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"What's wrong?" Pan Siyuan waited for a long time before the person in front of her could speak, but the changing expression on the other person's face showed again and again that this was not a trivial matter that could be explained clearly in a few words.

Shen Qing's eyes became more and more misty, he swallowed hard, and held Pan Siyuan's hand even tighter.Her mind was very wide open. From the beginning, she struggled with how to speak, but later she thought about it, and it evolved into the case that if Pan Siyuan refused to accept it and had to lose her in the end, what color would there be in her life?

"Drink some water first." With a little force, she pulled up the half squatting person in front of her. Pan Siyuan couldn't see Shen Qing's lost soul.No matter how big the matter is, I haven't said it yet, so why hesitate.

"Si, there are some things, some things about my past, I want to tell you." Shen Qing slowly turned the cup in his hand, and most of the water in the cup was swaying.Gradually, Shen Qing's movements became larger and became irregular, the water swayed obviously, and it was about to splash out.

Shen Qing paused for a moment, then put the cup back on the table.Turning her head to look at the silent person, since she entered this door, it seems that something has changed.She couldn't figure out the mystery of it, but felt the slightest bit of it contradictoryly.I always feel that there is a clearness hidden in Sisi's eyes, and it is this clearness that gives her the courage to confess, but the worries in her heart remind her again and again that no one will be so magnanimous and completely smile Let it go.

"I used to have a past." Shen Qing bit her lip, perhaps this expression was the most reserved.Seeing that Pan Siyuan was listening seriously, she didn't dare to stare at her, so she quickly glanced at her reaction, then turned around again, her eyes fixed on the water glass.

"I went to Paris after graduating from high school to find someone I liked. That person is my senior."

"I am Wuhen, and the story of Untitled is about me."

Shen Qing is like a child who has done something wrong, with his head half down, he is not willing to look at the cup anymore, but he feels that it is not good to keep his head down all the time, so he forced himself to sit up straight.

"Oh, I guessed it." Pan Siyuan's calm voice wafted from her ears, Shen Qing was surprised, and immediately looked over.

"Maybe it's the sixth sense. Whenever I read this story, I always think of you, but I didn't expect it to be related to you." Pan Siyuan looked away unnaturally. In normal times, no one would easily believe it.But Shen Qing's heart was in a mess, like a thousand horses were galloping, and she also lacked that normal nerve.

She nodded numbly, only feeling a little relieved, the dull perception came from her hot ears just now, which made her whole body boil.After passing the first level, the next thing to say means even more shocking.Put your hands on your knees, so you don't have to rub your hands together nervously.

"In the past, um, before I met you, I liked someone and had a crush on him for a long time. You should know the specifics." Shen Qing's voice became a little weaker, but Pan Siyuan was surprised The expression appeared.

"I should know?" Pan Siyuan's expression changed after hearing Shen Qing's words, her eyes were a little nervous?Or be vigilant?

Shen Qing couldn't tell the feeling, as if the expected direction was all the way to the north, even though she was prepared in her heart to be full of thorns, this sudden turn made her a little at a loss.Waiting quietly for her instructions, Pan Siyuan couldn't hold back Shen Qing's obedient and weak expression, and smiled softly.

"Since you know that I am Wuhen, haven't you already read all my stories? Sister, I am SARAH." Shen Qing was a little powerless. Could it be that the blow tonight was too great, and she would have been more intelligent in the past? Pan Siyuan, who was so transparent, became unresponsive no matter what.

"Well, that's right." She whispered, more like telling herself, but Pan Siyuan didn't respond to Shen Qing's words.

Pan Siyuan didn't blame Pan Siyuan for saying two paragraphs in one breath. Shen Qing was very surprised, and was slightly surprised.I couldn't help but have a small fantasy in my heart, could it be that the highlight of the meeting can be so lucky and get exempted?

Staring at Pan Siyuan's face, with a heroic determination, Shen Qing finally turned the topic to the most unbearable past event.

"I once had a relationship with a, a woman." Where did I find the courage to support myself to complete this sentence?Shen Qing felt that she was not like herself.

Sure enough, Pan Siyuan's complexion really changed this time.

"But it was a misunderstanding, really just a misunderstanding. I don't know her at all, and I don't know what happened. When I wake up, it will be like this." Shen Qing couldn't sit still anymore, her hands and feet He wished he could shake his head, just to show his helplessness.

Looking at Pan Siyuan's downcast face, the dim light in the living room still fully presented this point to Shen Qing.For no reason, I was very sad and scared, afraid that I would lose the opportunity to continue.Shen Qing got up and squeezed onto the single sofa where Pan Siyuan was sitting.

"I went to Paris to find my senior, and found that she had a boyfriend. I was very disappointed and stayed in Paris for half a month. Before I came back, I drank too much. I don't know why it is so ridiculous. , but this happened to me. I didn't know that person at all, and I didn't feel anything about that person. All this time, I just thought it was a nightmare!"

Shen Qing held Pan Siyuan's hand, refusing to let her withdraw it, and moved closer, refusing to miss the slightest change on the other's face.

That's right, Pan Siyuan's complexion had completely darkened, she was so serious and dignified that she had never seen it before.The hand that was firmly held by him gradually increased his strength and wanted to leave, Shen Qing's eyes were sore.

"Sisi, listen to me, I'm telling the truth, I didn't lie to you! I only like you now, so I choose to confess everything to you. I don't want to, and I can't lie to you, even if you want to get angry , can you give me a chance to make amends?"

There was a little tremor in the voice, not humble, but scared.If you don't want to keep it forever, why care about the anxiety at this moment.

Pan Siyuan's breathing became heavy. What she heard tonight made her very emotional, no matter who it came from.But she didn't want to think about which sentence she lost her composure because of, let alone say it.Lowering his head, the hand that was tightly held was already sweating, but he couldn't get relief at all.She no longer struggled to pull it out, and her nails sank deeper and deeper into the other's palm.

"Si, I..." Shen Qing endured the pain of nails embedded in the skin in a muffled voice, and kept staring at the person in front of him, refusing to leave.

"Why did you tell me?" Pan Siyuan stopped her words, but did not look back.

"I don't want to lie to you." Shen Qing replied softly.

"Shen Qing, I want to hear the truth, your most honest words." After sighing a few times, Pan Siyuan stopped what she was doing.

Shen Qing didn't respond anymore, the quiet night gradually became brighter in the dim light.Outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, there is a faint color different from the deep one. The slightly open gaps allow airflow to lift the floor-to-ceiling curtains, which also dissolves the stiff atmosphere at this time.

"This is what I really mean." Shen Qing tried her best to pull out a smiling face, but once she smiled, she knew that it must be an expression uglier than crying, but she couldn't take it back.

Pan Siyuan really cooled down, the anticipation just now disappeared in her eyes, as if the amiable look just now was just an illusion.Shen Qing knew that she was angry, so he insisted on keeping a distance from her regardless.Helplessly watching her stand up straight, leaving herself alone on the sofa.

Pan Siyuan crossed her arms, turned her back to her, and looked out of the floor-to-ceiling windows. Even though the white curtains had blocked off the scenery, she still stubbornly refused to turn her head.

Shen Qing walked slowly behind her, raised her hand to hold the slightly trembling shoulder, but stopped in mid-air, lacking the courage to fall down.Such a woman, even her back is so charming.Standing half a step away, Shen Qing could feel her own heart beating, and she could also feel the sadness of the person in front of her.

It was her words that hurt her, but sooner or later she had to say them.If you want to blame it, blame her for being a person who can't hold back her words and can't hide the secret that should be kept most in her heart.If she didn't inadvertently think of the past during intimacy, she might not take this risk, but she is even more unwilling to be mixed with other people's shadows in the sweetness in the future.

"Shen Qing, what do you want me to do with what you said to me tonight?" The voice regained its composure, but it was somewhat angry.

"I..." I want your understanding, and then we can live happily together.

Shen Qing's words were on his lips, but he couldn't utter them.Until now, she didn't know that the small thought in her heart was just to get rid of this burden of thought, and Pan Siyuan's generosity would be the best salvation.

But she ignored this after all, she forgot that she was also liked by Pan Siyuan.For the time being, I am still brooding over the so-called past between her and Jiang Xinfeng, so how can I ask her to laugh at my absurdity?As a woman, others can't understand this kind of psychology, but I should understand it.

A tear fell from the corner of her eye, Shen Qing suppressed her emotions, she dared not cry out.Here, she has no right to cry, she slowly walked around in front of Pan Siyuan, and as expected, she saw the tear stains on the face of the woman in front of her.More than myself, but I did it. It turned out that even crying was earlier than myself.

"It's my fault, I know, everything is my fault." Holding her in his arms, Shen Qing can only truly feel the feeling of possession by hugging her, and only in this way can she let her tears completely dry on herself heart.

"Whose fault is it? It turns out that everything is just a nightmare for you." Pan Siyuan didn't resist, letting Shen Qing hug her in a daze.

Shen Ting couldn't quite hear the words whispered in her arms, but only knew that Pan Siyuan was talking over and over again, and the more she said, the more she couldn't stop her tears.Seeing Pan Siyuan like this, she felt very uncomfortable, so she could only hold her tighter.

The crying in her arms continued, but Shen Qing couldn't bear it, even if she cried until dawn, she couldn't make the other party sad for another minute.He lowered his head, found the cherry lips in his arms, and kissed them accurately, the familiar touch came again.

"Uh...uh!" Pan Siyuan was obviously unprepared for this sneak attack, after a moment of stunned, she started to fight back, pushing and shoving, trying to break free.

Shen Qing had put his arms around her shoulders and kissed her half-huggedly, which was the most comfortable.Pan Siyuan pushed a few times to see that there was no progress, and gradually softened, she snuggled softly into Shen Qing's arms, and reluctantly accepted the kiss.

The author has something to say: Dear friends, I am back! ! !

I had a written test yesterday & an oral test today, I was so dizzy, I don’t know how I did in the test, after all, it’s my first IELTS test!

Well, no matter how well I did in the exam, I still hope to move forward towards my dream (Wow, I feel that I have been studying for half a month, and my whole person is not normal→_→Don’t talk to me)

In fact, I just don't know how many friends will stay with me, let me see you pinch!