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Lu Wanxing also looked at Shen Hewei fixedly, the more he looked, the calmer his eyes became.

He bent down, picked up the test sheet on the bedside table, and handed it to Shen Hewei.

Shen Hewei turned his head to the side and refused to answer, and Lu Wanxing didn't insist, and let go, two thin pages of paper wobbled and fell on Shen Hewei's lap.

"The doctor said, I'm pregnant, about ten days old, that should be the New Year's Eve."

Shen Hewei raised his head abruptly, without even having time to change his expression.

Lu Wanxing didn't pause: "Before, Lu Zerong told you that I have to have a child. I want to ask you, do you still need this child?"

"What is it, do I need it?"

"If you need it, I will give birth, but you have to promise me that after the birth, you will cooperate with me to perform surgery and remove the marks. Regarding this, I think it is necessary to sign a written thing."

He said the second half of the sentence after a short pause, it seemed to be talking about the operation that Shen Hewei promised and then regretted, and it seemed to be more than just the operation.

"As for your question of whether I still plan to stay here, I thought I had no right to speak, so I haven't thought about it yet."

Shen Hewei's mood changed suddenly between Lu Wanxing's few words, the joy on the top was accompanied by a deep coldness.

He tried to find clues of mood swings on Lu Wanxing's face, but he failed.

"A child is not a thing, let alone a bargaining chip you use to exchange. I want him only because you gave birth to him. I can have a good talk with you. Can you stop being so cold-blooded?"

Lu Wanxing was stunned because of his words: "I'm cold-blooded?"

Lu Wanxing's calmness was easily overwhelmed by these two words, and his expression was full of confusion.

"I prioritize myself, not being PUA by an embryo called cold-blooded?"

"In your opinion, I should be trampled to death like my mother, right?"

With these two words, his tears welled up in his eyes, without going through the emotional brewing stage, which caught him off guard.

Not wronged, not sad.

He just thought of Ding Fanhui, the Ding Fanhui he hadn't really understood since Lu Wanxing became sensible.

"Lu Wanxing!" Shen Hewei stood up abruptly, face to face and his movements were big, revealing a bit of the gauze on the back of his neck, "You know I didn't mean that!"

Lu Wanxing wiped away the tears that came and went quickly with the back of his hand. The two of them were only half a step away, and they looked at each other, neither of them backed down.

Shen Hewei looked at the calm Lu Wanxing.

He didn't waver at all. For that child, he should have made a decision long ago, and he didn't even struggle for a second before making the decision.

He still remembered the mission of marrying Shen Hewei.

At that time, others thought that he was willing to do this, one was because he had no independent opinion and was used to being instructed by Lu Xi, and the other was because of his background, which made him worthy of Shen Hewei.

But he was actually because of Shen Hewei's pheromones, and because he refused to believe that Shen Hewei was really a heartless person, so he had some feelings that couldn't be ignored.

In addition, it turned out that Lu Wanxing was so resistant to the love of his parents.

He doesn't believe that he can love children like Ding Fanhui, and he also thinks that Ding Fanhui shouldn't love him like that.

At that time, I promised to have a baby, and now I am pregnant, and I have not complained about it for any other reason.

Shen Hewei couldn't believe that at this moment, he would rather that Lu Wanxing insisted on not wanting this child.

But Lu Wanxing said that if he needed it, he would give birth.

Since when did the distance between Lu Wanxing and him have widened so far.

The two people, under the constraints of marriage, discussed the topic of children, and the content turned out to be "need" and "not need".

Shen Hewei suppressed the anger caused by anxiety, and tried to organize his words.

"I have been to the hospital. I went the next day after returning from a business trip. When you called that day, I just arrived at the hospital. The collection was completed this morning. The doctor said that if all goes well, you can go for surgery in a week."

No anesthesia is used during the collection of the glands, and sutures are required after the collection. The doctor said that it is necessary to rest for a week.

Shen Hewei's complexion is really bad, not only his lips are pale, his face is also pale, his eyes have lost half of their brilliance, this is the worst state since we met.

His glands were forcibly broken open, and his flesh was taken. I don't know how it compares to the pain of Lu Wanxing's injection.

Lu Wanxing said: "After picking in the morning, why are you back now?"

Shen Hewei didn't hear any concern from his words, it just seemed like a quick question, and still said in a good voice: "I want to see you. Actually, I don't want to fight anymore, and I don't want to quarrel anymore. I don't know just now..."

"You can't help it." Lu Wanxing suddenly smiled, "Have you ever had a different attitude towards me?"

"If I hadn't been pregnant, when would you have told me?"

"When I'm crying, don't beg you with pride, right?" Lu Wanxing said slowly, "Like that time, when I borrowed money from you, you said, you have a little pride, so stop contacting me."

"You know, that was the first time I asked someone to borrow money, and I didn't consider the possibility that you would disagree. Because just the night before, you fucked me so hard, I really thought that you Love me very much."

Feeling tired, Lu Wanxing bypassed him and sat at the foot of the bed, her eyes fell on the bedroom door: "Shen Hewei, is a lover as high as you really a lover?"

When Lu Wanxing longed for his love, he denied it flatly. Later, when life was full of mud and he couldn't take care of himself, love was no longer Lu Wanxing's top priority, so he forced Lu Wanxing to accept it. And respond all the time.

When Lu Wanxing borrowed 8 yuan from him, it was to solve the problem that Ding Fanhui's urn had nowhere to be placed. Later, the Xiang'an provided by Shen Hewei only played a role in changing the cemetery with better conditions.

This time, what's the difference.

Just like what Shen Hewei said, when Lu Wanxing wanted it, he was ready to give it.

But the important thing is not when Lu Wanxing wants it, but when Shen Hewei wants to give it.

"Is there even a second, in your heart, I am a person worthy of equal treatment."

Lu Xi had given money to Lu Wanxing many times, even when Lu Wanxing couldn't survive, it was Lu Xi's money that saved her life.

After Ding Fanhui was hospitalized, it was Lu Xi who ran to inform him.

When there was a snowstorm in the city, Lu Zerong sent a plane to pick up Lu Xi, and Lu Xi also called him.

Knowing what Shen Hewei did to Lu Wanxing, he was also the first to jump out and complain.

At the same time, accompanied by him for more than ten years, he insulted and violently insulted Lu Wanxing's personality and body.

Maybe he didn't realize it himself, but in his eyes, Lu Wanxing was actually not even a favored puppy.

Lu Wanxing didn't want to believe his own hindsight, but the fact was that Shen Hewei was really like Lu Xi.

"As long as you do something nice to me, you won't let me accept it kindly. I think you should be used to having someone let you meet your needs for alms, and look at the little favors he shows through your fingers. Thanks Dade."

"A person who specializes in eating the food you come from can satisfy your desire to the greatest extent."

"To you, I am that person."

Lu Wanxing had to give something before he could get something.

Even if he is so poor and white.

Shen Hewei's expression was painful: "Lu Wanxing, don't say that."

For the first time he was willing to speak: "I just didn't realize that I love..."

But was interrupted by Lu Wanxing: "Shen and Wei, we can say anything between us, except...don't talk about love anymore."

Lu Wanxing said slowly: "It's not that I haven't been loved before, I know, love is not like this."

Love may not be able to help every time, but it will not always make things worse.Not always giving too much and getting too little.

Lu Wanxing knew it all the time, so he never really cared about Lu Xi's attitude, but he still made too many stumbles on Shen Hewei.

He asked Shen Hewei to go back to the hospital, but Shen Hewei refused to go, Lu Wanxing was about to call Shen Wenhua, Shen Hewei said: "Okay, tell him about your pregnancy."

Lu Wanxing paused for a long time on the dial, but finally did not dial.

When it was time for the re-examination that the doctor said, Lu Wanxing went to the hospital again, and Shen Hewei accompanied him.

Shen Hewei didn't go to work much recently, Shen Hedong called him at first, I don't know what he said, Shen Hedong and Shen Wenhua didn't call again recently.

Just after the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, the chill was still heavy, the north wind was bleak, and the sky was always gray. Electric wires crossed the low sky, and there were a few sparrows squatting on it, which were also dusty.

Lu Wanxing wore a knee-length down jacket, got out of the car and walked for a short distance, shivering from the cold.

He didn't want to let Shen Wenhua know about this child who didn't know if he could keep him, so he insisted on going to the small hospital near his home. Shen Hewei didn't object.

Rationally, Shen Hewei knew that this child came at a very bad time.

This "not the time" did not refer to Lu Wanxing's studies and his busy work that he had considered before, but he knew that giving birth to this child would push Lu Wanxing further and further away.

But emotionally, in just a few days, it was clear that Lu Wanxing's body didn't seem to have changed in any way, and even his waist was still the same as before, showing thinness, but Shen and Wei still had real feelings.

For the child who appeared in Lu Wanxing's stomach, as long as he thought of his existence, Shen Hewei couldn't help but soften his heart.

His heart is as soft as cotton, like Lu Wanxing's face.

He couldn't help but open the pictures and videos of human cubs that he would never have noticed in the past, imagining the appearance of the baby he had never met.

Will it be more like Lu Wanxing or like him?

What is more often opened is the impact of glandular puncture on conception. Most embryos are spontaneously aborted in the first few days, and the remaining small part cannot last beyond six months.

Those who can be born smoothly are very few.

But Lu Wanxing showed an attitude of not wanting to mention it, as if it was just a tenant in his body, and he was free to come and go.

When the nurse called Lu Wanxing's name, Shen Hewei also went in with him.

The doctor recognized him as the Omega who said he wanted to wash off the half mark, and understood that the Alpha beside him was the instigator of this.

"You can go for the unmarking surgery with peace of mind."

This was not an unexpected answer, but Lu Wanxing felt that he had been stunned for a long time. The child he was not expecting was gone, like a bubble, which would disappear soon after the sun shone.

The doctor didn't speak, neither did Shen Hewei beside him.

"What do you mean?"

"The embryo didn't continue to develop." The doctor said, "It's gone. The time is too short. Maybe you were gone within two days of your last visit. This has no effect on the male Omega. Just give you some medicine."

"As you are worried about, the impact of glandular puncture is still there, and it has not given enough hormone support for development, and the embryo is too fragile at this time."

"So, when you are preparing for pregnancy, you must have perfect timing in all aspects of your body... The last data is so good, your genital cavity is originally very suitable for conception."

From walking out of the hospital to returning home, Lu Wanxing was very silent, silent and calm.

Shen Hewei felt the pain of being torn apart by a huge irresistible force, because he made Lu Wanxing pregnant at an inappropriate time, because the child was affected and was not kept, and because of the pain that Lu Wanxing caused.

Although Lu Wanxing refused to discuss the child and never used words similar to "baby", Shen Hewei noticed that his walking range was much smaller than before, and he no longer made any big movements. He would pay attention to eating more vegetables, The early pregnancy knowledge pamphlet given by the hospital is always placed by the bedside.

He didn't want to give up his feelings, and he made it clear to Shen Hewei that he would not care about it after giving birth. It seemed that he was really a hard-hearted person, and he was prepared not to be able to keep it, but he was still in pain.

Although the doctor said that taking some medicine is enough, Shen Hewei still wanted to take him to the previous hospital to see him again, but Lu Wanxing didn't eat lunch, so he fell asleep directly when he got home, and slept until dusk.

The depression and dullness accumulated in this house for too long, finally reached its peak on this day.

Shen Hewei sat on the single sofa next to the bed in the bedroom, listening to the sound of Lu Wanxing's breathing while sleeping, holding Lu Wanxing's pregnancy test report in his hand.

He thought before that Lu Wanxing would lose his temper a little bit, but he didn't know when it started, and he stopped being angry.

Recently, Lu Wanxing has changed again. He is indifferent and indifferent. It seems that no one or anything can shake him.

Shen Hewei repeatedly recalled the conversation between the two when Lu Wanxing told him that he was pregnant, and knew that it was because of him that Lu Wanxing became like this.

Lu Wanxing only stretched out the tentacles hidden in the shell to him, and he cut off them with a knife.

Later, maybe the wound healed and new tentacles grew, but they no longer showed it to Shen Hewei.

The voice of the aunt calling for dinner was also very low, for fear of disturbing the gloom that enveloped the room.

Lu Wanxing got up, went to sit at the dining table, drank half a bowl of soup, and after 2 minutes, rushed to the bathroom and vomited, rinsed his mouth, and went back to sleep.

Shen Hewei was lying on the same bed with him, and the distance between them was like a bottomless chasm.

No sound or substance can pass through, between the two, there is only silence, silence, and silence.

Shen Hewei lay quietly, and after an unknown number of hours, he heard Lu Wanxing get up lightly, and then walked out of the bedroom.

After waiting for a few more minutes, Shen Hewei went out and heard the sound of rushing water coming from the guest bathroom.

Opening the door, Lu Wanxing sat on the ground with his back against the sink, covering his face with both hands, tears streaming from between his fingers.

The sensor light was bright, and the warm light shone on the top of his head. Under the contrast of light and dark, the outline of Lu Wanxing's whole person began to blur.

He didn't look up at Shen Hewei, Shen Hewei squatted down and hugged him without struggling. After half a minute, he buried his face in Shen Hewei's chest and cried out loud.

Shen Hewei hugged him tightly, stroking the back of his head with the other hand back and forth, Lu Wanxing cried until he could hold his breath, Shen Hewei patted him on the back lightly.

Shen Hewei didn't realize that he was also crying.

At this moment, there are no arguments about love and charity, they are just two animals that have lost their cubs, instinctively approaching, because only by each other's side can they lick each other's wounds that cannot heal on their own.

Lu Wanxing was depressed for a while, but on the surface, the hostility towards Shen Hewei had subsided a lot.

Shen Hewei knew that it was only because Lu Wanxing didn't have extra energy.

He has suffered too many injuries and accumulated too much pain, and no one can be trusted by him to bear and digest it together.

He has been painting, and in his new album, there is an extra star in the sky, which is in every picture.

On the title page of the album, there were four words written: To Wan Xiaoxing.

On the day he got the royalties, he moved out of Shen Hewei's house. During the period of more than three months, except for the night when Shen Hewei hugged and cried bitterly, he never said a word to Shen Hewei.