The Melancholy of a Third-Rate Writer

I hope that the word reunion will never appear on you and me.

—— Not well-known

Qi Ming went to bed early that night.

He has been having nightmares.

In the past seven years, he often woke up from nightmares, but he never remembered what he dreamed.After waking up that night, he clearly remembered such a sentence: "——If we never separate, naturally we don't need to meet again."

The speaker's tone was cheerful and complacent, as if he was complacent about his own brilliant ideas.After Qi Ming woke up, he touched his face and found that it was covered with tears.

There is nothing to be proud of in such silly words.Saying that they will never be separated, even if he has been a fool for seven years, it is impossible for him to believe such an extremely stupid thing!

Qi Ming got off the bed with hands and feet.

It was still dark, and the sky was so dark that there was no light at all.There is no moon, let alone stars, and the whole sky is covered with a layer of gray clouds, which are dark and depressing.

Qi Ming wiped away the tears on his face, and barefooted opened a few photo albums brought back from the previous house.He opened the family member's one and told him to throw it away; he opened the school's one and threw it away; he opened the friend's one and threw it away.

The ground quickly became messy.

Qi Ming felt more and more tears wiped away.

Impossible without any trace, impossible, there must be more clues.The reason for the nightmare must be hidden inside, and he wants to find it out!

That person is dangerous.

Can't sit still!You can't know nothing!You can't continue to be a fool!

Qi Ming searched through all the photo albums he brought back, and finally found the strangest one.There is no one on it, only one shadow after another.

With a trembling hand, Qi Ming pulled out the first photo to look at the words on the back.

"It's too much for Jin not to take pictures, I can only take his shadow."

"Jin is working, she is very beautiful, but it is a pity that I still don't take pictures."

"Jin is not in a good mood today, it took me a long time to coax him to laugh."

"I really like Jin today."

"It's still a shadow today, when will Jin take pictures of him for me?"

"Kim shot me his hand today! One day he will look at my camera."

"Kim remembers my birthday, I'm so happy."

"Kim? Uris, I love you."

Qi Ming suddenly threw away the photo album in his hand.

The photo album is full of shadows of the same person.

He once loved such a person so much, even if he could only have a little response forever, he was so happy.

Even if there are only one shadow after another left forever, he treasures them one by one, as if they are all priceless treasures.

That shadow is a man.

That shadow was very similar to the man he met recently.

That shadow is called Jin?Uris.

It wasn't a beautiful love story, it wasn't a beautiful memory, it was the dead ashes with nothing left after the heart was torn apart.

Qi Ming kept wiping away his tears.

He didn't know why he was crying, all he knew was that he was right to laugh: "I" actually fell in love with such a lonely, arrogant, and indifferent person, and even wanted to win the other person's heart.

This is stupid in the first place, who can be blamed for being covered in bruises in the end?

Who told you to overestimate yourself!

Who told you wishful thinking!

Qi Mingfu burst into tears on the photo album.

After crying tired, he lay down on it and slept until dawn.

The hands are numb, the feet are numb, and the whole body seems to be a little sore.

Qi Ming ran to wash his face and brush his teeth, and changed into his work clothes.

My friend had already arrived, and after seeing him, I asked with concern, "Did you not sleep well last night?"

Qi Ming shook his head hastily: "No! I slept very well!" His voice was relaxed and cheerful, as if he was extremely happy every day.

The days seemed to be calm again.

Even though he knew the name of "that person", Qi Ming still didn't remember anything.

But he worked hard to learn to do things.

Even if no one expected him to do well, he still hoped that he could be useful.

But no matter how busy the day is, the nightmares still come as expected every night.

There is a word that appears more and more frequently in my dreams recently.

Reunion, reunion, reunion.

As if to confirm his dream, when he went back to his cousin's house to play, he met Jin again?Uris.

He already knew Kim?Yuris is someone he used to like, but what about Kim?Yuris has no feeling at all, and there is nothing about Jin in his head?Memories of Uris.

There seemed to be something in his heart that was obviously full and about to overflow, but there was still a hand firmly holding the lid, firmly blocking it inside.

He's scared, he's scared.

gold?Uris hated Qi Ming's defense very much.

gold?Uris took Qi Ming and his friend away together.

When Qi Ming opened his eyes, he happened to see Jin?Uris had someone teach his friend a lesson.

Such a scene made Qi Ming inexplicably terrified.

His tears didn't know when they started to flow out.

For the first time in seven years, the recurring nightmare came clearly in his mind.

He is being beaten, he is being injected with drugs, and he is being ridiculed for being too self-reliant.He is not reconciled, he is not convinced, and he is still unwilling to bow his head.He laughed and said confidently, "If you weren't worried, you wouldn't treat me like this! You know that too, right, Jin likes me, he's already started to like me!"

Then there was the beating, the drugging, the being... forced to hear the man say, "Save someone? Ridiculous. What does that stupid guy have to do with me?"

The world is falling apart.

There is no reason to resist.

The nightmare is still going on.

"Do you know Kim? Uris?"

"……I love him……"

"Do you know Kim? Uris?"

"……I love……"

"Do you know Kim? Uris?"

"……like……"

How hard is it to completely erase a person from memory?

In the end, he forgot how to eat, how to wear clothes, how to drive, how to walk, how to write and how to read, and when faced with the decisive question, he still gave the wrong answer over and over again.

That made him suffer more and more pain over and over again.

It wasn't until he turned into an almost stupid person that he completely succumbed.

It was a ridiculous act so stupid that it was a waste of pity.

Even though they were all given up, and they had no reason to persevere, they still endured the terrible pain over and over again before giving up.

Qi Ming stood in front of his friend trembling.

This is his friend!How could he let him suffer the same thing!

He always wants to protect something, always protect something well!

Those who were not protected at the beginning must be protected no matter what.

Didn't expect his intention to protect his friend to let Jin?Uris was furious.

gold?Uris ordered him to go back with him and forbade him to have any further contact with his friends.

Qi Ming didn't resist, he knew he couldn't resist.

Because he already understood the reason why the family kept him: as long as he and Jin?The matter of Uris has not been resolved, and it is useless for him to return home.

Qi Ming accepted the reality.

gold?Uris did not come to disturb his life for a long time.

Until he finds the gold?Uris began to intervene in the transfer of the Qi family.

Upon discovering this, Qi Ming knew that everything would change soon.

Because he knows Kim?Uris.

In gold?In Uris' concept, everything can be measured by interests, including feelings.

So when he gives something, he can be expected to ask for something in return—or even more.

In fact, he guessed right.

After helping the Qi family, Jin?Uris slept with him.

gold?Uris enjoys his body recklessly like a victor looking for spoils.

Rough, cold, and without warmth.

Qi Ming actually remembered everything, but he still couldn't remember the original mood.Memories devoid of emotion seem like someone else's story.

Qi Ming obediently moved into the big manor of Uris' family.

He remembered the estate.

It has high walls, heavy iron gates, and fierce giant dogs.

It is full of flowers, and the sound of gurgling water can be heard from the depths of the sea of ​​flowers. It is a living spring, and the spring water is extremely sweet. He loves it very much, and always happily cups it and drinks it one after another.

Behind the house there is a large lawn with a tall tree on the edge of the lawn.Climb up the tree, climb to the top, and immediately climb to the gold?The window sill of Uris' study.He often lies outside the window and looks at Jin?Yuris, think Kim?Uris' serious work profile is particularly beautiful.

Sometimes he could not climb stably and would fall heavily; sometimes the vicious woman next to Julius would find out and release a big dog to bite him.He is very afraid of heights, falling, and dogs, but he is obviously terribly afraid, but he still climbs up again and again.

Because just looking at it, just looking at it, is a great reward for him.

Can keep him happy all week.

Why would he fall in love with such a person?

Qi Ming found that he couldn't remember.

The loss of memory did not make him feel very uncomfortable, it just felt ridiculous.

like gold?A man like Uris would never fall in love with anyone.

gold?Uris will come back to him, probably because he once loved him unreservedly.

gold?It is not difficult to understand the thinking of a man like Julius: even if he has put something behind him long ago, he will still be furious if someone else tries to take it away.

Encountering such an extremely absurd but irresistible thing, Qi Ming felt a little gloomy.

He began to think of ways to make himself better off.

He cut down the tree behind the house.

He built a big football field.

He plays football and plays with others every day, as if he has returned to the carefree past.

It's a pity that all these things except Rang Jin?Except for the occasional anger, Uris has no effect at all.

Qi Ming realizes that even if he can't remember how he felt back then, he still doesn't want to stay in Jin?Beside Uris.

Even if it was just a deal, he couldn't stand it anymore.

He wants to leave.

He wants gold from?Juris left.

Once this idea appeared, it could no longer be stopped.

Qi Ming found his cousin who was fostered at home.

My cousin is a very smart boy, he always has a sly smile in his eyes, and his grinning appearance is very pleasing.

Qi Ming said, "Do me a favor."

The cousin hugged him and said, "Brother Qi Ming, you are willing to ask me for help. I am very happy—this means that my brother Qi Ming is finally back, right?"

Qi Ming was silent.

The cousin changed the subject: "What do you want me to do?"

Qi Ming was quiet for a long time before he said, "I want you to pretend to be me." He paused, and added, "—the former me."

The cousin looked at him in surprise.

Qi Ming said, "You know better than I what I was like at that time, and you always have many ways, so you will definitely be able to escape safely."

The cousin said, "That's true, but why should I pretend to be you..."

Qi Ming said, "I want to prove something to Jin? Uris."

"Then, leave him."