Hard to change

"Hope, have you thought about it? Although I've always wanted you to go, but your current state... I'm still a little worried about you." Han Fei extinguished the cigarette in his hand after speaking, and looked at him worriedly.

"Brother..." Yu hoped his eyes were dull, and he moved his mouth slightly, "I will go."

Just now, Han Fei had submitted Yu Hope's name, and as soon as the results came out, he would receive the news and then directly buy a plane ticket to France.

"Actually... I think if you talk to him face to face, maybe there is a misunderstanding?"

"He's been lying to me...I don't want to see him."

I am afraid that I will soften my heart when I see you, and I am afraid that I will be reluctant to bear it when I see you.

Yu hoped that in the end, this opportunity, which he had been rejecting all along, would actually become the only reason for him to escape from here without looking so ugly.

But he wanted to leave, not because he really thought that he had meddled in other people's feelings.

He just feels tired.

Thinking that if he stayed, he would probably have to face all kinds of stalking and explanations from Qin Xiu, and he felt very tired.

In fact, things have developed to the present, and it is useless to explain anything.

Because Qin Xiu didn't understand at all, what really disappointed Yu Hope was not Tong Yan but his fiancée.

It was the fact that he had a fiancée, and Yu Xiongwang knew about it under such circumstances.

After a few years, he actually only now knows such absurd things.

He was suddenly a little glad that he hadn't succeeded in proposing.

Otherwise, if he knows about this kind of thing after he succeeds, then he will be more like a joke.

So even now, he still can't understand why Qin Xiu lied, why he didn't tell him these things when we first got together, why he still had to choose this way even though he knew he hated being cheated.

In the final analysis, maybe I still don’t like it enough or care enough.

In the past few years, he has been trying his best to keep a distance from those who have a good impression of him. In the same few years, there are countless opportunities, but Qin Xiu is not even willing to tell him the truth.

In fact, he told Qin Xiu very early on that if you still make some decisions that you know are wrong, you must have the courage to bear the consequences of this wrong decision.

So since Qin Xiu knew it from the beginning, he should bear the consequences after cheating him again and again.

The price is not much, just break up.

"You should have rushed in and beat him up, it would be too cheap for that kid to just leave." Han Fei said angrily.

Yu hoped to shake his head. In that situation, even if he rushed in, so what.

After all, Tong Yan is a legitimate fiancee, what about him, what is he, has he been an underground lover for several years?

And maybe others don't understand, but now he really doesn't feel anything except tired.

The anger, embarrassment, and pain at the beginning have all disappeared after calming down now.

He simply felt tired, and thought of a place without Qin Xiu, so that his tired and broken heart could heal itself.

Yu hoped that he still trusted Han Fei in his heart, that's why he told Han Fei everything about him and Qin Xiu after his emotions stabilized.

At first Han Fei was also surprised that the person he liked was a man, but only for a moment.

But there is no doubt that Han Fei played the role of the listener very well at this time, and Yu hoped that besides gratitude, there was only emotion left in his heart.

Of course, there is another reason why he told Han Fei this, that is, he hoped that after he left, he would not tell anyone the school he chose for this study.

He didn't want Qin Xiu to know, and he didn't want Qin Xiu to find him.

Although Yu hopes to fall in love for the first time, he firmly believes that he is a person who can afford and let go of feelings.

So once he decides to break up, he will never look back.

And Qin Xiu should be able to understand, it's not that he didn't give him a chance, it's that he didn't cherish it, and he didn't take it seriously.

When the phone rang, Yu Hope's first reaction was that he didn't want to answer it, but if he didn't answer it, Qin Xiu might come to him directly, so he hesitated for a long time, but still answered it.

"Hope, where is it? Didn't you say you're going to give me a surprise today? I've been waiting all morning." Qin Xiu's voice sounded expectant on the phone.

Yu hoped that he would be calm and strong, but he couldn't help but turn red just by hearing Qin Xiu's familiar voice.

"Why don't you talk, Hope? Are you listening?"

"Hmm..." Yu hoped to take a deep breath and said with difficulty, "I'm listening."

Why is it so painful, my throat hurts, my ears hurt, my eyes hurt...why my whole body hurts.

"But today may not work," Qin Xiu's voice suddenly sounded very depressed, "My father asked someone to arrest me and said that he would lock me up at home for a week of self-reflection. Hope, I miss you so much, so much Know what surprises are."

Everything was so coincidental, Yu hoped to feel as if the heavens were helping him and wanting him to go, that's why Qin Xiu was trapped at this time.

He lowered his head and shed tears, "Wait, wait until you come back...you will know." For a simple sentence, Yu hoped to take several deep breaths before finishing it.

Fortunately, Qin Xiu didn't realize that his tone was wrong, and he continued: "When I'm not here, you should lock the door when you are alone at home. Remember to keep a night light for yourself at night and eat well. If I find out when I come back, You will be punished if you hug lightly. Also, the most important point is to stay away from that so-and-so. Of course, don’t miss me too much. I will try my best to go back as soon as possible. Without you at night, I can only hug the pillow , wife, I miss you."

"Well, I see." Yu Hope's hands trembled violently.

Qin Xiu seemed a little disappointed with his answer, "That's it, I won't say a few nice words."

"Stop arguing with your father..."

As soon as this was mentioned, Qin Xiu was a little perfunctory immediately, and agreed a few words casually.

After hanging up the phone, Yu Hope didn't look up for a long time.

Until Han Fei answered the phone, saying that his application had been approved, and the departure time would be three days later.

At the moment when he heard Qin Xiu's voice just now, Yu hoped to finally know what it means to be "the word strong can only be used to comfort oneself sometimes".

In fact, it turned out that he was not strong at all.

He misses Qin Xiu, he hates Qin Xiu, but he just...can't like Qin Xiu any more...

Yu hoped to simply pack up his things in three days, and went back home by the way.

But he only told his parents that he was going to study abroad for three years, but he didn't say where to study, and asked them to call Han Fei to find him if something happened.

Although both Chen Yan and Yu Xinghua were reluctant to let him go for such a long time, listening to his explanation was a rare learning opportunity. Although they were reluctant to part with their son, they still let him rest assured.

The day Yu hoped to leave home, he hugged Chen Yan and his eyes were red. Although he held back his tears in the end, Chen Yan had already begun to wipe away his tears.

He has never been abroad since he grew up. Although he is good at foreign languages, he is unfamiliar with France after all. The couple are worried that he will not be able to eat well, sleep well, and that he will not be able to adapt. What danger.

Yu hoped to feel deeply guilty towards his parents, and he knew he was being selfish.

Because I didn't want to face Qin Xiu, I chose to escape, and now I have to go to such a far place to make my parents worry.

But he couldn't help it, he had to leave for some time to forget about Qin Xiu and those things.

He hoped that the day he came back, everything would start all over again.

After thinking about leaving for a long time, he decided to tell Dou Nannan.

After all, he has been such a best friend since he was a child, and since he even told Han Fei, there is no reason not to tell Dou Nannan.

Otherwise, if that silly little curly-haired man knows that he just left without a word, he might think wildly and feel sad.

So the day before leaving, Yu hoped to go to Dou Nannan's house.

He didn't tell what happened that day, he only said that he and Qin Xiu were not suitable, so they broke up.

Although Dou Nannan didn't believe it at first, after Yu hoped to tell him about Qin Xiu's shortcomings, he immediately felt righteous indignation that it was right for them to break up.

And kept asking whether Yu Hope's hand was injured by Qin Xiu's domestic violence...

Dou Nannan is really silly sometimes, but this time for some reason, seeing Yu Xixiu coming to him and calmly telling him about his breakup with Qin Xiu, although he said that they got along well, but at night he saw Yu wished to sit alone on the sofa in a daze, but couldn't help but went over and hugged him tightly.

"Hope, you cry, I know you are very sad."

"I'm fine," Yu hoped to smile, "Really, I'm not sad."

"Just pretend you don't want me. Don't pretend to be strong in front of me, so I feel more distressed, you know?" Dou Nannan looked at him aggrievedly, with tears in her eyes.

Yu hoped he couldn't help laughing, but tears fell in the next second.

He hugged Dou Nannan, closed his eyes and said with a smile: "Look at you, the two big men who insisted on making me cry here."

"Hope, I can't bear you..." Dou Nannan cried.

Yu Xiwang didn't dare to open his eyes, just hugged him like that, smelled the faint fragrance of his body, and felt very lucky.

He comforted himself in his heart that although he was broken in love, he still had his friends and parents who loved him the most, so he was actually very happy.

"Hope, will you be lonely when you go there? I'll let my dad send me to accompany you, okay? I don't want you to go alone." Dou Nannan cried so hard that she couldn't speak.

"Nan Nan, we are all adults now. Adults will get used to being alone, and I can meet foreign friends when I go." Yu hoped to comfort him by stroking his back.

Dou Nannan cried even harder, and said intermittently: "Then you can't sleep with him, and you can't eat the same ice cream with him... There are many... many things we do together, you, you can't do with new friends... …OK?"

"Okay," Yu Hope's nose started to sore again, he endured it, "I promise you, those things are only done with you, when I come back..."

"I will miss you so much."

"Me too."