The Melancholy of a Third-Rate Writer

Feng Er thought he could do what he said.

In the end, he still felt tired from Xiao Xiao's unchanging indifference.

Feng Er knew that his sister and "brother-in-law" were contributing to the marriage contract between him and Xiao Xiao, and this was always a thorn in Feng Er's heart.

Xiao Xiao went home alone for the New Year, he was worried and chased after him.

Xiao Xiao didn't express anything about his arrival.

If it hadn't been broken by him accidentally, he wouldn't even know that Xiao Xiao's "brother-in-law" is still pestering Xiao Xiao.

Xiao Xiao listened to the other party's ugly overtures with cold eyes, and watched his "sister" come to fight, without any intention of fighting back.

Feng Er felt angry.

He chased those two guys away, but he was helpless in the face of Xiao Xiao who didn't want to let go of his guard at all.

Feng Er felt that he was nosy.

He left, he was afraid that if he stayed any longer, he would quarrel with Xiao Xiao.

He didn't want to destroy the slightest bit of affection that had been cultivated between them with great difficulty.

He even began to wonder if his own flattery was as disgusting as that "brother-in-law" in Xiao Xiao's eyes.

The longer you leave, the more uneasy you feel.

Feng Er endured it for many days, and finally couldn't bear it and flew to the city where Xiao Xiao was.

Xiao Xiao was a little surprised when he saw him come back, but his attitude didn't change much, he was still far away and then close again, no different from when he was facing his "brother-in-law".

Feng Er repeatedly looked at some photos from the investigation like masochistic.

The more I look at it, the more I feel that that "brother-in-law" is better than him, at least that "brother-in-law" has had Xiao Xiao's truest feelings, the most innocent youth.And he has nothing, he has grasped nothing.

Feng Er tried to cheer himself up.

He inquired about Xiao Xiao's whereabouts, but saw a scene that made his heart almost burst.

Xiao Xiao took the initiative to hug someone and kissed him.

The kiss he couldn't get no matter how much he begged, Xiao Xiao just gave it to others.

Feng Er was discouraged.

For the first time he wanted to let go.

If his existence is like his "brother-in-law" to Xiao Xiao, then what's the point of him continuing to pester him?

When Feng Er returned home, he told his elder brother that he could dissolve the engagement with Xiao's family.

He returned to his residence in a daze, but saw Xiao Xiao standing there.

Xiao Xiao held a cigarette in his hand, but he didn't bring it to his mouth.

Xiao Xiao was caged in the darkness, like an unreal afterimage.

Feng Er could figure out what he would hear from Xiao Xiao's mouth. He might hear "I'm sorry" or "I didn't know you would come".

In fact, what right does he have to control who Xiao Xiao kisses?

Feng Er made up his mind to drive Xiao Xiao away.

Xiao Xiao left an apology and went downstairs without looking back.

Obviously he was the one who chased him away, but he quickly ran to the balcony and stared directly at the downstairs.

His letting go is really a relief for Xiao Xiao, right?

Go so simply...

Unexpectedly, as soon as Xiao Xiao appeared in his field of vision, he bumped into a friend.Xiao Xiao chatted happily with that person for a while, and seemed to be going home with that person.

The last string in Feng Er's brain snapped.

Feng Er called Xiao Xiao to go upstairs.

As soon as Xiao Xiao appeared, he pressed Xiao Xiao against the entrance, showing his intention very clearly.

He wants to get Xiao Xiao, even if he can only get this body, he still wants to get Xiao Xiao.

at least, at least once...

He can't keep anything but go crazy!

Feng Er forced Xiao Xiao to submit to him.

The bed skills he knows are only those Xiao Xiao taught him, but he doesn't want to use them at all.He possessed Xiao Xiao so recklessly, trying to leave his mark on Xiao Xiao.

Even just a little.

When Feng Er woke up from his lust, Xiao Xiao had already passed out.

Feng Er felt that his crime was unforgivable.

He couldn't face Xiao Xiao whose lower body was being tossed into a mess by himself, so he ran out in a panic, and stood with his back against the door of his house for a whole night.

He should have known that too much love would drive him crazy.

He should have known that if he wanted too much, sooner or later he would not be able to bear Xiao Xiao's non-response.

Until the sky was bright, Feng Er didn't have the courage to open the door of his house.

He straightened his collar and went straight to work.

But one morning he did nothing.

As soon as it was time to get off work, he rushed back immediately.

He was expecting and afraid at the same time. What he expected was that Xiao Xiao might forgive him, but what he feared was that when he opened the door, Xiao Xiao would no longer be there.

Feng Er took out the key, but dared not insert it into the keyhole for a long time.

Xiao Xiao's voice suddenly came from inside: "...Come and pick me up..."

Feng Er hurriedly opened the door.

Xiao Xiao is sitting on his sofa.

Who did Xiao Xiao call to pick him up?

Is Xiao Xiao showing off his might to him?

Feng Er stood motionless at the same spot, unable to take a step forward, and unable to say a word.

Instead, Xiao Xiao took the initiative to smile and said to him: "I asked Lu Xiaohua to pick me up, don't worry, I will leave later."

Lu Xiaohua is Xiao Xiao's apprentice named Xiaolu Luanchuang, and also the other half of his friend Xue Siqi.

Feng Er is still uncomfortable.

Feng Er realized that he was even jealous of Lu Xiaohua.

Just as Feng Er was about to speak, he suddenly noticed that Xiao Xiao's face was unusually pale.For a person like Xiao Xiao, how could someone else pick him up when he travels?

There is only one possibility, Xiao Xiao can't leave by himself.

Xiao Xiao couldn't leave.

Because of illness.

Feng Er took a sudden step forward, reaching out to check Xiao Xiao's body temperature.

It was horribly hot.

Feng Er felt his heart was torn apart again.

This was the person he wanted to love with all his heart, but all he gave him was persecution and harm.

What face does he have to say "as long as I love you".

Feng Er carried Xiao Xiao to the hospital without saying a word.

Unexpectedly, the doctor asked Xiao Xiao, "Are you injured?"

Feng Er looked at Xiao Xiao in disbelief.

Xiao Xiao didn't say a word.

Feng Er remembered that he did not take off Xiao Xiao's shirt last night.

He threatened Xiao Xiao to take off his clothes if he didn't tell the truth.

Only then did Xiao Xiao confess: "It's a whip wound, someone has already dealt with it, so it doesn't matter."

Feng Er stood still.

Whiplash?Who can whip Xiao Xiao?Who can keep Xiao Xiao silent?What happened to Xiao Xiao?Why did Xiao Xiao kiss others?

he does not know.

He doesn't know anything.

Xiao Xiao would never ask him about him, nor would he tell him about himself.

Feng Er cried out in embarrassment.

After crying, he turned around and left the ward, calling Lu Xiaohua over to take care of Xiao Xiao.

Xiao Xiao doesn't need him.

Never needed.

Xiao Xiao never thought of being with him.

Never thought about it.

Feng Er lived a peaceful life, going to and from get off work every day, as if he had never met Xiao Xiao before.

The feeling of running out of the car and chasing after seeing the other person's back on the road seems to have disappeared overnight.

The second cover is busier than ever.

When someone proposed to hold an author meeting, he paused and nodded in agreement.

Unexpectedly, upon arriving, he saw Xiao Xiao talking and laughing happily with others.

Xiao Xiao's body has already recovered, and the smile on his face is the same as usual. What happened not long ago seems to have left no trace in his heart.

The feeling of being so fanatical that he was about to burn his whole heart broke in Feng Er's heart in an instant.

Such a person can't be obtained, can't be forgotten, and always hangs over his heart.

Feng Er had a thought that even he himself thought was terrifying.

He's going to try again, try again anyway.

If even he didn't dare to try again, then no one would really care about everything between them.

Feng Er asked someone to go to the meeting for him, and ordered someone to knock Xiao Xiao unconscious and take him away from the back door.

He brought Xiao Xiao to the Feng family's other business.

He used to live in this villa for a long time. At that time, he was sent to be with his grandfather. He just felt that other people didn't want him anymore, so he often fought against his grandfather.Sometimes people's feelings are so strange. After arguing and arguing, the relationship between him and grandpa suddenly became better.

The old and the young don't care about not being accompanied by others. He took his grandfather to catch fish and shrimps, and his grandfather took him to study and play chess. They lived happily.

Unexpectedly, soon after, grandpa's eyes gradually disappeared.

Grandpa's temper began to become very irritable, he spoke ill of him, and insisted on driving him away.

He didn't want to, hugged his grandfather and said, "I'll be your eyes."

He was very dissatisfied with what his grandfather said, "I am a waste that cannot be seen by the eyes", so he found a piece of cloth to cover his own eyes, and after several days of groping, he finally moved freely in the whole villa.

He said to his grandfather, "Look! It's not a problem if you think of a way! You just won't learn!"

Grandpa sighed and said, "Stupid thing." But he didn't drive him away again.

He stayed with his grandfather until his death.

After his grandfather passed away, he stayed here and refused to leave. The elder brothers and the others were terribly worried, but they tried their best but couldn't pull him out of the shadows, so they had to forcefully bring him home.

He has kept himself closed.

Until he met Xiaoao Tianxia.

This is where his most important memories are buried.

He wanted to fight for Xiao Xiao again here.

After Xiao Xiao woke up, he begged softly, but Xiao Xiao finally nodded.

He tied Xiao Xiao's eyes, and his own, and "fighted" in the darkness.

He didn't actually think of a way.

He was always worried that Xiao Xiao would leave.

In the evening, Feng Er rubbed the medicine for Xiao Xiao, and there was a reaction after rubbing it.

Feng Er secretly scolded himself a "beast", Xiao Xiao's back was still hurt, what was he thinking?

He can only run into the bathroom to solve his "physiological needs" by himself.

When it came out, Xiao Xiao was gone.

No movement could be heard in the dark room.

Feng Er ran out in a panic.

He was afraid that Xiao Xiao would never return.

This is really the last time, the last chance Xiao Xiao gave him, the last chance he gave himself.

Feng Er's tears soaked the cloth covering his eyes.

He couldn't let Xiao Xiao go away.

In the end, he and Xiao Xiao bumped into each other.

The sound of glass shattering was extremely piercing in the dark.

He eagerly took a step forward, trying to grab Xiao Xiao, but felt pain in his feet.

It was the glass that went into the bottom of the foot.

It broke our hearts.

He heard Xiao Xiao's voice: "...I went to pour two glasses of milk."

His lips turned white from the pain, but he tried his best not to tremble: "I thought you were gone."

Xiao Xiao said, "Be careful of the glass."

What is glass, he thought.

He took a step forward, and after making sure there were no broken glass in front of him, he dragged Xiao Xiao to the bed, and said as he walked, "I'll call someone to clean it up tomorrow, let's go to bed."

Xiao Xiao has no objection.

After getting into bed, Feng Er carefully kept his injured foot away from Xiao Xiao, lest Xiao Xiao notice that it was bleeding all the time.

The piercing pain has been tormenting him.

But he doesn't care.

He felt that Xiao Xiao's attitude was loosening.

As long as he can be with Xiao Xiao, a little injury is nothing.

Feng Er gritted his teeth and endured.

Unexpectedly, Xiao Xiao sat up suddenly.

Feng Er's expression changed.

Xiao Xiao said firmly, "Did you step on the glass just now?"

Feng Er tried to calm down: "...No."

Xiao Xiao directly grabbed his injured foot.

Blood on one hand.

Feng Er clenched his fists.

He put all his eggs in one basket this time, and if he lost, he would have nothing.

A little injury... what is it?What kind of?What kind of!

Feng Er reached out and grabbed Xiao Xiao's hand tightly. He was afraid, afraid that Xiao Xiao would leave in anger.

Xiao Xiao seemed to sense that he was trembling, so he didn't break free.

Feng Er felt something warm touch his forehead lightly.

Those lips were obviously warm and soft, but the moment they kissed them, they seemed to be burning in his heart.

This time, he didn't lose again.