Breaking the bend to induce deep routines

Speaking of which, only Lu Lu in this family is a housekeeper, and the rest should all be boiled down to cash.

He felt that there should be no problem with his parents' education. After all, Lu Miao lived very gregariously, but he was not like that.When he was a child, he didn't like to get too close to other children. When friends of the same age came to his house to play, they would often snatch toys, or yell impolitely, which Lu Lu didn't like.

He would rather be alone with a book of fairy tales, or with a pile of building blocks.

Regarding the impressions of childhood, most of them are not deep, but I just vaguely remember the feeling of rejection, and then the more he grew up, the more he deviated, and he became completely different from his family members.

On the outside, he can't blend in those circles, and he doesn't like to blend in.At home, the more lonely you become, the more lonely you are, and the more lonely you are, the vicious circle continues.

I met some friends on the Internet, played games and chatted together, and made pen pals for a while. I used this short and fragile way to maintain the so-called friendship, but few of them persisted.

These passers-by have now become the avatars in the QQ list that will never jump again, and even many avatars that will never light up again, that's all.

Maybe I shouldn't stay at home in the future. Even if I write novels full-time, it would be better to move out alone.If you live alone for a long time, you will not be able to experience the gap between excitement and loneliness.

Lu Lu sometimes asks himself, is it true that he is so lonely, or is everyone else not lonely?

The answer is obviously no, at least those writers he likes are actually lonely.

If it is not because of loneliness, how can it express the depression that no one understands, but most of the works that have been handed down are the products of the author's gloomy mood, so they can resonate.

When Lu Lu was lost in thought, the phone dinged, breaking the silence of the room.

Lu Lu took the phone and looked at it. It was Gu Yan's message, and asked if Lu Lu had dinner?

At this moment, Lu Lu suddenly wanted to hear Gu Yan's voice, not because of anything else, but because of the dark emotions that had just erupted in an instant.

So Lu Lu directly dialed Gu Yan's phone number.

Gu Yan on the other end of the phone has also been busy all day today. Although today is the National Day, he still has to be busy with work.In the morning, I went back to my long-lost home with my parents. Before the sofa warmed up, I went to visit some customers with my father to give gifts.

Gu Yan also knew that these social gatherings were unavoidable. He drank too much last night, and because he had changed a place, he didn't sleep well, and he still felt powerless with a hangover in the morning.At noon today, it was also unavoidable to switch glasses and drink a few more glasses.

Although he maintained a smile in front of people all day long, he was actually absent-minded.

His mother wanted Gu Yan to stay at home for one night, but he declined his mother's kindness. He hasn't slept at home for a long time, and he is not used to it. Insomnia for two days.

After returning home, Gu Yan ate some dinner brought from outside, and sent a message to Lu Lu by the way, thinking that he should be at home, enjoying dinner with his parents happily, and did not expect him to reply the message immediately.Gu Yan got up and was about to go to the balcony to see Louis XIV, but suddenly received a call from Lu Lu.

Since I have known Lu Lu for so long, although there are many phone calls, Gu Yan has basically made the calls. This is the first time that Lu Lu took the initiative to call Gu Yan. In an instant, Gu Yan's heart was filled with various complicated emotions. .

Surprises, doubts, and... unease?

Nothing will happen, will it?Before that, he told Lu Lu that if there was anything, he would call him.

Thinking of this, Gu Yan felt even more uneasy, and immediately picked up the phone.

Although he was thinking a lot, it was only a matter of a second or two. When Lu Lu's phone rang for the third time, Gu Yan picked it up.

Gu Yan asked eagerly, "Lu Lu, what's wrong?"

Hearing Gu Yan's voice at first, Lu Lu realized that he had dialed Gu Yan's phone number. Before his brain could react, his words were a step faster, and he blurted out: "Gu Yan, you know so much, you must Very lonely, right?"

As clever as Gu Yan, he was also dumbfounded by Lu Lu's question.Lu Lu said to him: You know so much, you must be very lonely, right?

Lonely?Someone even asked him if he was lonely or not.

Others only saw that he grew up like a star, he could have what he wanted, he was the first in his grade with ease in his studies, he went straight to graduate school after college, and even made great strides after graduation, sitting in the position of investment director. Location.

However, no one ever cared whether he was lonely or not, even his parents who cared about him never cared about this.

Lonely?How could he not be alone.

Since he was a child because of his good grades, the teacher favored him very much. According to other parents, he is the typical child from other people's family and has been used for comparison.Some little demon kings in the class thought he was not pleasing to the eye, and deliberately ignored him in the free activity class. He was used to it when he was a child, and was envied by others because of his excellence, so he didn't like him. At that time, he was lonely. Your praise and encouragement cannot be exchanged.

When I get older, my classmates will not be as superficial as they were when I was a child. Jealousy is buried deep in my heart. Because of Gu Yan's good grades, many people will come to make friends with him and ask him questions. Never refuse, answer every question.I don't know who it is, but it revealed that Gu Yan is a rich second generation.After that, Gu Yan could hear a lot of talking behind the scenes in the class.

Once after school, he just walked out of the school gate, remembered the textbooks he didn't bring, and hurried back to the classroom, but he heard his deskmate and two other students in the class talking about him behind their backs: "Gu Yan, this person always puts a A hypocritical smile, he will answer any questions you ask him, I guess he feels that he is the number one in ten thousand years, and he is not worried that he will take the number one after teaching us." Another classmate echoed: "Yes, I heard that His family is very rich, so rich is like the headmaster’s nephew, who just lives around and takes the No. 1 exam all day long, so that no one else has a chance to get a scholarship.” He also heard his deskmate say: “Little The young master still rewards me with bread every day. Just last time, I saw him holding a bread that I had never seen before, with a troubled expression on his face, so I asked him what was wrong, and he said that he didn't like eating bread with coconut paste on it. Bread, I told him that I like to eat it, and he gave it to me, and thanked me for solving a big problem for him. You know what happened next, and he even gave me a piece of coconut bread every day. There is a lot of money, and the reward is I'll wait for civilians." The other person laughed and said, "You can eat what you have, anyway, he has money, so if he doesn't get nothing, he won't get it."

Gu Yan listened to these words at the door, but failed to muster up the courage to enter the classroom again. #####////////////////////////////////////////////// ///// I feel sorry for Gu Yan every day.