lonely patient

Coming out of the bath, Jiang Han cooked yam and barley porridge, put a bowl on the dining table, and asked me to say, "Brother Yan, eat something, or your stomach will feel uncomfortable."

I walked over and sat down, and saw a plate of scrambled eggs with shrimps and a side dish on the table. I had the illusion that Wen Luming was still there, so I lowered my eyes and said, "Thank you."

"You're welcome." Jiang Han showed an embarrassed smile, "Just as long as you don't dislike my poor cooking skills."

I drank the porridge in silence, Jiang Han sat opposite me, hesitated for a moment, and asked tentatively: "Brother Yan, if there is no other order, it's either me, I'll go back to the company..."

I didn't expect him to leave, so I raised my eyes and asked, "Why do you go back, there is no place for you to sleep here?"

"No, it's not," Jiang Han said nervously and stuttered, "That's right, last time, the last time the hot search matter... President Yan came to me, don't let me cause you any more trouble..."

"Yan Song?" I frowned, "It's really long."

After I finished speaking, I thought of something and asked Jiang Han: "So you live in the company and dare not come back?"

Jiang Han didn't speak, as if he had acquiesced.

An unknown fire rose in my heart, and I said coldly, "Don't leave."

"But..." Jiang Han trembled in fright, seeing my expression was wrong, he swallowed the words back, like a timid rabbit.

After a while, he whispered, "I didn't prepare today..."

I almost didn't understand what this sentence meant. It wasn't until I saw his ears getting redder and redder that I realized it suddenly. I didn't know whether to be angry or laugh, and said, "I didn't want to do anything to you."

Don't say I'm physically exhausted now, even if I have energy, I'm not in the mood to do that kind of thing.

"Two bedrooms, you sleep in one and I sleep in one." I said.

Jiang Han breathed a sigh of relief visibly, and whispered, "Thank you Brother Yan."

I didn't sleep well.In the middle of the night, I suddenly had a stomachache. I woke up in a daze and wanted to call Wen Luming. Remembering that he was not around, I had to get up and find a painkiller to swallow.

The next day I went home with dark circles under my eyes. Although my parents didn't say anything, their eyes were clearly accusing.Only Yan Song gave me a nonchalant look and asked, "Where have you been fooling around?"

Thinking of his threat to Jiang Han, I asked in a bad tone, "Where am I fooling around, shouldn't you know better than me?"

This time, Yan Song did not choke me abnormally, but said: "I do everything for your own good."

"No." I sneered, "I don't need it."

No other guests were invited to the engagement banquet in the evening, only the parents and elder brothers of both parties attended. They discussed the wedding arrangements, and Cheng Yu and I became the most insignificant people at the banquet.

On the way, Cheng Yu said that she was going to the bathroom, and gave me a wink before leaving the table, so after 2 minutes, I excused myself to go out to smoke, and also left the seat.

She was waiting for me on the observation deck of the hotel, and I walked over and asked, "Do you mind if I smoke?"

Cheng Yu shook her head, "Anything you want."

I lit a cigarette and smoked slowly. After a while of silence, Cheng Yu suddenly said, "My boyfriend is an alpha."

She didn't look at me, as if she was talking to herself, "I've been together for four years and I often think, if he really loves me, why won't he mark me."

"Do you know how much perseverance is needed for alpha and omega to control themselves not to mark when they are together?" She turned to me and said, "That is the most unreasonable instinct in the world, but he held back."

I thought of Wen Luming.

I'm not an omega, but he still wants to brand me, if not instinct, what is it, is it love?

"Why are you telling me this?" I asked.

Cheng Yu smiled slightly and said, "Because we broke up. Originally, I thought that he would change a little because I was going to get married, but he didn't. I'm tired, and I don't want to test whether he loves me or not anymore."

After a pause, she said, "Actually, I... envy you a little bit. At least that person of yours really cares about you."

"Whether you quarrel or hurt each other, it proves that you still love each other passionately."

In love... Do I and Wen Luming fall in love?I have no idea.

I thought I had already lost the ability to love. Over the years, my perception of emotions has gradually become dull, and I rarely have violent emotional ups and downs.

Until the arrival of Wen Luming, like a silent rain in a spring night, awakened me from hibernation, and glimpsed the freshness of the re-emerged branches on the wasteland.

I find my lost heartbeat because of him, but is that love?

I don't want to face up to this question.

In the evening, I still went back to the house in the Tea Palace. Jiang Han came back early today to wait for me, cooked a light supper, and said that he was afraid that I would drink again.

I leaned on the sofa and said with a half-smile, "I have a happy event today, so I didn't drink."

"What happy event?" Jiang Han put the water glass by my hand, squatted down and asked.

I stroked the soft hair on the top of his head and said, "I'm engaged."

Hearing these words, Jiang Han opened his mouth slightly in surprise, then blinked and said, "But I think...you don't seem very happy."

"Why do you say that?" I asked.

"Because..." He observed my face and said cautiously, "If you were happy, you wouldn't come to me."

I snorted: "I wronged you. Can't I just miss you?"

Jiang Han shook his head seriously, and said: "Actually, I know that you just happened to show up when you needed someone, and it's the same if you were replaced by someone else. I don't feel wronged, what you give me is better than what I take from me." It's been a lot more walking, and I really appreciate you. I can't help you with anything else, but if you're unhappy, I'd like to talk to you."

His eyes are sincere, and I can't continue to joke, but I can't open my heart to him either.In the end, I had to touch his head and said, "I'm not unhappy, don't worry."

Jiang Han probably also guessed that I didn't want to talk to him, so he changed the subject and said with a big smile, "Then I'll get you a strawberry cake, I made it myself this afternoon."

I smiled and said, "Yeah."

Looking at his brisk back, I thought, maybe this is the life that suits me.A beautiful omega who doesn't need to be too smart is by my side. Most of the time, she is obedient and sensible, and occasionally acts like a baby. I lose my temper.

But in this case, do I still look forward to the distant future?Maybe not anymore.

I will continue to hibernate in the wilderness burned by fire, and then forget the rain that woke me up.

When the rain falls on the ground, it is supposed to disappear.

The cake made by Jiang Han is small and cute, but the taste is too sweet, I put it down after two bites.

I am not addicted to sweets, but Wen Luming likes to eat sweets.Although he usually lives a regular life and eats a healthy diet, occasionally when he is tired from work, he indulges himself in eating foods with excessive sugar, such as ice cream, chocolate, and cream cake.

I remember that on the New Year’s Eve dinner, he ate two pieces of sweet-scented osmanthus lotus root made by Aunt Wen. Seeing him tasting it seriously, I had the desire to try this Jiangnan sweet that I had never been interested in for the first time.

But in the end, I didn't eat it either. The candied lotus root was placed in front of Wen Luming, so I couldn't reach out to pick it up, let alone bother him.Later, he helped Xia Yi pick one up with serving chopsticks, and he didn't ask me if I wanted to eat it.

The uneaten plate of candied lotus root became a thorn in my heart. It is not impossible for me to order one outside, or ask my aunt at home to make it, but I am inexplicably competing with myself, stubbornly I thought that if Wen Luming hadn't given it to me, I wouldn't have eaten it.