Rebirth: Forced to Attack

Su Xiaochu insisted on following Gu You onto his plane.

Her heart was beating all the time, as if it would pop out of her throat at any moment, Gu You's face was as pale as a ghost, he didn't know what he was afraid of.When only the two of them were left, Su Xiaochu pinched the back of his hand and kept taking deep breaths. Gu You wanted to get rid of her, but for some reason he didn't move. The pain made people clear their minds.

Su Xiaochu pinched the blood out of him unconsciously, and said sorry lightly after regaining consciousness, but she was still trembling faintly, she was only a lot more afraid than him.

"I called him yesterday and said that I would come to pick him up and go to the island for a medical checkup. Do you know what he said? He said that I don't need to come, but he will find a time to go by himself. As soon as I heard it, there was a problem. It turned out that he wanted to talk to Song Fan. ...He didn't even mention a word to me!"

"Song Fan will be such a good bird!"

"It's all his own fault that happened!"

Seeing the woman in front of him trying to calm down and persuade herself, Gu You became strangely calmer for a while.

"Not necessarily anything."

Su Xiaochu's previous toughness disappeared now, she just looked at Gu You and asked: "You took precautions, so why did you panic? Did you get in touch with him so quickly? Can you sense an accident?"

"There are many things beyond my control, not just accidents."

"He tolerated Song Fan more than anyone else."

"That's right." Gu You looked at the white clouds outside, his hands and feet were cold, and his face was silent, "But they have long been impossible."

Su Xiaochu hit him, "You win like this, you are obviously losing."

Gu You said: "I never want much, before and now."

Su Xiaochu crossed her hands on her knees and said nothing.

……

Yan Lin and Song Fan haven't been alone for a long time, and they didn't deliberately search for topics, they just stayed there quietly, Yan Lin was watching a documentary, and Song Fan was holding a book in his hand.When Yan Lin covered his lips and yawned to turn off the video, Song Fan said, "Actually, you agreed to come out with me, which surprised me."

Yan Lin said: "It's really refreshing to say this when I want to sleep."

Now that so long has passed since the years of being crazy about love, Song Fan has changed back to the appearance he remembered at first, indifferent, not talking much, looking at him with soft eyes and warm tone, except for the more mature silhouette and There is a thick and gloomy atmosphere on the body, and the sadness of not being loved is very sparse, which is uncomfortable for no reason.

"I thought you might also have something to say. We haven't had a good chat for a long time."

They sat neither far nor close, and they just happened to be able to see each other's entire face and expression clearly.

"I thought there was, after all, I'm getting married." He was also the only person he regarded as a heart-to-heart friend, the kind who could talk about anything.

But it is destined that some words are only suitable for rotten in the bottom of my heart.

"I'm sorry to have cost you a trusted friend."

Yan Lin relaxed slightly, "I won't say I'm sorry to make you lose someone you like."

Song Fan didn't correct him, he was never the person he liked, he was the only one he loved deeply.

Yan Lin waved his hand at him, "Stop talking about this," he lay down, "I want to sleep for a while."

Song Fan still shook out the blanket and covered him before he could do anything, but suddenly the plane started to become unstable, Yan Lin opened his eyes and sat up immediately, and there were voices and various noises on the radio, followed by There was a more violent swing, and everyone was almost thrown from their seats.

It happened almost in the blink of an eye, and before any explanation could be heard clearly, the huge roar and screeching sound in the ear made people only have a buzzing vibration in the ears and nose, and the smell of blood was on the lips and cheeks.This time I'm afraid I'm going to die. For the first time, Yan Lin has a feeling that life is like a play, but it's far less magnificent than in the play.

Song Fan held his hand and approached him with difficulty, his face was unbelievably calm, and his voice contained soothing power, "Trust me, you will be fine." I won't let you be in trouble either.

Like a bird with broken wings, in the vast sky, the trace of a plane falling was calm, it gradually fell apart, and finally the wreckage of various parts was scattered in a dense forest.Yan Lin woke up from a brief coma, moved his fingers, his body was a little numb, but he was still conscious. He was lying next to a wing, almost lucky to avoid the fate of being crushed into meat paste.The shoulder seemed to be dislocated, the back was burned, and the leg was slightly broken, but considering that he had accidentally fallen from [-] feet, it seemed like a miracle that only this injury was done.

He reluctantly stood up, rubbed his face a few times, just took two steps, and was about to call Song Fan's name when he had already appeared in front of him.

"You're fine, that's great." In six words, the whole person slowly lost the breath that supported him, like a balloon with a hole punctured, slowly drying up, and quickly losing its fullness and floating power.

Yan Lin thought he saw a blood hole, a person had so much blood, it could dye his coat, which was so dark that it could absorb all colors, into a bloody bright color.He felt his knees touch the wet, cold mud, and he stiffened his hands to stop the bloody openings, but this place was gone, and that place started again.His fingernails were stained red, and his hands were soaked in the gurgling blood, which flowed out so fast that he would bleed to death within a few minutes.

Song Fan reached out and touched him lightly, "Don't waste your energy."

Yan Lin glared at him suddenly, "Don't die, don't you hear that?"

Death gray began to spread on his face, and pictures flashed in front of his eyes like flowing water. Warm yellow, golden orange, and black gray flew by one after another. He smiled, as if he was staring at the whole world. Gathering on Yan Lin's thin and three-dimensional face, "I'm sorry, I folded your wings with my hands."

"But fortunately, you picked it up for yourself later, and what I caused was only my own tragedy. Maybe it wasn't like this, but let me lie to myself, so that I can leave with peace of mind."

Yan Lin's back bent down, as if he had an unbearable headache attacking him again, "Stop talking."

"I've been planning for so long, thinking that that one time in the new city would allow me to get what I wanted, and push you into a precarious situation with my own hands, and then fantasize about playing a dark hero. Sure enough, God couldn't see it and didn't want me to succeed, so the right time and place made Su Xiaochu, and then Gu You. Why would I want you to come to my side in that way? How stupid am I? —”

The timidity he has always had made him never tear off that layer of fig leaf with him. Even if both of them knew it well, he was just silent alone in his drifting away. The reason, beginning, process and result were all already tacit understanding.They never revealed everything between them clearly. At that time in the hospital, the indifference seemed to come suddenly, but it was just a deserved sentence. Years of feelings were burnt down, he burned love, and he learned a lesson.

There are only two things in this world that cannot be hidden, love and poverty.His love for him and the poverty of his heart are also something he can't hide.

"Enough." A huge distress signal rose into the sky, and looking up along the towering trees, there was only endless gray and cold rain spreading.Wet hair, pale face, abyss-like eyes, thick and viscous bloody smell, and an endless forest, all these constituted a nightmare, which left him nowhere for many years to come. escape.

"I hope there is no next life. In this way, you will not get acquainted with people like me and give affection. You will meet a frank and straightforward person who has sincere and passionate love for you and understands your tenderness and coldness. Greedy, know it all but still die in allegiance."

A warm tear fell on his cold face.

"Live well, love bravely, as if you have never been hurt."

In this heavy rain that seems to be able to wash away all the filth, he closed his eyes forever, in the arms of the person he has always loved.

Yan Lin put his hand on his carotid artery, he didn't know why he did it.

Since a long time ago, his world has been cold and silent like a silent seabed, but at this moment, everything in front of him began to fluctuate, and he heard countless low-pitched echoes, but no one appeared for a long time, as if salvation would not come easily.

Even if it's just a little bit happier, why can't he let anyone in his life not pass him by.

He began to choke up uncontrollably, and the emotions that had been deeply suppressed in his heart for a long time surged in his chest, and finally turned into a salty liquid that was crazily squeezed out of his eyes.

When Gu You and Su Xiaochu found him together, dawn pierced the deepest darkness of the previous moment, and at the end of the light, his lover sat there kneeling.

A look of despair.

Su Xiaochu staggered and walked towards him one step ahead of him, but halfway she fell limply on the ground as if she had fallen, and she lost her strength.Even if it is such a pilgrim looking forward to guarding his peace, joy, and happiness, but the worse things one after another wash him, temper him, and torture him endlessly.

How can I make you smile?Tell me I've exhausted all the light and heat, no regrets.

Gu You walked over step by step, never had such a clear and firm moment as now, he was shrouded in the twilight of dawn, his eyes were picturesque, vivid and warm.He removed his hand from Song Fan's neck, held it, took off his soaked coat, being careful not to let his shoulder feel pain, then covered him with the clothes with his own body temperature, and dried them with a handkerchief His eye sockets and temples were covered with mist, and he lightly pecked his warm lips, "I'm here to take you home."