Two small without dismantling

Pran Perspective

I have to admit that I was very angry a few days ago, so angry that I didn't even want to see my own face.But apart from being angry because of this incident, I was very depressed. I was extremely irritable, so irritable that I couldn't control my emotions and words at all.Now I just want to be alone, I want to digest my own emotions, after all, I know very well that the way I am now is meaningless.

In fact, I am very dissatisfied that I have such negative emotions because of him, but at this moment, I really need to calm down, and I can no longer bring that negative emotion to others like a few days ago.

But judging from the current situation, that sick guy didn't understand what I meant.

My neck was controlled by him, he forcibly pulled my body in front of him, now I feel like my lips are about to be crushed by something, the intense touch made my eyes widen .I even started to feel the pain in the wound on my cheek, I tried to get myself out of this predicament, but I don't know where this guy got so much strength, the strength of his arm completely locked me Dying in his arms, I couldn't make any moves at all.It's been a long time since I've had a fight with him on sheer strength, but now I'm literally going nuts with his behavior.

After finally getting rid of him, this guy only said a word, and my tears started to come out of my eyes crazily because of the anger in my heart.

"Ask yourself and tell me, you don't care who I'm with. Is it because my sister asked you...or are you jealous?"

The smile on the corner of his mouth was like an introduction, which made me completely lose my mind.

Snapped!

This time, I didn't have any reservations at all. I punched him with all my strength, but before the second punch was about to hit his stomach, he quickly opened the door and staggered out.

"Don't think I can't hit you if you run away, you goddamn Pat!"

Snapped!

There was a loud closing sound, so loud that the ceiling shook, and the storage box on the cabinet by the door fell to the ground due to the vibration.The box fell to the ground, and the lid was lifted by the impact of the ground, and all the original contents of the box fell to the ground.Those things scattered around, just like how I feel right now.At this moment, I can still feel the beating of my lower lip very clearly. I stretched out my tongue and licked it lightly. My lips were swollen because of being kissed by that man just now, so I couldn't help but raise my brows. .

I'm pretty pissed right now.

I beat the wall around me vigorously, and finally couldn't help cursing the sick person loudly.Until I lost my strength and sat on the ground slumped. I leaned against the door and stared at the ceiling blankly. I felt heat from my eye sockets, but no tears came out.

The goddamn Pat kissed me!What the fuck is this all about?

A few days after this, I submitted my thesis and model, and successfully passed the signature of the thesis advisor.In order to send blessings to the students in time, I then started the second planning work. The time passed quickly, but there are still many friends around me who are discussing with the teacher about models and papers. These two guys, Kae and Golf, disappeared for several days, and it's been two days since I saw them again.They submitted a lot of design plans to the instructor, but each draft was rejected one by one, so they could only call the seniors for advice, and then redesigned the design plan of the easy draft.

During this period of time, I actually didn’t have any classes, and the whole person was basically idle, because I had passed the thesis of this course, and I successfully obtained ten credits, so I spent most of my time on to make a model.What's more, I will ask the instructor some questions when he is free, so since this afternoon, I have been sitting in the school library to look up information.

"Pran, so you are really here."

When I heard this, I raised my head subconsciously, only to see Wai walking over from not far away with that familiar smiling face on his face.

"Have you finished your thesis this time?"

He grinned happily and nodded happily, "It's done."

"Looking at you smiling like this, it seems that there is good news."

"Yes, yes, I finally passed, and I am just about to kneel down to the instructor."

He took a chair and sat down next to me, and I smiled at him, but the next second I turned my gaze back to the book I was just reading.

"Pran..."

"Ah."

"This model should not be needed at this time."

"no."

I raised my head from this information book, which was full of proportional relationships between people and objects, and there were a lot of English annotations beside it, and turned to look at the person who was talking to me.

"What's wrong?"

Wai's face still looks a bit haggard, but this guy is still talking to me with a smile.The wound on his face has actually healed a lot, but the corners of his mouth are still blue and purple.The wound where I was injured before has also begun to scab, and the wound on the brow bone is only covered with a small bandage, instead of being wrapped with gauze like a few days ago.

"Now everyone is very afraid of you, saying that you have been exuding an aura of death all over your body recently."

"I am very well."

"But you have been like this for several days, if you have anything, you can tell me."

"Don't worry about those shitty things, I'm fine, I'm just a little bored."

"Why are you bored? It would be best if you have nothing to do. But I don't know if it's my illusion. Since the last fight, you have become very strange."

Hearing him say that, I fell silent.Thinking if Phu saw her Pat brother hit my friend like crazy, saw me trying to hold him, but was punched hard by him; saw me and him so violently During the quarrel, every word he said pierced my heart until it made me feel chilling; when we met by chance, even though we would see each other, no one wanted to pay attention to each other.He walked his Yangguan Road, and I walked my single-plank bridge. We will not look at each other secretly and smile like before.

There is also the scene that happened three days ago, which makes people feel very crazy.

"I'm just bored, and homework is boring too."

"Pran..." I don't know if it's because my face is too scary, when he called my name, his voice lowered a lot unconsciously, "I'm sorry."

"Why are you sorry for me?" I turned my head to look at the face full of annoyance, and couldn't help laughing, "Why are you looking at me with an annoyance?"

The person who really needs to apologize has no idea where he was wrong, and is not about to bow his head and admit it.

"I'm annoying you."

"I'm not angry with you." I shook my head and closed the book I was reading just now. "But I'm really a little tired."

"I know."

I nodded, knowing that I didn't need to say anything more, so I opened the book again and read it. "

"Let's have a drink tonight."

"Didn't you hear what I said just now? As long as you drink, nothing good will happen."

"Let's go, let's go, let's just relax, anyway, this thing is over. And we will soon start the day and night when we can only do homework, when we become Relax before a poor homework ghost," he said with a smile, "I promise I won't cause any trouble this time."

"whatever."

I separated from Wai in front of the dormitory. After we made an appointment to meet at the door of the dormitory tonight, I took the elevator back to the room with the drawings and books borrowed from the library.When I walked to the door of the room, I just saw Phu open the door of the room.

"Oh, Brother Pran."

The owner of that sweet voice and that cute smile walked towards me, looking at this cute smile made me realize that this little girl is not like his brother who is always annoying.

I returned a smile to this cute kid before asking, "Are you skipping class?"

"I don't have class this afternoon, I'm going back to the dormitory to get something, and I'm going to watch a movie with my friends tonight."

"Then how are you going to go now?"

"I'll just take a taxi." My sister replied, and then reached out and locked the door.

"Do you want me to take you there later?"

"No, no," Phu refused me while waving his hand.When we are together, Phu is always so cute. I can't imagine that Phu will put his hands on his waist like a dominatrix and teach Pat a lesson.Because from the time I have known her, she has always been very polite to me and very gentle.Maybe it's because of her drowning incident when I was a child, so I always feel like she is like my own sister.It may be because of this reason that I always feel that I am her other brother.

"Then have fun."

"Brother Pran."

"What's wrong?" I raised my eyebrows, and felt that the child's sweet smile had disappeared from her face, replaced by a look of anxiety, which made me ask, "What happened?" ?”

"Brother Pran hasn't reconciled with my brother yet?"

"..."

"Are you so angry with my brother?"

I pursed my lips tightly, and the corners of my eyes drooped unconsciously.

"My brother has been coming back to sleep very late for several days in a row, and basically drunk every day. When I complained to him, he just sat there silently, It's not like my brother." Phu said for a long time, her voice sounded very nervous. Pat you know?You have a sister who loves you very much.When I heard these words, I felt very sad, because his previous actions really made me not know what to say?

"I'm really worried about my brother."

I remained silent and didn't speak, because I didn't know what to say.I can't think of a word to comfort her at all in my mind, because this thing didn't happen to others, but happened to me, which made me even more clueless about what to say.

"I know that my brother has a lot of problems, and his personality is also very bad. He is very self-willed, arrogant and narcissistic, and he will always cause me a lot of trouble."

It is indeed..... This scolding is more ruthless than me.It is definitely my sister who is right, the appraisal is complete.

"But for my brother, brother Pran is a very important person to him."

When I heard this, my heart suddenly missed a beat. I felt very shocked, but I couldn't explain it.My heart was beating faster and faster, much to my annoyance, and I couldn't remember when was the last time I made eye contact with Pat?Because in these two or three days, if I meet him by chance, I will subconsciously avoid him, or when I meet him in front of the door, I will enter the room as quickly as possible.We have no chance to get closer to each other, I know this is to escape, because I don't want to have any quarrel with him.Even though it's been so long, I don't want to have another word with him.

"I see. Hurry up and go to the movies with your friends. You must take good care of yourself and be safe. And don't be late."

"Brother Pran, you are so cute." The sweet and lovely smile returned to his face. "I know every time Pran brother is sad, and every time I will be very angry with my brother."

"Your mouth is so sweet, but I don't have candy for you."

"I don't want any candy, I'll get fat." Hearing what she said, I glanced at her waist, oh, it's so thin, I can basically hold it with one hand. "I want to ask my brother to forgive my brother."

All I can do is reach out and touch the child's head, hoping that she will be happy.I said, "You can go to the movies now, and your friends will wait for you again later."

"Goodbye, brother."

I nodded, watched her ride in the elevator, and then opened the door of my room.

After entering the room, I took off the shirt on my body, went to the laundry basket and threw it in, untied my belt buckle casually, and lay down on the sofa with my hands behind my head.

Pat and I grew up together, and we've been through a lot.Even if I deliberately don't say it, we have become people who know each other better than anyone.He knew what major I wanted to study the most and what my goal in college was.Many times, in fact, we are all making the same decision tacitly, and we will also discuss with each other who is imitating whom. As long as we see each other's face, we can understand what the other party wants to say, and we can understand each other's thoughts by looking at each other's eyes. We don't need extra words to explain anything between us.Maybe we hate each other, fighting each other is our last protective color between each other.

In fact, when both of us are covered in scars, I often secretly look at him.Then ask yourself in the bottom of your heart, what is the relationship between the two of us?

The two of us are not friends like ordinary friends, nor are we friends who can go anywhere together.We have no way to eat together, travel together, or be free to go wherever we want.But even so, our relationship is not enmity.

As far as I can remember, the two of us ate out only once.It was late one night, so late that we could be sure no one knew we'd been out together.The relationship between us can no longer be explained in a simple sentence or two.As time goes by, such an abnormal relationship has become our habit, and we are also used to letting such a relationship exist between us, we wait to meet, wait to quarrel, wait to hate each other, time and time again , over and over again, but we never really got angry.

I looked up out the window, at the white clouds floating in the blue sky, and let my thoughts go blank.

"A lot of people, the bar is full of people." I looked around the bar and found that there was no vacant seat at all.

"It's not all your fault. I came down more than half an hour late."

"I fell asleep, sorry."

"Hey, look there's an empty table over there."

Wai pointed to a corner of the bar, where there was a very small table, the kind of table for four.He dragged me over and sat down on the chairs together. He stretched out his hand and called the waiter to take an order. He quickly ordered some things we often eat.After a while, the waiter brought up our order. I took the wine glass and filled it with ice cubes and wine, then lifted it up and had a drink with Wai.

Usually we would come to the bar with a bunch of people. Although it was noisy, a bunch of boys were also very happy to play together, but if at any time, we went with two people, we didn't call anyone else.That is, I want to be in a daze quietly and let my mind go.

Wai chatted with me casually, which allowed me to immerse myself in my own world quietly.I occasionally raised my wine glass to touch him to prove that I was still sitting here.In fact, I used to come to the bar, besides drinking, beautiful girls are also indispensable, but I never cared about it, maybe because I am a very serious person, so I don’t want to have casual sex with anyone. No relationship necessary.

Maybe, maybe it's because....I haven't met a person I'm obsessed with yet.

Many times, very young and good-looking girls walked past me on purpose to get to know me.But I didn't intend to communicate with them at all, and they would turn around to play with other people when they saw me like this. Pat is different from me, he just likes someone to play with him, it doesn't need to be very good-looking or something, or someone he likes, as long as anyone is fine.

It can be said that Pat is a person who can see through his thoughts at a glance, and I am just the opposite of him.

I suddenly stopped the hand that was raising the wine glass, because I saw the person who was still in my mind just now. Pat sat there frowning, not sure when he started sitting there.

It's just....I'm not ready to meet him yet, but this strange fate always makes me meet him all the time.

Sitting next to him was a very beautiful girl, holding his arm and snuggling close to him.If I remember correctly, this girl is the Nat from the Faculty of Science mentioned when Phu came to complain to me a few days ago.People around me say that this girl is not easy, but she never misses anyone she wants to get.

I shook my head with a smile, looking at that idiot who was once cheated by a woman, no matter what time Pat this guy is not smart enough to take care of himself at all.

There was a twinkle in my eyes, and I saw Pat's thick palms stroking Nat's waist back and forth, and when they were almost about to take off each other's clothes and prepare for something intimate, I immediately pulled myself back Sight.

"What's wrong with you?" Wai, who was sitting across from me, moved his body so that he could look me in the eyes and asked me.

"nothing."

"Your complexion doesn't look good at all, you must have drunk too much." After he finished speaking, he took the wine glass away from my hand, but I didn't feel that I had drunk too much at all.

"Well," I replied to him softly, raised one hand and rubbed my temple, and then said, "I'm tired."

"Are you okay? Do you want to go back now?"

"You can drink for a while longer."

"What's the matter with you? You go and look in the mirror later, your face is as red as a boiled shrimp."

I didn't speak, just smiled at him, I thought I might be allergic to alcohol, I felt my head was dizzy and very uncomfortable, and my chest felt like a big stone was being pressed on my back.

"Then let's go, I'll take you home."

I nodded, and after Wai reached out to call the waiter to pay the bill, we both left the bar, and I never looked back at that person during this period.