muddy boy

The spare key on the second floor was played warmly by Chen Linhu, reflecting the light of the street lamp that came in through the cracks of the dead branches of the climbing tiger.

Chen Linhu glanced at his mobile phone. It was already nine o'clock in the evening. Old Chen went to the toilet twice in an hour. He could hear the background music of Doudizhu leaked through the earphones at the loudest, but there was nothing on the second floor. movement.

During this period, he flashed the foolish method of simply using the spare key to open the anti-theft door on the second floor several times, but he pressed it out by himself.

It's not that I dare not, it's that I can't.

So stupid that Zhang Xun's trembling hands made Chen Linhu feel uncomfortable.He felt that Zhang Xun was in pain as if his skin had been peeled off, and Chen Linhu was not stupid to become salty salt on his body.

For Zhang Xun, the closed door on the second floor is the last layer of face, and Chen Linhu himself feels that he can no longer force him.

But Chen Linhu didn't know what to do. He covered the key so hot that he felt the teeth on the top by heart, as if he was struggling to say something when he saw Zhang Xun again.

can i kiss you

Chen Linhu sternly denied this opening, thinking that it was a hooligan, even if everyone is a gentleman, this is very irresponsible.

Can I kiss you as your object?

Chen Linhu stomped on the bed several times, like a fish just fished out of the river. The movement was so loud that it shocked the old Chen who was going to the toilet for the third time.

"What's the matter," old Chen said, "the bed board is on fire, right? You're jumping around like a squid with curled edges, what are you stupid about?"

Chen Linhu couldn't tell his master that he was thinking about Zhang Xun, so he picked up the quilt to cover his head, and said sullenly, "Why don't you talk in such a way as to make people angry."

"Simple," Old Chen snorted, "Show your head first, and don't point your butt at people."

Chen Linhu accepted the teaching humbly, and simply got into the quilt with his whole body, not showing even a hair of the tiger to his grandfather.

Old Chen walked away angrily outside the bed: "If you don't sleep with the lights off at night, you will either suffer from insomnia, or miss Chuner..."

Chen Linhu didn't bother to talk to Old Chen, he quickly covered his brow with sweat in the dark, but he still couldn't think of anything to say.

Countless thoughts popped up here and there, but none of them were very satisfactory.Young and childish feelings are stumbling, and they can't find where to grow at the worst time.

Chen Linhu rummaged through today's messy memory for some clues for reference, starting from the snow by the river, from Zhang Xun's eyes when he was pressed down by him, throbbing in confusion, like a tender child under the snow bud.

do you like me?

All thoughts seemed to find a breakthrough in an instant, and the tributaries merged and rushed upward.

The defensive line in Chen Linhu's heart was shaken, and he suddenly realized that this question seems to be the premise of all relationships - if he likes it, the rivers and rivers can pour down.

He realized this truth by himself, almost suffocating in the night, and once again flashed the idea of ​​rushing directly to the second floor with the spare key.

But the tranquility on the second floor lasted until Chen Linhu started school, and the two never saw each other again.

Zhang Xun stayed at home for two days and didn't go out or go to the book cafe. During this period, Zhang Cheng called him as if urging him to die, but he insisted on running out of battery and turned off the phone, but he didn't get through.

I don’t know if his brain functioned abnormally after being stimulated. Zhang Xun couldn’t fall asleep, so he just sat in front of the computer and cleared up all the work he had accumulated for a few days. The orange cat came to sniff him several times in the middle of the night. It was probably Yu who wanted to see if his master had become a corpse that could still type.

On the third day, because Duan Qiao couldn't get in touch with Zhang Xun, he slammed the door in the corridor loudly.

Only then did Zhang Xun feel stupid that he was still alive, so he floated to open the door.

As soon as the door opened, Duan Qiao saw Zhang Xun's red eyes and blue face from staying up all night, almost scared to go up and sniff: "The phone is turned off, and the door won't open for a long time. I thought you were dead inside!"

"Forget it, I thought it was an auditory hallucination," Zhang Xun smiled, and his voice sounded like a broken bellows, "The phone is off, Zhang Cheng is always calling."

"It's Zhang Cheng again?" Duan Qiao entered the room, looked around the room, and found that the orange cat was frightened by the abnormality of the owner for the past two days. Lie on the ground and lift up his belly for him to touch, "What's wrong with him?"

Zhang Xun stretched his waist, rubbed his stiff neck and said, "He came to Baoxiang. I met him two days ago and called me back."

This news made Duan Qiao jump, subconsciously looked at Zhang Xun, rubbed his foot on the entry mat, and said "Oh" slowly: "Let's not talk about this, have you eaten yet?"

Of course not.

Zhang Xun even forgot when he ate his last meal. The rice wine soup given by old Chen has already been consumed, the buns at home have also been swept away, and the two bags of snacks he bought with Chen Linhu are still on the entry cabinet. It's all over the place.

Fortunately, Duan Qiao didn't expect Zhang Xun to have any great use in his living ability. He came over after get off work, with the vegetables bought on the way in his hand, and cooked a pot of soup and noodles at the speed of light.

The smell from the tomatoes in the pot made Zhang Xun feel alive. He cleared the dining table and sat down. He also had the time to open a can of Coke for Duan Qiao.

"Quickly, lay out the placemat." Duan Qiao was holding two big bowls of soup noodles, which were scorching hot, "Hey, what did Zhang Cheng tell you?"

"I didn't say anything, it's still the same as the old three, 'Mom is sick', 'You change it', 'You have to go home'." Zhang Xun fixed the bowl mat, took the chopsticks and spoon and handed it to Duan Qiao, "But I said it in front of Chen Linhu, let him know."

The chopsticks in Duan Qiao's hand fell into the bowl: "You are...he also knows?"

"Yeah." Zhang Xun picked up noodles with chopsticks and nodded while eating.

Duan Qiao was a little dazed by the explosive news one after another, thinking that the world had evolved and did not bring him along, resulting in a serious information imbalance, so he stared at Zhang Xun's expression, feeling anxious: "What's the matter, then Did the kid say something unpleasant? Or did you lose your face?"

"What nonsense are you talking about?" Zhang Xun laughed before biting off the noodles, and swallowed wheezingly. "No, I almost beat Zhang Cheng up."

"It's really my little benefactor." Duan Qiao immediately felt relieved, but felt that something was wrong.

Duan Qiao has known Zhang Xun for too long, except for the annoyance that Zhang Xun received his brother's call last time, Duan Qiao has seen this kind of over-struck look once, that is, Zhang Xun took the train overnight Come to Baoxiang to find him that time.

With Zhang Cheng alone, Duan Qiao didn't think Zhang Xun would be like this. There were many ways to deal with his brother. Zhang Xun had been used to it since he was a child.After pondering for a long time, Duan Qiao hesitated and said, "Why are you so stupid? It's not just Zhang Cheng, is it?"

Zhang Xun chewed a piece of tomato and said nothing.

This kind of silence made Duan Qiao think about it, first he was startled, then he suppressed it, and after seven or eight times in his mouth, he spit out: "What's the matter with you and Huzi?" After finishing speaking, he hastily explained, "I'm not just asking around, it's just that Yu has an idea in his heart."

Zhang Xun looked up at him, and said vaguely, "No."

"Oh," Duan Qiao lowered his head to eat the noodles, and said after a few seconds, "Actually, it's nothing, you're both grown-ups, you two should talk about it if you have anything to say."

Zhang Xun interrupted him: "I can't talk to him properly."

His dog temper has to be able to listen.

What's more, Zhang Xun was not foolish to listen to Chen Linhu's words. He had understood in the past two days at home. He couldn't listen to Chen Linhu's real words.

Then Chen Linhu would really be turned astray.

Duan Qiao couldn't answer the words, and it didn't matter if Zhang Xun was joking around with him, but with this attitude, Duan Qiao couldn't move him, but he understood: "Tell me the truth, do you like it in your heart?" his?"

This time Zhang Xun didn't deny it, he really pretended to be a little tired.

Zhang Xun himself opened a can of Coke, and the sweet taste smeared his mouth: "Don't mention this when you go out, it's not good for him."

"I'm sick, do I go out and talk nonsense?" Duan Qiao understood in her heart, and sighed, she didn't know what kind of fate Zhang Xun was. How stupid?"

"It doesn't matter how stupid he is," Zhang Xun said calmly, "I'm still young, what do I know. Many things are done on the spur of the moment, and it's too late to regret after calming down."

Duan Qiao opened his mouth to say something Yuyu, seeing Zhang Xun's calm expression like a pool of stagnant water, he thought it was really embarrassing.

It was midnight after a meal, and Duan Qiao had no intention of going home, so he managed to get a bed——Zhang Xun made a bed for him, and he spread a quilt on the carpet for the night.

Duan Qiao took a look at the floor covering after washing. It was really narrow, and he felt that he could bump his head if he turned over casually. However, seeing Zhang Xun still sitting in front of the computer writing a manuscript, he guessed that the floor covering was just for show.

"Be careful, you died from overwork when you were young, and I still have to cry at your funeral," Duan Qiao rolled onto the made bed, grabbed the orange cat, kissed it twice, ate it, and suffered He slapped the cat in the ear, "I have to sleep, there will be another meeting tomorrow morning."

Zhang Xun turned down the desk lamp so that it didn't shine on the bed: "Okay, turn on the little sun tomorrow, and put your trousers here. It will be warm when you wake up, and it won't take much effort to wear."

intimate.Duan Qiao promised while being foolish, Lao Zhang is good-looking, caring and caring, what kind of god did he offend so unlucky? Also much more stupid than others.

This kind of person is good at everything, but life is tiring.

The light in the room was dim, but Duan Qiao was feeling restless, turned over on the bed a few times, and said, "Old Zhang, I shouldn't have said this, but no one can tell you this except me." So you don't mind if I speak."

"Well," Zhang Xun lit a cigarette and looked at the computer screen, "If I mind, I'll cut you straight away, and don't hold grudges."

Duan Qiao whispered: "Are you not concerned about how stupid Chen Linhu is, or are you afraid that he will regret it in the future, or that he is acting on a whim?"

There was no answer in the room for a while, and the cat rolled up to sleep at Duan Qiao's feet.

After a long time, Zhang Xun smoked half of his cigarette before opening his mouth: "When I resigned from school because of that incident, I almost felt that everything I owned was ruined. I can have it, and I will lose it if I fall in love."

Duan Qiao couldn't hear it: "Train me..."

"When I ran out of the house, I felt helpless, angry and miserable. This kind of confusion, like being grabbed by the collar and scolded me by the collar by the relative who made trouble at school, has the feeling of contagious disease. In this life, I I can’t even forget it.” Zhang Xun flicked off the cigarette ash, and said in a light voice, “If you like someone, will you let him suffer through this again?”

Duan Qiao was speechless, he made Ning Xiaomeng stupid.

Just Yuyu, if Ning Xiaomeng followed him, he would have to suffer. Duan Qiao blamed himself to death for the little girl who was spoiled by his family and grew up with him.

"I know what you mean, but he wants to talk to you really stupidly..." Duan Qiao paused, "Have you told him these words?"

"He said he was stupid," Zhang Xun put out his cigarette, "I'm not stupid."

Duan Qiao frowned: "You are not stupid in everything, so what about your stupidity?"

have no idea.Zhang Xun was upset, shaking the mouse like touching a switch.

What Chen Linhu did was beyond Zhang Xun's expectation. Chen Linhu seemed born to create surprises for Zhang Xun.

"You are so stupid, you don't even tell Chen Linhu a fart in front of your face. It's fine if he doesn't have that stupid way. If there is, wouldn't you be unilaterally sentenced to death?" Duan Qiao kicked the quilt I hate iron for steel, "I don't even give you a chance to appeal, how uncomfortable it is for a child. You are so cruel, Lao Zhang, I don't care about you anymore, go to sleep!"

The orange cat that was sleeping at Duan Qiao's feet was kicked awake, and it "meowed" angrily, jumped to the ground and fell into Zhang Xun's arms, rubbing its head against Zhang Xun's hand on the armrest of the chair.

Zhang Xun rubbed the hair on the top of Sha Mao's head, reminded him of Chen Linhu's cartoons, and also remembered Chen Linhu's expression when he was standing at the door and holding his hand.

A little bit of anticipation, there is light in the eyes, it is really stupid to say something to him.

Without even thinking about the consequences.

Just like the kiss that almost took shape in the snow at that time, Chen Linhu seemed to have only one tendon, regardless of gains and losses, reckless, impulsive, sincere and upright.

Zhang Xun felt that Chen Linhu was an idiot, if he wasn't gay, then Chen Linhu would be finished.On the other hand, he felt that even if he knew he was not, Chen Linhu would probably still do this.

His youthful feelings are like a burning fire, and all the covers on it will be ignited like paper.

If you don't know how to back down and restrain yourself, if you don't know how to restrain yourself, you will go up to whoever you like, and the world in your eyes is either black or white.

What a wonderful person, Zhang Xun Xinyu, I really like it.

Accompanied by Duan Qiao's snoring in the dim light, he played intermittently, recalling old Chen's head like a boiled egg, recalling Chen Linhu's subdued tone when he was calling Lin Hongyu on the phone, playing with Chen Tong in his arms The figure, and the unsmiling Chen Xingye.It reminds me of Chen Linhu's bad luck in high school.

A few more cigarette butts were added to Zhang Xun's ashtray. He tried to put what happened to Chen Linhu on Chen Linhu's head, and fell out with his family. I started to hate myself a little bit.

I am not a stunned young man at Chen Linhu's age. Children can do things without thinking about the consequences, but he has to think about it, not for himself, but for Chen Linhu.

Zhang Xun squatted in front of the computer for several hours, turned on the little sun at five or six o'clock to dry Duan Qiao's clothes, and after Duan Qiao left, he went back to bed and fell asleep until the afternoon.

When he woke up, there was still a setting sun outside the window, Zhang Xun was smoking a cigarette on the balcony, flicking the ash while calmly thinking, let’s go.

Chen Linhu got busy at the beginning of school. First, he prepared the things to be used in the professional class, and then chatted with the professional teacher who was nicknamed "Er Kijiao" about his recent project.

The second is that Fang Qing applied for a live-out. The counselor and teacher talked to him several times without persuading him. If he did not sleep out, he would change dormitories, but the other dormitories were well-lived, and no one was willing to change, so he had no choice but to agree to the application. .

At any rate, they were roommates for half a year, and the others in 307 didn't say much, they even helped to pack Fang Qing's things so that he could move out.

Even though there were many things to do, Chen Linhu went to the book cafe to find Zhang Xun as soon as possible.

I haven't seen him for a month, Wu Yue is very enthusiastic, but because he is too busy to touch the ground, he can't say hello: "Are you looking for Zhang Xun? He asked for leave, and he won't go to work this week. He said he has something to do at home, don't you?" Know?"

Chen Linhu was stunned, and realized more deeply that it was very easy for Zhang Xun to disappear.He can come to Baoxiang at will, or leave at will, but Chen Linhu seems to have no choice but to wait.

This feeling made him even more anxious. He knew that Zhang Xun would not be having a good time these few days. If it were him, if his scars were exposed in front of others, he would probably never see each other again in this lifetime.

But Chen Linhu is not stupid to do something to sneak in when Zhang Xun is most embarrassing and vulnerable. Zhang Xun can be regarded as a man who has some knowledge, has strong self-esteem, wants to save face, and is much more stupid.

It may have something to do with his unlucky family, which caused Zhang Xun to actually have a very traditional side in his heart, which had a great disagreement with his freewheeling nature and tormented him for a long time.

In fact, the above few things don’t matter in normal times, but as long as you encounter such an extremely private matter, this kind of personality will definitely make Zhang Xun get hit hard enough.

Those who won't be hit don't see me, right?Chen Linhu was so annoyed that he started to get a little annoyed.

Unable to sleep, Chen Linhu got out of bed and sat down at the desk, preparing to draw the composition of the manuscript for the children's magazine in the sketchbook.

In the middle of the painting, Siyu broke down, and first drew a cat like a fish. I haven't seen him for a few days. Chen Linhu is still very heavy with Yu's brother Hu.

With a few more strokes, Chen Linhu drew Zhang Xun's side face facing the computer with ease.

While he was drawing, someone behind him whispered, "What are you doing if you don't sleep at night?"

Chen Linhu was so frightened that he turned around and saw Shang Qinghua who had just gone to the toilet, and almost beat him up: "Can you sleep honestly after peeing?"

"Are you scared?" Shang Qinghua chuckled, stretched his head to take a look, "What are you painting? Work hard, Huzi."

Chen Linhu subconsciously covered the painting, and said vaguely: "Fool, I will sleep in a while."

"A fool is still a fool." Shang Qinghua saw something was wrong from the message Chen Linhu sent to him before, and waved his hands knowingly, "A fool is still a fool, making it look like a shame."

Chen Linhu was stunned for a moment, and suddenly asked himself, was I just afraid that people would see me fooling Zhang?

In a trance, he recalled Zhang Xun's eyes turning his head to look at him at the gate of the Cultural Palace, and suddenly realized why Zhang Xun looked at him like that.

In Zhang Xun's cognition, his own business is not visible.It's shameful.will be alienated.Zhang Xun was afraid of Chen Linhu who knew everything.

Chen Linhu's heart ached as if he had been pinched, I'm so stupid that I didn't even understand this, and even pestered Zhang Xun to show his weak side.

Why are you showing it?Do you feel uncomfortable in the wind and sun?Chen Linhu is stupid, if I can't be the coat that covers this soft face, then why should I want Zhang Xun to show it to me?

If you don't even dare to admit that you miss him, then why should you become a "cloak"?

"It's a fool," Chen Linhu slowly sat up straight, revealing his painting, and said in a low voice, "Yu...Zhang Xun."

Shang Qinghua was a little surprised, "Oh", and didn't forget the other places: "Hey, I thought you were thinking about that little girl who couldn't get it. I haven't seen you go to the bookstore recently, and it's been a long time I saw brother Xun. Did the two brothers quarrel?"

"Forget it." Chen Linhu said.

"Then talk about it carefully, as long as you talk about it," Shang Qinghua yawned, and said while climbing up the upper bunk, "Is there anything you can't explain clearly, old man?"

There were a few slight "creaks" from the bed, and calm returned to the dormitory.

Chen Linhu stared blankly at the table with his arms folded, turned the paper over, and began to write on it.

The first one, I like Zhang Xun.

When these five characters appeared majestically on the snow-white paper, Chen Linhu seemed to have found the sense of direction that he had when he was by the river and was so focused on his loved ones.

Being confused is useless, Chen Linhu's solution is to rush forward.

Everything seemed to be organized in his heart suddenly. After writing these five words, he let out a long breath.

If you dare not admit that you like anyone, you are really a bit of a bastard.

Chen Linhu began to write down.

The second rule, don't hide it, talk it out.

The third rule is to ask what he means, you can't force him, but you can outsmart him.

Chen Linhu hesitated in the aspect of "outsmarting", and finally put a parenthesis in his heart reluctantly.Brackets, it’s really not enough to call brother appropriately, reverse brackets.

Article [-]: Take responsibility for what you have to do.

The last article is very general, and there are so many details, Chen Linhu couldn't write it for a while.

For the first time, he started to face up to this matter, the heat in his head went down, his rationality returned, and he realized that there might be a reason why Zhang Xun didn't let him continue talking.

In Chen Linhu's view, it is an expression of irresponsibility to express love without careful consideration.

Chen Linhu took a deep breath, then he would be good and foolish. If he could get what he wanted, he would have to face whatever it was.

The confusion of adulthood seems to be seldom dissipated. Chen Linhu, with the momentum of a tiger descending the mountain, blazed a trail on Siyu, setting rules and regulations, and at the same time anxiously waiting for his return home this week.

On Friday afternoon, after Chen Linhu finished his last class, he received a message from Zhang Xun on his mobile phone: [Talk? ]

There was no direct bus from the school to the riverside where the water was floating last time. Chen Linhu simply took a taxi. After class, he carried his computer and made a long list and went straight to the destination.

When he arrived, Zhang Xun had already arrived, chatting with the old lady selling cotton candy at the bridge with a smile.

Zhang Xun is simply a killer of middle-aged and elderly women. He is good-looking, and he is even more attractive when he smiles, which makes the old lady amused.

Seeing Chen Linhu coming, Zhang Xun waved with a smile: "Here. Haven't eaten, why don't you have some sweets first?"

Chen Linhu's eyes fell on Zhang Xun's face and he couldn't move. His heart was up and down, but he only said "um".

Zhang Xun bought two marshmallows. There is a riverside park around here, and there are many children. He squeezed out the encircling circle of children one by one, and handed the orange one in his hand to Chen Linhu: "You can eat this, extra money It was rolled into a big one."

"Oh," Chen Linhu took a bite, his mouth was covered with embarrassment, but he nodded sullenly, "it's quite sweet."

"Nonsense, everyone is called cotton candy." Zhang Xun laughed, and paused, "Go for a walk by the river? It's been a few days since school started, how are you doing?"

What can I do?Chen Linhu is stupid, what do you think I can do?That's the only thing you're asking stupidly?

He was full of whining and talking, and he still had a pile of checklists in his pocket, but when he saw Zhang Xun's face, he suddenly couldn't speak.

I haven't seen him for a few days, and Zhang Xun has very obvious dark circles under his eyes.

This person is not only endowed with extraordinary talent but also because of his habit. He occasionally stayed up all night before, except for a little bit of sluggishness. At most, he could only see a little bit of blue eyes when he got close. This was the first time Chen Linhu saw his face so obvious. panda eyes.

However, Zhang Xun's overall condition seems to be okay, and he walked and chatted with Chen Linhu with a relaxed expression: "Are there many classes this semester? I haven't been to the book cafe for a week, Wu Yue must be crazy busy?"

"It's okay, but several sessions are scheduled until the morning," Chen Linhu also chatted along with him, "Wu Yue scolded you several times."

Zhang Xun couldn't help laughing: "You are really sincere. It is true that you have provoked the relationship between our two colleagues. Can you see that I have a good relationship with my colleagues?"

Chen Linhu moved his lips and glanced at him.

This glance made Zhang Xun realize that his words seemed a bit awkward. He sighed in his heart, cleared up the cotton candy in his hand in two or three mouthfuls, threw the stick into the trash can, licked his lips and said, "I saw you last time too, Zhang Cheng." ,my brother."

Chen Linhu stood up abruptly, staring at him like a prey.

"Call me home, and say that my mother is sick and wants to see me." Zhang Xun pointed to the riverside, and led Chen Linhu down the grass, "I ran away from home. I don’t want it anymore, it’s like running overnight to buy standing tickets.”

Chen Linhu more or less guessed, "Yes".

"I... did talk to someone before, a man," Zhang Xun smiled, "Not long ago, less than two months, his family found out about it, and he went to the school where I worked to find me and blocked me in the teaching building After scolding, it was quite ugly, and I took the initiative to resign and go home for the sake of being stupid in all aspects."

Chen Linhu clenched his hands in his pockets, and squeezed the list into a ball: "Then..."

"He didn't show his face, so it's not a big deal." Zhang Xun summed it up in two or three sentences, and said as if he didn't care, "Later, my father sent me to the correctional institution, because my mother was ill. I almost went in because of cheating me home. Fortunately, I was quick and quick. I bought a ticket to come here to find Xiaopang on the same day. Later, I met your grandpa through his introduction. The old man is kind-hearted and lowered the rent. A lot of them were rented to me, and the neighbors are also very nice, so I’ve lived like this until now.”

The situation was worse than guessed, Chen Linhu was shocked and angry, he didn't know much about the correctional institution, but he could guess that it wasn't the place to go, it was hard to imagine that Zhang Xun really let his damn father get into it What will happen.

"Your family," Chen Linhu's voice was so sweet that he threw the marshmallow stick into the trash can before he managed to make a comment, "I really deserve a beating."

"It's all over, and I'm not foolish to go back." Zhang Xun smiled and lit a cigarette, "That's what happened. At that time, Buyu told you because I felt ashamed. I finally carried the image It's all broken."

Chen Linhu looked at him, and said very seriously: "You are always the same with me, and it has nothing to do with these things."

When Zhang Xun met his gaze, his heart swelled like a bubble.

very nice.Zhang Xun is stupid, he is a child who should live in the light and be happy.

"Chen Linhu," Zhang Xun said with a smile and squinted his eyes, "give me back the spare key."