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Before that, after this, the satisfied curiosity becomes ashamed to face the truth.More often, those disgusting worldly things, that is, the karma of every incarnation, may be incomprehensible and unable to speak, or perhaps unable to get rid of and escape...

Naturally I don't think of myself as pathetic, but seeing that pathetic is my real patheticness.

If you can, can you not live in the material world and gradually die out.

This is the best ending.

……

A very strange phenomenon.

When people walk on the road, they think this is the road.Bathed in the sunshine, it is believed that this is sunshine.Just believe in everything you see, what you can't see...doesn't exist.

In fact, most of the time, I can't avoid vulgarity.

I once had an illusion that I should be an emotional person, a kind person, and finally I realized that this perception is simply not too shameless, okay!I can only repent secretly in my heart, I am a sinner, I should go to hell!

It seems that in just half a month, I was completely pointed back to the worst days.After Chang Wei moved in, I started to have a high fever continuously, and I knew very well what this meant.However... I really don't want that irreversible situation to happen, let alone with my current state...

Fortunately, Chang Wei didn't cause me any more trouble. After paying off the debt, he also clearly expressed to me his attitude of wanting to do a serious job. Indeed, with his temper, the big dye vat It's really inappropriate, it's inappropriate!

Unless all his vigor and all his pride are polished off, sooner or later it will lead to disaster.Another point is that I really don't like the savior's younger brother to engage in such a shady and insecure job.

So, thinking about it again and again, thinking of Chang Yu's entrustment and the urgency of his behavior, I realized that behind these things must not be as simple as it seems on the surface, there must be something else hidden, otherwise a person who has almost completely lost contact and thought If you want to repay someone who doesn't know how to repay, you will suddenly call and entrust him in such an urgent manner.This is what makes me even more convinced.

When he called earlier, the display records that I didn't receive, aren't they the best proof?

So soon, I made a judgment, even though my mind has long been muddled by tobacco, alcohol and those "chronic poisons", I still understand, I must bring Chang Wei by my side, and protect this irritable boy !

But on the first day Chang Wei went to work at "Hunting Knife", something happened to me, and I fell ill.

I knew things, I hid them, suppressed them, and now, because of my confusion, they are about to break the seal...

They all refer to "magic nature".

In the past few days, I have thought about a lot of things as always, but for some reason, I ended up with an unexpected relaxation and unprecedented carefreeness.I see.It turns out that as long as I don’t see those former people, those hateful and pitiful people, and don’t see any of them, I don’t have to think about those crap things that are constantly cut and messed up, and I won’t be tired, so I get Temporary relief.

Yes.temporary.

I have never been an adventurous person, but I am often pushed to the forefront by accident.Sometimes I can even clearly feel the negative part of my soul that belongs to human nature: cowardice, indecision, hypocrisy, self-righteousness, overestimation...and, pessimism.And those so-called calmness and calmness are just another illusion of numbness.

I often have nightmares.

From no dreams to nightmares every night.

For 23 years, not only did I have a special nightmare on the day I returned to the human world, during these days, I was actually eroded by nightmares almost every day, every night, and I lived, immersed in, nightmares , unable to extricate themselves.

Those dreams are bizarre, absurd and unreal...

Screaming, howling, pain, howling...

blood...

Am I guilty?

No, I have never regretted it.

At the end of May, Chang Wei was very serious about his work. As a reward, I gave him half of his salary in advance and gave him two days off to have fun. After all, he was still a young boy. Since he stabilized From now on, I will either work or stay at home with me, a half-dead monster, all day long. I am afraid that he will be suffocated, and I am even more worried that if I am not careful, it will subtly affect him.

I don't hope that when I hand over the complete Chang Wei to Chang Yu, this sunny and cheerful child will have mental problems...

Yes, I relapsed, just like parents who obviously behaved badly and couldn’t help themselves, doing assholes but hypocritically afraid of spoiling their children. These are actually just excuses, trying to shirk responsibility.

Chronic poison can't kill me, I suddenly realized a ridiculous fact...

Not being able to die turned out to be such a cruel punishment, I was about to "wake up"...

Watching Chang Wei's energetic back leave, I gradually felt powerless.Standing in front of the mirror in the bathroom, witnessing the body that I borrowed for 23 years is gradually disintegrating, thin, sick, haggard...

Put it to death and then live...?Hehe, this is really a very funny joke!

I almost thought that the shell was about to rot.Such a young man, who was supposed to be full of vitality, was completely destroyed by me, but now, I don't care about these anymore, whether the right owner will come back or not?I can't care about anything now!

If I can kill myself completely, then...

How nice it would be...

"Scum!" I smashed the mirror.

……

"Aurora..."

"do not leave Me."

"do not leave Me."

"Everyone, don't leave me."

"Everyone."

"all……"

"died."

"I killed..."

"One will succeed, ten thousand bones will die..."

"butterfly."

"Our son."

"He is dead!"

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry for you! I'm a bastard! I'm sorry for you mother and son..."

"I have a daughter?"

"joke!"

"...They're all dead..."

"It's all over."

"You hit me! You hit me to death! Hit me to death! Take your life for him!"

"One general succeeds, ten thousand bones dry up."

"Killing one is a crime, but killing all is a hero."

"Reincarnation."

"In this world, the most difficult calamity."

"Becoming a fairy? Becoming a demon? Just teach me that I will never be human again."

"Eighteen layers of hell."

"Heaven."

"Sura Road."

"The way of the world."

"Ghost way."

"The road to hell."

"The reincarnation of the heavens, the retribution is not good."

"Aurora..."

"What I owe you, pay it back now."

"Debt."

"It's all about cause and effect."

"butterfly."

"how come……?"

"It became like this..."

"Heaven pays me!"

"hell."

"Become a demon."

"Karma."

"Asura..."

"Aurora..."

"butterfly."

"lady……"

"Both sons and daughters, our family is a happy family."

"They're all dead."

"Sin."

"Who are you?"

……

Pulled out of the nightmare, the dream is layer upon layer, the people in the dream are strange but also familiar, countless perish and countless new births, from ancient times to the present, it can be said to be extremely chaotic, and I can't figure out one for a while clues come.In other words, it's just a dream, a dream mixed with my personal feelings, it shouldn't be too real.

It wasn't until I felt the discomfort in my body that I found myself lying in the bathtub next to the still broken medicine bottles and injections.Chang Wei stood not far from me, frowning tightly, and in a trance, he and Chang Yu finally had some similarities in demeanor.He knows what his brother does, so I don't need to say, but what I did, he knows even more.

The world is such a good place.

At least he can paralyze himself.

There aren't so many tricks in hell.I giggled, got up, walked around the broken glass on the ground and Chang Wei who was standing still, and asked, "Has Chang Yu contacted you recently?"

Ever since the last short call that could not have been shorter, Chang Yu seemed to have disappeared from the world again, and I was always extremely nervous about unknown hidden dangers and dangers.

"My brother hasn't contacted me for three years." Chang Wei glanced back at me and said, "It's just that inexplicable phone call half a month ago, asking me to come to you to hide, and what did you say that you can guarantee it?" Take care of me for my safety..." At this point, I happened to turn around and look at him.

I saw him pursing his lips tightly, like a stubborn child, obviously dissatisfied and said unhappily: "I don't need you to take care of me at all! It's good if you can take care of yourself!"

Well, indeed, what I did as a temporary parent was really dereliction of duty. I admitted it in my heart, but I didn’t say it. , laughed, and pretended to be angry again.

My face finally collapsed. When I saw this child, I felt inexplicably jealous. That kind of youthful vigor is something I have always dreamed of but elusive.It’s like reminding me of my false clothes all the time, reminding me of my decay and aging; my filth, my corruption...

My soul is bleeding...

I stared at Chang Wei for a long time, until he calmed down, then turned and walked to the living room, and said to him: "Clean up." Fang returned to his normal mood.

I feel sick.Bored with everything, loathed with myself, and mentally all sorts of boredom.

But in the end, the most disgusting thing is myself.

Guilt is a wonderful thing, who said that ghosts and gods are not suitable for psychology?

My whole body was sore, I was slumped on the sofa, the TV was rustling, my ears were ringing, I couldn’t hear clearly, my eyes were dazzled, and I couldn’t see clearly.I look up at the ceiling...

"Let's go for a walk." At this moment, Chang Wei, who came out of the bathroom, came over, and he had already dealt with the mess in that room.

"You haven't stepped out of the room for half a month."

"So how about we go out for a walk?" he suggested.

It seems that this irascible kid still has intentions. In other words, I don’t have to worry about ruining him for the time being. His heart is kind and kind. It’s just that, it just adds to my burden...

I can't get interested at all. If it was earlier, I would still be crazy, but now, I have nothing to do but slowly rot. ?

However, what should be said should be returned, and it must be returned.So I asked him back: "You haven't played enough these two days? Are you tired?"

Tired or not, only this kid knows in his heart. He has been playing like crazy for the past two days, but he still wants to coax me to go for a walk like coaxing a strange grandpa. I really don’t know whether to laugh or cry?

I looked at his hesitating and innocent expression of being at a loss, and I was very puzzled. I knew that this kid was just trying to give me a hand, but if it was feasible, why would I be willing to push myself to the top? What about the abyss? !

"Forget it..." I let out a long sigh, always feeling stuffy in my chest, blocked by an unexplainable emotion, and waved my hand: "You go and do your own thing, don't worry about me, I will very good."

After hearing this, Chang Wei curled his lips and muttered a few words of complaint in a low voice, which made me smile bitterly again.

Why bother?I am...

Xia Jun was really right about one thing.I am a person who just can't see others treating me well...

Very cheap!

close eye.I just want to enter the nightmare barrier again.

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