Yu Xin like congratulations

In the sad place that you want to escape from, the voices and footsteps from other people float around, just like unimportant dust. It seems that you have to stay where you are, and tell you other stories that are irrelevant to you.I don't want to think of any trivial things, I just want to go to the quiet place where only your soul and I belong.Apart from the world and you, who else would think of my youthful feelings for you at this moment.In fact, the doctor may not approve of Shun'er being discharged home from the hospital. Every time he sees me, the first thing he says is let's go.I told him the doctor told him to keep him well.He said that I can't raise well here.I knew he had a wound elsewhere that only he could digest.I told Shun'er that Cong'er wanted to see you, and he said yes, where is he, you can bring him here.I smiled and said yes, wondering when they could really meet each other.Open the knot that has been dead in my heart for a long time.Maybe Shun'er didn't know the role and effect of Cong'er being in the middle of this matter.He asked me how is the weather today.I said it was fine, and he said I wanted to go out for a walk.I told him it was sunny outside but it was cold.I asked him if you can walk on the ground now.He said yes, if you don’t believe me, I’ll show you.I quickly stopped him, and I said you can do it, just stay still and don't move, it will hurt your muscles and bones for a hundred days.Next to his bed is the guitar that Rhubarb and the others brought from home, as well as his songbook and staves.There are things he wrote and drew on it.I can't understand some notes or something.I just think that the peak of his creation this year and even in his life is coming, but the price he paid is too great.He smiled and said, I wrote a song and I will sing it to you.I smiled and nodded.

He sang softly:

too quiet night, that dusk evening

You tell me about our past, like the summer we just kissed yesterday

In the past, the sea was too difficult to be water, and the flowers in the morning and evening were for whom?

Is it the same nostalgia, an infatuated boy waiting for you to wake up sooner or later

I am a young boy sitting on a boat, and my singing voice is rippling with the waves. In winter, give me an edelweiss, which is my little bride.

You are a light snowflake, flying and flying to my side, rowing and carrying you, and taking you home to see your mother.

I am a young man looking at the sky, the sound of the zither fluttering in the wind, give me such a you in winter, holding it in my hand for fear of melting.

You are a light snowflake, fly and fly to find the bridegroom, carry it in my arms and go home to my mother, while you are still here.

……

He just sang in a low voice, I just listened to him with my eyes closed, made a wish with my eyes closed, let the mosquitoes live, this song is for her, he was still singing in a low voice, I just didn’t dare to open my eyes Open your eyes, afraid that the tears I can't hold will soak his little phantom at the moment.He asked how my buddies were singing.I said nicely.He said it was a pity she couldn't hear it.I said yes, I promise.In the afternoon, Shiyang bought us takeaways, and Rhubarb asked me to go back to rest at night and talk about it tomorrow.Shiyang said that the weather is getting cold, you should wear some winter clothes.I bid farewell to Shun'er, and Shun'er said you should go back and come back when you have time, but I want to leave the hospital as soon as possible, I'm tired of living here.I say we try our best.Outside the hospital, I saw Chenchen, and I said why didn't you go in together, it's so cold outside.He said, I am not familiar with them, so Shiyang can just go in.I asked him if you are not cold in your clothes.He said it was fine.The three of us got on the bus and went to Jinyu Alley.Shiyang found out my clothes and asked me if I wanted to take some more.I said that’s all right, let’s leave it here for now, and I’ll clean it up someday when I’m free.Chenchen said that I packed it up for you.I said, if there is something you can wear in there, just wear it, and don't keep putting it away, I can't take much away.I suddenly remembered Yang Yang, and I asked Chenchen what was written on the tombstone when you went back to lay Yang Yang.He said his lover Yang Yang.I nodded, thinking of mosquitoes, Shun'er, and my lover again.I said I'm leaving.Shiyang said you slow down.I nodded.I feel that besides bitterness, there is no other taste in life to ponder over.

I didn't see Cong'er after I went back, so I called him, and he said he was surfing the Internet outside.I asked him if he had eaten.He said he ate.A few minutes after hanging up the phone, he came back and bought broad beans and white wine.I asked him how do you think of drinking, he said it was cold.I said that I suddenly felt that there was nothing I wanted to miss in this city, and I didn't know why.I want to travel far, away from here.He said me too, let's go on a trip together.I said let's find a job and earn some money first, then let's go traveling together.He said you were hit by something.I said no, I just thought of a place where no one knew me, a quiet life, so that no one would find me.There he chewed the broad beans with a crunchy sound, and I went back to the time when I was studying.I said you eat slowly, it makes such a big noise when you eat something.He said it was delicious, try it.I said give me the wine, and I'll take a sip.After he handed it to me, he said damn it, there are cockroaches.Then stomped to death.I said that cockroaches cannot be stepped on, and the more they step on them, the more they will be stepped on.He said that there is no way for you to ask it to go.I say let them do it.He asked me if Shun'er was better.I said better, and I still sang to me today.He said hello, now Shun'er is a wrist, very popular, others may not hear it on TV, what you are listening to is the live version.I said it was for the mosquitoes, but it sounded awful.Perhaps this is the best way for him to let go of his grief.He asked me if a person has a soul after death.I said there should be some, I don't know.He said I'd rather have nothing.I said so desperate and absolute, it would be unbearable.Besides, no one has ever died, and no one knows what happens when they die.That night until we finished drinking that bottle of wine, we were all recalling what happened from the beginning to the present. It was like watching a movie, but a lot of people went, and they went as soon as they went, except for taking away a lot of longing. And the sadness and helplessness left behind, no one knows what will happen in the future.I asked Cong Er if he had any winter clothes, if not enough I went to Shiyang to get mine for him, he said yes.I said let's have a snow.He smiled and asked me what to do with those without clothes.I said, think about it when I wake up.At the moment when I went to Mengmeng with the power of alcohol, I remembered what I told Shun'er that I would never drink again.Worried that he asked me how I should answer, then turned around and ran away, like a child.A lie cannot be justified.

...Then, let's have a snow...

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