Temporary mark

=================================== Xie Jinghan's departure is like his arrival, without warning and without warning.

However, the traces he left still exist: there is still a small box of snacks they shared on the desk, Xie Jinghan’s extracurricular books are piled up in the reading corner on the window sill, and even last semester’s books are neatly packed in the bookcase. Rolls and books.

Shen Fang didn't want to look at it, and didn't dare to look at it; he walked to the last row during morning reading time, put down his schoolbag, and stared at the small box of snacks on their desks in a daze.Xue Ce shook the soy milk in front of him, and Shen Fang took the soy milk in a daze as if waking up from a dream.

There is no Alpha figure in the familiar position, no one will smile at him when he comes, no one will bring him breakfast without repeating every day, and no one will naturally touch his fingertips, give him lectures, laugh Rubbing his head and calling him little boy.

A week before the final exam, Shen Fang asked for leave, and his fever period arrived.

The febrile period collided with a sudden cold, coupled with his constitution being allergic to inhibitors, Shen Fang had an extremely difficult time passing this febrile period.In addition, his primary sexual characteristics are gradually deteriorating, and Shen Fang will be eager, eager to be entered and embraced.In the middle of the night with a high fever but unable to control his physical reaction, Shen Fang suddenly collapsed when he got out of bed and changed his clothes again. He knelt on the ground and covered his face, tears fell on the carpet in big drops, leaving a shadow of water stains.Shen Fang whimpered helplessly, he was almost crushed by his own weakness and shame.

After the febrile period ended, Shen Fang returned to school to take the final exam.When cleaning up the classroom and arranging the examination room, Shen Fang carefully put all Xie Jinghan's things into the cardboard box he brought specially; the books were carefully arranged, the papers were sorted and put into folders, and even the remaining half of the package had dried out and lost moisture. The alcohol wipes and Shen Fang were all packed in without leaking.

At the end of evening self-study, Duan Jia drove to pick him up. Seeing Shen Fang and the other three getting into the car with cardboard boxes in their arms, he said in surprise, "So many?"

Xue Ce took off his coat and said, "That's all, I'm convinced, Xie Jinghan knows how to read extracurricular books every day, and his grades are still in the top five."

Cen Xinran patted his head, signaling Xue Ce to shut up.Xue Ce carefully glanced at Shen Fang, the co-pilot, holding the cardboard box, with no expression on his face, staring out the car window in a daze.

Xie Jinghan has been away for nearly a month, and Shen Fang has been in this state for a month.

Xue Ce sighed, thinking what a fucking crime.

After the results of the final exam came out, Shen Fang fell back to his original ranking.Lao Qi talked to Shen Fang, seeing him in this state, it was not easy to speak harshly, Lao Qi held the thermos cup, thinking of something, Fu Ling said sincerely: "Xiao Fang, your grades need to be improved, Xie Jinghan is so Excellent, as his tablemate, you should also look up to him, right?"

Shen Fang's expression at that time made Lao Qi feel that he had said something wrong for the first time.He hurt the kid.

On New Year's Eve, Xue Ce and Cen Xinran took Shen Fang to the suburbs, and they set off fireworks on the flat ground in the wasteland. When the fireworks bloomed in the sky, Cen Xinran took Shen Fang's shoulders and said, "Xiao Fang, be happy. "

Shen Fang nodded and said yes.

He was only temporarily wrapped in a layer of trance, the time with Xie Jinghan was too happy, but their parting was too hasty and severed.Shen Fang thought, he just needs a little time.

But it didn't seem to work, the brilliant light of the fireworks fell on Shen Fang's face, he wrapped the bear scarf, thinking to himself, Xie Jinghan said last year that he would take him to the suburbs to set off fireworks.

The time in the third year of high school was tense and every second counted. One week after the Chinese New Year, Shen Fang officially started school.

Jiang Chao was transferred back and became the same table with Shen Fang again, and put the book on the empty seat again; Shen Fang began to focus all his attention on his studies, but nothing improved, and his ranking was always hovering at the bottom two hundred , after the first monthly exam in the second semester of the third year of high school, Shen Fang took the initiative to ask for a make-up class.

Time was compressed and compressed, the atmosphere of the college entrance examination had begun to permeate, Shen Fang seemed to slowly come out of that trance state, he became silent and quiet.But in the third year of senior high school, everyone under the high pressure has their edges and corners smoothed. Shen Fang's changes are not conspicuous, and he is submerged in the crowd.

Shen Yan and Shen Fang had talked several times, but Shen Fang had already built a wall for himself, but Shen Fang didn't realize it.

Shen Yan felt sad because of this headache, tossing and turning at night, Duan Jia gently patted her on the back, comforting her: "Who doesn't experience this in adolescence, and he just happened to catch up with the college entrance examination, so it's normal to be depressed."

Shen Yan hugged Duan Jia and said: "I used to think that Xiaoguai was too heartless and knew how to be silly every day, but now that Xiaoguai looks like this, I feel sorry for him, so it's better to be silly every day."

She sighed, and said in a soft tone: "Could it be because of the temporary mark, Xiaoguai?"

Duan Jia actually smiled, and said helplessly: "You are still a doctor of medicine." I can tell clearly, he didn't treat Xie Jinghan because of the temporary mark."

Duan Jia: "Xiao Guai will come out, he is not willing to let those who love him feel sad because of him."

Scientific research proves that after encountering good or bad things, people will return to the basic level of happiness after six months.Extreme situations have very little effect on our well-being.

Shen Fang's condition is indeed slowly improving. Half a month before the college entrance examination, Shen Fang's birthday is full. The whole class celebrates his adulthood in the classroom. Shen Fang is surrounded by everyone and makes a wish and blows out candles. Give it to everyone, and sincerely wish them success in the college entrance examination when the other party says happy birthday to themselves.

Ouyang Meng even gave up his precious study time and came to class four to pick up cakes.

The cake is not small, but each person can only eat one or two bites.Ouyang Meng ate the cream cherishingly, and the two stood side by side in the corridor. Ouyang Meng suddenly said, "Happy birthday to you, Xie Jinghan?"

Xue Ce and Cen Xinran gasped in the back.

Shen Fang finished the last bite of the cake, his mood was stable, as if he said casually: "I don't have his contact information."

After Ang Feng's accident, all of Xie Jinghan's contact methods were canceled. The only thing he could contact was the phone. Shen Fang couldn't help calling during countless sleepless nights, but no one answered. A week ago, the phone Show arrears.

"Ah, it's normal." Ouyang Meng said: "After Ang Feng went bankrupt, there were a lot of people looking for him. For safety's sake, the previous contact information must not be used anymore."

Shen Fang hummed.

After Ouyang Meng finished eating the cake, she turned around and hugged Shen Fang. As soon as she hugged her, she patted Shen Fang on the shoulder and said boldly, "Come on for the college entrance examination, brother!"

On June [-]th, the college entrance examination ended.

The papers on the third floor were flying, screams and cheers came and went, and white pigeons were released at the graduation ceremony, heading towards the blue and free sky.

Shen Fang found a part-time job during the holidays when his grades were not available, and worked as a teaching assistant in a swimming pool. He used the money from the part-time job plus the pocket money he had saved for many years to sign up for a piano lesson.

In the sweltering and thundering weather in June, a heavy rain was ready to go, so Shen Yan drove to the piano class to pick up Shen Fang.

Under the bright incandescent light, the young man was dressed in crisp short-sleeved shorts, sitting upright, and the music was dancing on his white fingertips. The teacher clapped his hands aside and said to Shen Yan with a smile: "Although he learned too late, he He has a calm personality, can sit still, and practice seriously, he is a good boy."

Shen Yan has raised Shen Fang for 18 years, this is the first time I heard someone praise Shen Fang for his calm personality.

On the way home, the heavy rain poured down, Shen Yan drove the car, looked at Shen Fang who was staring out the window in a daze, and said, "The grades are about to come out, is there any major you want to study, little boy?"

Shen Fang was stunned for a moment, the sound of the rain was majestic, jingling on the car window, Shen was silent for a while in the sound of the rain, shaking his head and saying he didn't know.

After the results of the college entrance examination came out, Cen Xinran and Xue Ce got their wish and were admitted to the Capital Institute of Physical Education. Shen Fang's grades were mediocre, with 35 points in the second-year high school line, and he could only go to an ordinary second-year university in Jiangcheng.

No one criticized his performance. After all, judging from Shen Fang's usual performance, this is considered an extraordinary performance.

During the few days when filling in the application form, Duan Jia and Chen Yan read the application guide over and over again. Shen Fang's score was not high, and he could not have both good schools and majors that he could apply for. There were very few choices, and the only safe one was Jiangcheng's local University English major.Shen Fang didn't participate in the conversation much during the process of applying for volunteers, but refused when Duan Jia asked him if he wanted to learn English. Shen Fang said: "There are still two days before the completion of the application, let me think about it."

He went back to the room and hugged the little bear to swing on the balcony. From the moment he saw the results, his mood fell to the bottom. Everyone thought that Shen Fang was not satisfied with the results.Actually not all.

Shen Fang was just suddenly disappointed in himself.

He thought, so if Xie Jinghan was around, he couldn't accompany him to the capital.

The green plants on the balcony are shining green, it rains almost every day in June, the air is dull, the branches and leaves are full of water, Shen Fang looks at the watery branches and leaves in a daze, thinking, is it rare that I am like this?

With an ordinary score in the test, a reluctant major, and a stable life in Jiangcheng all his life, he will be submerged in the mediocre public, and there is no possibility of intersection with Xie Jinghan.

No, Shen Fang put down the little bear and stood up. He hurried down the stairs and said to Duan Jia and Chen Yan who were surprised in the living room, "I want to repeat."

Shen Fang calmed down his breathing and rapid heartbeat, and solemnly repeated again: "Dad, Mom, I want to repeat, I'm not joking."

In mid-August, when everyone was relaxed and happy waiting for the notice, Shen Fang returned to No. [-] Middle School with his schoolbag on his back.

Lao Qi assigned him to the key class and took him personally. In the office, Lao Qi asked him: "Why repeat?"

Shen Fang: "I want to be admitted to the Capital University of Medical Sciences."

In the third year of high school, Shen Fang turned himself into a nerd.

He applied for boarding school, cut off all fun, and locked himself in books. This year, Shen Fang didn't listen to music, watch movies, or play games. He even spent a day at home in a hurry on weekends. Carrying the newly loaded books on his back, he returned to school under the worried eyes of his parents.

Shen Fang's grades rose in a straight line, but after rising to a certain point, his grades did not improve any more. The foundation he had lost after three years of playing was backlashed at this time. Shen Fang's grades fluctuated up and down, which was connected with his emotions.

Shen Fang began to doubt himself repeatedly, had countless times of inner self-talk, firmly believed in himself during the torture, and personally shattered his confidence. For the first time, he knew that in the process of leading to the goal he really wanted, a person can Extremely confident and extremely humble.

In December's monthly exam, Shen Fang's performance, which had been improving for a long time, suddenly dropped. Coupled with long-term sitting and studying without exercise, Shen Fang suffered from influenza.

On weekends, he didn't want to go home to worry his parents, so he stayed in the dormitory to study. There was no heating indoors in the southern winter, and his fingers were almost bitingly cold. , the fragility and sudden grievances rushed out after seeing Christmas displayed on the mobile phone. He was crying while writing with a pen, and suddenly dropped the pen in the middle of writing, picked up the mobile phone and dialed a number that he hadn’t called for a long time .

The number was shut down, and Shen Fang paid the [-] call bill with tears and shaking hands, and then kept calling over and over again.

The indifferent "beep" was repeated tirelessly, and Shen Fang buried his head in the quilt, suppressing all the whimpering and trembling.

In the darkness, Shen Fang tasted his own cold and salty tears, and heard the phantom... the sound of piano playing.

Shen Fang paused, he quickly got up, the phone showed that he was in a call, Shen Fang pressed the loudspeaker, the familiar sound of the piano flowed out from the phone, the voice fluctuated up and down, it was hard to hear clearly, it was "Merry+Christmas+Mr .Lawrence".

The teardrops hanging on Shen Fang's eyelashes fell silently like this. He clicked the recording in a blurred vision, and played the piano twice for a total of 10 minutes. When the performance was about to end, Shen Fang kissed the phone screen, Say softly, "Happy birthday."

Shen Fang took the initiative to hang up the phone.

He lay on the bed for 2 minutes, and sent a message to the super short group: "Come pick me up."

An hour later, Xue Ce and Cen Xinran knocked on the door of his dormitory, and when they saw Shen Fang's distressed appearance, they began to curse: "I came all the way from the capital to spend Christmas with you, how dare you not come back."

Xue Ce's scolding stopped after touching Shen Fang's hot skin. He picked up the down jacket and wrapped Shen Fang tightly, squatted down and lifted Shen Fang on his back.

Shen Fang said weakly: "My book."

Cen Xinran said impatiently: "Take it, take it." There seemed to be a cry in her voice, and she scolded, "What a mess you made yourself to be."

It was snowy and windy outside, Cen Xinran wrapped his scarf and hat around Shen Fang, and Shen Fang lay on Xue Ce's back, hearing the rustling of his feet on the snow.It's clean and sounds great.

Shen Fang smiled and said, "Next year, I will definitely go to the capital to find you."

Shen Fang walked to the college entrance examination in this calm and turbulent river.

When he walked out of the examination room, Shen Fang was dizzy and almost fell. It was a vacuum after the high-strength pressure was taken away in vain. Shen Fang weakly hugged Duan Jia and Chen Yan, but he was so determined in his heart that he would definitely be able to enter the Capital Medical University.

On the day he went back to No. [-] Middle School to pick up the admission notice, Lao Qi smiled and asked him to impart experience to his juniors. Shen Fang had no reservations, and he could say as much as he could; The shade of the tree falls, the wind blows, the leaves rustle like rolling tree waves, the sun is warm and romantic, Shen Fang looks back at the thick shade and greenery, and smiles.

"The wind will always blow." Shen Fang said: "You also left me in the end."

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[The author has something to say: BGM: "Merry+Christmas+Mr. Lawrence" / "Merry Christmas, Mr. Lawrence" The next chapter starts the time method, which is seven years later. 】

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Volume [-] You and the Future

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