Breaking the bend to induce deep routines

He felt that he laughed every day because he hoped that everyone would be in a good mood.When others ask him any questions, he will patiently teach them, because he feels that they are all classmates in the same class, and he will help them if he has the ability.He has never thought about competing for any scholarship, but he always takes the first place in the test with full marks, and there is no way around it. If others want a scholarship, then just work hard.And that coconut bread was a snack prepared by his mother. He didn't want to refuse his mother's kindness. He saw that his deskmate liked it, so he brought it to him every day. He didn't want others to thank him, but he didn't want to The other party will misinterpret him like this.

Gu Yan left the school gate and ran a long distance before finding the driver's car. Because he didn't want people to think that he was acting like a young master all day long, and because he couldn't refuse his parents' arrangement, he asked the driver uncle to stop the car. On the side of the road a long way from the school.However, who could know what he did, and how could he not be alone at that time?

After that, Gu Yan spent more time outside of class.In order not to make the tablemate suspicious, he still delivered bread to the tablemate in the next few days, pretending that nothing happened.After about a week or so, I told my deskmate that his mother didn't prepare bread for him now, so he couldn't bring it in the future.In fact, afterward, he begged his mother for another snack.

He didn't come to school earlier, nor did he stay after school, because he found other things to do. It was during that time that he was gradually attracted by the ups and downs of the stock market.

In addition to the homework that should be done, after school every day, he began to read books on financial and stock market funds. Later, he boldly used the lucky money over the years to secretly buy stocks without telling his parents.

At the beginning, there were profits and losses, and Gu Yan didn't care about it. Until later, the number of profits became more and more, and his New Year's money was doubled again and again, and he was completely addicted.

After the high school entrance examination was over, Gu Yan even let go, and spent most of the summer vacation studying the stock market until his family found out.

After entering high school, Gu Yan also did not live on campus. While others were studying hard from morning to night, Gu Yan easily spent half the time and secured the number one seat in the school. Naturally, the discussions behind it were different. Little, at that time Gu Yan didn't care anymore.He is used to being polite to others, but he doesn't know what to talk about behind his back.

Going back and forth between home and school every day, while coping with high school courses, while speculating in stocks, there are only enough things to distract him, so that he can stop thinking and think about troublesome things.The other students all have their own good friends, even the one with the worst grades in the class, but he, Gu Yan, doesn't have one.Some are just superficial friends.

If Gu Yan said that he needed friends, he believed that many people would be willing, but what would these so-called friends do?Is it to let others laugh at his ridiculous kindness behind his back?

At that time, no one asked him, Gu Yan, are you lonely?

However, the loneliest time should be the year when he graduated from high school and officially came out with his family.

The parents' incomprehension and opposition made Gu Yan feel disheartened for a while.It turns out that the so-called care and love are actually nothing more than that.He just had a different sexual orientation from normal people, and it wasn't a heinous crime to be treated like this.

That summer vacation was the happiest vacation for other students, but it was Gu Yan's most lonely and helpless vacation in the past years.

At that time, he moved to his current residence alone, basically staying at home.Planning the decoration of the new home, when I have time, I plunge into the world of books and find some comfort and resonance from the books.

During that time, he didn't let himself pass by, he kept learning things he didn't understand, whether it was musical instruments or painting, what did others have to do with him, he just wanted to prove himself, except for being different from ordinary people Sexual orientation, he is not bad at anything else.That was almost the most difficult stage for him, and no one came to comfort him or enlighten him.

He didn't have any close friends, and his family didn't understand him, so he finally survived.

Before the start of the university, Gu Yan adjusted her mentality, and once again greeted the new life with the attitude of a normal student, but she was getting more and more busy. Regardless of work, studies, or extracurricular hobbies, Gu Yan never let herself stop .

Work hard, work harder, and prove that you are not bad at all.

To whom to prove it, he himself does not know.

After college, the overall situation has improved a lot. After all, F University is one of the top 5 universities in the country, and the quality of students has improved a lot in all aspects.Excellent people, most of them rarely discuss right and wrong behind their backs, and everyone will not waste time on these meaningless things.

Now, he does know a lot, is that because he is lonely?

The answer must be.

Gu Yan was silent for a long time, then said in a low voice, with a hoarse voice: "I'm very lonely."

The moment he said it, he seemed to be relieved. Over the years, he never thought that all this was just because he was lonely, high-spirited, and naturally so.

Lu Lu was surprised by Gu Yan's answer, and didn't know what to say for a while, the two of them just held the phone silently, but they both knew that the other party didn't hang up.

After a while, Gu Yan said again: "But I'm not alone now, I have friends, don't I? Lu Lu."

That person is a friend and someone I like.

People, once they have someone they like, they will feel that they have infinite power and have the courage to face the big and small storms in life.

Listening to Gu Yan's answer, Lu Lu seemed to empathize with him immediately.

Yes, as excellent as Gu Yan, why not lonely?

Everyone is an independent individual, and most people living in this society will feel the same way.But at least now they have friends with each other, someone to chat with, and friends to visit each other.

Lu Lu suddenly felt that he had gone to S City, which was great.

It's great that he can get to know Gu Weiwei, Gu Yan, Jiang Yiyan, meet netizens, Su Jingxing and Li Xixian, and other friends.

Before that, it seemed that there were only passers-by in his life, but now someone finally stayed and stopped by his side.Even if everyone will still forget each other in the rivers and lakes in the future, there is no doubt that these times are real.

Thinking of this, Lu Lu suddenly felt a lot lighter, and he didn't continue talking about this topic.Instead, he told Gu Yan about going out to campus with Li Xixian today.

When Gu Yan heard this, his heart tightened. He had an intuition that Li Xixian seemed to be interested in Lu Lu. This was the intuition of being rivals in love. #####////////////////////////////////////////////// //////////////// Happy weekend~~~