Lu Hanqiu, but Lu Hanqiu stopped her and told her not to come, saying that if she came, she might make things worse.

Chu Ning'an was very worried about her, so she dialed a number for her, but Lu Hanqiu hung up the phone, took a screenshot of the phone and sent it to her, [It's just that the phone is out of battery, don't worry, nothing will happen to me, I Mom left without hearing a word. 】

Chu Ning'an: [Okay. 】

I don't know what to say, I can't seem to be of much help.

Lu Hanqiu made a voice: [Thinking about the good, we didn't get beaten up, and we didn't get into an ugly situation, isn't it great? 】

I really want to be.

This is really good.

Lu Hanqiu: [Good night. 】

Chu Ning'an: [Good night. 】

Chu Ning'an put down her phone, she opened the window and looked at the night sky, she didn't see any stars at night, there were not many places to play in winter, but she liked winter very much.

I always feel that winter is very cold. After the cold is spring, it is a new beginning. Chu Ning'an looked at it with her chin, she must still be worried, but Lu Hanqiu said it was fine, so she believed in Lu Hanqiu, Lu Hanqiu is so smart, she really wants to go and hug her hug her.

In the past few days, the work and rest in the courtyard have been chaotic. Those who wake up in the morning skip breakfast and wait for noon to eat.

When Lu Hanqiu came down, Dad Lu was fiddling with his suit and glanced at her. Lu Hanqiu was standing still at the top of the stairs, holding the railing in his hand, which was dark red. He rubbed his fingertips against the opening, and the sawdust had been smoothed out. Yes, there were a few tooth marks on it before, but now they are all blurred.As a child she was always curious.Wanting to see what's under the red paint, every night when she goes upstairs to sleep, she always likes to sneak and bite. It amuses her parents, but she is afraid of hurting her teeth. Finally, she cuts a small opening with a knife and shows her. just give up.

Dad Lu sighed, there are too many things going on recently, he can't take care of the other end, others have started visiting relatives to visit their relatives for New Year's greetings, their house has not been moved, and Lu Hanqiu's grandparents haven't been there yet, so he has no intention of going there now .

"Can you give Mom and Dad a little time?" Dad Lu asked.

"Yeah." Lu Hanqiu nodded and said, "Go to the hospital and have a look. I'll take care of the house."

Father Lu changed into new shoes, not the ones Chu Ning'an gave him. He simply wiped the dust on the toe caps twice, "Your mother didn't sleep last night, she just fell asleep this morning, don't wake her up, she If she gets up... Try not to quarrel, she may have a little mental breakdown. "

"I know."

Lu Hanqiu could understand that Lu's mother had suffered a lot this time. Her good friend hurt her. She almost turned her daughter into a wife. Gay, she spins like a spinning top.

Dad Lu stood at the door for a while, and Mama Chu came out. Yesterday, he was discussing that the two women should go to the hospital to see Grandma Gong. Dad Lu simply explained a few words, saying that Mama Lu was not feeling well.

Chu's mother didn't ask any further questions, and went into the room to call Chu's father. After a few minutes, Chu's father came out after changing his clothes. Chu Ning'an dawdled behind her.

Lu Hanqiu asked her to bear it, both of them be honest, try not to make adults angry, she couldn't help it at all, hey.

Chu's mother patted her on the shoulder, "If you want to go there, go there, what are you doing on the threshold, be a door god."

"I won't go today." Chu Ning'an followed her mother into the room, puffing her cheeks.

Chu's mother didn't think much about it, she just thought it was the two of them quarreling, and there have been a lot of things recently, one after another, Chu's mother didn't care about these two little ones, and said: "Your Auntie Lu suffered a big crime this time, I'll ask her to have an incense session on the fifteenth day, and if you're at home, go with her."

"it is good."

Later, someone from the Lu family came to celebrate the new year. He was a student of Lu's father. Lu's mother came out to treat guests when Lu's father was not at home. She didn't respond to her words, obviously she didn't want to answer Lu Hanqiu's words.

Lu Hanqiu was very angry, but still held back.

The student noticed that the atmosphere at home was not right, so he didn't stay for dinner, so he found a suitable excuse and left. Lu Hanqiu watched her mother go back to the room and bit her lips. She was very upset and hated her mother's behavior .

Lu Hanqiu sat in the living room and took melon seeds out to eat, quietly watching TV to distract himself.

In the middle of the TV advertisement, she received a message from Chu Ning'an. Chu Ning'an was very worried about her, and kept asking: [Are you all right?Did your mother say anything? 】

Lu Hanqiu: 【Didn't talk to me, probably still thinking about it. 】

Chu Ning'an stayed at home in a panic, and felt anxious in her heart: [Oh. 】

【Do you really not need me to go there?How about I go with you to confess to Aunt Lu. 】

Lu Hanqiu: [No, I can handle it. 】

At three o'clock in the afternoon, news came from the hospital that the old man had been rescued, and he had suffered a serious crime. He would definitely not be able to get out of bed for a year or so. As for those two people, no one dared to ask.

Father Chu was exhausted when he came back. He was stuck in a traffic jam for three hours, and his arms and shoulders ached when he came back.

Chu Ning'an went over and squeezed his shoulders, Chu's father sighed and said, "I always feel that something will happen later."

Chu Ning'an paused, and Chu's mother poured Chu's father a glass of water, and scolded, "Don't say such stupid words."

"Okay." Father Chu poohed twice, took some water to drink, and the two discussed when they would visit relatives. This year, there were a lot of things, and they wanted to go out and visit and find something happy to have fun.

After discussing, she reminded Chu Ning'an to go to bed early at night and go to a relative's house for breakfast tomorrow.

Chu Ning'an said hello.

Lu Hanqiu is a very sober type of person. At night, she sent a message to Chu Ning'an: [I don't think liking the same sex is a wrong thing, and I just want her to accept it and ask her to forgive me. I thought that because she didn't accept it, I would give in to her.After all, I will live with you in the future, not with her.Because this is my home, I told her about my sexual orientation, and it's up to her to accept it or not. 】

Chu Ning'an looked at the text sent, Lu Hanqiu usually speaks very little, but she must be angry if she can speak so much, and her family must have put pressure on her.

Chu Ning'an never doubted Lu Hanqiu's feelings for her. She typed it, but before sending it, Lu Hanqiu sent another message saying: [An'an, what we want is support, not that they give us the right to be together.We are two individuals, our parents gave birth to us, we should indeed be grateful, but we should not blindly follow the life they gave us. 】

Although she is angry, she is very reasonable. She has to walk her own way. After the first 18 years with her parents, she has to fly by herself.

Lu Hanqiu was sober and thorough. She comforted Chu Ning'an while she was angry: [We have already considered our parents enough, and we don't need to worry about them in the future. We don't need to think too humblely, you know? 】

Chu Ning'an nodded, and replied: [I know!Qiuqiu, you are right, maybe they are not easy to accept, but there is no other way.I think I care about them, so I hesitate to tell them, Qiuqiu, I will never back down from loving you. 】

Love, they seldom mentioned it and found it awkward, but this time when they said it, Lu Hanqiu's unhappiness was immediately soothed.

Lu Hanqiu: [Say it again. 】

Chu Ning'an: [Huh? 】

Lu Hanqiu: [Just say you love me, say it again. 】

Chu Ning'an looked back, only to realize what she said, her face was slightly hot, she stared at the screen of the phone with her chin in her hand, it was so embarrassing.

She typed back: [I love you. 】

Lu Hanqiu: [What's going on, my body is full of strength. 】

Chu Ning'an: [You are so disgusting!I have goosebumps all over my body! 】

Lu Hanqiu: [Aren't you disgusting, you said you love me. 】

Chu Ning'an: 【You can call me disgusting, but please don't say that my love for you is disgusting. 】

Lu Hanqiu smiled, 【Sorry. 】

Chu Ning'an agreed, and in her lifetime, she could hear Lu Hanqiu say sorry, it was really rare, it was the first time in her life.

Chu Ning'an: [Bao'er, if you want something, just tell me, don't keep it from me, okay? 】

Lu Hanqiu: [Uncomfortable, very uncomfortable. 】

Chu Ning'an typed to comfort her, asked her to find a headset, send a voice message to her, and sweetly talked to her, "It's okay, it's okay, I really want to hug you, how about I secretly go to your house to see you?"

She was a little choked up as she spoke, her heart was sore, she especially wanted to go and hug Lu Hanqiu, but Lu Hanqiu said no, safety is the most important thing now, her voice was sour, her mother was cold and violent to her all day long, she was so angry She couldn't vent, now that Chu Ning'an comforted her, she felt much better, and she couldn't help laughing out several times when she heard Chu Ning'an's sweet talk.

It was not easy to come out of the closet, the two of them were joking and joking, Chu Ning'an used all her energy to comfort Lu Hanqiu, and when Chu Ning'an was sleeping at night, she also began to think about what she should do, and it was difficult to fall asleep.

On the third and fourth day of junior high school, the Chu family went out to visit relatives, and happened to meet the opposite door to go out. Both families were restrained and pretended to be very enthusiastic.

When I went to relatives' house, Chu Ning'an was not completely quiet. Fortunately, the Chinese New Year was lively. Everyone was playing cards, especially like to stay up late to play cards. Chu Ning'an sat next to her and watched TV. Now her aesthetics are different from before. I have been staring at it for a long time without falling asleep, and now I can’t watch it for a long time, so I just change to another cartoon and watch it.

The adults laughed at her, "An'an, why do you still like watching cartoons like a child?"

Chu Ningan smiled, because when she grows up, she realizes that the world of adults is sometimes quite boring. When I was young, I always felt that my thoughts were easily seen by adults. I wanted to grow up early. Now that I think about it, adults are not omnipotent. !

Chu Ning'an watched for a long time, and when her mother finished playing mahjong, she and her mother clung to each other and went to sleep.

In the past few days, she and Lu Hanqiu have been in contact, exchanging news with each other. Lu Hanqiu also went to see relatives, and went to grandma's house with her parents.

Lu Hanqiu told Chu Ning'an that Lu's mother had always treated her coldly and didn't talk to her, so she told Chu Ning'an not to worry.

In fact, when sending a message to Chu Ning'an, Lu's mother sighed at her beside her, telling her not to worry, just try to get in touch with boys slowly, or don't worry if you don't want to get in touch, maybe she has entered into some misunderstanding.

I told her a lot, and then Lu Ma started to cry, Lu Hanqiu didn't say anything serious, and reached out to pat her on the shoulder, Lu Ma shrugged her shoulders, not letting her get close to him.

Lu Hanqiu stopped talking, she was also very hurt, she said everything she had to say, so she didn't reply to her mother's words, Lu Hanqiu played with her phone with her head down, looked up to see her father, and then continued to type : [Have fun, ask for a few extra New Year's money, and then you will pay the first month's rent. 】

The message has been sent.

Dad Lu sat next to her, and he didn't say much at relatives' house. Dad Lu was a very serious person, and he rarely laughed. Lu Hanqiu didn't think that her dad would agree, and he didn't mention it to him.

Her father was sitting next to her, neither of them spoke, Lu Hanqiu blinked, and there was some soreness in the sockets of his eyes.

Dad Lu asked, "You like An An, right?"

Lu Hanqiu hummed.

"Your mother should have seen it early in the morning." Lu's father said, "She will not agree to you being with An An."

Lu Hanqiu hummed, and didn't say anything after that. She had a very bad temper and wouldn't act coquettishly like Chu Ning'an to make adults happy, and her words were not very nice, "It doesn't matter, this is my business."

Father Lu frowned, "How can you talk like that?"

Lu Hanqiu pursed her lips. If she didn't speak like this, how should she speak? This is not a question with a standard answer. She can get full marks if she learns the steps of solving the question well.

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Chu Ning'an went back to the courtyard on the fifth day of the lunar new year. When she went back, she looked at the opposite door. Lu Hanqiu hadn't come back yet.

She was a little flustered, and followed her mother into the house. Chu's mother asked several questions in a row but she didn't answer.

Chu's mother patted her on the shoulder, "What are you thinking, I ask you when you go to work, and do you want to pack your things?"

"There's no hurry to go to work, I should pack up on the sixth day of the lunar new year." Chu Ning'an said.

"Take a good rest today. Didn't you say that you don't want to sleep in bed?" Chu Ma asked with concern.

Chu Ning'an nodded blankly. The relatives who had been walking for several days in a row were all tired, so Chu's father and Chu's mother went to rest.Chu Ning'an sat on the sofa for a while, and went to the door to look at the sound, but she never saw Lu Hanqiu's figure.

She fidgeted for several hours, and when it was dark, Lu Hanqiu still didn't come back. Chu Ning'an went to the kitchen and ordered two bowls of egg noodles. On the way back, her parents said she wanted something light, but she didn't know how After cooking, her parents just woke up.

Her parents were very happy, they kept praising her for being sensible, and said that after going out for a walk like this, the food would be lighter and taste like home, Chu Ning'an smiled and followed suit.

It was Chu Ning'an who washed the dishes, and her parents sat on the sofa watching TV after eating and drinking, and they were still praising Chu Ning'an for being sensible and well-behaved.

Chu Ning'an wiped her hands, went to the door and stood for a while, the door that was always open opposite was closed, she closed the door, she squeezed her fingers, and walked to the side of the sofa with her slippers.

She bit her lips and expressed nervousness. She stood in front of her parents, took a deep breath, and said, "Mom, I have something to tell you."

The TV was at its climax, Chu's mother thought she was playing with herself, she tilted her head to the side, and said with a smile: "Go aside, don't block me from watching TV."

"Mom, I'm in a hurry." Chu Ning'an clasped her fingers, a little flustered and scared. She tried her best to pretend to be serious, so that she would inform her parents instead of letting her parents evaluate It's up to her to decide whether she wants to be with Lu Hanqiu or not.

Chu's mother withdrew her gaze and gave her another look, "What's the matter?"

Chu Ning'an took a deep breath, she didn't have the bones, but tears rushed into her eyes in an instant, she opened her mouth, not knowing what to say, walked up to her parents, and knelt down directly.Mother Chu was startled by her, and lifted her body up, "What are you doing, An'an, what are you doing?"

Chu Ning'an hadn't spoken yet, tears streaming down her face, "It's like this, I... woo... I don't know how to say it."

Chu's mother was frightened and hurried to pull her up. Chu's father also panicked and wiped her tears with a tissue.

Chu Ning'an was still crying.

"What's the matter? Tell me slowly, don't worry, don't worry." Dad Chu peeled a piece of chocolate and brought it to her mouth, and asked, "Did you quarrel with Qiuqiu? It's okay, there is no one in the world." Friends don't quarrel, if you're embarrassed to talk to her, I'll tell her."

Chu's mother also patted her on the shoulder to comfort her. Chu Ning'an hadn't cried like this in many years, and she looked very worried, "Okay, let's talk slowly if you have something to do, and you can't get over any obstacles, right?"

Chu Ning'an didn't eat the chocolate, she sniffed, "I didn't quarrel with her...I, I fell in love with her."

"Damn, what a big deal." Father Chu said nonchalantly, and then he was taken aback, looking at Chu Ning'an in disbelief.

Chu Ning'an didn't pretend to be scared, she really didn't know what to say, she was stared at by her father, tears were streaming down her face, she cried so much that she kept choking and twitching, "Dad, I can't help it, I can't help it!" Myself, I know that you will be angry, but I don't know what's going on, woo..."

Tears were pouring down like a faucet.

Chu's father and Chu's mother were all stupid, Chu's father was holding the chocolate in his hand, and felt a little redundant at this moment, he put it in his mouth and took a bite, felt a bit bitter, and threw it into the trash can again, "An'an, you just said that you like Lu Hanqiu .”

"Well, just Lu Hanqiu from the opposite door?" Father Chu wanted to get angry, seeing Chu Ning'an's appearance, he couldn't speak a word, Father Chu hadn't read any books, peasants, unlike Lu's scholarly family, he said sullenly He exhaled, "Why do you like Qiuqiu so much?"

What happened in someone else's house a few days ago fell into my own house. To be honest, it was very uncomfortable. Father Chu yelled at her, "You know how to cry when you cry. I haven't cried yet, but you have cried!"

Chu Ning'an pursed her lips tightly, trying to hold back, but she couldn't help crying, "I, I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do, I've been holding back for several days, and I haven't been able to sleep, Mom and Dad sorry."

She has always been a pistachio, she can go to appease and make others happy when something happens to her family, but now she is in a daze, not to appease her parents, she cried very silly herself, she wiped her tears twice, I dare not say too much.

It was the first time for Chu Ning'an to come out of the closet, and it was also the first time for her parents to hear her daughter say that she likes women, and that she is still a friend since she was a child. It was very scary to them.

Chu Ma remained silent for a while, her expression changed, the room was quiet, except for the sound of Chu Ning'an sobbing, Chu Ma turned her head to glance at her, and said, "Okay, don't cry."

Chu Ning'an pursed her lips, not daring to cry out.

Mother Chu asked: "Didn't you have a puppy love before? I remember you met netizens in junior high..."

"That was a misunderstanding." Chu Ning'an choked and said, "At that time, I treated him as a netizen. After chatting too much, that person chased me and said he wanted to date me, so I showed off to Qiuqiu." Come on, she will tell you that I have an online relationship, and I don't have an online relationship at all..."

Chu's mother hated iron and said: "Qiuqiu treats you like this, and you still like her, you are so cheap!"

"Actually, it's okay... It's a trivial matter, and she's doing it for my own good." Chu Ning'an was reluctant to speak ill of Lu Hanqiu.

Chu Ma exhaled, looking fierce.

Chu Ning'an didn't know what to say, her mind was in a mess, she stuttered, she felt that her mother wouldn't listen, but she still wanted to say: "I can't do things like liking men, I seem to have decided on the way Han Qiu is the same."

Chu's mother said: "You are still young, you don't know what liking is, just grow up."

Chu Ning'an said: "Mom, I'm already 27 years old. I'm not young anymore. If I was 17 years old, I would secretly like her, and I wouldn't tell you about it."

In fact, Chu Ning'an can feel that she is not a natural bender like Lu Hanqiu, she should be heterosexual, but the moment she realizes that she likes Lu Hanqiu, all heterosexual relationships have become single, and no one's gender matters. The important thing is, she won't like anyone because of their gender, she just likes Lu Hanqiu, without Lu Hanqiu, she really can't do it.

"Mom, I really like her." Chu Ning'an wiped her face clean and tried to say seriously.

Chu's father and Chu's mother didn't speak any more, they went directly to the bedroom and slammed the door.Chu Ning'an was still sitting in the living room, her face felt rough when she spoke, and it hurt even if she rubbed it.She nestled in the sofa, lay down and cried, not knowing why.There are many things in the world that are unclear. In fact, they can pretend that they are not together, pretend to be friends in front of their parents, and live like this for the rest of their lives, but she can't do it. She is very greedy and wants to tell her parents to support them , Just like supporting other couples, support them to be together.

People are really strange.

Obviously, she and Lu Hanqiu are also renting a house outside, live in a world of two, quietly, and just bear it when they come back, why do they want to come out, why do they want to come out?

Chu Ning'an got up from the sofa, went to the kitchen to get some cold water to wash her face, and then returned to her room. She lay on the bed upstairs and took out her phone for a long time without knowing what to send.

In the original plan, they first said they liked girls, told their parents about their sexual orientation, and then talked about dating. She couldn't control it and went straight to the point.

Chu Ning'an struggled for a moment with the wording and sent it.

After waiting for a while, I received a reply from Lu Hanqiu: [Don't cry, it's okay, it's a matter of time, they should agree, we'd better not make them angry now, give them time to think. 】

Chu Ning'an wiped her face: [I know. 】

After thinking for a while, she said: [Qiuqiu, I did it, it's very brave. 】