nib boy

In fact, dancing can be intoxicating.

Bai Yuze felt Fir Shan's warm palms slowly loosen his hand after the finale, Mimeng raised his eyes to look at him, only to feel that his whole body was hot as if he had been roasted by a fire, his throat was so dry that it was smoking, and his heart was beating. At this time, it was still like thunder hitting the chest.

The two danced one after another just now, as if they didn't know the end point and were tireless. Even though people stopped and looked at them with low smiles and discussions on the way, they still turned a blind eye and persisted until the end of the song.

...that's really bold and ostentatious.Bai Yuze didn't know what Leng Shan was thinking, whether he had any worries in his heart when he was holding himself lightly and spinning with a calm face - but he doubted that even if he had, he didn't care at all.

Why would he ask his gay self to dance?Why did you do such an outrageous and eye-catching behavior when you clearly wanted to keep your distance?Why did I disturb my calm heart just now?

Why, why are you so self-contradictory in what you say and do to me—what are you thinking about in your heart that is always filled with silent tides?

The party is over.

The students left in groups talking and laughing, while Bai Yuze staggered along behind Fir Shan, not daring to walk too fast because his head was dizzy.

Bai Yuze didn't want to admit that all this was because he was too cowardly, and he deluded himself and attributed it to the sequelae of being forced to turn dozens of times during the dance just now.

When he finally squeezed out the threshold of the gymnasium with blundering steps, he was immediately blown half awake by the knife-like cold wind outside, only then did he remember that that bastard Xie Zhe was still sleeping like a dead pig in the stands inside.

"Sister." He couldn't help cursing in a low voice, Bai Yuze thought that he might as well just leave and leave him here waiting to be reprimanded by the uncle who locked the door - there was no way, he still couldn't help it.

So he sighed helplessly and turned around to face the sparse crowd and squeezed inside again. When he returned to the door with Xie Zhe, who was sleepy, he was surprised to see Fir Shan still outside the gymnasium on the flower corridor leading to the teaching building. mouth that stood.It's just that there is another person's shadow in front of him, and the voice of conversation in the dark can be heard faintly.

Bai Yuze put aside the trapped ghost in his hand, and approached from the hiding place out of curiosity.

"What are you doing here?..." It was Leng Shan's usual indifferent and emotionless voice, but it seemed to have a hint of guard and deterrence.

"Yo, it looks like you're nervous. In such a cold day, I came to pick up my younger brother home. What's wrong?" Just by hearing the voice, Bai Yuze could imagine that man's appearance of smiling but not smiling. I shuddered.

Could this kind of person be Fir Shan's elder brother?Is the tone of such a professional villain for 20 years really a man?

"No need." Hearing that Fir Shan's tone turned cold a few degrees, there was obvious disgust in his words: "As long as I don't see you, I'll be fine."

The man laughed exaggeratedly, and Bai Yuze saw him stretch out a hand to caress Fir's face through the shadowy branches in front of his eyes. "You are so cruel. If you behave like this, I will be sad, brother."

Bai Yuze gasped almost at the same time Leng Shan punched the man mercilessly, because his intuition told him that the relationship between the two was definitely more than simple brothers.The tit-for-tat stalemate and weird ambiguity made him feel very uncomfortable as an outsider.

Jin Ke turned his head away quickly and looked around as if he heard something, and finally smiled and raised his voice in Bai Yuze's direction and shouted: "Hey, that one over there, don't hide. Let Isn't it too embarrassing for you to watch the show for so long without showing your face?"

His words successfully stopped Leng Shan's subsequent punch, Bai Yuze was already in a panic, but seeing Leng Shan immediately leave the man's grim face and walk towards him, he suddenly wanted to die.Now he has nowhere to run, nowhere to hide.

It is said that when people are extremely nervous, they will gradually calm down.The fact is that in the end, facing Leng Shan's eyes that froze instantly after discovering him, Bai Yuze was completely fearless in the face of danger and was ready to be silenced.I even thought about my last words, "Brother, since you and I have met for a while, take good care of my parents for me, and I will be a cow and a horse for your children and grandchildren in the next life (it seems that something strange has mixed in)! "

But before he was able to read out his lines, the man who had been buried in the shadows put his hands in his pockets and swayed slowly to the side of Fir who was stiff, and he saw at a glance that it was not worthwhile to die generously. Bai Yuze.The two were taken aback at the same time.

Bai Yuze was stunned because he didn't expect that a man with such a naughty voice could be so handsome.To use an adjective for a rotten romance novel, evil.If I remember correctly, the heroine Mary Su in the turbulent period is usually willing to abandon her gentle and considerate Prince Charming for this kind of man who looks bad and handsome.

And Jin Ke was stunned because he recognized the face of the eavesdropping boy.The young man who was hidden and tucked in by the fir tree and warned him countless times not to approach him again, this young man who is now completely clean and pure as a piece of white paper, stood in front of him.Haha - almost immediately he couldn't help himself from laughing out loud!Fate is cruel and ironic, isn't it?

At this time, Leng Shan was still standing stiff and unable to speak, Bai Yuze looked at the drowning despair in his dark eyes in puzzlement, but couldn't figure out the reason for his gaffe.In the end, Jin Ke waved his hand to greet him very familiarly, and said with a smile: "Relax, we didn't mean to eat you. By the way, are you a friend of our Xiaoshan? I heard him mention it before. .Bai Yuze, is that right?"

"Ah... yes. It's me." Bai Yuze recovered from his daze, but he was still a little embarrassed.Automatically ignoring the bug that Leng Shan would call himself a friend in front of his brother, he forced a smile: "I'm sorry, I overheard your conversation just now..."

"Don't mind, don't mind, there are no state secrets anyway." Jin Ke generously offered his pardon, and then enthusiastically stepped forward to put his hand on his shoulder, "Will you be free later? Why don't you come with us?" Let's have a meal together? Xiaoshan has been withdrawn since he was a child, and he doesn't have many friends—"

"Crack!" Before his fingertips touched Bai Yuze's clothes, Leng Shan suddenly stretched out his arm and knocked Jin Ke's hand away.

"...Don't touch him." The voice seemed to be squeezed out between the teeth, Fir Shan finally stopped being in a daze, her cold and angry eyes were like burning stars.

The atmosphere suddenly took a turn for the worse, Bai Yuze was dumbfounded again, his eyes kept wandering between the two, at a loss.And Jin Ke didn't look angry, he just withdrew his hand and lit a cigarette with a half-smile in coordination with the silence of the two of them.

"...Let's go." After a long time, Leng Shan spoke again, this time to Bai Yuze.He obviously hadn't reacted yet, so he asked back, "...what?"

Fir Shan didn't look at him, and even turned her head to the other side.

There was no moonlight tonight.The silent and frail young man turned his back to Bai Yuze, and the simple silhouette of his back outlined the extreme desolation.

——His loneliness needs no foil.

"...you go." He repeated what he said just now, but Bai Yuze still stood there without moving.He didn't understand what happened, and what this person said next was simply trying to gouge out the flesh and blood in his heart, and didn't even give him a chance to hurt.

"...Also, please don't let the second person know that I have a gay man."

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Xie Zhe was woken up by freezing in the cold wind.

He couldn't help but sneezed loudly, and just as he was trembling and about to turn over and sit up, he almost fell down the steep stairs.After finally holding on to the railing next to him and sitting firmly, he rubbed his nose and cursed: "Damn, what kind of bastard brought me here?! Isn't this trying to kill me!"

Seeing the silence all around, he raised his head and glanced at the sky, it was so dark that it must be at least eight o'clock in the evening.Continuing to stand up cursing, he patted the ashes on his buttocks and went down two steps. When he inadvertently looked back, he was stunned and stuttered. "...Xiao, Xiaobai?"

The young man who had been sitting silently behind him raised his eyes slightly at this moment and smiled. "It can be regarded as awake. I have been sitting with you for two hours."

Surprised, Xie Zhe vaguely felt that something was wrong with him.That's right, this kind of smile... Looking back, before he slammed the door from Fir Shan's house last time, that person had such a thin and fragile smile on his face.It's heartwarming to see.

"You...why didn't you wake me up? It's so cold outside..." Xie Zhe stood there in a daze and didn't move forward.

"...Today was a happy day." Bai Yuze didn't intend to pick up his words, his voice was calm. "Although it's a bit disappointing to say this now, I don't know who else I can talk to except you. Can you listen to me?"

Xie Zhe was speechless for a while before walking to his side and sitting down again. "...Well. Tell me, I'll listen."

Silently staring at the stairs under his feet, watching it staggered and overlapping and finally leading to the shadowed ground, Bai Yuze lowered his eyes and said in a low voice: "...you remember. Last time in the infirmary, I said that I liked A man."

Xie Zhe's loosely clenched fingers moved slightly, trying to conceal his emotions and pretending to be brisk. "...Hmm. What's wrong with that person?"

"I just found out today that what he likes...is also a man." When he said this, something seemed to be burning in his heart, but the strange thing was that the boy felt cold on the contrary. "I should have been happy, but I wasn't. There was only one possible reason. . . . He already has a lover."

Like a lightning strike, he turned his face sideways and stared at him, and if Bai Yuze looked back at Xie Zhe at this time, he would find that the degree of shock shown by the person in front of him was far beyond his own imagination. "...have a lover??"

Bai Yuze only nodded slowly, and gently pulled his lips. "...In most aspects, that person is much stronger than me. Probably."

... How the hell is that possible! !

Although his heart was full of doubts, Xie Zhe kept calm on the surface and tried his best to comfort him in a slow voice: "Hey, don't be discouraged. If you make a mistake, that person doesn't have that relationship with him at all."

"He said it himself, can he be wrong?" With a self-deprecating smile, Bai Yuze took a deep breath and stood up suddenly, looking at the vast night in front of him calmly.

"But I've already figured it out. The fact that I like him has nothing to do with him, and it has nothing to do with whether he has a lover or not. I've made up my mind and just watched him from behind. I can't get it." Any results. The current situation, instead, allows me to be steadfast and have nothing else to do. I just like him....I only like him."

He recalled it quickly and briefly. Since he could remember, he might not have been so clear-headed and firm.

The eyes on the side of his face dimmed for a moment before being replaced by a bright smile.Xie Zhe also stood up and rubbed his head with a smile. "Okay, you. How come I didn't realize that you still have the potential of a lover. I was moved."

Bai Yuze turned away from his dog's paw and teased as usual: "Don't, I'm afraid I'll take your sexuality away again. Don't worry, after finishing Chen Ye's matter, I will leave it to my brother. Even if I can look at the people around me now I am also satisfied when lovers get married in the end.”

Xie Zhe put his shoulders on his shoulders and bowed his head in silence for a few seconds, then suddenly turned his eyes away and pursed his lips: "...that's really true, thank you."

When they returned to the dormitory, both of them were almost frozen, Yao Lu lazily raised his eyes on the bed and asked where they were fooling around, while Ning Ziyue silently carried the takeaway on the heater to the table.

After about a day of carnival, everyone was a little excited. The rough laughter of the men in the corridor continued one after another, mixed with various movements of chasing, beating, running and jumping.

"Why is there such a strong smell of wine? If you have a private possession, you don't love it." Xie Zhe sniffed around and shot Yao Lu and Ning Ziyue back and forth with threatening eyes before eating two mouthfuls of food.

When Ning Ziyue heard the words, he handed over two cans of beer that were casually placed by the window sill, "It was given by Xiao Hei next door."

He and Xiao Hei were in the same class last year, so they can be regarded as acquaintances. "They had a party today and bought several boxes."

"It's so lively? Why don't you two go?" Bai Yuze raised his head and took a can, asking strangely.

"Nonsense, hasn't the fuck been waiting for you all this time?" Yao Lu angrily flipped through the "Playboy" he snatched from Xie Zhe on the bed, "I'm ashamed to say that it took me so long to come back. Hurry up and eat , After eating, go to the group P next door."

Even though they really wanted to complain, the two being reprimanded by the coercion still kept silent and obediently lowered their heads to eat, and then the four of them went to the next bedroom to have a high until midnight.

After finally crawling back, Bai Yuze was completely in a state of confusion, and Xie Zhe was almost drunk, so they staggered all the way and were dragged back by the other two who were sleeping together.

Bai Yuze can't remember many details of that night. He only knows that in order to dispel the choking smell of alcohol in the room, Yao Lu opened the window of the balcony mercilessly, and let the cold wind blow in, so he regained consciousness a little. a little.

Later, I forgot who started it, and the four of them lay on the balcony and sang nonchalantly, "The earth is too long, the sky is too long, who made us young and frivolous? The earth is old, the sky is old." Huang, no one will stop me, no one will try to stop me."

From a distance, I saw someone setting off fireworks in the middle of the night, and the colorful colors were scattered on their youthful and slightly drunken faces.A year has passed and it's time to start a new life.The years always go by so quickly, but every day goes round and round, going round and round, without any major changes.

When the fireworks finally annihilated, their arrogant singing slowly died down.With his back against the railing and his arms by his sides, Bai Yuze said in a slightly hoarse voice in the silence: "...Actually, a long time ago, I was wondering if we could form a band."

Xie Zhe turned his head to look at him with bright eyes, and laughed silently.He remembered hearing this sentence a few years ago.It's just that he wasn't who he is now at that time, and the people around him weren't the people he is now.

"Xie Zhe plays the bass, Yao Er plays the keyboard, and Lao Ning plays the drummer. I——I just play my broken acoustic guitar." Bai Yuze's tongue was a little knotted after being anesthetized by alcohol, but Bai Yuze still insisted on talking about what seemed to be Xu Xu. Unreal fantasy.

Yao Lu's expression was rarely soft, and he continued: "It's pretty good. Then?"

"Then...there is no more." Bai Yuze smirked twice, then fell silent.Perhaps, there is still a lack of a lead singer.

The vacant place in my heart seems to have been reserved for someone.for whom? ...

"How can there be no later. It's okay to just talk and not practice, just do what you say." Xie Zhe finally interjected, propping his chin with one hand, and actually his eyelids began to fight.

"It's true. If it really becomes popular, we don't need to study. We will go on a world tour." Ning Ziyue looked at the night sky and smiled calmly, thinking that he must be drunk, otherwise why would he start talking nonsense with them? language.

"Hey—the idea is a good idea, but not everyone can be a star. How many bands only sing what they want to sing these days? It's enough to cater to the public's aesthetic standards that are lower than the fucking Dutch skyline It's gone." Yao Lu yawned and poured cold water on them.

But Bai Yuze couldn't help it first, and said blackly: "Hey, what are you dreaming about? You guys, there is nothing wrong with the horoscope. If my mother knows that I don't study and play rock and roll at school, she will have to smoke I can't."

"Why worry so much, anyway, there is still a lot of youth to squander - let's work together, if we succeed, we can forget if we don't." Xie Zhe's serious proposal is rare, but it's a pity that he has such a picture A swollen face.

Seeing his expectant look, Bai Yuze laughed, closed his eyes slightly and leaned back, compromising. "……OK."

If you, me, and we all remember this when we wake up the next day... just try it.

——The earth is too long, the sky is too long, who made us young and frivolous?

——The earth is old, the sky is barren, no one will stop me, no one will stop me.

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