you restrain yourself

There was silence on the other end of the video.

Duan Zhi didn't know what reason to find. It's easy to lie, and it's okay to deny it to death, but as long as Ji Shuyan asks him to walk around the room with his mobile phone, nothing will be solved.

So he could only look at Ji Shuyan quietly, not knowing how to speak properly.

He did not go back, to be precise, he did, but he failed to enter the door.

That scene was somewhat embarrassing, and he didn't want Ji Shuyan to feel uncomfortable.

But Ji Shuyan had already guessed the answer.

"Your house didn't let you in, did it?" Ji Shuyan stared at him and asked again.

Duan Zhi hesitated again and again before giving a soft "hmm".

He explained again, "I went back, but my grandfather has been in poor health for the past two years, and it's Chinese New Year, and all the guests are here, so it's not good to make trouble. My aunt persuaded me to come out."

He spoke lightly, trying to minimize all conflicts and contradictions.

But Ji Shuyan still felt the pain from these few words.

He was kicked out on New Year's Eve, the house was full of guests, relatives and friends, all in one room, and he could even see the bustle through the window, but Duan Zhi couldn't enter that house.

In the end, I was persuaded by my aunt to come out.

advise.

This word Ji Shuyan felt a surge of fire in his heart, but mixed with a trace of sadness.

He knew Duan Zhi's character, he would never go back until the banquet was over, but he waited for his relatives to come before he was persuaded to leave.

How long did he wait for that obsession, and how long was it left to hang in the wind?

He is so proud, born with a clever and calm personality.

He took a deep breath, not even daring to ask.

Duan Zhi looked at Ji Shuyan on the opposite side of the video, feeling a little worried because Ji Shuyan's face was really ugly.

He had only seen it once in a long time. It was a patient of Ji Shuyan who died suddenly before the operation. Although they were not responsible, Ji Shuyan was also full of depression that day.

He couldn't help but slow down, "Actually, I also guessed the result. How can my family change their minds so quickly? I'm ready for a long-term battle. Besides, the environment in the hotel is not bad. I even made an appointment with my friends." Meet……"

But when he said this, his voice seemed to be cut off suddenly.

Because he saw Ji Shuyan closed his eyes and bit his lips, but his lips trembled slightly, and his chest heaved unceasingly.

Even through the screen, he could sense Ji Shuyan's emotions.

Ji Shuyan was angry, even sad.

because of him.

It's just that Ji Shuyan is not used to appearing too weak, so he tried his best to bear it in his heart.

Duan Zhi couldn't continue.

He didn't want to affect Ji Shuyan's mood by hiding it from Ji Shuyan, but it didn't work well, and he was still in a mess.

Ji Shuyan barely suppressed the anger and throbbing pain in his heart, calmed down, and then opened his eyes again.

He asked as calmly as possible, "You've been staying in the hotel for the past few days, from New Year's Eve to now?"

Duan Zhi didn't lie this time, "Yeah."

Ji Shuyan didn't speak for a while.

He stared at the small snake ornament on the bedside. When he returned home this time, he brought this rough wood carving back. Even Duan Zhi didn't know about it, because he put it in his pocket directly from the hospital.

This little snake also celebrated the New Year with him.

When the gunfire sounded last night, he was also holding the little wooden snake in his hand. He wanted to call Duan Zhi, but he was afraid that Duan Zhi would be at home, which would cause more trouble.

But only now did he know that Duan Zhi spent his New Years in a hotel.

He remembered how he had talked to Duan Zhi on New Year's Eve, and Duan Zhi said that he was having a New Year's Eve dinner at home, how Duan Zhi must have felt at that time.

Ji Shuyan's heart twitched again, and his nose felt sour, but he tilted his head, not wanting Duan Zhi to see it.

After a few seconds, he asked, "When are you going to come back?"

Duan Zhi hesitated.

He didn't plan to come back too early, not because he didn't want to see Ji Shuyan, but because he felt that it was rare for Ji Shuyan to be reunited with his parents. Whenever he went back early, Ji Shuyan would come out to accompany him. Ji Shuyan's parents might also be suspicious.

"On the seventh day of the lunar new year," he said, and smiled to himself, "Maybe my grandpa has changed his mind again in the past few days, so we might as well wait."

He was telling half truths.

In fact, he didn't expect much, but what if.

Ji Shuyan found that he only mentioned grandpa but didn't hear his parents, so he turned his head and asked, "What about your parents, do they have the same attitude?"

This is another matter that Duan Zhi is unwilling to mention.

He looked at Ji Shuyan with a headache.

But Ji Shuyan looked stern, as if he couldn't tolerate him lying.

"My parents are better," Duan Zhi said, "Both of them are busy with work this year, so they didn't come back for the New Year at all. They just called me and said they understand."

He didn't agree, but he didn't object, and he didn't ask him what the situation is now.

He explained to Ji Shuyan, "My parents are like this. They are career-minded and have their own pursuits and ideals. The reason for the divorce is because we get together less and leave more. They don't care about me, and I don't see me a few times a year, so They don't interfere with any of my decisions, and if they say they don't care, they really don't care."

That's actually fair.

His parents didn't give him love and nurturing, so they didn't come to intervene in his life.

He was used to it a long time ago, but he was afraid that Ji Shuyan would not be able to get used to it.

Ji Shuyan didn't speak for a long time.

He looked out of the window, his window was also pasted with window grilles, and the red magpies were on the branches, exactly the same as his home.The night is dim, and there are children's laughter, drunken singing, and the sound of falling firecrackers in the distance, which are very clear in this silent night.

The small town where his parents are taking care of the elderly has a strong flavor of the year. No matter how much the children travel around outside, when they come back to this town or the yard during the New Year, they will be gently comforted.

He was eating hot pot under the plum tree with his parents at noon today. His parents said they were too lazy to love his grown-up son, but after sitting for a while, his mother brought him cushions, and his father served him soup. It seems that he is only eight years old this year, and he is still the child who needs to be taken care of.

But Duan Zhi, who will give Duan Zhi a pair of chopsticks and a bowl of soup.

Ji Shuyan just sat stiffly like this, in the dimly lit room, like a sculpture covered in frost, beautiful and cold.

"Don't think too much, Uncle Ji," Duan Zhi said in a low voice, "There are many people in this world who are more unlucky than me. You love me only if you like me, but that's nothing at all."

"How about I tell you about my high school again..." He teased Ji Shuyan, "My high school is actually quite interesting. I told you, did I shave the vice principal?"

Ji Shuyan finally reacted, but he didn't seriously listen to the high school story that he was interested in just now.

He turned his head, silently looked at Duan Zhi on the screen, and asked, "You haven't told me where is the hotel you're staying at?"

Duan Zhi paused, "Why are you asking this?"

Ji Shuyan brows lightly, "Why do you care so much, send me a location."

Duan Zhi didn't agree immediately.

Looking at Ji Shuyan's expression, he had an unbelievable guess in his heart, "You can't be, you want to come here to find me?"

Ji Shuyan didn't deny it, and looked down at him, "Is it not possible?"

"Ji Shuyan," Duan Zhi stopped laughing, "Do you know what time it is, stay at home and don't mess around..."

But Ji Shuyan didn't give him a chance to continue, and left a sentence, "Remember to post the location."

Just turn off the video call.

He stood up, the suitcase was ready-made, and half of the things he brought back a few days ago were still in the suitcase. He casually threw a few clothes into it, and went downstairs with the suitcase.

He was not impulsive, but had thought about it seriously.

He accompanied his parents to the third grade of junior high school. Although he left two days early, his parents would not be too disappointed because he usually comes back often.

But Duan Zhi was left alone in the hotel for the first time in 20 years.

Maybe Duan Zhi doesn't care, maybe Duan Zhi really sees it.

But he can't.

He couldn't leave Duan Zhi there knowing that Duan Zhi had passed the loneliest Spring Festival in his life.

He didn't bring Duan Zhi back because he didn't want Duan Zhi to face his family suddenly after facing his own family.

But at least he can go to Duan Zhi's side.

He went downstairs and walked into the yard with his suitcase. His parents and Ji Yuan came in together. Seeing him carrying the suitcase, his father's reading glasses slipped off the bridge of his nose.

"Why are you going?" Ji Rang blinked and said strangely, "What are you doing with a suitcase at night? Is there something wrong with the hospital?"

There is no need to bring luggage.

Ji Shuyan stood in front of the door, his overcoat was a little thin, which made his figure look bleak.

He didn't lie, but said seriously, "I'm going to meet someone. Something happened to him now. He's spending the New Year in a hotel alone. I want to accompany him."

Ji Rang and Shen Lanxiu looked at each other, and asked again, "Who is so important?"

His eyes took on a little scrutiny this time. Although he was old, his brain and eyes were still sharp.

Ji Yuan next to him was terrified.

His grandparents didn't know, but he guessed who it was, and he hurriedly winked at his uncle.

But Ji Shuyan ignored him.

"A person who is very important to me, his name is Duan Zhi," Ji Shuyan said earnestly, "I will bring it back for you to meet when I have a chance. But I don't have time to go into details now, I have to go first. Sorry, Mom and Dad, I can't Stay with you for two more days."

Ji Rang's eyebrows twitched.

There was a slight wind in the courtyard, and the pine tree in the corner made a burst of noise.

He looked at Ji Shuyan without blinking, Ji Shuyan looked calm, but many things flashed through his mind.

section execution.

It doesn't sound like a daughter's house, he thought.

He thought of some things that Ji Shuyan often mentioned in the phone calls with him recently, and his heart sank.

He looked back at Shen Lanxiu again, and found that his wife's expression was also strange.

The father and son looked at each other for a while, like a silent seesaw, but in the end, Ji Rang still did not stop Ji Shuyan.

"Go." He sighed, lowered his head and saw the thin calluses on his son's hands, "You are so old, we two old ones can still control you."

Ji Shuyan was startled, "Thank you."

As for what he was looking like, he thought, his parents should be able to guess a thing or two.

He stepped forward and gave them a gentle hug before picking up his luggage and leaving.

Ji Yuan stared dumbfounded at his uncle getting into the car.

Damn, my uncle is so fucking cool, he thought, what is this called, the hero of the United States, his uncle traveled thousands of miles to pick up the little husband?

He sneaked a look at the faces of his grandparents again, only to find that the expressions of the two old people were a little dignified.

He was about to fish in troubled waters and sneak back to his room, but he heard his grandfather ask, "Yuanyuan, be honest, do you know who your uncle is looking for?"

Ji Yuan didn't say no, and if he didn't say no, he could only keep his eyes open and blink.

Ji Rang stared at his grandson for a while, saw Ji Yuanyuan's silly guilty face, snorted, and didn't bother to ask again.

He and Shen Lanxiu supported each other back to the house, whispering together.

"That brat, a while ago he always asked me to talk about homosexual psychology, said he was interested, and asked me what I thought," Ji Rang and Shen Lanxiu sighed, "He thought his father was stupid."

Shen Lanxiu said coldly, "He just knows you are not stupid, so he dares to lay the groundwork like this."

The son born by himself, how can he not understand, what he wants to say, what he wants to do, no one can stop him at all.

Thinking about it now, she saw Ji Shuyan calling someone under the plum blossom tree two days ago, smiling so softly, she seemed to have an answer.

Ji Shuyan never said clearly, so they pretended not to know. Anyway, Ji Shuyan has been single all these years, so they didn't think deeply about it.

Unexpectedly, this always calm son would also be so impulsive at times, and the New Year's Eve would still run thousands of miles for others.

Neither of them looked good-looking.

But when Shen Lanxiu stepped over the threshold, she suddenly reprimanded softly, "It's all your fault, the pair of good children they gave birth to are like you, very stupid."

Ji Rang was startled, and smiled wryly after a while.

Who said no.

Back then, no one agreed for him to be with Shen Lanxiu, so what, he has survived for seven years and still hasn't welcomed his lover into the house.

Well now, it's his son's turn again.

He sighed, and patted Shen Lanxiu's hand, "Forget it, let's talk when we come back."