lonely patient

I spent a year in a daze, using the excuse of being injured to reject all gatherings and visits, except for visiting Xu Yang once at Nanshan Cemetery, I didn't go anywhere.

The weather was fine that day when I went to see him, and the sun was shining warmly.Wearing a thick down jacket, I sat in front of the tombstone and talked with him for a long time.

I chatted with him about Wen Luming, and said that I met an alpha who had the same pheromone as him, and it made me feel sad just like him.

"Are you saying that I have a conflict with Yue Gui?" I smiled wryly at the tombstone, "One or two came to torture me."

"Forget it, I can't blame you for this matter, why should he treat me like this?"

The person in the photo is smiling, always silent.

My heart was sour, I didn't know if it was because of Xu Yang or because of Wen Luming, I touched the photo and said, "Forget it, there are so many people in the world, even you can walk out of my life, he doesn't count What."

When going down the mountain, I suddenly remembered the rainy day when Wen Luming picked me up. Why did he go up the mountain to visit the grave on that day?Then I forgot to ask, and he never mentioned it.

Thinking of the phrase "I know everything" he said again, an unrealistic thought came to my mind: Does he know Xu Yang...

No, no, then I shook my head and denied myself.If they knew each other, I wouldn't have met him.

When a person falls into a stubborn predicament, he often only needs to open his heart and take a step, and he will see many things away.An afternoon spent alone with Xu Yang made me no longer obsessed with trying to figure out a dead end. I started to pick up work and make myself busy again.

It's just that in the dead of night, I still feel lonely and lonely. When I think of Wen Luming, my heart is always humming.It's as if he left me and took away a piece of flesh and blood from my heart.

I went back to my house, retracted like a snail into its shell, and finally realized that loneliness is the normal state of life. The bustle and bustle that came and went before was just a false bubble I built for myself. Leave.

A week later, my parents returned to China, and they quickly set the time for the engagement banquet.The marriage of the two families is not a trivial matter. The next day, the media reported it one after another. If you click on any website, you can see related news.

At a certain moment, I thought, what would Wen Luming think when he saw this, would he care a little bit, or would he just walk away indifferently?

Maybe it will be rowed away, anyway, I already know it.

The night before the engagement banquet, a few acquaintances asked me to go out for a drink, saying that it was a farewell bachelor party for me.I forced myself to laugh and joke with them, joking that we haven't got married yet, is this party coming too early?

"Let's get married and save another round. Brothers just want to drink, who cares how many times you get married?" Qin Bei said, hooking my neck.

Someone mentioned Wen Luming, saying that they thought I was serious this time, but they turned around and got engaged to someone else.

"Stupid, when did you see Yan Qiao seriously?" Another person said.

"That being said, I still think that Teacher Wen is different... Qiaoer, what do you think, do you really want to get married?"

The conversation suddenly turned to me, and I froze for a moment, and said, "Let's talk about it."

"Hey, tell me the truth." Qin Bei saw my strangeness and asked, "Is it because of Teacher Wen that you have been depressed for a while?"

"Where am I sluggish, am I not doing well?" I smiled.

Qin Bei pushed me unceremoniously, "What a fart, your jaw is almost ready to stab someone to death. Let me ask you, have you eaten today?"

I thought about it and replied, "No. No appetite."

"How about yesterday?"

"Yesterday...? Forgot."

"...you're mad at me to death!"

"What's going on?" Han Qian also sat down, "Did you really break up in love? Didn't you get well before going to S City?"

He just came back recently after going abroad with his family for the Chinese New Year. He didn't know what happened between Wen Luming and me, but he only knew that I was injured during a business trip, and I was so scared that I went to Yan Song to apologize when I got off the plane.

"It's not lovelorn. I haven't lost love." I said.

Wen Luming and I have never been in a romantic relationship, the current situation can only be called parting ways.Or to put it more bluntly, tell him to abandon me.

Karma was not good, and finally it was my turn to be abandoned.

Han Qian ignored my denial and continued: "If you are reluctant, go and chase him back. It's not like you to look at yourself here."

"How do I chase after it?" Thinking of Wen Luming's decisive look, I smiled wryly, "Spending money? He doesn't care about my money."

"Can you think of something else besides money and sex transactions?" Han Qian actually had the nerve to teach me, "How did you attract him before, and how do you go after him now."

Before... I lowered my eyes and said, "I don't know what attracted him to me."

Han Qian hates iron and steel: "I beg you to look in the mirror, Yan Qiao, you just go to him with this face every day, I don't believe he can be indifferent. In this way, you first take a photo and post it on Moments, and write farewell Single, I bet he won't be able to sit still tonight."

I looked at him dubiously, and asked, "Really... What are you shooting?"

"casual."

In the end, I listened to him and casually patted a piece of wine on the table, and suddenly felt a burst of frustration when I sent it out: "Forget it, he won't care."

"Oh, don't delete it." Han Qian snatched my phone, "Try it first, if it doesn't work, think of another trick."

Deep down in my heart, I felt that Wen Luming wouldn't care about these little tricks, and he wouldn't even say whether he would use Moments.And he separated from me because of my engagement, now that the wedding is a certainty, it is even more impossible for him to look back at me.

I let Han Qian take my mobile phone and drank the wine in the glass silently. I don't know if it was because I didn't eat, and I felt a burning pain in my stomach.

Today I got drunk extra fast and ended a little earlier than usual.The driver asked me where I was going, and I subconsciously wanted to say the address of Wen Luming's house, but my words choked up, and I changed my mind and said, "Let's go to the Tea Palace."

I don't want to face an empty house alone again, no matter who it is, as long as it can be with me today.

After being with Wen Luming, I haven't seen Jiang Han again. I only asked Luna to find a director I know to help him arrange a role. I vaguely remember that I finished filming years ago, and now I should be at home.

I haven't been to the house in the Tea Palace a few times, so I searched for it based on my memory, unlocked it with my fingerprints, and found that Jiang Han wasn't there.

I was agitated for a while, so I dug out his phone and dialed it. After the connection, the voice over there was obviously surprised: "Yan, President Yan?"

"Where are you?" I asked.

"I'm in the company dormitory..." Jiang Han said cautiously.

"You can't live in the company's dormitory at home?" I couldn't hold back my tone of impatience, "Ask the driver to take you back."

He hesitated for a moment and said, "Oh..."

It was late at night, and I was physically exhausted, and I couldn't sleep because I drank too much alcohol and felt uncomfortable.After lying on the sofa and waiting for more than half an hour, Jiang Han finally came back, with the cold air on his body, he hurried in and asked, "Brother Yan, why are you here?"

"I drank too much." I lay still, waved my hand and said, "Pour me a glass of water."

"Oh." Jiang Han hurriedly took off his coat to pour water, and after a while came over with a glass of lukewarm honey water, and handed it to my lips, "Drink slowly."

I sat up and drank two sips of water with his hand.

Jiang Han brought me hot towels and slippers, and went to make hangover soup. Looking at his figure before and after running, my depression finally dissipated. ——What do you want Wen Luming, as long as I think about it, there are people who are willing to accompany me, so I don't need Wen Luming...

Just as I was thinking, the mobile phone that was left on the coffee table rang suddenly. I looked down and saw Wen Luming's name on the screen.

For a moment, I wanted to hang up subconsciously, because I knew that hearing his voice would not feel good to me now, but after struggling, I still picked up.

"Hello," I pretended to be calm, "Teacher Wen?"

Wen Luming hummed, and there was no emotion in his calm voice.

"Is something wrong?" I asked.

There was silence for a while, and said, "I want to ask if you still want that painting?"

Painting... I remembered, that was the only decent gift I gave Wen Luming.

There is only one thing, and he doesn't want it anymore.

I raised the corners of my lips, trying to laugh, but my nose was sore. "Leave it alone," I said, "I'll send someone to get it later."

There was another silence. Just when I thought he was going to hang up, he asked, "Is the engagement banquet tomorrow?"

"Brother Yan, the bath water is ready." Jiang Han came out of the bathroom and said briskly without seeing me on the phone.

I looked over and responded lightly: "Understood, wait for me."

"There is someone in your family... who is it?" When I spoke again, I heard a hint of anger in Lu Ming's voice, and I felt like laughing more and more, so I laughed too: "What's none of your business?"

"Yan Qiao, you are getting engaged tomorrow, and today..."

"Yeah, you know I'm getting engaged tomorrow." I interrupted him with a smile, "Even if I'm still fooling around with others today, my fiancee should be in charge of me. What does it have to do with you?"

Sure enough, there was no talking.

"Wen Luming, you..." I was about to say something, but my stomach twitched suddenly, the pain made me frown, and my voice softened, "If you want to ask me out, please do it another day, I'm not free today."

Beep—a busy tone came from the phone, and Wen Luming hung up the phone.

Fine, I screwed up again.

Looking at the darkened screen, the alcohol churning in my stomach became more and more raging. I felt an irresistible nausea, stumbled into the bathroom, and vomited all over the toilet.

Jiang Han was terrified, stood by and handed me water and towels, his voice was so frightened that he burst into tears: "Brother Yan, are you okay? Me, I'll call the doctor for you..."

"No need..." I shook my head, acid water welling up in my stomach again.

I didn't eat, and I had nothing to vomit except wine and stomach acid. I finally emptied my stomach. I almost lost my strength. I supported the sink and stood up, and said slowly: "I'm fine, you go out first."

Jiang Han looked at me worriedly, didn't dare to ask more questions, hesitated for a moment and obediently went out and closed the door.

I soaked myself in the bathtub and slowly sank to the bottom.The skin was gently soothed by the water, and I closed my eyes, remembering Wen Luming's disgusted tone on the phone.

He's starting to hate me.Knowing it was self-inflicted, I still feel pain.

Too useless Yan Qiao.I told myself.

For this matter, make yourself like this.You are so useless.