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It snowed heavily not long ago, and the weather hasn't warmed up yet.Ji Lejin was wearing a white down jacket and a plaid scarf around his neck. When he wore the scarf, he hoped to bury half of his face in it.

Ji Lejin turned her face to look outside the window, waiting for the plane to take off.

Ji Lejin felt a sense of weightlessness when the plane ran across the runway and went straight into the sky.I don't know when Qin Suiming learned to cook. The food he cooks is not unpalatable, and some of Ji Lejin's favorite dishes are beyond standard.

But Ji Lejin always moved a few chopsticks every time, he was always picky, he didn't like to eat, he liked to eat snacks.Now I don't even eat snacks.

Ji Lejin didn't have a lot of flesh on her face, she didn't eat much these days, and her chin became thinner again.

He was rarely so quiet, and when he drooped his eyelashes silently, it was a bit like he was in poor health when he was a child.

Once Ji Lejin was ill, she would be ill for a long time, and she would not be able to lift her spirits up, and she was even more embarrassed.

When he settles down and doesn't make a fuss, it makes people flustered.

The plane had been flying for a long time, and Ji Lejin took cold medicine before boarding the plane. He was watching movies and ignoring people, but watching the side effects of the medicine come up, he fell asleep with his head tilted.

Qin Suiming reached out to tuck the corner of the blanket for him. He didn't sleep, but just stared blankly at Ji Lejin's sleeping face.

His brows were frowned, and his sleeping face was as peaceful as an angel, but he didn't sleep very well, as if he was having a disturbing nightmare.

It was already midnight when we got off the plane, Qin Suiming asked his assistant to leave, and drove Ji Lejin home by himself.

When he came to the door, the corners of Ji Lejin's eyes were red again. He wanted to be manly, but he also cried quietly several times in the past few days.

Ji Lejin's footsteps stopped outside the door, his voice was very low: "I want to move back, I don't want to continue living with you."

This is the second time he wants to move out, but it is not as playful as the first time, Ji Lejin is serious this time.

Qin Suiming suddenly felt a little dazed, he obviously hoped that Ji Lejin would be carefree, and obviously wanted to give Ji Lejin the best, but he made Ji Lejin unhappy.

It was him who made Ji Lejin unhappy.Ji Lejin even thinks that his love is a price, a price that is too heavy to bear.

At the deadly elevator door, Qin Suiming lowered his eyes, and he unlocked the combination lock with his fingerprint. After a beep, the door opened.

Maybe it was because he knew what would happen when he came back, that's why he kept procrastinating not returning to China.

Qin Suiming said: "You're going to start school in a few days, it's inconvenient to toss around, you can live here, I'll move out."

Without waiting for Ji Lejin to answer, Qin Suiming continued on his own: "If you are afraid of living alone, I can help you get the dog to accompany you now, or I can call my aunt to accompany you tomorrow and let her live in the guest room That's it."

"Qin..."

"You should know where your things are, right?" Qin Suiming still felt a little uneasy after thinking, he went into the bedroom to find things, "The remote control of the air conditioner, the charger, and the earphones are all on your bedside table. Don't mess them up after you use them up." Throw it, remember to put it back in place."

"If there's anything else you can't find, call me."

Qin Suiming came out of his room and said in a low voice, "I'll pack up and leave."

These things have already been presupposed many times, so Qin Suiming said them very smoothly.He didn't want to see Ji Lejin sad.

Ji Lejin suddenly couldn't speak out the manuscript he had typed up. After a few seconds of silence, he lowered his head and said, "Qin Suiming, I want to break up."

He was in a relationship for the first time, and he didn't even know that breaking up sometimes only needs to be unilateral. It was baffling at first, but he paid great attention to this ceremony when breaking up.

"It doesn't matter."

Qin Suiming took a few steps to grow his legs.He walked up to Ji Lejin, couldn't help but still hugged him.Their height difference of ten centimeters is suitable for hugging, and Ji Lejin's forehead can almost touch the tip of his nose.

They are all boys, but it may be because Ji Lejin's waist is too thin, so it is suitable for hugging.

Qin Suiming repeated: "It doesn't matter."

"You live here, and I won't bother you or provoke you, but we can't break up."

Probably because he was afraid of Ji Lejin's repentance, Qin Suiming moved out of his home that night. He didn't bring anything and went out empty-handed.

When he walked downstairs, Qin Suiming remembered that Ji Lejin hadn't had dinner yet, so he found a wonton shop and ordered small wontons in chicken soup.

While waiting outside, Qin Suiming went to the nearby supermarket to buy a pack of cigarettes, and smoked one quietly.Thinking about going to deliver food to Ji Lejin later, he didn't continue to smoke.

Qin Suiming stood at the door and rang the doorbell. After a while, Ji Lejin showed his face through the crack of the door.He seemed to be wary of Qin Suiming repenting, so he stood a little distance away.

"Small wontons in chicken soup." Qin Suiming kept a safe distance, and passed the things in his hand, "It's too late now, it's all supper, and there is nothing you can eat when you have a cold. Just make it."

Ji Lejin retracted her hand between the cracks of the door, and finally hooked the bag hook with her index finger.

"Ji Lejin." Qin Suiming said suddenly, "Don't be afraid of me."

No matter how many hypocritical sorry words are said, Qin Suiming only hopes that Ji Lejin will not be afraid of him.He didn't see whether Ji Lejin nodded or not, and the door closed.

Qin Suiming came out from home again.He had nowhere to go, so he finally drove to Chen Botao's house.He knew that Chen Botao must not be asleep yet, so he didn't hesitate at all when he rang the doorbell.

"I'm really speechless..." Chen Botao glanced at Maoyan in advance, and cursed, "Qin Suiming, do you know what time it is? It's almost one o'clock in the evening. Do you know how scary it is when the doorbell rings?"

Qin Suiming ignored him, changed his shoes and went in, and took a bottle of beer from the refrigerator at the small bar.He pulled it away neatly with one hand and raised his head to drink.

Chen Botao knew that nothing good would happen. He predicted in advance, covered his ears and walked into the room: "Don't tell me about your love life, I really don't want to hear it. Now that I see Ji Yongze, I feel guilty, do you know that?"

He was dragged by Qin Suiming and fell onto the sofa. Chen Botao closed his eyes helplessly, and asked, "Do I look like the kind of brother who is said on the Internet? Why didn't I see that you are a love brain?"

"I'm not in love, I just like Ji Lejin." Qin Suiming threw the can into the trash can and said abruptly, "What should I do to Ji Lejin?"

Chen Botao is different from someone like Qin Suiming who has never been in love. He has been in love since elementary school. Although he has never dated boys, he has actually talked a lot about love.

"A person like Jinbao..." Chen Botao frowned and said, "You have to let him go, and you have to let him go." But after thinking about it, Chen Botao clicked his tongue lightly again: "But you can't let him go too much, You have to take care of him, you have to find that degree, you know?"

"What degree?"

"How do I know!" Chen Botao's eyes widened, "Ji Lejin's type is too troublesome, even if it's a girl, I've never talked about it."

Qin Suiming obviously didn't intend to make trouble like this at the beginning, nor did he intend to do so.He wanted to take his time and fill Ji Lejin's life little by little.

He wanted Ji Lejin to gradually perceive his love, and eventually love would sprout from love.This is correct, but there are many mistakes, the weather is unfavorable from time to time, and people are not harmonious.

Hearing Ji Lejin's words about going after Fu Ying, he lost his mind and completely forgot all the plans in his heart.He wanted to go crazy, but Ji Lejin's tears were like a collar around his neck, and he didn't need to use much force, just a light tug on Qin Suiming and he began to endure it.

In the end, no matter whether it is crazy or accommodating, neither of them can be equal.Ji Lejin neither liked him nor feared him.

Sometimes to the extreme, Qin Suiming would simply think, let Ji Lejin be afraid of him, and just listen to him when he is so afraid.

Just think about it.

Qin Suiming held his forehead with his hands. He had never been a poor student, but this matter was a mess.

It is too late to repent now, and this kind of reluctance is even more tormenting.They have quarreled many times because of this matter, but this is the bottom line that Qin Suiming sticks to in the end, if they don't break up, they don't want to break up no matter what.

Ji Lejin stayed at Qin Suiming's house for a few days, feeling uncomfortable no matter what, so she finally contacted the school teacher and took a single room.

Unaccustomed to wearing anklets, Ji Lejin took them off and put them in a box, but he hesitated when picking out the jade, and in the end he thought it was Baoping and hung it around his neck.

Qin Suiming will still appear in front of him, because he often sees familiar cars parked at the gate of the school he often enters and exits.He didn't know when Ji Lejin would come out, and Ji Lejin didn't know how long he had been waiting.

Most of them are the messages he sent to Ji Lejin, very repetitive questions and exhortations.

"Is your flu over?"

"Remember to take your medicine. I'll put the medicine box in the black bag for you."

"It's raining, bring an umbrella."

"..."

Qin Suiming didn't show up, and the daily meal was still delivered on time. Ji Lejin was in a complicated mood when she ate with her chopsticks.

He is still not in a good mood these days, but Qin Suiming gave him time to calm down, and he has calmed down a lot.

The weather at the end of February was still not getting warmer. Ji Lejin and her classmates climbed the mountain for an hour with the equipment on their hands before reaching the top of the mountain.

I don't know who came up with the idea to go to the mountains to take pictures.Ji Lejin's biggest amount of exercise is the 1000-meter physical test. When he climbed to the top of the mountain, his legs were so weak that he collapsed and sat down, and he was ridiculed for being inferior to girls.

Ji Lejin picked up a small stone from his side and threw it at the person.

"Don't sit still, hurry up and shoot." The classmate who was hit by him avoided it with a smiley face, and looked at the sky above his head, "The weather forecast says it will rain at night, so finish shooting early and go back early."

All went well, and they called it a day as the sun began to set.Ji Lejin had no strength left, and walked down the rugged mountain road feebly.

He couldn't help complaining: "Who the hell picked this mountain? The mountain roads haven't been repaired yet. I feel like I'm going to fall if I don't pay attention to my steps. There are so many forks in the road."

"It doesn't quite fit the theme background we are going to shoot this time."

"It fits..." Ji Lejin muttered softly, he stopped suddenly, blinked his eyes, "I forgot to take my bag."

He turned around cursing, and started to run up the mountain again.

"Do you want us to go with you?"

"No need." Seeing that the things in their hands were heavy, Ji Lejin shook his head and said, "It's not that far away, I can walk back by myself, you just wait here for me."

Facts proved that he thought highly of himself. The last time he climbed a mountain was ten years ago, and he had never climbed this kind of mountain.

Ji Lejin has a poor sense of direction, but is always confident.He thought he remembered the way, but after walking for a while, Ji Lejin finally realized something was wrong.

He took out his mobile phone and wanted to make a call. The signal on the mountain was already poor. The place they climbed was almost the highest, and there was no signal tower installed, so there was no signal at all.

"Ruined……"

Ji Lejin panicked, he yelled several times on the spot, but no one responded to him.Waiting here is not an option, Ji Lejin tried to go back the same way.

He had long forgotten how he got here, and the more he walked, the more chaotic the route became.

When people are unlucky, drinking saliva seems to be able to stuff their teeth. The vegetation here is too lush, Ji Lejin thought that he was stepping on the ground, but in the end he stepped on the ground.

"Sleeping..."

The soles of his feet slipped, and he fell down a landslide, and there was a long way to climb up.Ji Lejin's fall hurt everywhere, especially her ankle, which must have been sprained, and it was a heart-rending pain.

In a short period of time, he didn't even stand up. He sat cross-legged on the mud floor for a long time, and struggled to stand up while leaning on the wall.

He couldn't push himself at all, let alone climb the wall.

Ji Lejin had no choice but to sit down again, hugging his legs and leaving his only hope on the other students.

But as time passed, his heart became colder, especially when the cold raindrops fell on his neck, Ji Lejin even thought about his suicide note.

It was still a torrential rain, Ji Lejin stood up shivering, and looked around under the landslide, but couldn't find many places to hide from the rain.After several rounds of rain, he was completely soaked.

Ji Lejin's voice was trembling, and she shouted several times again.It was already dark, and all he heard was his own empty echo.

He was not very courageous in the first place, and because he was kidnapped when he was a child, he was a little afraid of the dark, so it didn't feel like sleeping at home with the lights off. In this kind of wilderness, Ji Lejin couldn't help but start fantasizing.

It's not right to close your eyes, and it's not right to open your eyes either. The helpless sense of despair lingers in my heart.Trembling, he took out his phone again, thinking that someone would call the police if he couldn't find anyone else, Ji Lejin turned on the flashlight of the phone with his cold fingers.

In the darkness, the only thing he relied on was the light of the flashlight.

It was the same when he was kidnapped. Those people covered his eyes with a black cloth. Ji Lejin couldn't see anything, but the light from outside could be vaguely seen through the gaps in the black cloth.

While crying, Ji Lejin stared at the ray of light.If he cried a little, he was about to be threatened, and finally he bit his lips tightly and didn't even dare to cry, so he could only stare at the light with his eyes open without blinking.

He was found so quickly because Qin Suiming had a locator in the watch that Qin Suiming wore for him. When he found that he was missing, Qin Suiming immediately went to call the police.

The police quickly surrounded him. Ji Lejin had selectively forgotten the horrible memories of that time. He only remembered that it was Qin Suiming who was the first to rush over to take off his blindfold.

He threw himself into Qin Suiming's arms and cried more than ever before. While crying, he tightly clenched his sleeves, and he would not leave until he hugged him.

"Ji Lejin!"

When Ji Lejin heard the sound, he thought he was hallucinating, he looked up blankly, and only when he saw the person standing on the landslide did he know that it was not an auditory hallucination, nor was it a hallucination.

Qin Suiming was wearing a black sweater, and he jumped off the slope without hesitation.The first thing he did when he came down was to take off his raincoat, and then put it on Ji Lejin.

His hands were trembling, and he hugged him tightly.

Qin Suiming's heart beat faster than when he kissed Ji Lejin for the first time. He hugged Ji Lejin and let himself be drenched in the rain.He repeated over and over: "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid."

"Ugh..."

Ji Lejin finally cried out. She was so scared to death that she didn't dare to cry, she was afraid that her crying would attract something, and she was afraid that crying would waste her energy.Now seeing someone who can be trusted, his tears are mingled with the rain.

He punched Qin Suiming hard, and the first sentence was: "Qin Suiming, why did you come so late?"

While crying, Ji Lejin stammered, "How much wine and cigarettes have you drank, you smell so bad!"

Speaking of smelly, the strength in hugging Qin Suiming was like grabbing the last floating board, stronger than hugging anything else.