nib boy

In a flash, half a month has passed.

The days are still struggling and painful in the same way, but as you live, you will find that it is actually quite happy.

With the help of Fir Shan, Bai Yuze can often feel that he is indeed moving forward in the slight changes.Although he is still walking very slowly, and the results of a little effort by those who are born with good minds are completely incomparable, but he knows how to be content.

Even if that person always looks like his facial nerves are necrotic whenever he faces him, Bai Yuze is willing to watch.Just looking at him like this, looking up close, looking far away, looking forward to, and chasing him.

He even imagined that if this continues, the footsteps will overlap after all.At that time, the figure far ahead will still turn around and take a look at him.

One glance is enough. ...

In fact, Bai Yuze thought that he and Leng Shan had become friends now, and maybe their relationship would gradually become more familiar in the future.Fir Shan subconsciously rejects all approaches without legitimate reasons because she is too inexperienced in contacting people.

Even if the communication is rough again, even if that person's temperament is really too difficult to get close to, Bai Yuze doesn't believe that there are still stones that can't be warmed up in the world.

But he forgot that everything is not absolute.

The cold and wet rainy day that Bai Yuze will never forget in his life is the best testimony.

Perhaps it is only through personal experience that we can understand what is the most painful. ...

That day was Sunday, and after he woke up at ten o'clock in the morning, he was about to write the weekly diary assigned by Yuhuan, only to realize that the notebook had been left at school.Originally, it would be good to take a piece of paper and write it back to school before clipping it in, but that morning because he got up a little late, Bai Mu read him a few words in a bad tone, partly out of anger, Bai Yuze decided to finish eating Go back early for lunch.

Halfway there, the already gloomy sky began to rain. Fortunately, Bai Yuze had read the weather forecast the night before and remembered to put his umbrella in his bag.

Gradually, the rain became heavier, and Bai Yuze carefully avoided the puddles with one foot deep and one shallow foot, but a gust of cool wind blew by, and a large piece of his trouser legs was wet.

"Do it!" He cursed, seeing that the sky was getting darker and darker, it seemed that the rain would intensify later.Thinking of this, he couldn't help stepping up his pace, and finally trotted all the way into the school gate.

It wasn't until he entered the teaching building to put away the wet umbrella that Bai Yuze realized that his trousers below his knees and his sleeves on both sides were wet. At this moment, he was blown by the cold wind, and his whole body couldn't help shivering slightly.

"This damn weather...it's only the end of October, so it must be winter." Complaining as he climbed up to the third floor, Bai Yuze sniffed and pushed open the door of the classroom.

The doors of the classrooms in the middle building of Z are generally not locked. One is that the doorkeeper is reliable enough, and the other is to prevent students from being locked out when they want to study in the classroom on weekends.However, Bai Yuze never believed that besides senior high school students, other people would sit in the classroom on weekends. Isn't this looking for abuse?

However, the moment he pushed the door completely open, Bai Yuze froze there, unable to move.

There were actually people in the classroom. ...

Fir Shan was leaning against the window sill and sitting on the narrow window sill, her back curled up slightly lonely, and she casually propped up one leg.

The window beside him was open, and a large number of violent raindrops mixed with the strong wind lashed him mercilessly, but the man just quietly held a cigarette between his fingers, silently puffing out the smoke. It's all bleak, with a whole sky full of dark clouds in the background.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, Leng Shan looked over silently. The moment he saw Bai Yuze, he wasn't even surprised. On the contrary, Bai Yuze's heart trembled fiercely, and he could only call him in a daze for a long time: "Leng... Shan?... "

Leng Shan didn't respond, just stared sideways at him, his bottomless pupils seemed to be a smile but not a smile, as cold as an autumn night in the thousand-year-old cold pool without a single star.

Bai Yuze approached him stiffly as if he was unconscious, with wet raindrops still remaining on the tips of his hair.The drifting gray smoke was a bit choking, but he didn't show any uncomfortable reaction, as if he had been used to the smell for a long time.

Why are firs here?Why is it raining by the window?Why do you smoke, and why do you show such a desperate smile? ...Bai Yuze couldn't even guess the answers to these questions.Just heartbroken.

He couldn't tell what was causing the pain.

Whether the low whimper came from the rolling clouds or from the heart of the person beside him. ...

After a long silence, Fir Shan moved first, jumped down silently from the window sill, and came before his eyes.

"...What?" He only said two words, but the inexplicable throbbing in his low, magnetic voice was enough to make Bai Yuze's heart beat wildly.

He forced himself to look away, glanced at his seat uneasily, and stammered, "I... I missed my homework, come back and get it." table bore.

After being in a hurry for a long time, Bai Yuze finally found his weekly diary.The book was given to him by the friend who used to be in the same class as Fir Shan, and the blue sky on the cover reflects the entire steep and rolling snow peak.very beautiful.

After straightening up again, Bai Yuze paused, as if hesitating to say something.Leng Shan was not in a hurry, just watched him quietly from the side, letting the butt of the cigarette that was about to be extinguished almost burn his fingers.The light smoke curled up and cut off the sight of the two, but they couldn't break the twists and turns in their minds.

"This week's topic... is to describe a person around in detail. Seeing that it's too late to find someone, how about..." Bai Yuze summoned up the courage to look up at him. "...Just write about you. Are you free now?"

He has never made such a bold decision.

It's just that the deep sadness pouring out of this person in front of him at this moment makes him just want to watch him silently at this moment, so that he won't disappear from his vision for the time being.Is this a kind of willfulness?

Fir Shan was quiet for a while, and nodded slightly. "……good."

"But you can't read it after I finish writing it."

"……Um."

Suddenly feeling like those little girls who can act like a baby in love, Bai Yuze couldn't help feeling chills.However, it doesn't feel too bad.

One minute later, Leng Shan sat down in his seat, facing Bai Yuze who moved a chair and faced him focusing on writing.

The window has been closed, the sound of the rampant rain outside is temporarily isolated, and the room is silence that passes by every second.

Fir Shan looked at the man in front of him who lowered his face, sometimes meditating and sometimes writing with wind, the weak sunlight filtered on his face with fine hairs, showing a childish innocence and foolishness.Occasionally, he would chuckle when he wrote Xingchu, and then immediately shut up and peeked at him.

Leng Shan had to admit that in such a rainy day, the world was quiet, and only he and the two of them were in the same room—he was a little shaken.

Even though he has experienced so much love and pain, he is still unwilling to give up easily in his bones.

But...at least now you are happier than me.

I only want you to live happier than me. ...

The rustling sound of the pen tip rubbing against the paper gradually blurred the voice that added a light smile in my memory.

"Xiaoshan...it's nice to meet you..."

...The strokes finally stopped abruptly.

"It's finished. Thank you, Kosugi."

Fir Shan raised her eyes in astonishment, staring at the young man's warm brown eyes in disbelief.

Bai Yuze felt a little hairy when he saw him, and blinked his eyes in a daze. "……What's the matter?"

The nickname that was blurted out just now was so natural that even the person involved didn't notice anything unusual.

"...It's nothing." He lowered his eyes again, and sighed softly as if extremely tired.

Now, what more could he ask for?It is already a luxury to be able to gaze at this person's face from within close proximity like this.

In a daze, his hand had already been placed on Bai Yuze's soft hair uncontrollably.Bai Yuze was taken aback for a moment, his movements completely frozen.

But at this time, Leng Shan actually hooked her lips and smiled at him.

It is the gentle ripples that are obviously very shallow and light, but can hollow out your soul in just a moment, making your heart willing to fall into this, and you can no longer extricate yourself.

"...Bai Yuze." He called out his name, his voice full of tenderness that he had never had before.Bai Yuze felt like he was dreaming, and even if he knew it was a dream, he would rather never wake up.

It's a pity that there is still a follow-up to that person's words.

"I think... we should not have frequent contact in the future. I am willing to answer your questions. But friends, for me..." Fir Shan's pale lips fell silent suddenly.

"……I do not need."

The thunder that exploded in his ears at the same time could not overwhelm his calm voice.

What does it feel like to have a thousand arrows piercing the heart?

Bai Yuze felt that the rain from the sky fell sharply on his heart.

The gap between before and after is too great.

Bai Yuze thought, after he fell this time, he probably didn't have the strength to get up again, so he continued with a smile.

This person who had walked into his life silently from the very beginning was quietly making noise in his life.

Always.

always.

Be careful from the beginning, and don't expect anything in return.

As a result, in the end, I couldn't even make friends.

This is really a great irony.

I just want to stay by your side.

Is there something wrong with this? ...

But in the end, Bai Yuze still didn't say a word.

I don't know how long the two have been facing each other, until Leng Shan's newly bought mobile phone suddenly vibrated in the center of the table, and the pale fluorescent light covered his handsome eyebrows and eyes, the atmosphere was slightly eased.

Fir didn't pick it up.

After a while, it was Bai Yuze who urged him indifferently: "Go ahead..."

Fir Shan shook her head and smiled wryly.He knew who was calling.

"...There is no need for that anymore."

Bai Yuze didn't understand what this meant, but he was not in the mood to pursue it at the moment, and just nodded with a numb expression.

"Then... I'll go back to the dormitory first."

Leng Shan was silent, neither persuaded nor agreed.He quietly watched Bai Yuze pack up his things mechanically, then turned around and was about to leave.Just took a step, and then turned back.

Bai Yuze only stared at him for a moment this time, then lost the courage to look away, and said in a low voice, "Have you brought an umbrella?..."

Fir again lit a cigarette and turned to the window without answering.He's speechless right now.

After a long time, the sound of distant footsteps came from behind, getting lighter and lighter, and finally disappeared.

he's gone. ...

Fir Shan forcibly suppressed the bitterness surging in her heart, and slowly turned around.

Then, he saw the wet umbrella lying quietly on his desk.

Bai Yuze ran wildly in the heavy rain, his clothes were soaked, and the bag filled with the words of that person was also soaked, but he didn't care about these anymore.

This was a crush that he absolutely couldn't afford to lose, but in the end he ran away.

Bai Yuze actually knows that in a person's life, some things are destined to become regrets.

For example, when you were young, you met someone.His departure makes you no longer able to love without hesitation.

I used to think that as long as I persisted, I would be able to embrace this figure one day.

But you just drew a circle casually, told me this is a cage, and left with a smile.

Only I was left in place, and I couldn't get out of that small circle even if I died.

If the heart can't walk, the person can't walk.

I am a prisoner, I thought you could take me away.

Now that you are gone, is there only this circle left in my world? ...

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