The Melancholy of a Third-Rate Writer

Can't sleep, can't sleep, can't sleep.

Want to see you, want to see you, want to see you.

—— Not well-known

The plan is going well.

gold?Uris brought his cousin home.

Qi Ming quietly stood on the balcony looking at Jin?Uris took his cousin for a stroll in the garden.

Qi Ming thought about it carefully for a long time, and after confirming that this was the treatment he begged for a long time before, he drew the curtains.

It was dark in the room.

Qi Ming suddenly felt sleepy.

The nightmare has haunted him for too long, and he hasn't had a good sleep for several days.

Qi Ming's breathing quickly became calm.

Thinking of leaving this place soon, thinking of leaving Jin soon?Uris, his mood suddenly became calmer than ever before.

He slept for most of the day and didn't have a dream.

When he woke up, the gauze curtain was blown away by the wind, and the exuberant cool wind poured in from outside, Qi Ming was jolted awake and woke up.The rare good sleep made him feel very comfortable. He stood up and moved his hands and feet. After seeing the sunny balcony, he couldn't help laughing, and walked out to look at the green grass.

The place where the tree used to stand was bare, the branches of the tree turned into benches and fences around it.

The past is gone, and the new future will slowly replace the old past.

How did he feel when he was standing here?

What kind of mood is it that makes him desperate...

Qi Ming couldn't help but close his eyes, pretending that the tree was still below, and slowly tilted his body outward.

The wind blowing in his ears was very fast and cold, but it made him very happy.

Besides, what else?Will not drop the excitement?The ecstasy of seeing your sweetheart?Frustrated with no door?

Qi Ming still couldn't remember.

At this moment, a startled voice suddenly came from behind him: "What are you doing!"

Qi Ming turned his head.

It turned out to be gold?A loyal servant next to Uris.

Qi Ming didn't quite understand why this woman could stand in front of him so confidently and despise his stupidity and incompetence.

His stupidity and incompetence are obviously caused by this woman, isn't it?

He could see the occasional flashes of guilt on the woman's face, but that didn't mean she thought she had done something wrong, and it didn't mean that she would make any compensation for that little bit of guilt.Perhaps the woman will forgive herself for her mistake by convincing herself that "it wasn't my intention to make him a fool, it's just that he was too stubborn to let things get out of hand."

Qi Ming thought about it again, isn't it the purpose of this woman to let him go?

As long as this person can be won over, he should be able to really leave Jin?Uris.

After all, she was Jin who was able to hide what happened back then for so many years?Uris' most trusted person.

Unexpectedly, as soon as he said the idea of ​​leaving, the other party angrily reprimanded him for wishful thinking, and said that he would never be allowed to have that idea.

Qi Ming was very angry.

Obviously what she wanted to do, obviously she wanted him to leave Jin?Yuris, now Kim?Julius is in power, and you want him to stay in Jin?Around Uris, they have taken up all the truths!

Qi Ming quarreled with the other party.

The result is gold?Uris is back.

gold?Uris heard their quarrel.

gold?Uris heard what he said.

gold?Uris knows everything he has rang in the past.

gold?Uris was furious.

Qi Ming was very calm, he decided to marry Jin?Talk to Uris.

Qi Ming said: "What you want is only the person who gave you his whole heart and eyes, and was all about you back then."

Is this exactly what he wants to Kim?Something that Uris proves.

It doesn't have to be him, right?

Any illusion can make him tempted, right?

let me go.

let me go.

let me go.

Qi Ming heard his heart repeating these words over and over again.

——As long as the conversation is over, the disconnection between them should also end, right?

gold?Uris has no reason to keep him.

In the end, what Qi Ming waited for was Jin?Uris' marriage request.

Qi Ming still has no room to refuse.

How could he have forgotten that what people like them hate the most is being calculated?Even if what he pointed out was true, the man still wouldn't admit it.

Qi Ming practiced in front of the mirror for a long time, and finally his smile was not so ugly.

He should learn to accept reality.

Since even the last resort has failed, he probably will never escape.If that's the case, it's better to put your mind elsewhere.

He should learn to grow up.

As a member of the Qi family, he has to shoulder his own responsibilities.The Qi family and the Uris family have a grudge—the Uris family hates the daughter of the Qi family and Jin?Uris' father was unclear, and the Qi family hated the Uris family for treating their daughter lightly, so the love between the two turned into a feud between the two families.

Is it because he overestimated himself and wanted to resolve this enmity, or was he desperate for money?Uris leaned beside him.What else can you do other than face the person you provoked yourself?

Qi Ming started to get busy.

It is not easy for him to make up for the gap of seven years.gold?Uris gave him the "film and television kingdom" of the Uris family. He has many things to do, such as meeting some new friends, recruiting some new subordinates, and starting his own new business.

Life is alive, the important thing is not only love, isn't it?

He believes he can be strong.

After becoming strong, everything is nothing to be afraid of.

Qi Ming arranged all the affairs and started to shoot the new book written by his favorite author.

"Upstart".

Qi Ming looked at the previous plot revised by the screenwriter, and sat silently for a long time.

Although he knew that he was nothing like the protagonist, but seeing the protagonist try his best to get close to the villain in the novel, Qi Ming was still not sure that he could watch that scene and shoot it.

But if you don't even dare to face it, how can you become stronger?

Qi Ming personally participated in the editing and editing of the plot.

...What kind of mood is that?

Qi Ming looked at the firm and cheerful smile on the protagonist's face through the camera, but his heart was still ignorant and empty.

Every shot is hitting his heart.

But if you can't remember, you can't remember.

forget about it.

Qi Ming finished watching the samples quietly, packed up his things and prepared to go back.

gold?Uris' car was waiting outside.

Saw him, Kim?Uris opened the car door and said, "It's snowing, let's go back together."

Qi Ming said "oh", smiled, bent over and sat in the car.

No matter how hot the love is, it will be diluted by time.

Since you can't remember it, why bother to think about it.Kim now?Yuris is a qualified partner. He has countless wealth and tries his best to restrain his temper. Although he can't fall in love, it is not difficult to get along like this.

Qi Ming had been busy all day, he was a little tired, he fell asleep leaning on the back of his chair.

Nightmare has not visited for a long time.

Time and busyness are really the best medicine. If you don't have time to think about it, there will be so much pain of life and death.

Qi Ming was still in the car when he woke up.

He leans on Kim?on Uris.

Outside is the golden sunset and the red glow of the sunset.

Qi Ming said: "Hey, it's so beautiful. If I had known, I would have asked the crew to wait a little longer. The scene is so beautiful. It's not easy to meet such a beautiful sunset in a snowy day. It was gray just now."

gold?Uris hugged him gently.

Qi Ming paused slightly, fulfilled his partner's duty and asked, "What's wrong with you?"

gold?Uris did not speak.

Qi Ming didn't ask any more questions.

He got out of the car and saw the manor shrouded in snow and afterglow.In winter, the fragrance of flowers fades, and the greenness fades. Although the manor has someone sweeping the snow, it is still white everywhere.He used to like to pull Jin in the snow?Yuris goes outside, only nine times out of ten is gold?Uris would never agree.Gold once?Uris finally let go and said "Happy Birthday" to him in the snow.

That was the happiest day in his ten years.

Later, he had to make an inch of begging Jin?Uris took a photo with him, Kim?Of course Uris refused without hesitation.

In the end he filmed him and Kim?Uris' shadow and their footprints side by side.

Qi Ming paused, and was about to go inside, Jin?Yuris hugged him from behind and said, "Let's go for a walk together."

Qi Ming was startled, and replied: "That's fine, anyway, it's nothing."

Qi Ming lags behind gold?Uris took half a step, and walked forward along the path with him step by step.

The trail ahead looked as if it had no end.

Qi Ming hid his hands in his pockets, quiet and obedient as usual.

gold?Uris suddenly said, "People are highly egoistic creatures, right?"

Qi Ming didn't quite understand: "You mean selfish?"

gold?Uris said: "Yes, that can be said. Even the way people deal with memory is selfish. They will beautify everything they do, and selectively forget some unbearable things, so that they can live with peace of mind."

Qi Ming said, "It's really rare that you are interested in analyzing human nature."

gold?Uris stopped, turned around and looked at Qi Ming quietly.He said: "—like me, I always make excuses for myself."

Qi Ming said, "It's human nature."

A snowflake fell on Qi Ming's slightly raised forehead.

gold?Yuris lowered his head and kissed it, it was a little cold, and after the cold was the warmth of the lips touching the skin.

gold?Uris kissed Qi Ming lightly along the bridge of his nose, as if he was afraid that the person in his arms would disappear if he exerted a little force.

Qi Ming trembled slightly.

He remembered that he seemed to have begged for gold?It doesn't matter if Uris gives such a kiss, it's not a real entanglement, as long as it's a little more intimate.

This is what he wanted, what is he dissatisfied with - what else is he dissatisfied with.

Qi Ming felt warmth on his face.

gold?Uris hugged him tightly, his voice hoarse: "...Don't cry, Qi Ming, don't cry, I'm sorry, don't cry, Qi Ming..."

Qi Ming said, "...I didn't cry."

gold?Uris picked him up and took him back to the manor.

Kim in bed at night?Uris held him in his arms, did nothing but hugged him quietly.

Just when Qi Ming was about to fall asleep, Jin?Uris suddenly said: "I love you..."

Qi Ming closed his eyes drowsily.

When they woke up in the morning, neither of them mentioned that sentence last night, as if it had never existed.

But before going to bed at night, when Qi Ming was still sleepy, those words rang in his ears again.

After a long time, Qi Ming gradually got used to Jin?Uris's words came as expected, just like good night.

He thought it must be gold?Uris' trap, Jin after he gets used to it?Uris stopped talking suddenly, he must be very disappointed.

This is not a question of love or not, it is a human nature - it is always difficult to accept once the things you are used to are gone.

Qi Ming warned himself that he must not be fooled.

Qi Ming had another good night's sleep that night.

A night without dreams.