nib boy

For the next two days, Bai Yuze was absent from class.

During his absence, Leng Shan would often stare blankly at the empty seat in front of him in a daze.

He didn't know that Bai Yuze fell ill because of the rain that day, and he was still worried that he was stimulated by his own words, so he didn't even want to see him.There are regrets and self-blame, but on second thought, short-term pain is worse than long-term pain.From now on, they will be strangers, perhaps that is the best result...

From the very beginning, Fir Shan has defined the role he will play in his life in the future. He will be a passerby, and only a passerby.Apart from watching silently, I don't think about it.

He didn't want to pretend to be great and talk about protection, but he just didn't want that person to get hurt because of him. ...

After the rain, the cold and wet breeze poured into the warm room along the window cracks, and the corners of the pages of the book with the fir tree placed by the window were lifted, revealing the short poems that were copied in the clear and free handwriting that year.

that failed

Is it just a late spring day

that forgot

Is it not just your face

That rushes to the front

It's a dusty day, a dusty night

Dusty Chinese New Year and Autumn Grass

The one who bowed his head and raised his eyebrows slowly receded

is a silent song

poem without words

Every word and sentence I wrote down is scattered into countless fallen leaves like butterflies dancing in this windy season.And the autumn wind under the corridor just walked forward indifferently, but had already forgotten the sorrow that was flying.

Occasionally, we will also look back at the lingering yesterday, and the youth running wildly in the flow of light and shadow.

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The syllabus of physical education in the second grade and the third grade is very similar, and the three classes have always been taught together.

Class [-] is taking classes with Class [-] and Class [-] this semester. Since there is also a liberal arts class in it, the boys' hungry eyes will almost continuously glance at the girls on the other side of the playground when queuing up. Also whispering obscenely.

The physical education teacher scolded them several times with a black face, but he couldn't hold it back. Finally, he gave up and punished the boys to run laps.And this group of boys who have not passed the second stage of middle school didn't take these laps seriously, and they roared past the girls with their heads high and chests up, attracting their laughter and low-pitched discussions.

Leng Shan turned a blind eye to the enthusiastic gazes of most of the girls sneaking at him, and ran at a constant speed with no expression on his face.However, most of the team dispersed after running. Don't look down on these three laps, it is still 200 meters short.Gradually, more and more people fell behind, and those people at the end of the line were still struggling for face, and the high spirits they had at the beginning had long since disappeared.

Fir Shan ran to the finish line with the few remaining teams. The physical education teacher announced that they could disband first, and then a group of people "boomed" and fell to the ground. A few of them picked up basketballs and shouted I'm going to have a fight with class one.Fir Shan had no interest in this. After the run, he took a breath and walked to the bench outside the field and sat down, looking at the other half of the field.

The first class didn't have to deal with cheating things like running away, and had already started to move freely.The girls in the top class were even rarer, almost all of them were sitting by the railing and chatting, only one who was quite active got along with the boys on the basketball court.

The girl had long shoulder-length hair and delicate facial features. She looked at Wen Wen quietly, but when she ran, she added an indescribable agility.

When boys face such a girl, they will inevitably put water on their defense.But the girl didn't appreciate it at all, and raised her hand with amazing jumping ability to throw the ball after a few swayings. At that moment, her jet-black hair was unruly like the wind, and the expression on her face suddenly became vivid, and the light was compelling.

The ball and the person hit the ground almost at the same time.

The girl straightened up and smiled calmly, her dimples were shallow, and her slightly messy black hair flowed down her beautiful shoulders.

in.

Seeing the chaotic appearance of those boys without wind, even Fir Shan, who was watching from a distance, couldn't help but smile.

At this moment, a figure quietly appeared behind him.Leng Shan quickly turned her head vigilantly, only to see that Xie Zhe was smiling and handing over a jar of snowflakes. "Still thinking about where you went, so you're hiding here."

Fir Shan frowned and didn't answer, her gaze remained indifferent as usual.

"Don't worry, it's at room temperature. I know you never drink ice cold." Xie Zhe didn't mean to stop there, and still held his arms with a smile on his face. "Take it, I just found out the school gate and bought it. We shouldn't be so polite to each other."

After a while, Leng Shan sighed inwardly, and reached out to take it. "What are you doing here?"

"Guess you have a question to ask." Xie Zhe sat down next to him familiarly, opened his long legs and pulled his can away, then gulped down a few mouthfuls. "...Don't you want to know what happened to Bai?"

"..." Leng Shan didn't answer, and just drank the wine silently.

"He has a high fever, and he can't get out of bed yet. He refuses to persuade him to go to the hospital, and refuses to go home." Seeing Leng Shan's expression froze for a moment, Xie Zhe turned his face sideways knowingly. "... I guessed correctly. He will become like this, it must have something to do with you."

The light in his eyes was very cold, and he was so calm that he was completely different from the Xie Zhe who used to make jokes.Leng Shan looked at him without saying a word, as if he had finally seen the rebellious young man who had shown his sharpness a year ago after a long absence.

But the next moment, the fleeting sharpness has quietly disappeared in Xie Zhe's dark eyes.He lowered his eyes and said, "I beg you, Fir Shan. Please let him go and don't appear before our eyes again."

As if being stabbed in the vitals by something, at the same time as her heart ached, Fir Shan's lips curled into an arc without warmth, and her tone was haughty: "Why should I listen to you?"

"Because Bai has already died once under Jin's hands." Xie Zhe calmly continued, his eyes did not waver.

"I don't blame you for what happened last time, because I know you can't help yourself. But this time, if I hurt him again because of you, I will never let you go."

Fir Shan's eyes flickered, and he secretly squeezed the can in his hand.

"When the three of us were together before, the reason why I gave in was because Bai liked you. But now, all you can give him is pain. If I want to confess my love again, I'm a fucking idiot." Thank you Zhe stood up with a cold expression, and raised his hand to throw the empty jar into the trash can next to him.

"Why don't we just make a bet. Don't bet on who loves more, just bet on who can make him happier....Do you dare?" Xie Zhe gave him a meaningful look at the end, and then didn't look back Great strides away.

On the way, I passed a girl with cool shawl hair.

"... Xie Zi." The girl stopped and smiled and called him, but Xie Zhe just nodded slightly, and continued to walk towards the basketball court on the side.

"Xie Zhe, where did you die just now?! Come here, we have lost two games!"

"Okay, okay! It's coming—" The young man immediately recovered a relaxed smile, and ran over quickly.

The girl at the side stared at his moving figure for a long time, then turned around and walked towards Fir Shan again, and sat in the seat Xie Zhe had just occupied.

"Xie Zi is still so indifferent to me." The girl stared melancholy at the scuffle between Class [-] and Class [-] boys.

Leng Shan smiled self-deprecatingly, "I was only threatened by him, and he will never let me go."

"Eh, really?" The girl turned her head to look at him in surprise, but only saw the lonely smile on the boy's face.

"That guy, from before, he was a harmless sheep only in front of Bai." Fir Shan murmured.

The girl showed dimples, smiled and said: "Xiao Shan, you have no right to speak of him."

"……Is it."

"That's right."

Fir Shan raised her head and drank the last bit of beer, then slowly and forcefully crushed the can. "To be honest, even I don't quite understand you. You obviously like Bai so much, why did you choose to stand by my side after something like that happened?"

"It can't be said that I'm on your side. How should I put it...um..." The girl frowns hesitantly and thinks for a long time, her expression gradually softens. "Because Xiaobai likes you so much... I can't hate the person I love and love. I want to see that you can be happy... And then...

"...Since that time, Xie Zi has always been by Bai's side. But you, Xiaoshan...you are only alone."

Fir Shan's expression moved slightly.

"Actually, in this situation, I think Xiaoshan is the one who suffers the most. Although Bai doesn't remember anything, during his absence, there must be someone to comfort you. Never tell me anything, but I have a good temper, so I don't care." The girl patted him on the shoulder generously, with a bright and innocent smile.

"I still want to see the three of you walking side by side in the school... so you have to work hard—!"

Leng Shan closed her eyes, feeling mixed feelings in her heart for the first time just because of a few words.

Who said... all kinds of things in the world will eventually come to nothing? ...

Xie Zhe, who was going back to the dormitory to have a look after lunch, met that girl with dimples on the way.

To be precise, that is not "encounter".The girl is obviously waiting on his only way.

"Chen Ye? Why is it you again?" Xie Zhe frowned slightly without concealing it.

"Is it necessary to dislike me so much?" The girl stuck out her tongue, and solemnly handed over the thing in her hand. "Here."

Xie Zhe was even more confused, not knowing what she wanted to do, but he still took it with both hands. "What's this?"

"Fruit sago dew. I called my mother in the morning and asked my mother to deliver it. This is the best for patients. It clears away heat and fire."

"Lengshan told you?" The boy's expression became a little colder in an instant.

Chen Ye simply put his hips on his hips and glared at him. "So what? Do you still want to make Bai's illness heal soon? If you want to, go and serve him a drink."

"...Tch. It's done." Xie Zhe didn't say anything more when he heard this, and turned around to leave.

"That... Xie Zi." Chen Yi paused for a moment and called him again, and finally shook his head with a smile in the eyes of the young man turning his head back. "……nothing."

Looking at his back going away again, Chen Ye sighed deeply.

Well.No matter what I say to him now, I probably won't listen.

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Yao Lu helped the limp Bai Yuze up and poured him another glass of water, then swung the thermometer and licked it into his mouth.

"Don't measure it, it's just the same. You've measured it seven times in the morning, can you take it seven times a night if you're having sex?..." Bai Yuze complained inarticulately while holding the thermometer in his mouth.

"If you want, I'll accompany you." Yao Lu worriedly wet the towel again and put it on his head, but he broke out in a cold sweat as soon as his movements touched the wound and it hurt. "Hiss, oops... I don't seem to be able to satisfy you in this state. I'm sorry little Baizi, tonight..."

Before he finished speaking, the door was pushed open from the outside, and Ning Ziyue walked in with a calm expression, carrying a takeaway bag.As soon as he put the things on the table, he raised his eyes to look at the two of them, "You two are still thinking about fitting together now?..."

"Don't be too calm about complaining, hey." Yao Lu said with a dark face, stepped forward to pull the plastic bag with a lame leg, and frowned in disgust. "Yoshinoya? I feel like throwing up after eating their food..."

"Yoshinoya is mine, and there is black rice porridge and egg custard in the other bag. Eat something light, both of you, and get better soon."

"Sigh, you can't be happy without meat." Yao Lu sighed and sat down with a dispirited expression, but Bai Yuze was quite touched after sitting up and said, "I'm sorry for your inconvenience, Lao Ning."

Ning Ziyue smiled, and after tidying up, he sat across from Yao Lu with calm eyes. "Take off your clothes."

"What?!" Yao Lu was startled, and almost knocked the cup in his hand.When Ning Ziyue saw him staring at him with a ghostly expression, he knew that he was thinking wrong, but he explained calmly: "I will change your medicine and re-bandage you. I always feel that the black clinic yesterday did not handle it well. Too clean."

Only then did Yao Lu let out a sigh of relief, and unbuttoned his shirt with relief. "Scared me to death... I thought you stopped us because you wanted to play 3P."

Ning Ziyue's eyebrows twitched twice, "...I don't have that bad taste."

At this time, Bai Yuze got off the ground with the thermometer in his mouth, and said vaguely, "I'm going to the toilet."

"Be careful, if you dare to drop the only thermometer in the dormitory into the pit, don't come back." Yao Lu squinted at him after taking off his shirt, and immediately became very imposing.

As expected, Bai Yuze was so frightened that he ran into the toilet without daring to reply.

Ning Ziyue frowned and tore off the gauze on his back, Yao Lu shivered, but didn't cry out for pain. "He's already weak enough, and you're threatening him."

"Emma, ​​it's all the old man's house, you are made of paper when you are Xiaobai." Yao Lu was angry and funny, not knowing what to say. "...Your rotten head is hopelessly cured."

Ning Ziyue was not annoyed, and repeated the steps of "tearing gauze—disinfecting—applying medicine—bandaging" without saying a word. When almost everything was cooked, Bai Yuze hadn't come out yet.

"Didn't he really drop the thermometer in and then dare not come out? Or did he fall in together?" Yao Lu glanced at the toilet door wonderingly, picked up the clothes that had been left aside, and put them on.

"Trousers rolled up. Don't make such horrible guesses."

"Okay, okay. As long as you are unsmiling, you are noble and dignified." Yao Lu rolled up her trousers resentfully, but was suddenly grabbed by the wrist by the person opposite.

Yao Lu only thought that he was ill, and lazily drew out the tone: "What's the matter?..."

Ning Ziyue stared at a faint scar on his wrist that looked old, frowned and asked, "How did you do it?"

Yao Lu's expression froze for a moment, and then quickly returned to normal, smiling calmly. "...That, it happened a long time ago." He was silent for a while, and then drew his hand back with his lips curled up, his eyes drifting away uncontrollably.

"You may not believe it when you tell me. I have committed suicide by cutting my wrists, and more than once...."

Catching the expected Ning Ziyue's unbelievable gaze, Yao Lu's lips curled up again, smiling a bit lonely.

"When you look at me, you must think that I have everything. Don't you?" He began to take off the bandage with great effort, smiling low. "I was not spoiled by my family from the very beginning. If I want to live the life I want, I need to pay a price. 'Yao Lu' is no exception."

After being stunned for a few seconds, Ning Ziyue quietly stepped forward to help him.

The blood-stained bandage curled up and spread out, Ning Ziyue wrapped it around with one hand patiently, and peeled off layer by layer.

He pondered for a long time before opening his mouth in a deep voice.

"When you don't want to laugh...don't laugh."

This time it was Yao Lu who was taken aback for a moment, and then she slowly suppressed her smile.But in fact, when he is not smiling, he is also pretty as hell.

In fact, Yao Lu was still a little upset.

Originally, I had already forgotten that my life was not as happy as it seemed, this matter.

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