[comprehensive] firefly

He ran through one door after another, but the things behind him were like tarsal maggots, tightly, tightly following behind.

"Dong dong dong."

It gets closer and closer.

Tanaka Taro hurriedly closed the door, leaned against the door panting, "I can't see me, I can't see me."

The right ear was pressed tightly against the crack of the door, the sound of footsteps outside gradually became less and less, are you leaving?

"Humph~"

There was a thunderous roar from the left ear, which knocked Tanaka Taro out of his wits.

"Here it is."

it says.

"I found it."

Tanaka Taro suddenly turned his head, but his vision had gradually blurred, and darkness began to invade.The heartbeat was like thunder, and the drums beat fiercely.

At night, the dark room has a cold atmosphere.

The person on the bed breathed out one after another extremely suppressed gasps, and stood up suddenly, cold sweat dripped from his forehead, he blinked, ignoring the discomfort caused by the sweat falling into his eyes, there was still a painful feeling hovering in his heart. Clenched tightly, crushed.The fingers twitched from time to time.

It's so painful, how can it be so painful?

Tanaka Taro took a deep breath.

what happened? ...Like a dream?What dream?

Can't remember.

He blinked again, his sleepy eyes became much clearer, but he still looked around the room in a trance without focus.Scan the wardrobe, scan the murals, scan the lamp, scan the golden jug.

--pot?

The one that was forcefully stuffed in, the so-called "Allah Lamp Pot"?

Once suspicion arises, it is difficult to dissipate. Is my experience related to this?

As if frightened by the fear in his heart, he hurriedly skipped over it, not daring to look at it again, for fear of disturbing something.

However, how is it possible.There are no gods or ghosts in the world.Tanaka Taro rubbed his temples and laughed at himself secretly.

There has never been a miracle in this world, so naturally there are no accompanying ghosts.Though thinking this way, Tanaka Taro lay down with his back to the pot, wrapping himself tightly.

It was late at night, and he quickly fell into chaos. In the mist, he thought, although there were no ghosts, it would be bad if there were any cancer-causing rays.

Throw it away, it's only five hundred yen anyway.

Thinking of this, Tanaka fell asleep.

The night is by no means pure black and dull, the lights on the side of the road, the bleak moonlight, are scattered on the not very thick curtains.The wind blows the branches and rustles, and the shadow of the tree with jagged branches dangles on the floor, a black shadow, it is not accurate to say that.

It is an existence that sucks all the light away, as dark as an abyss.The golden pot was placed on the wardrobe, it slowly overflowed from the golden pot, scattered like smoke, and spread downward, slowly enveloping the person on the bed.

The wrapped person convulsed for a while, unable to break free from the nightmare, imprisoned in a predicament, experiencing life and death over and over again.

The night passed, as calm as ever.

Tanaka Taro put on his tie in a trance, without smoothing out the folds of his clothes as usual.Picking up the briefcase, he walked towards the school lightly and heavily.

Although it was agreed to throw it into the golden pot, but according to the regulations of garbage classification, today is not a suitable day.

He fumbled around and went out, thinking to wait a little longer.

The pot-throwing plan was suspended.

What he didn't know was that a black shadow coiled around his shoulders, like a flowing fog, but it exuded an evil and void atmosphere.Looking forward to fear.

He is an English teacher in the high school of Yanzhong Middle School, which connects the middle school and high school.Just like his appearance introduced earlier, the three ellipses plus one stroke is a standard self-portrait of Taro Tanaka.Such an ordinary him, perfectly submerged in the sea of ​​people, will always have his place in the background board.

Such, extremely, ordinary.

Ordinary as hell.

But after all, it is a teacher, no matter what, there are still students who greet him.

These youthful people were cheering and playing, laughing and passing by Taro Tanaka. Occasionally, a few of them would see him, greet him lazily, and hurriedly catch up with their companions and continue to the school.

They are the rising stars, the shining sun, the flowers and the sun, and the initial and most lively state of human beings.

Tanaka likes their lively energy.And don't get angry or feel slighted by it.

You can see the school in 10 minutes after crossing the intersection.

In Tanaka Taro's line of sight, he found a group of people approaching.

This is - Minagawa Akane?

She is a popular music teacher among the students. She is pure and beautiful, with long hair reaching to her waist and tied behind her head. She looks very dignified and elegant, and her eyes are always as clear as water.With such an appearance, she is always easily loved by others.

Most of the students around her surrounded Akane Minagawa lively, chirping about something.Most people don't realize that there is a teacher not far from them.Some people see it and don't care, even if it's their classroom teacher.

But Akane Minagawa was different. As soon as she looked up, she saw Taro Tanaka and said a few words to those around her.Then he asked Tanaka Taro softly and gently, "Tanaka-sensei, are you waiting for someone here?"

Why are you waiting here for someone?

But Taro Tanaka's face turned red when he heard this sentence, and he stammered, "Yes, yes. I see you, Mr. Minagawa."

You, you, you, you can't finish the following words.

When Akane Minagawa heard these words, she covered her mouth in surprise, and then bent her eyes, which seemed to hide a handful of water, rippling.

She said with a happy tone, "Yeah, I'm glad to see you here, let's go to school together."

"Okay, okay." Before he finished speaking, Taro Tanaka was squeezed away by the swarming crowd.At this moment, Akane Minagawa also turned her head to talk with others.

Tanaka Taro didn't feel the slightest cold reception, on the contrary, a smile unconsciously hung on the corner of his mouth.

But Tanaka is really ordinary, too ordinary.In this way, no one cares whether he is smiling or sad.

Presumably, the judges already know from Tanaka Taro's words and deeds that this person likes Minagawa Akane.If you want to ask about the entanglement between these two people, you have to start from a long, long time ago.

Long, long ago, there was an ordinary middle school student named Tanaka and Taro.is a backdrop that melts into the crowd.Honor has nothing to do with him, and bullying has nothing to do with him.Because such a dazzling or prominent behavior is too unsuitable for ordinary Tanaka Taro.

Such an ordinary him, who once liked the school goddess Nagamarie in junior high school.It is too boastful to say that the goddess is a girl who is more well-behaved and more sensible than children of the same age, and her dress is cleaner.

She was Tanaka's first crush.

Taro Tanaka secretly likes her. Although most boys in the school like Nagamae, but as reserved as Taro Tanaka, he still can't directly confide his love to others.Only in a deserted night, Tanaka secretly wrote some specious words.

[My dear Rie (strike out)]

[To my Rie (strike out)]

[To Rie (strike out)]

[To you in my dream (strike out)]

[......]

[A Love Letter from a Secret Lover

I often look at you in my dreams, in the crowd, as a coloring background board, looking at you so indifferently and powerlessly. (cross out)

Look at you shining like the sun, look at you pure like a lily (strike out)

If possible, I hope that I can dissipate under your radiance like that withered weed, so that my life will not be so dark forever, at least it has been in contact with the most brilliant and brilliant color in the world before it ends (scratch Lose)

I know that I intend to express my feelings that have nothing to do with you, but as a humble and insignificant person, I still pray for your mercy (strike out)

Just as the herdsmen hope for rain, the plowmen call for spring (cross out)

... (strike out)

You are like a brilliantly blooming firework, just the color of light is enough to dazzle me, and put me in a chaotic and incomprehensible situation.

... (strike out)

After finishing writing, even though Taro Tanaka was young at the time, he still felt that this thing was extremely sour.I don't want to be a sincere pursuit of the one I love, but rather a fanatic, unprincipled and wanton imagination.

This insults one's own feelings.

Tanaka thought so.

True love should not be full of speculation.

This love letter was buried deep in his memory, and he didn't know where it was put in reality.Occasionally Tanaka vaguely recalls his first love letter, and feels that he is too naive, although he can't remember what he wrote.But just one summer vacation from junior high school to senior high school made me forget Nagamae. Such a short, fleeting relationship like fireworks is not worth studying deeply.

After Tanaka Taro quickly ended his first secret love during the summer vacation, he went to high school and fell in love with the goddess of high school-Minagawa Akane very much.If you want to ask Tanaka Taro, who followed the crowd, if he really liked Akane Minagawa at the beginning, he can clearly express that he doesn't like it.

It's just the age when the hormones are sprouting, and the youthful young people are full of different fanatical feelings for women. They gather with each other to discuss the body structure of women, and occasionally send out smiles that know each other well.

In order not to let himself become a marginal person, when Taro Tanaka was asked who he liked, he followed the trend and said Akane Minagawa.He thought, so many people like her, not more than himself, not less than himself.

She doesn't care, and better yet, neither do I.

Valentine’s Day in high school was a lively day, chocolates of various colors were exchanged, and Tanaka would be dazzled just looking at them, and no one would give them to him, nor would he take the initiative to give them to others.

When this was coming to an end, a brother stabbed him and asked strangely, "Have you confessed to your sweetheart?"

Tanaka Taro wanted to be vague, but was cut off by the other party, he asked with a smile: "Tell me, how about we confess to Akane Minagawa together?"

— Let’s confess together.

——A group of adolescent teenagers placed candles and the like, loudly expressing love to their goddesses.

——One person dare not do this, must gather together.

——A girl who receives such a confession may recall it for a lifetime.

——Say I like you, I hope you will live happily in the future.

Those who receive such blessings must be happy.

right.

Tanaka Taro was dragged to the venue in a daze, and saw the people who usually joked together with all kinds of exaggerated language to cover up his nervousness.Yes, very nervous, so nervous that several people forgot what they were going to say while talking.

Light the candles and give each a bouquet of flowers.

Shoulder to shoulder, shouted loudly - Akane Minagawa, we like you!

Tanaka Taro followed others in a daze, not knowing what he was shouting.

The figure of the goddess appeared by the window, looking towards this side with some surprise.

They shouted again - I hope you are happy!

Tanaka Taro also shouted in a daze.

--wish you happiness.

He recited this sentence several times in his heart, and suddenly felt his heart brighten up, and grinned unconsciously.

Before the teacher and the security guard arrived, the group of people immediately cleaned up the ground and ran away.

Tanaka Taro rubbed his head and rushed to the classroom. When he went upstairs, he saw Akane Minagawa walking down.He dodged to the side and was about to dodge, but was stopped by the other party: "Thank you."

She said it so softly.Tanaka's heart melted in an instant.

Tanaka Taro hesitated and didn't know how to answer, his mind became a mess.

At this time, should I say "you're welcome" or "it doesn't matter"?

Seeing the other party like this, Akane Minagawa covered her mouth and smiled softly. "I'm going first, see you next time."

Tanaka Taro nodded.

Goodbye.

He couldn't stop talking, his heart blossomed, - looking forward to our meeting again.

It's a pity that the life of the goddess is always in a hurry, maybe she is full of too many people.Even in a school, the introverted Tanaka still couldn't go directly to the goddess' door.

He is ashamed to express his feelings.

Unlike ordinary boys, he can't imagine sexual things for Akane Minagawa. To him, this is a goddess bathed in sunlight, or an extremely gentle breeze.Rescue people from the haze and make people feel the spring breeze.

She is the sum of all good things.

Forgive a person who is in love, even if it is a one-sided crush.

Such Tanaka Taro, what should people say.

In the days when we can't meet each other.

Tanaka wrote his second love letter.

[It would be great if I could invite you to Tojinbo. I once imagined the scene when I sank into the bottom of the sea. The hazyness there was even more trancelike than a dream. My ears were full of the sound of shattering bubbles. With the pent-up breath around me.

This is a place of eternal peace. Countless people have gained peace here to welcome the coming of the eternal night. I think if I am careful, I may be able to get whispers from my ancestors. They probably have no intention of giving me any guidance, but Just mumbled unintentionally before leaving.

The waves will crash on the cliffs, washing the bottom clean and taking away all the filth, which always makes people think of a kind of cleanness.

Away from sadness and depression, both the experiencer and those who intend to rediscover the meaning of life can experience this rare tranquility.

[…]

He sealed the letter himself.

The letter paper was chosen with a white background, without any patterns, and it was as clean as an official notice. If anyone saw it, they would probably guess whose lyricist it was.Taro Tanaka, who was too introverted, never expressed his heart from beginning to end.

Most of them are sadness, bewilderment, self-doubt, and that cautiousness.

Carefully and subtly seek the other party's opinion of themselves.

Such deep hiding, if people who are not so sensitive see it, they may suspect who wrote the letter of apology.

Tanaka put the letter into the goddess' storage box.

The love that has no place to rest is gushing out.

Perhaps it was because of Tanaka's good luck that the goddess opened up the sea of ​​love letters and accidentally caught Taro's wandering heart.

Tanaka is a short-term person, such as a junior high school goddess who forgot to like for three years during the summer vacation, but he is so long-term.

From the age of 16 to 26, Taro Tanaka fell in love with Akane Minagawa for ten years.

Such a long relationship.

The goddess got Taro's heart, if she let it go without expressing it, the feelings in Taro's heart would slowly dissipate.But she responded.

Minagawa Akane wrote a reply letter, expressing that she liked Taro's letter very much, and said that if possible, it would be nice to travel with Taro in the future.

[Those who are with Taro must be very happy. ]

right.

Tanaka Taro put away the reply letters and put them in the small box of his own storage.Originally there was only a single diary there, but this time there were two more companions.

Taro pulled out the diary.

Solemnly wrote - I am in love.

In this way, one love for ten years.

Following Akane Minagawa's steps, she went to the same university and went to the same school.became the same profession.

At a sunny intersection, I had a word with Akane Minagawa.

That's enough.

right.

Tanaka looked at Akane Minagawa surrounded by the crowd.Ready to move on.

"Hmph." An extremely familiar voice, so familiar that Tanaka Taro's heart constricted unconsciously and his fingers twitched when he heard it.

Fangfo is the voice from the depths of my mind, layer upon layer, mysterious.

[She never liked you. ] Taro saw the picture of Akane Minagawa kissing someone else.

[I don't care about you either. ] She always said hello and left.Such a cold move, no matter how intimate the tone is, it cannot be ignored.

[It's just that you pass the time. ]

[I noticed it. ]

[The mouth is very intimate, and the eyes are also very kind.But every move is rejecting you. ]

[If you don't like it, just reject it, but what did she say? ]

[—If you can be with Taro, you must be very happy. ]

[I'm hanging on to you. ]

[I cried many times for her. ]

[She is not very proud. ]

[Um? ]

[To make others unable to get up and down, it is better to make others shed blood and tears for her. ]

[But--]

[This selfish woman! ]

[This vicious woman! ]

[A despicable person with a pure appearance! ]

[How does she match! ]

[How dare she! ]

[How can she wantonly play with other people's feelings! ]

[Destroy her!Make her regret it! ]

[Make her regret it and make her never dare to do it again! ]

……

A series of voices hit Taro Tanaka's brain, making him even more dizzy with headaches.But no one cares, no one greets.They walked forward together, ignoring that there was such a person on the side of the road.

[—Make a wish on me. ]

[—I will help you punish her. ]

"Shut up!" Tanaka Taro yelled, causing everyone around him to look at him in surprise.

He held his head weakly and hurried to the school.

In his head, he said viciously.

[I will never do this. ]

would not.

Well said, you want to be happy.

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Ah... the exam is over

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