Your heart's desire

Luo Yan found three or five servants to guard the door, and when Lin Ying made a fuss in the room, everyone knew that he had woken up, and they all gathered by the door, as if they had already planned their speech early in the morning, with faces full of faces. Dignified, earnestly persuaded him.

One said: "Lord Lin, please be safe and don't be impatient. My master has ordered you not to leave this room today. If there is any mistake, you will take the heads of us. You should not make things difficult for the younger ones." Now, stay in the house with peace of mind, if you want to eat, just tell me, I won't let you go hungry!"

Another said: "You guys know what the master is going to do, but the master always knows what he is going to do, and he has made up his mind that even the Tai Tuo can't change it.

Since he wants Mr. Lin to do this, he must have his reasons. If Mr. Lin goes out this time, if it spoils his business, and hurts the peace between you two, why should you be so stubborn! "

The three or two people behind only nodded in agreement, looking in through two pages of the door, only half of Lin Ying's face could be seen, the tears in their eyes could no longer be restrained, and both cheeks had been washed.

Hurt your peace?If Luo Yan could be told to stop what he was doing, Lin Ying would rather not have such peace with him, and would rather Luo Yan blame him.

"I don't believe you didn't see what Qingshan looked like yesterday. How can I wait in peace today. You open the door quickly. If you let him go on like this, his legs will be crippled!"

He was clasping the door with both hands, his eyes were wide open when he spoke, tears were dripping down his cheeks, and he was somewhat choked up when he said the last sentence.

The people outside the door gasped and looked at each other for a long time, but remained silent.

"Whatever you want, I can promise you whatever you want, as long as you open the door!"

Although he was anxious, he tried his best to stay calm.During this period, I choked up twice, and my voice trembled twice, piercing my heart.

Perhaps Lin Ying didn't know much about Luo Yan's doting on Lin Ying, but the servants in this mansion could see it clearly in their eyes.

He used to be nothing more than a playboy, cold and arrogant, and never said a word to anyone in the family.

But during the days when Lin Ying was brought back to the house, because Lin Ying was weak, he learned about pathology from the doctor, read various books, and specially ordered a set of exclusive meals for Lin Ying.Before every meal, whenever he was in the house, he would go to the dining room to remind him to pay attention.

Moreover, he likes to smell the fragrance. In the courtyard of the Taifu's mansion, he went up and down, wherever he could get a square inch, he would definitely plant flowers with strong fragrance.It often caused the house to be filled with sneezes as soon as spring came.

But Lin Ying was quite obsessed with tea, and even mentioned to him one day that they would go back to the south of the Yangtze River together to experience the process of picking tea and making tea by themselves.

He simply asked people to replace all the flowers and plants in the mansion with high-quality tea trees. He thought every day how happy Lin Ying would be when the tea plants were green again. How happy it should be.

There are countless such things, and Luo Yan's gentleness that is not easy to be noticed in the subtleties is countless.

The maids in the house couldn't help feeling sorry for those ladies from high-ranking officials and noble families in the city. If they were able to marry such a man, they would have to accumulate virtue for several lifetimes.

But since this is the case, they are even more afraid to release Lin Ying at this moment.

Since Luo Yan was able to give the order, he must have known the consequences of what he did, and it was not their turn to worry about it.

"My lord, please don't make things difficult for us. We are just servants of this house. The master can do whatever he says. He has no right to ask about anything else. Mr. Lin has talked too much. Please drink some water and rest in the room! "

Those four or five spread out and stood beside the four windows outside the house, fearing that Lin should have the intention to break through the windows and escape.

The man in charge of the house was left standing there, although his face was moved, he still said these words in a rather helpless manner.

But Lin Ying is such a quiet master, smashing doors and windows, begging for food and water, and using various strategies again and again, turning several people around.If it wasn't for the fact that there were more people and Lin Ying was weaker, he really couldn't be stopped today.

It was not until the exhaustion of both sides that a peace agreement was reached.

The person in charge will go to inquire about Luo Yan's situation after a while, while Lin Ying will obediently stay in the room and stop making trouble.

This day was passed safely, Lin Ying didn't struggle any more, sat in the room with a dull expression, looked outside through the narrow gap in the door, and sat like that for a whole day.

Every time the person in charge walked towards the door, he cheered up, for fear that there would be any bad news.

When he came back, he would always go up to him and ask, "How is it, how is it?" He was able to continue sitting in the room in a daze only after the steward's words were all right.

Such a cycle does not end until night falls.

When Lin Ying saw a huge black figure scurrying in from under the light at the door, it happened to be just before You Hour.

As soon as the sound of the watch was stopped, there was a rush of footsteps.After a short while, the figure passed by his door, and opened the door of the next wing room with a bang.

"Housekeeper, is Qingshan back?"

He opened his mouth to ask questions, and at the same time leaned closer to the door, looking through the tiny gap.The four or five people outside seemed to be gone long ago, and no one answered his words.

I saw in my eyes that after the lamp in the room was lit, there were two figures projected on the window.

One was unknown, and the other fell down on the bed after appearing for a moment, but Lin Ying could still tell that it was Luo Yan.

"Qingshan, Qingshan, what's wrong with you?"

He shook the door leaf, seeing that no one was paying attention, he lowered his head and thought for a while, then turned around and picked up the bench on the ground and threw it at the window beside him.

The window sash fell to the ground in pieces after three or two clicks, and such a movement woke up the few people who had already fallen asleep in the corridor.

When Lin Ying jumped out of the window, they were a little dazed, but they immediately stepped forward and pulled him.

"My lord, my lord, don't be a slave, didn't we agree?"

Lin Ying was a little dumbfounded, but Luo Yan didn't know what was going on, he didn't have time to tangle with these people here, so he just said coldly: "Let go, your master has already returned, there is no business for you here !"

The few people were taken aback, Lin Ying rushed into the house with big strides, leaving a few people lying on the cold ground under the eaves, staring at the bright lights in the room with blank expressions.

Lin Ying broke in, and the person standing inside was the butler of the Taifu's residence.At that time, he was stripping off his drenched clothes and standing beside the bed to cover Luo Yan with a quilt.

He was in a hurry, but he froze when he entered the room. He stood at the door and stared at Luo Yan in a daze for a while.

Luo Yan's body was trembling uncontrollably, and even the tassels hanging by the bed were fluttering.I don't know if it's rainwater or beads of sweat on the forehead, and the lips move slightly, as if talking about something.

"Master Lin!"

The housekeeper also stared blankly, wondering why he escaped.When he called him, he couldn't help but stumbled, revealing the panic in his heart.

"Didn't you say he's fine? Then tell me what's wrong with him?"

The butler's face was full of helplessness, he was at a loss, he glanced at Luo Yan, and finally couldn't help but confess: "Master Lin, calm down, actually... Actually, when I first went here today, the master couldn't hold on any longer. , He was the one who wanted me to tell you that he was safe, he said that he did not turn back when he opened his bow, just this day, if he endured it, the sea and the sky will be brighter."

Lin Ying knew the seriousness of Luo Yan's body, so he hurriedly moved his steps to get closer to him, and when he leaned down against his head, he realized that his body was scorching hot.

"Qingshan, Qingshan, wake up, don't scare me."

He shook Luo Yan's body and shouted at the top of his voice.Perhaps the wound on the knee was rubbed on the brocade quilt and hurt the wound, Luo Yan wrinkled his head fiercely, his body shrank suddenly, and his eyelids slowly opened.

His hair was still wet and Dada was resting on the side of the bed, his lips had already started to crack, and he moved slightly, only then could he hear what he said clearly.

"Cold, cold, I'm so cold, Wei Zhi, I'm so cold!"

Lin Ying's eyes were wet. Seeing his embarrassed and weak appearance, he regretted the late shift in his heart. He didn't try his best to rush out to stop him today.

Now I can only growl helplessly at the person in charge: "Go to the doctor, what are you doing?"

Luo Yan's body was obviously very hot, but he kept yelling that he was cold, which made Lin Ying helpless for a while.

He held Luo Yan's hand in his and fiddled with it, but felt that his hand was like a piece of ice in his palm, so he gave up again, and only stuffed the brocade quilt on her chest tightly, and then Slowly opening a hole from the back to look at the injury on his knee.

The lights in the room were dim, and it was possible to see a bloody scene, which caused Lin Ying to tremble involuntarily, and hurriedly put down his hands.

The shirt that was thrown on the side of the bed had a big hole at the knee as it did yesterday, and the surrounding area of ​​the big hole was already soaked in blood.

However, after soaking in the rain for a day, it is not obvious now, but it can be seen from the wound.

"Why are you so stupid, are you dying?"

The tears that should be shed have been almost shed today, Lin Ying only feels that his eyes are dry and dry, which is very uncomfortable.Under the light, those cloudy eyes stared straight at him, like a torture.

"If you're acting, you have to do it to the extreme. If something goes wrong again, how can I have the heart to ask you to stand up and help me out again?"

Zhai Fengyao

I was 12 years old when I fell in love with someone ignorantly for the first time.

At that time, my father still made a living by selling smuggled salt from the place called Jiangnan in the Central Plains to the middle school, maintaining our family's livelihood, and wandering around with my mother and me.

One day, I was playing alone by the side of the car, but an old man from the Central Plains slowly approached me and asked me, "Little one, how about stringing candied haws?"

On weekdays, my father never allowed me to make random requests, nor did I have much communication with people from the Central Plains, so I couldn't quite understand what he meant.

But even if the ears are half deaf, the eyes are really bright.As soon as I raised my head, I saw a bunch of crystal clear things in his hands, which were quite tempting. It smelled a rich and sweet smell, which made me drool a lot.

I was overjoyed in my heart, thinking that he was like my aunts, seeing that I was cute, so he specially gifted that object to me, so he stretched out his hand to take it without saying a word, opened his mouth and stuffed it in.

Sure enough, that taste is something new that I have never tasted before.In just one cup of tea, I ate the long bunch in silence.

Looking up at the old man again, his eyes were almost shining, expressing my longing.

But he waved his hands with a weird smile on his face, took out a copper coin from his pocket and put it in his hand, saying: "Money, if you want to eat, buy it with money!"

I shook my head, which meant that I didn't understand what he said. He probably understood that I didn't have any money on me. Even though he changed his face, he grabbed my skirt and frowned with a ruthless expression to scare me. I.

Although I am 12 years old, but my father said that some unforeseen accidents might happen one day in this line of work, and it would be safer to have one or two defenses on my body, so I put them away early. I was sent to the martial arts gym to practice my skills.

So when I saw that he was malicious, I didn't care about others, I leaned over, put my palm on the man's belly, and when I turned around, I had already lifted him above my head.

The old man who is over sixty years old is light and does not take much effort.However, he couldn't hide the fear in his heart at all, and only a moment after his body left the ground, he felt his palms suddenly become wet.

Looking up, he saw that the waist of his blue shirt was completely soaked, and there was an unpleasant smell of urine in the air.

People in the Central Plains are literary, so most of them don't exercise their bodies. It's really an anecdote that a baby as young as me can have such arm strength.

So when I slowly put the old man down, there were already people around, everyone clapped their hands and applauded me, and some even threw money at me quite generously. , I didn't quite understand what was going on, and thought it was a deadly hidden weapon, so I picked up a bamboo stick beside me and beat it back.

And after that stick, the crowd suddenly dispersed again.

This matter, many years later, I still feel that it is really dumbfounding.What makes me still remember this incident after so many years is the late employment at that time.

On the empty street at the moment, no one dared to approach me any more, but there was a boy who was no bigger than my chest, sitting on the ground in front of me, pointing at my face and laughing loudly.He said, "Red Nose, are you the Great Demon King?"

I still didn't understand what he meant, but seeing him laughing happily, I stretched out my hand and touched my nose, only to realize that Xu Shi had used too much force just now, sticking the syrup to the tip of my nose.

I can't remember clearly, whether he was nine or ten years old at that time.I just remember that at that time, I didn't call him late, I called him Jin Guo.

Golden fruit means child in our language.It was many years later, when I was quite familiar with the Central Plains dialect, that I was finally able to write down these two syllables in the Central Plains language as his name in my memory.

Daddy would go to that shop every ten days, and in the days to come, every time I went there, I would see Jin Guo sitting on the ground, laughing, pointing at me and saying, "The Great Demon King is here!" Already!"

He talked a lot, so I started to learn, and finally understood, and I would respond to him: "The big devil can eat people, are you afraid!"

We would often sit together on Dad's carriage, and he would buy me my gluttonous candied haws with money, and I would tell him which interesting people and things we had.

About half a year later, even my father knew him.

In my memory, my father has never smiled at me like that, nor has he held me on his shoulders so excitedly, but he did all of these to Jin Guo.

He even gave his favorite piece of jade, which I begged him countless times and he didn't give me, when he met Jin Guo at the beginning.

Maybe he also noticed something in his little mind. One day he actually asked me: "Brother, do you blame me?"

I was shocked at the moment, at such a young age, he was already able to faintly perceive my unhappiness.

But at that time, I was really not unhappy.

I don't know why, but seeing my father like Jin Guo so much, I'm really happy from the bottom of my heart.

Makes me happier than he loves me.It was as if something of his had been approved by him.

The days I spent with him were the happiest and the happiest in my ten years. The days of peace have passed year after year, and when I talk about it again, I am already sixteen years old.

It was the No. 12 year under the Lichengguo in the Central Plains, and there was a severe drought in Jiangbei for years.By this time, the people were already in dire straits.

A large number of people from Jiangbei migrated to Jiangnan. In ten days, when they returned to the Central Plains again, refugees in ragged clothes had already crowded the streets.

Although I have been traveling in the Central Plains for four years, this is the first time I have seen such an unprecedented prosperity.There were mountains of hungry people on the streets, and the city was filled with the howling of death.

I clearly remember that I had a fluster that I had never felt for many years.Parents were at a loss, so I simply proposed to leave here as soon as possible.

Daddy complied with my intention, saying that this business should not be done, and that he was going to leave early the next morning.

But the sky didn't work out, on that night, the hungry mob rushed into the inn and plundered it wantonly, and his father was pushed down the pavilion by accident in order to protect the money he carried with him.

The peach tree outside the inn had been cut down early in the morning and eaten. I looked down from the window and saw with my own eyes that Dad's chest was poking into the sharp stubble.

It was the first time in my life that I killed someone.That day, my mother's crying was so sharp that it could even pierce my ears.

I just felt a bang in my head, like a thunderclap, and I didn't think about it any more, and immediately drew my knife to wash the spot.

Those rioters were frightened by me, they scattered like birds and beasts, and fled separately.

I still don't dare to think about how many people I would have killed if my mother hadn't stopped me that day.

I used the money my father desperately guarded to send away those accompanying people of the same clan.

At that time, I didn't think about it, because such a random move back then became the deepest barrier between Chipin and me.

I took my mother and drove all the way back to the clan.My mother was heartbroken, and before she got home, she had already blinded her eyes from crying.In a few days, he became depressed and became bedridden, and after that, he went with his father within three months.

I was alone, helpless, careless, and had nothing to do, so I went to the army, fighting on the battlefield every day, chatting to comfort the depression in my heart, and looking for the meaning of being alive.

Just six years later, I never thought that I would meet Chipin again.

At the age of 22, I have already become the president of this foreign monarch. In the past six years, I have conquered as many as five or six countries, large and small.

Expanded the territory of Fandi by a full third.King Fan personally hosted a banquet for me. In the magnificent palace, he asked me: "Aiqing is brave and has made great contributions. What do you want the lonely king to promise you?"

I don't quite remember what I said that day. I was so drunk that I rode my horse from the hall outside the palace with a whip and galloped until the horse was exhausted. It fell to the ground.

There is a lot of grass in the clan's territory, with the face down, can you smell the reassuring smell of grass mixed with mud.But that day was different. My battle-tested nose told me that I smelled blood.

Sure enough, I found two bodies by the nearby river.One was out of breath, so I stopped by to find a place to bury him, the other had a weak pulse, maybe I was very drunk, so I took him back.

Since I joined the army, my hands were stained with blood. I only knew how to kill people. It was strange to say that day, but when I saw his frail scholarly face, I was suddenly moved with compassion.

He woke up, but he went crazy, chanting a name, why not.

This name belongs to the corpse that I hastily buried that night.

I told him he was dead.

I know that person must have a very important place in his heart.Because I obviously saved him, but he still wants to seek death and life for that dead person, and he will do everything possible to end the rest of his life.

It was during his desperate struggle that I saw the scar on his palm that belonged to the golden fruit.

I had a quarrel with him that year, and he insisted on provoking me, so I raised my sword to intimidate him, but unexpectedly he was so young, but he stretched out his hand to hold my sword with bare hands, and shed tears in his palm. A scar that can never be erased.

I asked him why he was so stupid, when he was only 12 years old, he told me that he was afraid of death.

He said that he was afraid that I would really kill him with my own hands. He said that the cruel experience in my eyes often frightened him.

Later, I always thought about what he said, and I guessed that perhaps he had already seen through my life in late employment.

Zhai Fengyao

Over the years of this study, I have never been tempted by any woman. The emperor once sent many beautiful girls to reward the three armies, but I didn't even bother to mention them.

I am not annoyed when the general who fought with me said there was something wrong with me.Not interested is not interested, and those women are just for them to have fun, such a one-night pleasure, I may never see you again in this life, I would rather not.

That night, I sat outside the tent, propped my head up and looked at the bright and round moon in the sky, and for the first time, my heart was moved.

I suddenly imagined that in the days to come, I will always find someone who can take care of me with all my heart.

Just like how my mother was so sad because of my father's death back then.After a long time, the lives of the two people seemed to be tied by an invisible thread, and they were no longer inseparable.

that's great...

I searched for it for a long time, and I even felt that when I mentioned this, I had an inexplicable emotion in my heart, as if I had hidden someone in my heart.

It's just that I'm used to the military life, and I've seen too many faces, and I can't think of them in my head for a while.

It wasn't until I recognized the scar on Chi Pin's hand, that face was in front of my eyes, and his childhood appearance was in my mind, that I suddenly felt that my heart beat rightly today.

I took him to meet his so-called sweetheart, and he wailed for a long time holding the wooden sign that I just set up at random. I knew in my heart that after crying, he would no longer seek death , will live well.

So I told him later that I saved him.From now on, his life is mine, not his own.

He had a bad life in the past, but I didn't have any treasures to greet him, so I set up a banquet for him to drink to his heart's content.

Seeing that all the people in the army like to sing and dance gracefully, they also tacitly agreed to the deputy general to prepare.I was cautious, afraid that he would not like it, and even more afraid that he would like it.

He sat in the banquet and listened to the sudden sound of silk and bamboo, but he was happy again.He came to me with a flagon.

I was about to ask him if he didn't like it, but he took the first step and said seriously.Saying that I just met him by chance, there is really no need to treat him that well.

I was also happy, he didn't know yet, how could we meet by chance.

Now we are reunited, reunited after a long absence.

I even wanted to tell him loudly that I was the big red-nosed devil who would grab candied haws from him when he was young.But I dare not, I am afraid that he will regard me as an old friend from the past, and will not show his heart to me;

I always hate the injustice of heaven. In the first half of my life, all I was given was suffering and helplessness.

That's why I finally understood at that moment that in this life, only by experiencing the grief caused by suffering can I sing the sweetness of joy more deeply.

It's just that I don't want to, all of this is just a dream.

That night, I was very happy. I drank three hundred cups under the moon, but I didn't see it clearly. It was just me drinking alone.

When I woke up from a heavy drunk, Chipin took him to the Yumen Pass with the 2 people in my tent, and there were countless casualties.

I thought I saw the determined desire to survive in his eyes before the tombstone, but I never guessed that he was living so firmly, but only to avenge the person in his heart.

And me, what am I?It's just chess pieces.

Yumenguan came to report that there were more than [-] people, countless casualties, and less than a thousand remnants and defeated generals.He didn't die, but he didn't escape either. He was captured by King Fan and taken to the prison in the capital city to be executed.

I can even ignore the previous suspicions and go straight to the prison to rescue him.The thought in my heart is that even if I risk my life today, I will at least take Chihire him away from the right and wrong place.

But when I took his hand, he threw me away coldly, there was a fear in his eyes that he had never seen before, like a rabbit about to escape from the wolf's lair, his nerves were tense , the hand can't stand the slightest stimulation.

He said: General, so many people, so many people died because of me.How can I live in this world with peace of mind! "

He didn't cry, the trance in his eyes suddenly became determined after this sentence.

The pair of pupils stared at me intently, there should be all kinds of feelings in my heart, but it's a pity that he didn't say anything, and I couldn't see through it.

He said how he could live in this world with peace of mind, but how could I just watch him die like this.

I almost roared: "As I said, your life is mine. If I don't let you die, you are not allowed to die. The war between the Central Plains and Fanbang is about to break out. When the time comes, the people who bleed and die will be killed again." How could it be such a star.

You are just advancing the battle.This is the place where they were born. They were born to guard this territory, and they died in the hands of the Central Plains people, and even exchanged the lives of the Central Plains people. They have no regrets, no one can blame this. "

I tried my best to make my words sound reasonable, and I tried my best to suppress the strong sadness in my chest.

I was taken aback by hiring him late, and was taken aback.I thought what I said was finally effective, but he shook his head again, and still told me: "I can't go, this matter has nothing to do with you, you go to King Fan and explain to him clearly, Take all the responsibilities on me alone, do you hear me!"

His thoughts sank for a while, but he remembered something, and suddenly his emotions became irresistible.

"Go, you go, my humble life is not a pity to die, you are a majestic general of a country, don't ask me to destroy you again!"

Destroy me again?I was baffled at first, but when I heard him say this, I suddenly understood, I fixed my body, turned my face coldly and asked him: "Do you still want to accompany him, Chipin, I'm in your heart What on earth is it?"

When Chipin heard the words, he suddenly calmed down, his face shrunk tightly, and then he knelt down and covered his mouth with tears: "Why, why are you covered with his shadow, why can't I forget these things safely, Why do I have to repeat everything over and over again. What did I do wrong, I will be tortured like this in this life!"

I looked at his back and listened to his indistinct words. I should be talking about the unsatisfactory things he experienced in his life.

It's just that I suddenly felt that he was no longer the one who could innocently point at me and say, "Red Nose, you are the Great Devil".

I bent down, touched his head lightly, and said, "Chi Pin, no matter what you think, I will definitely rescue you!"

Later, I went to meet King Fan and handed over my golden armor and the soldier talisman in my hand.

The emperor asked me, what are you going to do?

I said, take these two things and exchange them for the people in prison.

He smiled knowingly, but he looked kind, and patted my shoulder with his hand and said: "If I break the rules today and take your soldier talisman and release someone who intends to rebel, in the future, I will want this soldier talisman." It's probably useless."

I thought he was going to reject me, but he paused and said, "If you want to save him, you need a reason."

Need a reason?There is only one reason for me to save him, and I told King Fan truthfully what was on my mind:

"Do you still remember that you owe me a promise, and now I beg you to marry him to me."

I know that if I only let him release the late hire, he will definitely not follow me.The [-] soldiers in the army died suddenly. If this person gets out of the death row, the blame will only be on him.

And in the eyes of the people in this clan, it seems that the compromise he made was forced by my military power, which is an expression of incompetence.

But if he gave me a late hire and a marriage, let alone betraying me, the eyes of all the people will only focus on me alone, which will enable him to better control the power in this country.

I knew early in the morning that he would agree, so I arranged the house with great interest the day before.Before going out, the wedding party was prepared and hidden in the backyard.

Sure enough, after thinking it over and over again, King Fan agreed to this matter with a smile on his face.According to the plan, I went to the palace to ask for someone with great fanfare as soon as I got back to the mansion.

Just after noon, people had already entered my house.

It's just that I was so happy at that time, and I was so happy that I didn't think about leaving, I didn't think about why the attitude of the late hire suddenly changed, and I was no longer stubborn.

After everything was over, I returned to the house only to find that Chi Pin was sitting on the bed with my dagger in his hand, looking down carefully.

He also moved quickly, he quickly moved the blade away, and when he was about to look at me, the blade was right between the two of us.

"You don't want to die?" He looked melancholy.

"I'm even more afraid that you will die!" I said.

But he only smiled, and his smile was rather strange: "You look at the sword, how exquisite it is, they say, it is something you carry with you?"

I didn't respond, but he suddenly pulled out the sword and stroked it with his hand.

"Do you know that back then, my father had such a dagger in his chest!"

I was taken aback, and quickly reflected what he meant by saying this.

This arrow was originally made by my father for self-defense for his business. Back then, everyone around him wore it...

Thinking of this, I seemed to suddenly understand that the place where I dispersed the group of people after my father died was the place where Chipin's family lived.

There was faint mist in his eyes: "Let's not talk about the things I saw, just this one, I am doomed not to be with you in this life."