nib boy

When running 3000 meters, Fir Shan didn't even feel a little bit.

That's not to say how good he is or how athletic he is—it's that his soul isn't on the track at all.

The chaotic machinery moved its legs, and the dusty memories of the past turned over in his mind page by page, and the numb heart finally felt a dull pain like a saw from the depths.

——Xiaoshan, why do people have hearts?

——…Probably there is something to bury, and there is something to love.

Sometimes Leng Shan very much wishes that she is as emotionless and cold-blooded as other people seem to be, because that is much easier.

Someone once said that time makes people forget the pain, but he never felt it.Time can only make people get used to the pain.

"Are you used to it?..." Leng Shan often questioned herself in her heart.Although the answer was always "yes," in the end his heart would always sharply pierce the lame lie.

In a trance, the frivolous years that passed away in a hurry were like a big dream. When I woke up from the dream, nothing remained.

At the starting point, there is a faint light in the distance.When he turned around, the sun was shining brightly, making it difficult to see the way he had come.

Before Leng Shan's eyes vaguely appeared the shy and youthful smiling face when he first met the boy, and the expression of lowering his eyes and softly plucking the guitar strings softly and vividly.That is something that he can no longer grasp or keep, similar to the blurred reflection of happiness.

In the long river of time, the saddest fate is not parting.

But when I saw him again, it was already at the end of time.

Bai Yuze was stunned all the way, and Ren Xiezhen carried himself into the infirmary, which was completely weak, and was then ordered by the school doctor who was disturbed by his dream to put him down on the bed that was almost as pale as his face and forced to rest.

Apart from them, there were no other students in the room. Bai Yuze lay there in a state of mind wandering all the time, but he could hear the aftermath of the crowd cheering and cheering outside the window, making the atmosphere in the room more and more deserted.After the school doctor settled them down, he fell asleep again, not knowing what he did all night last night.

Xie Zhe went to the water dispenser in the corner of the room and poured him a cup of hot water, then rubbed his sweaty head. "Get up and drink some water."

Ren Xiezhen helped his upper body up, Bai Yuze took the cup and drank it expressionlessly, until there was no more drop left, then he lowered his head and held the empty paper cup tightly in his hand, and did not speak for a long time.The right leg, which was still so painful just now, seemed to be slowly recovering, and the pain from the needle prick gradually disappeared in the silent silence between the two.

"Xiaobai..." Xie Zhe called him worriedly, feeling uneasy.

Bai Yuze just lowered his eyes and laughed silently, his tone was not choked up, but Xie Zhe's chest was extremely congested when he heard it. "Xie Zhe... I seem to have done something stupid again."

Xie Zhe actually wished that he didn't know what Bai Yuze was referring to, but besides pretending not to know, he had no other way to cover up the heavy sense of powerlessness that surged up his limbs.

So he forced himself into a bright smile, "Why, what kind of trouble did you provoke? Don't worry, I can settle everything for you in less than a minute, sir."

"I..." Bai Yuze didn't make jokes with him as usual and just slipped by. Instead, he paused for a long time before confessing in a low voice: "I think... I seem to like a man."

The forced smile on Xie Zhe's face froze instantly.

"But that's not the point... The point is, I was so stupid that I thought for a moment that he liked me too." The boy's side face with fine fur showed a little childish fragility, as fragile as glass.Although Xie Zhe couldn't see his eyes clearly, he could probably understand the hesitation and retreat in his heart at this moment.

"Maybe I'm crazy...but that's how I felt at that time. I thought I finally had a glimmer of hope, but...it's so embarrassing. Heh...it turns out that I was just being sentimental." Bai Yuze laughed again, this time But he couldn't hold back his nose anymore, his voice was a little hoarse. "Fuck. Let me just say... how can such an outstanding person like me."

It wasn't until Bai Yuze calmed down a little that he noticed Xie Zhe's extremely unusual silence the whole time.He finally raised his head slowly to look at Xie Zhe, just in time to see the young man staring at him with deep eyes that were completely different from his usual one, his thin lips were tightly pursed, showing no emotion.

Suddenly realizing what he had said just now, Bai Yuze was startled, and fine cold sweat immediately oozed from his back.

Damn, what a fucking idiot! ...Even if you are the strongest brother, you can't just say that you are gay, right? !How will Xie Zhe see himself in the future?Will their relationship...

But before Bai Yuze thought deeply, Xie Zhe's hand quickly and forcefully grabbed his shoulder, pressed him back on the bed with a little pressure, and then approached him leisurely, with a low voice. "...Why, you accidentally leaked your secret to me, do you regret it?"

"Thank you..." Bai Yuze was a little flustered, the distance between the two of them was so close that their faces were almost pressed together.Subconsciously, he wanted to kick him, but Xie Zhe pressed him firmly as if he had expected it a long time ago, and there was a flustering heat from the bottom of his eyes.

"If you feel regretful, then I'll tell you a secret too." The young man said while lowering his head and grabbing his neckline, and tore apart Bai Yuze's buttoned clothes one by one along his extended chest line. The curvature of the lips followed evilly.

"...I, I've been gay since my womb. But this news shouldn't be too bad for you. Do you know what's worse?" He smiled gently, raised his hand and pressed Bai Yuze unconsciously The wrist that falls to the side of the face.

"...worse, I'm the one on top."

Fuck!It was as if a thunderbolt was hitting Bai Yuze's celestial cap, his mind went blank for a moment, and he was so shocked that he forgot to struggle.How could Xie Zhe let go of such a good opportunity and simply throw away all the patience he had hoarded for a long time, and when he was about to make a complete set on the spot, the door of the infirmary was kicked open with a loud bang.

Zhengxiang's school doctor, who was sleeping by the table, sat up straight with lightning speed, turned her head and stared at the source of the sound in horror and bewilderment.I saw the two tall and thin teenagers standing outside the corridor with extremely calm expressions, and walked into the house without any shame, without even looking at her.

After turning around the blind spot of vision, Yao Lu, who was in the lead, immediately spotted the two entangled limbs on the bed, his eyes immediately began to emit a fan-shaped green light like a searchlight, and his face was gloomy and fierce. "You two... so courageous!!"

Xie Zhe was astonished, and his subordinates gave up their strength for a while, and Bai Yuze, who had just recovered from his shock, took the opportunity to kick him desperately, trying to kick him in the crotch.Xie Zhe hadn't let out a miserable "嗤" when Yao Lu's claws came out behind him, throwing him to the ground mercilessly and beating him furiously.

"Aww! Dead ladyboy, where are you grabbing your mother's hand... Aw! Stop it! Stop it, or I will have no sons and grandchildren!!...I think that was really a misunderstanding! We were just joking around... !! The hero, spare your life QAQ”

After recovering from the huge shock, the school doctor held back her anger and stood up to stop the scuffle, but a tall figure stood in front of her in time.Ning Ziyue kindly (?) tapped her shoulder to make her sit down again, and said with a slight smile, "Sorry to bother you. I heard that our friend was not feeling well after running, so we came to see him. Just now The whole prison has been taken care of by the teacher."

The school doctor immediately felt at ease when he heard the words, and unconsciously put a smile on the corner of his mouth, and responded gently with a loving gesture: "It's all right, it's all right. The child is fine, maybe a little dehydrated. Go back and have a good rest." Just do it."

Ning Ziyue nodded slightly, still with a calm and polite look: "Okay, thank you teacher." Standing up and turning around, Xie Zhe saw that he was almost cleaned up, and he collapsed on the ground, breathing out and not breathing in. .

Yao Lu pinched her waist beside her with unsatisfactory expression on her face, her expression was ferocious and ghostly. "How dare you steal from me outside! The one who stole it is actually my man, just wait to be dripped with wax at night."

Sighing helplessly, Ning Ziyue walked to the bed and helped Bai Yuze, who was still in shock, "Go back when it's almost time. Don't be ashamed of you two here, you should save some energy for the night's work."

"Hmph." Only then did Yao Lu turn around disdainfully, grabbed someone by the collar and dragged him out, still muttering coldly: "I'll cry until I'll do it to you tonight!" Xie Zhe's face was ashen , I didn't even have the strength to resist aloud, so I just let it toss.

Bai Yuze and Ning Ziyue were left several steps behind by them in the corridor. Ning Ziyue was afraid that he would get tired if he walked too fast, so he slowed down on purpose.And Bai Yuze, whose brain finally started working again, struggled for a long time along the way, and finally lowered his voice as much as possible and asked the people beside him: "Well... How was the 3000 meters just now?"

Ning Ziyue gave a shallow smile, and his well-defined side face was stained with a rare softness. "...Sure."

"Congratulations." Bai Yuze also laughed, but the hanging piece in his heart still hasn't landed.Although it's a bit embarrassing, what he wants to ask is actually not...

"Your class ran second." Ning Ziyue's next sentence made him stagnate, and Bai Yuze looked up at him stupidly. "...That man was quite powerful, and he almost caught up. But I saw that he seemed to be out of shape, and left alone without saying anything after running."

Bai Yuze lowered his head silently again, without saying a word.

Sure enough...it was the same as last time.Even if you feel sorry in your heart, you still refuse to take the initiative to come to see me and explain. ...Speaking of which, what the hell am I still looking forward to?There must be a limit to self-indulgent sentimentality!Cheer me up! ...

When his thoughts were in a fierce battle, Xie Zhe suddenly turned his head and shouted at him sullenly: "Hey, Xiaobai... I was just kidding with you just now. I heard you say... those things, I think you must It was meant to tease me, so I couldn't hold back...don't leave any psychological shadow behind."

"...Cut, you think I'm a bitch, so fragile." Bai Yuze pretended to be contemptuous, because he didn't take his words seriously and he was really relieved.However, he still cared a little bit about Xie Zhe's slightly presumptuous behavior later on.So after two seconds, he asked tentatively again: "So... your sexual orientation is okay?"

Xie Zhe was speechless for a moment, turned around and said perfunctorily: "Of course. I already have a girl in my heart that I want to chase."

"Eh?" Bai Yuze suddenly became interested, and he asked out of curiosity, "Who is it? Is it from our class?"

"Pfft!" Yao Lu couldn't help but burst out laughing, "Isn't it? When did your old man straighten himself up with your strong willpower? Tell us who that unlucky girl is."

"That's it."

Xie Zhe was talking nonsense at first, but he didn't expect Bai Yuze to be serious, let alone the current situation would become difficult, so he was a little confused. "Ah... that... that's who, you know it too."

While procrastinating for time, he thought hard about which girls he had been in contact with recently so that he could drag one over randomly, but unfortunately, he couldn't think of it for the time being.

"Who the hell is it? Did you describe it to others like this?" Bai Yuze became more and more suspicious of the authenticity of his words, and asked with a frown.

"It's that... that..." Xie Zhe, who was desperately searching for his memory, rewinded halfway and suddenly got stuck in an unknown year and month. Suddenly, he suddenly understood, and raised his hand proudly. "...that friend you met in the literature club, Chen Ye!"

"What?!" Bai Yuze was startled, and even stuttered. "But, but you... have only met once, right?"

Yao Lu struggled to suppress a smile, "It's still love at first sight if you dare to love. The young man has a bright future——"

"What's wrong with love at first sight? Don't look down on people. How many girls kneel down and beg me to 'see' are not so lucky."

"You are indeed cheap enough, please restrain yourself a little bit."

Bai Yuze still looked puzzled, because according to his memory, Xie Zhe's attitude towards Chen Ye last time could be described as rude and indifferent, no matter how you look at it, it was not a normal reaction of love at first sight.

Could it be that this kid just wants to play the card of surprise and win, and play hard to get? ... I don't understand.

But it seems that I really blamed him wrong.That's right, homosexuality, the probability of meeting people in the crowd is like winning the lottery, so it's so easy to happen to be around.

And that person... probably even more impossible.

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As the sun was setting, the annual autumn sports meeting in Z Middle School also came to an end in everyone's last phalanx like frost beating eggplants.

It doesn't matter whether they win or lose, and now the only thing that can stir their chests is the fact that they have a good night with their friends after returning to the dormitory.

The study life in high school is actually very stressful, especially in boarding schools.This group of children usually bury themselves in their books and have no fun at all. After finally catching such an opportunity to be upright and indulgent at the sports meeting, they will naturally not miss it easily.

Class [-] got the third overall score today, which is pretty good. As soon as Yuhuan announced the disbandment of the class, a group of boys kept clamoring to climb the wall and go out to eat class meals. The class leader hesitated for a long time and couldn't make up her mind. Called Yuhuan who had already returned home to ask for instructions.In order to show her innocence and neutrality, the squad leader frankly pressed the speakerphone, and everyone rushed forward and surrounded her.

The bell was connected before it rang twice, and Yuhuan calmly listened to her series of reasonable and tear-jerking persuasion, and only flew out two light words "Go", which immediately ignited bursts of excitement among the surrounding students. Cheers, everyone's eyes are shining brightly.

The children chattered to express their deep gratitude to the open-minded head teacher on the other side of the microphone, and Yuhuan occasionally interjected to tell them not to cause trouble, and finally said very straightforwardly before hanging up. : "Don't jump over the wall, it's too dangerous. I'll get through to the guard." The students in Class [-] almost knelt down in front of the phone on the playground after hearing this.

"Oh my God, if our old class son didn't know how to fuck her, I would definitely marry her!" Xie Zhe sighed with tears in his eyes while pretending to be very natural and circled Bai Yuze's waist beside him, while Bai Yuze shook his head calmly. The salty pig's hand that drove him turned around and prepared to leave.

"Hey? Hey?? Where are you going, lady? Are you going out with everyone?" Xie Zhe chased after him in surprise and asked.

Bai Yuze made a tired expression, "I'm not going... I want to go back and have a rest. If you want to go, tell them for me."

"Don't tell me! Our class can take the third place, your devastating one thousand and five is really indispensable..." In the middle of talking, Xie Zhe realized that his face was really not right, so he suppressed his smile and helped him, " Really uncomfortable? Then I will go back with you. "

"No need." Bai Yuze shied away perfunctorily, smiling forcedly. "I just want to be alone for a while... Don't worry about me, just go crazy with them. I'll be fine tomorrow after I sleep."

The fact is that as early as when Yuhuan announced its dissolution, Bai Yuze saw Leng Shan leave alone without saying a word.Without that person, no matter how lively the celebration banquet was, he would not be interested.What's more, today they still...

With difficulty, Bai Yuze temporarily dispelled the shadow of that person from his mind, and felt a dull pain in his right leg again. I don't know if it was a psychological effect.However, Xie Zhe resolutely insisted on going back with him, and Bai Yuze didn't refuse any more.

When they returned to the dormitory, the two saw Yao Lu was taking off her school uniform and put on a floral shirt. After thinking about it, she put on a beige coat outside. When they looked up and saw them circling with their hips akimbo, they raised their eyebrows and asked arrogantly. :"how?"

"Don't ask, the gentlemen downstairs are waiting impatiently. Mom, I really can't bear to let go of this stunning beauty." Xie Zhe smiled strangely and stepped forward like a wretched old bustard, pinching Yao Lu's waist, Immediately, he regained his seriousness: "Leniency for the confession! Where are you going to seduce someone?"

Yao Lu snorted, wrapped the long scarf around her neck casually, turned her back to him and said, "Go to the bar and find an old acquaintance."

"It's an old lover, right?" Xie Zhe sat down on the bed in a strange way, crossing his legs.

Yao Lubai glanced at him, and said lazily along the way: "Yes, yes, yes! You are indeed 'old' enough. You were not sure where you were playing when we met." Taking 200 yuan casually, he grabbed The mobile phone on the table looked up and asked: "Why did you two come back so early? I can hear your class showing off your strength and wanting to go out to celebrate from far away on the playground."

As soon as Bai Yuze entered the door, he quickly climbed onto the bed, hugged the quilt and said, "I didn't feel very comfortable, so I slipped away."

"Let's talk," Xie Zhe went to the table and poured him a cup of hot water, and poured it over very faithfully. "Why isn't Lao Ning here? Will he also be a lover?"

Yao Lu pursed her lips and smiled, her eyes were calm. "Well. You guessed it right this time."

"What?!" In an instant, both of them were shocked, and Bai Yuze even coughed from choking. "Really? He said that?"

"That's not true." He shrugged, and walked towards the door, "He just said that he had something to deal with...Anyway, I can only imagine that kind of thing—a date."

"Damn! It's unreasonable!" Xie Zhe covered his face sadly, wanting to cry without tears. "I'm obviously not bad in appearance, but I was left behind!"

"You don't have to think about counterattacks all day long. Wouldn't it be fun to have a few shots by yourself?" Yao Lu gave him the final blow and closed the door with a treacherous smile. "seeya—don't forget to drip wax at night—"

The room was silent for a moment, Bai Yuze stretched out his hand to smooth Xie Zhe's hair out of sympathy and comfort. "My condolences. If you're really lonely, it's okay if I give you Chen Ye's mobile phone number."

Xie Zhe finally learned how much bitterness is contained in the idiom "...QAQ".

After finding a place to have dinner at random, Yao Lu walked towards the shiny glass door of "Xun".

There were not many customers coming to the bar at this time, Gu Mingye was leaning against the door in a daze as usual, Yao Lu slammed the door carelessly and entered.

"Hello, how many..." In the middle of speaking, he stopped in a daze.

The whole body of the slender young man in front of him was shrouded in the bright and flickering lights of the front porch, his eyebrows and eyes were extremely delicate and beautiful, and there was a natural domineering look between his gazes, which was unforgettable.

Gu Mingye recognized Yao Lu at a glance.

It's not an illusion... This can't be an illusion, right? ?

Gu Mingye couldn't believe that the real master who had been thinking about him for half a month was standing in front of him.I thought it was just a chance meeting that day, and the two of them might not have the chance to meet again... It seems that God really didn't abandon him.

Yao Lu didn't think as much as he did. He didn't even notice that the waiter raised his leg and was about to run in, but he was stopped by Gu Mingye within a few steps. "That... this guest!"

Yao Lu heard it but pretended not to hear it, instead she quickened her pace impatiently.But how could Gu Mingye let go of this long-awaited opportunity, and when he was in a hurry, he rushed forward and grabbed Yao Lu's arm without hesitation.Yao Lu was startled, and suddenly turned her head to stare at him. "...Little brother, why don't you let go of me?"

Judging by his expression, he probably forgot that he had molested Gu Mingye before.Yao Lu frowned and looked him up and down with the alienation and vigilance of looking at a stranger, and after the two of them had been in a stalemate for 2 minutes, Yao Lu finally came to his senses and remembered a little.

He raised his other hand to lift Gu Mingye's chin like last time, with a flirtatious expression. "...Yo. Why is it you again, brother."

Gu Mingye felt his face become unbearably hot again, and the arm holding Yao Lu trembled slightly, but there was no sign of letting go.Yao Lu was not in a hurry, squinted at the sign on his chest, and then whispered in a long, lazy voice: "Gu...Ming...Ye."

"Why, you want to settle accounts with me for what happened last time?" Yao Lu looked at him with great interest.

Gu Mingye's face was flushed and he held back for a long time, but he didn't utter a word, he just shook his head slightly, biting his lips, hesitant to speak.Yao Lu sensed something was wrong, stared at his face suspiciously, feeling at a loss in his heart.

What is this man doing?Could it be that she planned to hold him back all her life and not let him go?The little thing last time was nothing to worry about, I just said some cruel words to scare him, and I just took advantage of this little brother because he looked good, and I didn't force him to sell himself.What kind of trouble is it to make the atmosphere so heavy and depressing.

Both sides were embarrassed, and the door behind them was pushed open again.The visitor stared at the strange scene in front of him for a moment, then slowly frowned, and said coldly: "...Hello."

The two looked sideways at the same time, but they also froze at the same time.

Before Gu Mingye could speak, he heard Yao Lu sneering in front of him in a voice that had cooled down to freezing point in an instant: "Oh, what a coincidence. Why, even you will come to this kind of place?"

There was a rare provocation in Fir Shan's black eyes, which had never been warm at all. "Oh. You can come, why can't I?"

Gu Mingye was a little dazed, looking at this and then that, it took a long time before he said cautiously: "Uh... that... do you know each other?"

Leng Shan and Yao Lu looked at each other, and the hostility that was on the verge of firing was ready to move in each other's eyes again, and they spoke in unison.

"...I don't know that kind of arrogant guy."

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