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Ji Shuyan returned to the hospital, hung his coat on the hanger, changed into a white coat, and prepared to hand over to his colleagues.

While hanging his clothes, the plastic ring in his pocket fell out, dropped on the desk, rolled around a few times, and lay down again with a snap.

Ji Shuyan picked up the ring. A cheap plastic ring like this has no practical value and should be thrown away.

But he looked at the ring for a few seconds, but it finally hung on the wooden snake ornament on his desk. The beautiful little snake wagging its tail suddenly had a ring on its body, like wearing a gemstone collar, which was inexplicably pretty. lining.

Ji Shuyan touched this ornament, and remembered that when Duan Zhi gave it to him, he was sitting on the bus back to the holiday manor, looking at him earnestly.

At that time, he would never have thought that he would be succeeded by this little bastard in the end.

It's clear that they haven't been dating for a long time, but dating, eating, and sleeping with each other at night have subtly become a part of his life, adapting to such a degree that even he himself is afraid.

Every time he thinks of meeting Duan Zhi, he can't help but laugh.

Ji Shuyan shook his head in his heart, feeling that he was too worthless, he put the ornament back to its original place, picked up the pen and left the office.

In the next few days, neither Ji Shuyan nor Duan Zhi could meet.

In this season of autumn and winter exchange, the outpatient wards of cardiac surgery are full. Although Ji Shuyan and the others are a private hospital, they are busier than before.

In the afternoon, another emergency patient was sent. He was a 65-year-old elderly man with coronary heart disease who had sudden ventricular fibrillation. Fortunately, the location was very close to the hospital. He was sent to the hospital in time. He was finally rescued and has been hospitalized now. .

Ji Shuyan was surrounded by the patient's family members just now. He was tired from the long surgery, but he didn't show it on the surface. His expression was flat, and he explained the patient's situation to the family members clearly. There was no fluctuation, but it calmed the tense nerves of the family members.

"Thank you doctor." The patient's youngest daughter said earnestly.

"It can't be said," Ji Shuyan said, "it should be done."

He didn't leave immediately, because the middle-aged woman probably still had lingering fears, and she couldn't help but say a few more words while holding his hand, "Dad went to see Mom today and bought flowers. He just fell down. Fortunately, you doctors rescued him, otherwise..." She paused, her eyes were red, "Today is my mother's death day."

Ji Shuyan was slightly surprised.

He whispered, "I'm sorry. But your father will be fine after active treatment. Don't be too afraid, just cooperate with the hospital."

This Ms. Zheng wiped away her tears, "Okay, thank you, sorry to take up your time."

Ji Shuyan shook his head, bowed to Ms. Zheng, and left. After changing the surgical gown, he went back to his office to write the surgical records.

He threw his mobile phone on the table and didn't notice that the sound was on mute. When he took it out again at nine o'clock, he suddenly found that it was full of calls from Duan Zhi.

He panicked all of a sudden, his dizzy mind finally remembered that he had an appointment with Duan Zhi today, but he was busy with work and completely forgot about it.

Ji Shuyan patted himself on the forehead, and immediately called Duan Zhi back. His work for today was over, so he quickly changed his white coat and went out.

This time it was Duan Zhi's turn not to answer the phone, only soft music ringtones could be heard on the phone, but no one picked it up.

Could it be that he was angry, Ji Shuyan bit his lip, a little nervous.

He really didn't do it on purpose, but it's not the first time he missed an appointment like this, there were two times before, when he had something to do temporarily, he postponed the appointment with Duan Zhi.

Of course he has his reasons aboveboard, but whose time is not precious, Duan Zhi waits for him happily every time, but in the end he receives a disappointing phone call.

Ji Shuyan's hand holding the phone tightened, his heart was agitated, and he quickened his pace.

He thought, if he saw Duan Zhi later, it would be right for Duan Zhi to lose his temper at him.

He really wasn't a good lover.

Instead, he sucks.

But just as he walked down the hall on the first floor, when he was walking outside the door, he happened to see a tall figure walking up the steps.

With a beep, the phone in his hand was connected, and Duan Zhi's voice came from the other end, "Hello, Uncle Ji?"

Ji Shuyan didn't speak, but stared blankly at the person under the steps.

Wearing a black overcoat, tall and tall, handsome and coquettish, whoever he is if he is not Duan Zhi.

Duan Zhi seemed to sense something, raised his head, and saw him too.

There were only five or six steps between the two of them, and they looked at each other from afar.

Duan Zhi hung up the phone, walked up to Ji Shuyan in two or three steps, looked Ji Shuyan up and down, and breathed a sigh of relief.

"Why don't you answer the phone," he said, "it scares me."

Ji Shuyan forgot to put on his coat this morning, and now he only has a dark blue sweater on his body. Standing in the cold wind of early winter, his face turned pale and his eyes were a little dazed.

Duan Zhi touched his hand, not caring that it was the entrance of Ji Shuyan's hospital, so he opened his coat and wrapped Ji Shuyan in, "Don't you wear a coat yet? It's almost zero today."

Only then did Ji Shuyan come to his senses, he had no idea that he was not wearing a coat.

"Why are you here?" He asked with mixed feelings.

"I've been calling you and no one has answered. Although I know in my heart that you should be at work, I'm still a little worried, so I came here to take a look." Duan Zhi was a little embarrassed, and he was afraid that Ji Shuyan would misunderstand, so he explained, "I'm not I'm suspicious of you, I'm just a little flustered when you don't answer the phone."

Ji Shuyan understood.

He never thought of going there.

He lowered his head, looked at Duan Zhi holding his hand, and apologized silently, "I'm sorry."

Duan Zhi was worried about him, but he didn't remember the date with Duan Zhi at all.

"I, I forgot about you again because of work," Ji Shuyan lowered his head. He was much shorter than Duan Zhi. He lowered his head and was held in Duan Zhi's arms. "I'm really sorry. If you're angry... you can just scold me."

He really didn't know how to express his guilt.

If Duan Zhi lost his temper a few words at him, he might be more relaxed.

Once, twice, three times, he and Duan Zhi have only been dating for a few months, but the number of missed appointments is so many, it is really terrible.

Duan Zhi lowered his head and looked at the person who was stuffing himself in front of his chest.

When Ji Shuyan didn't get through to the phone just now, he was really anxious as if he was being roasted on fire. He rushed all the way to the hospital, but he encountered a traffic jam. When he first arrived at the hospital, he was almost in a bad mood.

But from the beginning to the end, he was not angry with Ji Shuyan.

Because he knew that Ji Shuyan didn't do it on purpose.

Duan Zhi took off his coat and wrapped Ji Shuyan in it, "Go back to your car first, it's too cold here."

The entrance of the hospital is really not a suitable place for conversation.

Ji Shuyan nodded, and obediently let Duan Zhi drag him away.

The parking lot was not far away, and after returning to the car, Ji Shuyan sat obediently in the driver's seat, waiting for Duan Zhi's criticism.

Seeing him like this, Duan Zhi almost burst out laughing.

His uncle Ji, his Ji Shuyan, this kind of place is always very cute.

He touched Ji Shuyan's cheek with the back of his hand, but it was still cold, like a piece of fine porcelain that couldn't be warmed up, a beauty like an ice sculpture, as if there was no smoke.

But only he knows how soft and well-behaved the flesh is inside after peeling off this thin and hard shell.

"Are you afraid that I will be angry?" he asked.

Ji Shuyan glanced at Duan Zhi, his cold black eyes were particularly downcast at the moment.

How should he put it, he was really tired of himself like this.

He whispered, "I don't know how to say it, but this is the third time I have postponed my meeting with you because of work, and I forgot to tell you this time. Last time too, you waited for me for an extra hour, wait When I rushed there, the drama had started and I couldn’t get in.”

He is really sad.

It would be fine if he hadn't met Duan Zhi, and he didn't think there was anything wrong with his life like this, but he happened to meet him, and he just happened to fall in love with him.

It may be ridiculous to say, but he always hopes that in Duan Zhi's eyes, he is beautiful and invincible, not a tired and busy adult who can't even give the most basic relationship.

Duan Zhi looked at him.

Ji Shuyan lowered his head, half of his face was hidden in the darkness, his long eyelashes trembled slightly, as if he was disappointed in himself, his whole body was covered with a layer of ashes.

He stretched out his hand, gently embraced Ji Shuyan, and leaned on his shoulder.

"I'm not angry, Ji Shuyan," he said softly, "When I liked you, I knew you were busy and under a lot of pressure. If you couldn't write a paper at night, you would smash your computer."

He gave a low laugh.

Ji Shuyan was suddenly exposed, and gave him a light bow with his head.

"You don't have to feel guilty that you don't have time to accompany me. When I liked you, I already accepted it, not to mention that you have worked hard to make time for me." Duan Zhi held Ji Shuyan's face and looked at him quietly. Look at him, "I don't mind whether you postpone it or cancel it. This is indeed a problem, but it will not affect anything. You don't have time to come to me. I can find you more. It can be solved." of."

"But..." Ji Shuyan wanted to say something else,

Duan Zhi stopped him, "There are no buts, who doesn't make mistakes, you don't have to be so demanding of yourself."

He has long since discovered that Ji Shuyan is like a taut bow. He obviously has no requirements for Ji Yuan and others, but he has a bunch of inexplicable rules and regulations for himself. It seems that he has been the head of the family for too long and always feels that he must Be accountable to everyone.

But it will be tiring.

He didn't want Ji Shuyan to be so tired.

"But don't answer the phone next time," he said again, "it's not allowed. OK?"

Ji Shuyan leaned on Duan Zhi's shoulder, and after a while he gave a soft "hmm".

He inexplicably felt a little sour.

Ever since he met Duan Zhi, his young lover has been tolerant of him.

Same now.

Obviously he let Duan Zhi go, but in the end it was Duan Zhi who comforted him.

Sometimes he even felt that Duan Zhi was loving him as if he were younger. Although he was at a loss, he could still feel the love in it, and there was a secret joy in his heart that he couldn't express.

He rubbed against Duan Zhi.

If he doesn't fall in love with Duan Zhi, he doesn't even know how good Duan Zhi can be.

Duan Zhi felt Ji Shuyan's movement, touched his back, and said in a low voice, "You are like a kitten."

Ji Shuyan raised his head and said quietly, "No cat lives long enough to be 33 years old."

Duan Zhi laughed out loud.

Ji Shuyan also laughed.

The smell of rose fragrance in the car floated up and down, the wind was cold outside the window, but the inside of the car was warm and dry, Duan Zhi stroked Ji Shuyan's hand more and more slowly, he stared at Ji Shuyan's lips, his amber eyes slowly sank, Dangerous and ambiguous.

Ji Shuyan noticed.

He hesitated, raised his head, and pressed his lips to Duan Zhi's.

Duan Zhi kissed him impetuously and recklessly, his lips and tongue intertwined, making an ambiguous sound of water.

Fortunately, the parking lot was empty at this time. They hid in this narrow car, like a forgotten corner. Half of his body was attached to Duan Zhi's body, like a vine wrapped around a tree. , Do your best to keep the invitation.

Duan Zhi let go of Ji Shuyan's lips with difficulty, panting heavily, like a beast forcing himself to stop attacking.

He stroked Ji Shuyan's cheek with his hand, "Where are we going?"

He meant which hotel to go to.

Recently, he and Ji Shuyan ended up dating in the hotel, which is quite interesting, like a lover who can only have sex on weekends.

But Ji Shuyan sat up slowly, tugged at the collar of his messy sweater, and said, "Go home, I'll drive back."

Duan Zhi was taken aback for a moment, but he didn't raise any objection, "Okay."