nib boy

After leaving that night, Ning Ziyue didn't show up again for half a month.

Worried that something might happen to him, Yao Lu dragged Xie Zhe to camp near his former residence almost every night, but found nothing.

"Your dad is an asshole."

On the weekend, Yao Lu was bathing grapefruit in the bathroom at home. The kitten raised its head and arched his nose in favor of the furry touch, but Yao Lu mercilessly threw it into the foam tank full, turning his face and complaining.

It's a pity that Yuzi couldn't understand what he was talking about, and was thumping in the water in vain, wailing pitifully.

"If you throw you here, you will disappear, and you will make Laozi an old mother. Bastard." Yao Lu angrily rolled up his sleeves and rubbed the fur ball hard, ignoring Yuzu's dying struggle, thinking of the night before he left in the rain Li stopped the footsteps he wanted to follow, and said coldly: "Don't follow me. From now on, don't follow me anymore."

He froze in place, feeling an indescribable feeling in his heart at that moment.Only then did I realize that from the past to today, many involuntary behaviors in front of him made me look very undignified.

There is a kind of person in this world, you know better than anyone else that he is like an untamable beast, but he only shows tenderness in front of you.So you misunderstand that you are bound by each other, you need to tame and raise him, but he will still hurt you in the end, and then go away by yourself.

The figure of another person in the long memory flashed through my mind very quickly. That person had a tall and straight figure and soft eyes when he was quiet. He kept laughing and saying that Green, we will become the hottest band in the country sooner or later, but when he turned around, he merged into the vast crowd. The sea was nowhere to be seen.

After draining the water in the pool, Yao Lu silently wrapped the grapefruit in a big towel, then walked out of the bathroom holding it and pushing the door open.

The sunset is reflected on the honey-colored floor through the floor-to-ceiling windows, and the sound of cicadas outside gradually dies down.It was already evening, and both parents had to work overtime tonight, so they simply lost the interest in eating.

"Little bastard, let me take you out for a walk." Talking to herself, Yao Lu took the key and walked to the door, Yuzu followed all the way, quite obedient.

People say that cats are unruly animals. I don't know if it's because they were abandoned when they were young, but the little guy is very clingy.When Ning Ziyue was there, half of his shoulders were its special seats, but now that he was gone, Mao Tuan walked around Yao Lu's feet, leisurely walking around most of the street.

It was already dark when he finally got home. Yao Lu fumbled in his trouser pocket and was about to open the door, but when he looked up, he found a key in the keyhole.The door was still ajar, and it seemed that the guy who broke in acted hastily.

Parents can't do this kind of thing.As for the spare key at home, he only gave it to one person.

Yuzu squeezed into the crack of the door as if aware of something and disappeared. Yao Lu also suppressed the sudden rapid heartbeat and slammed the door open.

There was no time to change shoes and rushed in, but halfway she couldn't help but lighten her pace, Yao Lu walked quietly through the entrance and corridor, and saw the man standing in the living room with his back to him, holding the grapefruit that he ran in with one hand and didn't know where he was. Think about something.

Originally, he wanted to yell "bastard" at the beginning, but the words were swallowed in his throat.It seems that the person will disappear out of thin air if he utters his voice.

After traveling around for so long, I must be very tired.Stay longer if you can.

It's just that the sky didn't come true, and within a dozen seconds at most, Ning Ziyue turned his head slightly and saw his figure hesitating outside the hall.He was stunned for a long time, then he turned his eyes away in embarrassment and moved his lips in the direction of Yuzu. "...I'll take it away."

"Just for this?" There was obvious anger in Yao Lu's voice.

"...Mmm." The other party nodded slightly, and made a gesture to leave after speaking.

"Wait." Yao Lu blocked the door frame with one hand to prevent him from passing, his face sank like water: "Where are you going this time?"

"I don't know yet." He replied in a low voice, putting one hand on his wrist, his eyebrows trembling slightly as if he was holding back something. "...Anyway, time is running out, let me go first."

Yao Lu raised her head slightly and looked at him with provocative eyes. "...but not."

What a joke.Come and leave as you want, this is not a brothel!Besides, you haven't even paid a penny!

Just as I was disdainful that I would not let you do anything to me, the other party suddenly grabbed his collar, strangling him almost out of breath.His back stiffened for a moment, and Yao Lu began to seriously consider whether he really pissed this guy off.However, what he didn't expect was that instead of doing any violence, Ning Ziyue swayed twice as if he was unsteady on his feet. Finally, he slowly loosened his collar and fell to the ground trembling.

Yao Lu was taken aback, and immediately knelt down to help him: "Hey, what's wrong with you? Have you been constipated for too long?"

Ning Ziyue didn't say a word to his question that ruined the atmosphere, but curled up on the floor trembling and panting, his face gradually turned pale, and cold sweat dripped from his forehead.

Yuzi called out to the side anxiously, then turned her head to look at Yao Lu.He supported Ning Ziyue two or three times and tried to get up but failed. He was about to repeat it for the fourth time but suddenly stopped all his movements, and fell to the ground stunned like a lightning strike.

... He had seen more than one or two people like this before.Exactly the same symptoms, perfectly fitted details - you can't go wrong.Can't go wrong.

"You...you take drugs..." He felt himself trembling from the inside out, from his fingertips to the bottom of his heart. "When did it happen...why did you..."

The lips fell silent for a moment.He remembered and understood everything.

— that glass of wine.

That glass of wine that he blocked for himself in the bar that day! ! !

"...Quan'er Si knew that Boss Qi had given me the handle before he died, right." He whispered, biting his lips desperately to keep himself calm. "But he didn't know where the hell I was hiding it... He handed me that glass of wine to get me addicted, and then he was forced to trade it for evidence. You knew he drugged it, I also know that if we don't drink the wine, none of us will be able to get out of that door...

"You want to take it all by yourself, thinking that no one will know the truth once you leave. You know that I will definitely expose Quan Ersi. As long as you don't show up again, I will definitely..." He became a little emotional as he spoke , Ning Ziyue seemed to have calmed down a little, raised his head and looked at him lightly, his face still pale.

"I didn't drink that glass of wine for you. It's just that if you were the one who was recruited, I would have to exchange evidence with him. If it was me, I would just disappear from now on and go to a drug rehabilitation center..."

"Fart your mother!!" Yao Luzhen punched him in the face mercilessly, and then got up without a second's delay, feeling that his whole body was on fire and his mind was in a mess, so he didn't care shouted at him:

"Do you know that a drug rehabilitation center is no different from a prison?! Isn't it just a USB flash drive, just give it to him! Or it's a prostitute, even if he cheats and refuses to give it to you, I'll just buy it for you! Even if you lose everything—"

"Stop making trouble! What he put is not an ordinary drug, you can't get it!" Ning Ziyue didn't take his punch to heart at all, and tried to stand up from the ground to stop him, "Besides, this is My only chance for revenge—"

Yao Lu broke free and continued walking towards the stairs, furious: "Ning Ziyue, you are really crazy! Do you want to pay for your own life for the sake of those who have already died?!"

After finishing the speech, a strong force suddenly pulled him backwards. I guess Ning Ziyue was too angry and couldn't control his strength. In the end, Yao Lu fell to the ground on the back of his head, and his back and waist seemed to be broken. There was a sharp pain, and before he could swear, he was completely enveloped by the shadow cast by the man.

Ning Ziyue stared firmly into his eyes, and said clearly, "I told you not to worry about the cold sweat on his forehead, his thinner silhouette, and his sharp and deep eyes." My business. Do you understand?"

Yao Lu stared at him for a while, then suddenly calmed down, without struggling, and only slowly restrained all expressions.

"If I didn't treat you as a brother, Ning Ziyue, why would I go into this muddy water?...No matter what you say or do today, unless I die, you—"

"... that's enough. Don't say any more." The invisible anxiety is both a shackle and a cage. He closed his eyes and told himself that he couldn't be shaken, and his heart couldn't be shaken no matter what.The other party refused to give up.

"I just want to say! Today you either fucking kill me, or let me take things away!"

...that's a really bad character.Probably the worse the situation is, the more this person knows how to add fuel to the fire until the other party loses patience completely.

Is there any way--

Just block the lips that spit out annoying words.

He just thought so, so he did it, he reached out and clasped the back of his head without any hesitation. ...

The tactile sensation of the kiss was worse than expected, probably because I was too impatient, so it hurt a little bit.

Noticing that the person in his arms didn't respond at all, Ning Ziyue suppressed his nostalgia for the softness and let him go.As a result, seeing Yao Lu silently lowered his eyes, and the air around him was about to freeze, his heart was instantly chilled.

"……What's the meaning."

He was stunned when he heard the words, feeling a little at a loss in his heart, unable to respond for a while.

But he refused to let him go, and slowly repeated it word for word.

"I asked you to do this, what do you mean?..."

Yao Lu was finally willing to meet his gaze, her tone was too calm, it was abnormal.

As if this was a difficult question to answer, he couldn't directly say the sentence that had been lingering in his mind for a long time.It's just that there are some feelings that are ready to come out on this out-of-control night.

At that time Ning Ziyue didn't know.

For Yao Lu, the fact that he did not give any answer in the end was the cruelest answer.

In the end Ning Ziyue did not choose to leave.Even after that happened.

At night, he went back to the room he borrowed as before, and Yuzu soon curled up next to his pillow and started snoring lightly, but he still had no sleep at all.

Why did he act so outrageously at that time.Obviously they are just brothers who have been together day and night for two years, and they are both men - they clearly know that the person he likes has gone far away.

So even if Yao Lu questioned him face to face again, he still didn't know how to answer.

Before each of them returned to their rooms, the slightly messy hair of the other party covered most of his face after a lot of tossing. He couldn't see his subtle expressions, the corners of his mouth that always seemed to be smiling With so little injury.

The unstoppable reminiscence makes the anxiety invisible.

Somehow, I felt that there should be someone else to bear such heart-burning fire.Hesitation, recklessness, impulsiveness, jealousy... these words, he would never, and never allow, to appear on himself.

It seems that someone else should bear it.

It shouldn't be me, it shouldn't be me who has always been responsible, has character, and has patience!

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As a water city in the south of the Yangtze River, Suzhou is known as the "Venice of the East".It is located on the shore of Taihu Lake and is one of the cities with the longest history in China.

The climate here is always hot and humid in summer. Fortunately, there have been a few new rains recently, which swept away the haze and heat of the previous days. Otherwise, many foreigners who choose to stay at this time may find it difficult to adapt for a while.

Southeast of the ancient city, in Osmanthus Park.

"Of course people who engage in art have a bit of arrogance. No, performance art probably doesn't count. I think." Bai Yuze sat alone beside the stone flower bed, kicking his knees and thinking thoughtfully, with a large field of bright red roses in full bloom behind him. Masamori.

Fir Shan was walking towards this side with two cones in hand, and the pigeons that had been startled by him all the way fluttered their wings and soared upwards, their cheeks were accidentally swept by the feathers, feeling hot to the touch.

"Here. It's time to dissolve later." The boy sat next to him, and then curiously poked his head to look at the piece of paper that Bai Yuze was talking to himself before. "What's this?"

It was a vivid sketch.Bai Yuze didn't even have time to see clearly what the young man who stuffed it into his arms just now looked like. With a glimpse, he only saw the unique tattoo on his arm.Like a mottled and colorful black rose, and like a half wing of a devil, taboos and temptations are contradictoryly blended together, which is impressive.

I don't know which corner he secretly sketched, and then rushed out without saying a word, gave something and left.

"So..." Fir Shan was silent for a few seconds, and then instantly crushed the wrapping paper in her hand. "The painting given to you is of a man. And he is still very young."

"Actually, I didn't see it clearly, really. Maybe it's already sixty or seventy, just because my feet are stronger." Bai Yuze replied sincerely, but what he got in return was that the other party circled his fingers and flicked his forehead lightly.

"despair".

"...Still quibbling. I will get it all back tonight."

"Night shift tonight." Bai Yuze smiled smugly, and Fir Shan immediately pinched his cheek, so he could only cry out in pain and beg for mercy.After finally pulling the man's claws away, Bai Yuze continued to sprinkle corn kernels on the ground depressedly, watching the flock of pigeons that were frightened and scattered just now approach cautiously, cooing.

"Let me tell you." After a long silence, Bai Yuze sprinkled the last handful of corn, and his eyes stayed for a long time among the white pigeons eager to eat. "Half a month has passed, why haven't those bastards moved at all. It's too heartless not to ask."

Leng Shan changed her posture and put her arms around his shoulders, shaking her head. "I don't know about others. If I were Xie Zhe, I wouldn't take the initiative to contact you again unless it was absolutely necessary."

It is precisely because of too much understanding.It would be too cruel not to even give a chance to forget.

"Although I expected this to happen..." Bai Yuze sighed silently in his heart.If it hurts no matter what you do, then that's fine.

"...I hope he will be happy."

Able to clearly feel the loss and sadness in his heart, Leng Shan silently rubbed his head, took the painting with one hand and observed it carefully. "The demeanor is really eight [hmm] nine points like. Although the brushwork is not professional, although the lines are a bit sloppy, although... cough, the talent is excellent."

"You know all about this." Knowing that he was being picky on purpose, Bai Yuze gave him a blank look, and patted the crumbs on his hands as if to leave. "Go back. If you want to sing in the bar all night, you need to get a good sleep first."

"En." Fir Shan nodded, rolled up the paper carefully, got up and looked at the rare clear sky after the rain.

He likes this city, with the fragrance of sweet osmanthus and rows of camphor trees, but it is destined not to be the place where they stay forever.

However, in the future, in the future, even in such a long life, no matter how difficult it is, he wants to be by his side, accompany him to welcome the sunrise and sunset, and accompany him to see the beautiful scenery of the world.

In a strange city, I can see you as soon as I open my eyes in the morning, hold you in my arms, and put my fingers into your hair to say good morning.

In all the breathtaking beauty, in all the places on this earth beyond the oceans and continents, you are by my side.

The more attractive place than the distance is the distance with you.

A better dream than traveling around the world is to travel through all the prosperous and barren places in the world, and spend every dawn and dark night.

be with you.

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