Delay first love

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Long lost hug.

Zhong Ye stretched out his hand slowly, and hesitantly wrapped his arms around Lu Jincheng's shoulders. He was afraid that everything would be a dream, so he didn't dare to use force. He just circled vaguely, holding his breath, for fear of interrupting Lu Jincheng.

But the pain in his shoulder told him that all this was not a dream.

Lu Jincheng was right in front of him, just like five years ago, biting him when he was unhappy.

"Lu Jincheng..." Zhong Ye's voice trembled slightly.

In fact, a few days ago, he discovered that the silent nurse was Lu Jincheng, because of the movement, the smell, and the woody pheromone that rose in the room when he mentioned Song Ranqiu, he was shocked all over, and the back of his neck was completely marked. Like induction, dull pain, arouse a strong sense of belonging.

Why did Lu Jincheng come?

Why is he willing to come?What about Zhu Siyu?

"I thought you didn't want to see me again." Zhong Ye raised his head and turned towards Lu Jincheng, his tone filled with the sadness of the rest of his life: "When we separated five years ago, you said you would hate me. In my heart, looking back at the city and seeing you and Zhu Siyu again, I... I thought I would never have another chance."

"I wish Siyu has a boyfriend."

Zhong Ye didn't react.

Lu Jin suppressed Zhong Ye's upturned hair, and further explained: "I have nothing to do with him, it's just that the parents of both parties insist on matching, so we will act as each other's shield."

Zhong Yeye couldn't see Lu Jincheng's expression, but judging from Lu Jincheng's tone, the relationship between him and Zhu Siyu did not seem to be very familiar, and the stone hanging in his heart finally fell. As long as Lu Jincheng didn't fall in love with others, their story could continue.

In fact, Lu Jincheng is a very simple person. Even though he is the actual person in charge of Boya now, and it can easily be worth hundreds of millions of dollars, Zhong Ye can still see through him easily.

"You really, don't like Zhu Siyu?"

Because of Lu Jincheng's explanation, Zhong Ye regained his status as a breeder. He took a step back and tilted his head slightly. Lu Jincheng originally had a lot of plans, such as the tone and attitude of speaking with Zhong Ye after the reunion, but in fact he had no idea. Usefulness, he honestly confessed: "I don't like it."

Then do you still like me?

Zhong Ye was about to blurt it out, but in the end he didn't pursue the question. He just took a step back and asked Lu Jincheng, "Why did you come here? And why did you stay in my ward for so many days without making a sound?"

Lu Jincheng often attends meetings or business forums. He is used to storms, and he always talks eloquently, but he is easily deflated in front of Zhong Ye.

He coughed twice, "It's not me."

"What isn't you?"

"I don't know what you're talking about. I just came here today. Since you're recovering well, I'll leave first." After saying that, Lu Jincheng was about to leave, but Zhong Ye grabbed his sleeve.

"Lu Jincheng, stay with me, okay?"

Lu Jincheng's footsteps stopped immediately.

Zhong Ye felt that the light was not turned on in the room, so he fumbled to the side of the bedside table to press the light switch, but accidentally touched the sketch that Lu Jincheng had just folded for him.

With a light touch, it was all spilled on the ground again, the drawing paper was light, but Zhong Ye found it harsh.

"I originally wanted to come back to you with all my glory, so that I could be worthy of my resolute departure. Who would have imagined that when I came back, I was hit by a car, and I even hit my eye. It seems that my luck is really bad." good."

Lu Jincheng squatted down and helped Zhong Ye pick up the drawing paper again.

"Are you drawing a lion cub?"

Zhong Ye was taken aback for a moment, he knew how ugly the things he drew when he couldn't see them, how did Lu Jincheng recognize them?

"Your painting style has changed a lot. The lion used to be cute. I still like that."

Zhong Ye snatched the drawing paper and hid it behind him, angrily said, "It's not a lion."

The reunion after a long absence made both of them fall into silence. Zhong Ye felt that he and Lu Jincheng had a lot to say, but they didn't know what to say.

After all, Lu Jincheng is no longer the idiot who used to give gifts crazily to show his affection. He took the initiative to say: "I have read all your works. The paintings are very good and have a personal style."

"Thank you."

The room fell silent again.

It was Lu Jincheng who spoke first, "Can't I do this by my side?"

Zhong Ye was stunned, and just as he was about to answer, Lu Jincheng continued, "Is it possible to do all this only by leaving me, Wangcheng, and going to Song Ranqiu's side as his apprentice?"

Zhong Ye's first reaction was distressed, but in the next second he felt a little irritated from the bottom of his heart. Five years have passed, and Lu Jincheng is still struggling with this problem. He seems to have entered a dead end. He will never understand, nor can he Feeling the same way, Zhong Ye's guilt was gradually replaced by dissatisfaction: "Do you really think that I left you just to make money for painting?"

"I know, you can't bear my mother's attacks again and again, and you think we have no future together."

"anything else?"

"And my neglect of your emotions during that time."

Zhong Ye sighed heavily, "Yes, these are all reasons, but there is one more important one."

"what?"

If there hadn't been this unexpected disaster, Zhong Ye had expected his reunion, and he would have hugged Lu Jincheng to ask for his forgiveness, but after escaping from death, Zhong Ye only cared about whether his eyes could recover, and the rest Everything else is secondary, and he doesn't want to ask for trouble.

So he confessed to Lu Jincheng the secret he had suppressed for a long time in his heart: "I just want to escape, I am not happy, I have done nothing wrong, it is because of the pheromone fit that attracted you, and then you continue My brother has owed hundreds of thousands of debts, and my father is still in jail. I am under tremendous psychological pressure every day, and I have to endure your mother's inexplicable anger. You still seem to be a different person, opening and closing your mouth Company, I'm really desperate, I'm going crazy!"

After Zhong Ye finished venting, Lu Jincheng took a long time to say: "So is it my fault?"

Before this, Lu Jincheng had never thought about this matter from this angle. He had always firmly believed that he was a victim. Although he knew that Zhong Ye had suffered a lot, he thought that time could heal everything. Lu Zhou and Zhu Siyu often persuaded Zhong Ye He, but none of them mentioned the words "Zhong Ye is the most innocent".

Lu Jincheng was in the pain of being abandoned, so naturally he didn't expect this.

His heart was turned upside down by Zhong Ye's words, and he murmured to himself, "Is it my fault?"

Zhong Ye turned his face away, regretting that he had spoken too harshly, "I don't care whether it's right or wrong, I just want to say that things were too sudden at that time, and we were immature, so breaking up is the best choice."

"Why don't you make it clear to me? You make it clear to me, and I will find a way to solve it."

Zhong Ye lay down on his back, with a dull tone: "This may be the reason why we have to be separated for five years. Lu Jincheng, I am not the stabilizer you bought. In addition to comforting you, I also have my own emotions."

These words were like a knife to Lu Jincheng. After hearing this, his expression changed, and he subconsciously straightened his back. He never admitted that Zhong Ye was his mood stabilizer, because it was his manic depression. proof of disease.

"Since I am so unbearable in your eyes, there is nothing to say."

Lu Jincheng turned and left, the sound of his footsteps was like a knife cutting Zhong Ye's heart.

When arguing, it is always easy to rush and hurt others, Zhong Ye clenched the corner of the quilt tightly, but in the end he couldn't help being sad.

Lu Jincheng is still his true love, but the experience of the past five years makes him not want to bow his head easily. If he bows his head, Lu Jincheng will attribute everything to his troublesome self-esteem. They will get back together, but there will always be a crack that is difficult to heal.

Zhong Ye didn't want to make the same mistakes again. It was because of his weakness and evasion that he wasted four years of university time.

After Lu Jincheng left, Zhong Ye lay on the bed blankly, listening to the wind outside the window, the winter in Wangcheng this year was colder than before.

It didn't know how long it took before Zhong Ye fell asleep in a daze and had a nightmare all night.

The assistant called him the next day and asked him, "Ms. Zhong, how is your recovery?"

"It's okay, what's the matter?"

"It's nothing, just to report to you. Mr. Song has communicated with the advertiser. Now the joint comics are handed over to Mr. Song, and the second season of comics. I also explained to the platform for you and posted Weibo. Anyway, everything When you take care of your body, you don't have to worry too much."

"Thank you, thank you for your hard work, Xiao Zhao."

As soon as the assistant hung up, Yao Yan called again. Zhong Ye fumbled to answer it. Yao Yan said, "The community has no water for half a day, so I can't bring you food."

"It's okay. I'll ask the nurse to order the nutritious meals for me in the hospital. Mom, you can rest at home. Don't run away. If I need anything, I can just ask the nurse."

"Can you be alone? I'd better go with you."

"Why not? I painted all day yesterday."

Yao Yan was tired of delivering meals every day, so she compromised: "Okay, you really have grown up, then I will rest at home for two days."

Yao Yan thought of Zhong Ye ten years ago, who was still a child who bought fountain pens and notebooks by her, and suddenly became an adult who could be hospitalized alone, how time flies.

Zhong Ye pressed the pager on the bedside, but he couldn't wait for the nurse for a long time. He was idle anyway, so he got off the bed slowly, stretched out his hand and walked forward tentatively. Passing the bathroom, he felt the sound in the corridor in front getting louder and louder. It was probably in the direction of the door. He walked over and touched the doorknob as he wished. He turned it hard, but the air outside the door made him startled.

But before taking two steps, he tripped over the bench by the door and fell straight to the ground in a daze.

Someone rushed over and hugged him.

A nurse's terrified exclamation came from the side, "Mr. Zhong!"

Zhong Ye hugged that person's neck reflexively, but he realized who that person was in the next second.

The little lion is much stronger than it was five years ago. He easily picked up Zhong Ye and sent him to the bed.

Lu Jincheng asked sullenly, "What are you running around for?"

Zhong Ye was wronged, turned around slowly, lay down with his back to Lu Jincheng, pulled on the quilt to cover himself, the nurse came over to check Zhong Ye's wound, and said fortunately: "It's okay, it's okay, there is no injury. "

"Have you had breakfast?" Lu Jincheng asked.

Zhong Ye bit the tender meat in his mouth and remained silent.

Lu Jincheng said to the nurse: "Please order a breakfast, the taste should not be too sweet..."

"Ok."

After the nurse left, Lu Jincheng was still standing there, and Zhong Ye asked sullenly, "Why are you here?"

"...I left my phone here, come and get it."

Taking advantage of him not being able to see, such a lame excuse could come out, Zhong Ye complained silently in his heart, but he still couldn't help the sweet water, he let out an "oh", then sat up as if nothing had happened, straightened his hair, and waited. The nurse brings breakfast.

"Have you eaten?" Zhong Ye asked.

"Ate."

Zhong Ye doubted the authenticity of this sentence.

The nurse delivered the breakfast to Zhong Ye's small dining board, first handed the chopsticks to Zhong Ye's hand, and then took Zhong Ye's hand to point out the positions of the small dishes and crystal steamed dumplings one by one. Zhong Ye said thank you , then bowed his head and took a sip of porridge.

In front of Lu Jincheng, Zhong Ye didn't want to behave too badly, but the more anxious he became, the more flustered he became. He had been trained to pick up vegetables accurately, but now he kept picking up empty pieces. Lu Jincheng came over and took his chopsticks, and picked them up. The steamed dumplings were delivered to his mouth.

Zhong Ye pursed his lips, looking a little aggrieved.

"I have to go to a meeting after eating."

Lu Jincheng pretended to be blunt, trying to break Zhong Ye's embarrassment, Zhong Ye opened his mouth and took a bite, Lu Jincheng took another spoonful of porridge, after Zhong Ye finished drinking, he took the spoon and buried himself in the porridge, "I'll do it myself. "

Lu Jincheng fed Zhong Ye breakfast with a mouthful of steamed dumplings and a side dish.

Zhong Ye wiped his mouth, "Thank you."

Lu Jincheng packed the things on the dinner plate, and sent them to the recycling place outside. When he came back, Zhong Ye had already held the paper and pen, leaned over the dinner plate and started drawing.

Lu Jincheng poured a cup of tea for Zhong Ye, then checked whether there was water on the bathroom floor, and said after confirming, "I'm going first."

"Well," Zhong Ye clenched his pen, pursed his lips, and said, "Be careful on the road."

After Lu Jincheng left, Zhong Ye completely exposed the drawing paper and continued to draw the little lion's tail. Although he was not sure whether his tail was drawn on the lion's head, he used the style of drawing a cute pet restaurant to draw a cute one. lion cub.

When it was almost noon, Zhong Ye felt hungry. He wanted to ring the bell directly, but he stopped before stretching out his hand. He wanted to wait.

He refused to think about why he had to wait.

He just sat on the edge of the bed with his knees tucked up, pricking up his ears to listen to the sounds outside. After some time, he almost fell asleep, and finally heard familiar footsteps.

Lu Jincheng didn't come in immediately, Zhong Ye heard him say to the nurse outside the door: "Has he not had lunch? Then please order one."

Zhong Ye was at a loss, moved his butt back, and almost knocked against the table. He held the pen in a panic, and said calmly, "You don't have to come every morning, noon, and night."

As a result, Lu Jincheng pretended to be a dumb nurse again.

What Zhong Ye said, he didn't answer, just doing things in silence, Zhong Ye punched the cotton, and could only be at the mercy of Lu Jincheng in a daze, Lu Jincheng took care of him after lunch, opened the window for a while, let Zhong Ye breathable.

Zhong Ye sat by the bed, Lu Jincheng took out a coat from the closet and put it on Zhong Ye.

Zhong Ye suddenly regretted it, and he suddenly felt that it was not a bad thing to hug Lu Jincheng for reunion.

Luckily reason overcame sensibility.

But he didn't expect that Lu Jincheng would come over at night,

When Lu Jincheng entered the door, Zhong Ye turned over and pretended to be asleep. Lu Jincheng came over and covered him with a quilt, and then sat on the sofa beside him, looking at Zhong Ye silently like a few days ago.

Zhong Ye couldn't help but ask, "The past five years...have you never thought of looking for me?"

Lu Jincheng's voice was particularly low in the empty ward, "I thought about it, and I went, but at that time you just won the comic award, and you have been participating in various ceremonies and signings, I can't disturb you."

Zhong Ye was stunned, it turned out that Lu Jincheng knew all about his experiences over the years.

"Thank you for your pheromone perfume. I heard that it is very difficult for Alpha to make pheromone perfume. It takes a lot of blood and hurts the body."

"It's my responsibility to completely mark you unconsciously during the susceptible period, and this is what I should do."

Zhong Ye's nose was slightly sour, "What about my pheromone perfume? Does it work?"

"It ran out early last year."

Zhong Ye was taken aback.

"After running out, I started insomnia again, smashed things, and went to meetings and banquets the next day after an emotional breakdown. I felt exhausted and had no choice but to go to a psychiatrist," he said. My bipolar disorder has returned."

"Why didn't you come to me for it? I—"

"I don't want to admit it, and I don't want to believe that I can't maintain a stable mood without your pheromones. You know, I never thought I had bipolar disorder before, and I gradually realized the reality after you left. "

Zhong Ye began to feel distressed.

"I don't want to rely on drugs, so I can only force myself to socialize. I take the initiative to find Zhu Siyu, Lin Zhiyi, and acquaintances to help them solve their problems. I attend many parties and even attend my sister's parent meeting. It's normal, but it's useless, as soon as I returned to Changming's apartment, I changed back to the state before I met you."

Lu Jincheng's tone sounded very disappointed, "In retrospect, we should indeed separate. I can't give you a stable company like this. In the past five years, you have changed a lot, but it's me who stopped at the same place."