Two small without dismantling

Pat's perspective

Fuck, I just left.

In fact, I never thought that Pran would come here to drink, especially with the person I hate.And one thing I must emphasize is that when I'm bothered by something, I have to be drunk to go home, and today is no exception.During the day, I go to class, and after class, I come here for drinks with Karn and the others. A few days after Nat got in touch with me, he prepared all kinds of routines and waited for me. Of course, there are also many beauties who have prepared their IG accounts to contact me, but before I get it, Nat will do everything possible to destroy it. In the end, I could only quietly pretend to come to the bar and meet by chance.

I know why everyone likes to say I'm an idiot, but it's true that after being deeply hurt once, you really can't trust people anymore.Even if it's just for fun, it's just a feeling of the situation.But who would admit defeat, who would be willing to be controlled? !If someone like me is caught by someone, it will be as embarrassing as those two idiots in Wear.These two people's character has never been good, so it's hard to say whether they have been caught by others if they say that their hands are so bad.

"Where are you going Pat?"

I put the money on the table and hold it down with a cup.Then Nat stood up and grabbed my arm, not wanting me to leave. Jo and his fellows just watched silently, no one came to stop them.Neither I nor anyone else wants to cause trouble in a bar.

"I'm leaving first, there's something else to do."

"What's the matter? Are you trying to escape again?"

"Don't bother me anymore, can you?"

"How can you tell me not to pester you, when we..."

"Please, just sleeping together does not mean that we have started dating. This matter is both willing to me and you, and we each take what we need. I have never lied to you, nothing What did you promise me?"

I pushed her away from holding my hand and said in a low voice, now I finally understand what the troubles my sister is talking about look like.

"You also know that some people separate sex and love. I am that kind of person. I think you should be the same kind of person."

"Pat, what the hell are you talking about?"

"Then what do you want me to do? No matter what, I won't associate with you"

I sighed and walked to the door of the store. The owner of the high heels ran through the crowd and grabbed my arm.Fuck, I'm really getting annoyed.

"Pat, you can't treat me like this. Everyone knows that the two of us are getting to know each other. Now you come here and say that you don't have any thoughts about me. Could it be that everyone is wrong?"

"Nat, I have a secret and I want you to be the first to know." I said as I pulled my arm away from her.I can't keep up with Pran now, I'm very anxious, but this matter must be dealt with today.

"Now I suspect that I am gay. I feel very heartbroken and confused. I am under a lot of pressure. And you came at that time, and the 419 that night was just right. I feel that the bed is very It's great, but this doesn't make me stop liking that guy, I can sleep with girls, but my heart can't stop liking that guy, sorry."

When I finished speaking, the hands that were holding me dropped.She didn't say a word, but whether it was eyes or movements, everything was telling Nat.I don't just talk, everything I say is the truth.

"Well, it's your choice this time. You must date me and break up with me until everyone knows that I'm gay. Or choose the best way to end that 419 with dignity."

"Pat you bastard, you are a scumbag."

"I'm sorry, I can't tell you any more. It happened, so can you let me go now?"

The girl's lips were tightly pressed together, and she reached out and slapped me across the face.Whether it's her screaming loudly, or cursing over there.But I just can't wait to hear the answer to my question, I've wasted too much time and today I have to get Pran back before that bastard snatches him from me.

Fortunately, I quickly took a taxi and rushed back to the dormitory.In between, I have been trying to call Pran many times.I've always been very worried about his safety, even if he knows muay thai and is good enough to knock anyone down, I'm still worried because that damn guy is so mean.I fear Pran is no match for him.And the more alcohol works in the blood, the more one will do as one pleases.Not to mention whether Pran will treat that person submissively.

Fuck, if I hadn't quarreled with him, he wouldn't have been so upset, but then again, it didn't seem right, even if I kissed him that day, I was still beaten to death on the spot by him, maybe he doesn't like boys.

But does that mean he hates me too?

I'm really going crazy, so what if he hates me?I will definitely do everything possible to make him fall in love with me and let him indulge in doing happy things with me.To be honest, I have never been in such a dilemma before, nor have I had two villains arguing in my head like this.I'm a person who is always very firm in everything I do, but once I met Pran, I didn't know what to do.

It's ironic to think about it now, what I did to Nat that night, as long as I think about it, I was just having fun, I feel miserable all over.

Today, I feel that the elevator is going up much slower than usual, and even when I reach the dormitory floor, I feel like my head is about to explode.As soon as the elevator doors opened, I saw the guy with the pale lips standing in front of the door, Pran leaning against the open door frame with his hands on his chest.As soon as he saw me, he immediately blocked his dear friend with his body.

"I fuck Pat!"

"How long are you going to protect him?"

"Isn't the matter of that day over yet? Are you going to do it again?"

"Wai, I don't want to cause trouble." Pran turned to stop his friend, then turned to look at me, cursing, but I didn't hear what he said until his next sentence. "Aren't you staying with your wife?"

"Tell that idiot it's better not to provoke me, why does he always provoke me?"

"It's you who can't tell right from wrong, and you're the one who makes trouble, it's never me."

"Fuck, why the hell am I bleeding for such an idiot?"

"Pat, you talk to me well."

"I have something to tell you, but let's take a step back, I don't want to hurt you, Pran."

"You're here to make trouble at my friend's place, and you're here alone like this. Do you think we'll let you off so easily?" Fuck, idiot, I pull Pran away, I feel like an idiot I don't feel like I can speak properly at all.

"Are you going to fight me? Then let the two of us get to know each other, and then please don't mess with Pran again."

"If you want to come to me and talk about something, then don't bother Wai anymore."

"Then you call this idiot back first."

"I'm not going back."

"It's okay, Wai. He won't do anything to me."

"but...."

"Do you want to be beaten into the hospital by me?" I also accepted it, but the guy still looked at me with vicious eyes, as if he was going to eat me.

"I said I don't want to cause trouble, and you still have homework to do, don't waste time with such a person, I will take care of these things myself later."

"Pran...."

"Can't you understand what I'm saying?" Pran turned around and said loudly in his rare booming and deep voice, which meant that the idiot had to be obedient, and he looked at me reluctantly. face, then nodded perfunctorily to the owner of the room.

"Call me if you need anything, I'll wait for you below."

"Go back to the dormitory, don't worry about me, he won't hurt me."

"I just wanted to make things clear."

I was smiling like a winner while the other guy was super upset.The idiot bumped me on the shoulder on purpose as he was walking, but I didn't care.This idiot hastened to roll as far as I could.Fortunately, after the elevator doors closed, Pran was willing to open the door and let me enter the room to chat with him.

"Just say something."

"Are you drunk?"

"I'm not drunk."

"But your face is really red." I wanted to reach out to touch his face, but the guy seemed to be scalded by something, and immediately avoided it.

"Don't touch me with your hands, go back to your people."

"Two days ago you stopped me from getting entangled with Nat, why did you drive me to her place today?"

"I see you look very happy, why did you come back so soon?" Seriously, I've never seen this guy look so sarcastic. He folded his hands on his chest and didn't even bother to raise his head to look at me.I also tried to get close to him, but he immediately walked away very defensively.

"I'm sorry, are you still angry about me kissing you?"

"Hehe, people like you and dogs can kiss, I don't think there's anything special about that."

"The more you act like this, the more you act like you're stalking your husband and catching him cheating on you?"

"I didn't follow you. If you have anything to say, just say it quickly. Don't waste time, and don't talk to me."

"To be honest, you haven't seen me for a few days, don't you miss me?

"I don't miss you at all, I feel very comfortable these days."

"But I miss you terribly."

Pran turned to look at me.I took the opportunity to get close to him, pulling him into my arms and hugging him.Convincingly buried her face in his shoulder.I was so jealous that I almost drove myself crazy, just to stay with that bastard and drive me away, I felt like the sky was going to collapse, and I was depressed for several days.Just wanting this person in front of me to show a little concern or concern for me is enough.

As people often say, people always act very unlovable when they need love.

And I need to get a lot from him.

"Pran is very sorry about Nat. At that time, I didn't understand many things, and I was in a state of confusion."

"You don't have to apologize to me, those are your business."

"How can I not apologize to you? You were sitting in the bar with your brows tightly locked. Wasn't it because you were jealous of me?"

"You are really too narcissistic."

"Then what do you want me to think? You act like you're accusing me."

"I'm not jealous. Who and where you want to go with is your own business. I won't meddle in my own business."

"If it's jealousy. I want to be controlled and ordered."

"Why should I take care of your affairs, let me go, don't mess around, I'm not."

"I know you are not my woman, but you are my man, haven't you recognized it yet? If not, then I will do it. One day you will be, because I have no way to let go It's you. Even if someone thinks that time will make people forget, but I can't do it, do you know what I think?"

"Don't come and talk to me like this, you keep those imaginations by yourself." Pran tried hard to break away from my arms.I looked at his distorted face, but I still felt very good-looking.The young boy before me frowned.Covering his nose with his hands, he said, "Your perfume smells really bad."

"That's Nat's."

"Ha ha!"

"Don't make trouble, I've made it clear to her, I'm really sorry, you can make me do whatever you want. I now understand that ridicule can't solve anything."

"Don't tell me that." Pran's voice still sounded sour.I feel that he is very irritable. Although he is not as irritable as before, he is still irritable about that matter.I know very well in my heart, I have known him for so long, how could I not see it. "Please wait a while and find another girl, and next time you find a better quality one. It won't make me irritated and want to become a nosy person."

"No, you don't look like the super cool Pran when you're angry with me now. You only use what happened before to me. If you're jealous, just say you're jealous."

"Don't be self-righteous there. What do I like about you? You just make trouble every day."

"It's true, I don't want to love you either, but I have already fallen in love with you."

Pran fell silent for a moment.He still didn't look at me as before, but I saw his eyes were full of confusion, as if he didn't understand what I was trying to say.

"When I see you are jealous, I say I am jealous, and if I love you, I say I love you, just like I say I love you."

"What nonsense are you talking about?"

"I'm telling the truth."

"Have you gotten this far with your mouth, Pat?"

"Do you also know that I am like this to everyone, or is it just you? You are the one who knows me best Pran"

I looked into his eyes, looking at him pleadingly from the bottom of my heart.I will no longer hide from what I feel inside or hide what I feel inside.I'm crazy and like a mad dog for no reason.I don't want Pran to escape.The relationship between us has never been the idea of ​​either party alone, and it wouldn't have come to light without Nat's incident causing him to lose his mind.I know what a terrible person I am, causing trouble to make him so angry, but I never apologized, and I never gave in to him so easily.

"I was so confused, so I did that stupid, vexatious thing, and now I know. I don't want to be in love with you, and I don't want to feel that way, we're both boys of the same gender. But what I want More than anything, you break my heart. The bastard has only been here for a few years, but you give me the feeling that he's more important to you than me. Why? Am I not good enough to let Will you give me a chance?"

"Just because I care more about my friends than you, I made you lose yourself and sleep with Nat? Is that what you mean?"

"You know I'm an idiot too! And like a child, I always like the vexatious behavior of capricious Sabo." I wanted to make him feel pain, but the one who was sad in the end was myself instead. "I was wrong, I was really wrong, there will never be a next time, please give me a chance."

"Heh, what do you think is so good about yourself that I should give you a chance?"

"In that case, tell me that you never really felt anything about the past, that you never felt that my existence meant anything to you. When we were together, you never No warmth or comfort. If one day I disappear from your life, if you need that, please look me in the eyes and tell me. I will believe you."

I looked at him with sincere eyes, and told him all the true thoughts in my heart.Everything I said to him was my true feelings.As long as I have him by my side, as long as I am the first person he will go to when he has something to do.No matter the time, our time together is always worth it.

"I can't figure out how to make you stop messing with that guy and come back to me, and I know I'm stupid for doing that. But I'm angry that I can't do anything, stand There's no way to do those things with him when you're around."

I watched his eyes full of thought and confusion, and I could understand that.Because the same thing happened to me this past time.My violent behavior at that time was caused by my inability to deal with inner anxiety.Although now I still have no way to answer myself.But my heart was strongly occupied by the fear of losing Pran.

He is still silent, not saying a word, but the more he is silent, the more anxious I feel.If he said no, then everything would fall apart, and I rested my head on his shoulder wearily.The more he wanted to use his violent and self-willed temper to solve the problem, the more it made the matter messy.

"I really can't bear the life I'm living now. Pran, I can't bear the days when I can see you but I can't have you in this state." I wrapped my arms around his waist and said in a low and hoarse voice He whispered in his ear. "If you say no, I think I should really disappear from your life."

"Where did it go?" I heard the same frequency as my own exhausted heartbeat.

"I don't know, but if I have to accept that you choose that guy, I feel that I really can't live. I will go crazy. Just like this, I feel sad for everything that happened before. Even if I love you I am also sad about this incident. But I am even more sad that I made you feel depressed and uncomfortable."

The person in my arms is getting quieter and quieter, and the confidence I had before has begun to gradually decline.I have no way to imagine that one day I can no longer have his day.I just want to get your answer so that I can understand what I should do.

Waiting for the answer is the longest, and the silence makes my heart gradually wither.But he was still as calm as before, and the black eyes rolled slowly from side to side.Constantly thinking, I can even see his lips loosen and close sometimes.Feel his breath constantly exhaling and inhaling.

"My friend's name is Wai, Waikron."

"I don't care what his name is, is that what we should be talking about now?"

"You are now asking me to let me be your boyfriend. Don't be angry at this time." He was as calm as ever, and because of this, my anxious heart also cooled down. I loosened my embrace With both arms, he turned to face the wall, and kept banging his head against the wall.

"What are you going crazy again? Will you die if you stop your stupidity? Your big movement will affect the people in other dormitories."

He pulls my shoulders back and I look at his face, he's still worried about me, just talking about worrying about other people.I watched as he frowned and cleared his throat before continuing.

"Wai is my friend. Also, I don't like standing next to people who do wrong. You are the one who caused trouble, and I want you to apologize to him."

"Pran, you bastard! I just told you that I will beat him to disfigurement. If I meet him next time, I will trample him to the ground. You actually want me to apologize to him."

"Pat, I don't want you to be such a vexatious person."

"About anything, but it can't be about you, okay?" The man next to me was still sitting quietly.The lips were tightly pressed together, still in a state of confusion.

"Pat, everything you just said to me is not lying to me is it? Is it true?"

"Have you ever seen me look so serious? It's the first time I've ever looked like this." I sighed and pressed my temples, nerves so tense that even he could tell.And I also knew from the softening of the man's voice when he asked me the next question.

"Since when did you feel that way?"

"I don't know. Do I need to know? If I know, it means that I have restrained myself for a long time. By the time I realize it, I will be very annoying for you and that guy to kiss me."

"Waikron."

"I told you all, I don't care what his name is."

"He's my friend, how can you ignore this? If you want to date me, and you don't remember the name of any of my friends? Isn't that a little bit too much for you?"

I'll go, I didn't hear wrong just now.

My eyes widened, my heart was beating violently, I pulled him into my arms and hugged him intimately at the same time, kissing the cheeks that had changed from flushed to fair, from left to right, and then from right to left.

"I heard. Pran I heard what you said, I am not deaf."

"I mean if, I haven't agreed with you yet."

"Then what if I remember your friend's name? Wai, right? No problem, I remember, can you date me? You see, I have firmly remembered, I swear I remember his name in my dreams .”

"You're really moody."

"Don't you know me yet?" It's like the earth is going to explode, like waiting in court for a verdict.But instead he was pardoned, as if a dying person had breath again. "Pran, are you serious?"

"Fuck, let me go, did you become a fucking octopus? You bastard, look at your beard!"

"Uh, I'm sorry, I didn't shave." I let go of my arms, laughed loudly, and looked at the angry man with gentle eyes.His face was already red, redder than when he was in the bar before.

"Don't laugh there, you haven't dealt with the matter of swearing at me, and the matter of that woman."

"I'm sorry, let me apologize as many times as I want, but I really realize that I was wrong, and you know that I have a short temper, and I can't control my temper. I know I need to pay attention, and I really realize that I am very bad. Otherwise, you can punish me by kissing me from now on. "

"I'll fuck you, you're so brazen."

"But my mouth is very soft." I made a pouting gesture as I said it, but instead, the owner of the room slapped me gently with the palm of my hand.It's the kind that doesn't hurt at all, because his hands are so soft. "I'm so sleepy, please let me sleep here, okay, since I quarreled with you, I haven't been able to fall asleep a day."

"I've already walked into my bedroom like this, do you still need to ask? You bastard, give me a bath first, and then don't go back and sleep with your rotten doll?"

"do not want!"

I turned around and smiled slyly at him.

"I've grown up and become a handsome guy with a boyfriend. How can I still be obsessed with dolls? I'll sleep with you in my arms tonight, and you will take the place of the doll."

"Who is your boyfriend?"

"Someone said they were going to date together."

"It's just a friendship."

"Pran~" I said coquettishly in a drawn-out voice, but he still looked at me with his chest folded expressionlessly.What a headache, young man, you can't take back what you say.

"It's just your own opinion."

"Uh, I think so, but I won't let go of your hand." After I finished speaking, I raised my little finger, and he still looked at me fiercely with his arms crossed.Even though he looked much better than before, it was still obvious that he hadn't calmed down.

"There are still things that haven't been clarified."

"What do you say."

"I'm not going to get mad at you about Nat because we were just friends before that and you have the right to do anything and fuck anyone." There was no joke in his words and I stopped Teased him, stood aside and listened seriously. "You're not happy with me and Wai. You should be more aware, how would I feel if I saw you flirting with someone else?"

"I swear I'm not going to let this happen again."

"Starting from today, as long as this kind of thing happens again, I will never forgive you. Don't wait until you cheat, if you didn't tell me today with a sad face, everything is true, even if it's just you watching other I don't even want you at a glance."

Although what he said was very scary, and his serious face seemed to be ready to chop off my neck at any time.But without any fear in my heart, I reached out and took his hand.I smiled at him with all my sincerity.

"I won't change my mind."

"And about you sleeping with someone else, I'm really sad." The owner of the room told me what he had been hiding all along, and I couldn't believe he would say it so easily.He made me feel even more guilty, and we just looked at each other like this.She completely exposed the hidden feelings in her heart, "Don't make me sad anymore. Because today I plan to start over with you, Pat."

"Never again," I leaned over and touched his forehead lightly with my forehead.I want to convey all my thoughts to him, "I will protect it well. The opportunity you gave me."

"It stinks." He opened my mouth and said, frowning, and I could tell he would act grumpy whenever there was a hint of romance.Alas, or maybe he should be shy. "Go take a shower, I really don't like the smell of perfume on your body."

The owner of the room turned and fled, I took the opportunity to hug him from behind, and he immediately gave me an arm in the face.

"Uh, bastard, I'm in so much pain!"

"Who told you to play so exciting, and suddenly ran behind and scared me to death."

I covered my face with one hand, and he came over and pulled my hand away.There was anxiety in his pitch-black eyes, he sighed, shook his head, and said to me, "Go take a bath, I've told you three times, I'll apply the medicine for you later."

"I don't want to take a bath yet, I want to stay with you for a while to relieve my full thoughts of you."

I smiled and grabbed his hand, looking at his lips, if I had another chance, I would like to taste him again.Tasting in that tender way, trying to cover my last rudeness with my tender kisses, but he seemed to know what I was going to do in advance.He glared at me and pushed my head the other way.

"What are you looking at?"

I didn't answer him, but still looked at him with joy.

Even if I am taught by that angry voice now.But I couldn't close my lips that were parted by a smile.

Am I now stepping into a road that rakes my ears and doesn't know it?

"Pat., there is one more thing."

"You said."

"I want you to know what I did wrong, instead of scolding you, you can apologize in the way I like, can you do this for me?"

"can."

"You promise me."

Oh My God!I was literally moved to death as a freed child today.I took his hand, looked him in the eyes, and reiterated to him that I was not just talking, and that I would never behave the way I had done in the past.

"Pran, I will reflect on everything and if there is anything wrong, I will sincerely apologize to your friend. I mean it."

When he heard what I said, the owner of the room with a worried face let out a long breath.