you restrain yourself

Ji Shuyan picked up his luggage and left, but he was not as impulsive as others thought. Even when he was driving on the highway, he was still calm and there were no disturbances.

Duan Zhi's phone calls came one after another. He didn't want to answer it at first, but he felt noisy, so he pressed the answer button anyway.

He asked Duan Zhi, "Why are you making so many calls? I asked you to post the location."

Duan Zhi stood in front of the hotel window, the road downstairs was deserted, the street lights illuminated the surroundings, and there was no one there, yet he looked down unknowingly.

"You won't really be on the high speed, will you?" He could hear the silence from Ji Shuyan's side, only the sound of the wind came from afar.

Ji Shuyan gave a faint "hmm".

On the expressway during the Spring Festival, before it was time to rework, it was midnight again, the road was bleak and dark, and the headlights could only illuminate a few meters ahead. Driving alone on the quiet road, it is easy to have a flustered.

But Ji Shuyan had nothing to fear, he didn't believe in ghosts and gods, and there were coffee and cigarettes in the groove by his hand, which were used to refresh himself.

Duan Zhi stood by the window holding his mobile phone, and didn't speak for a long time.

Of course he had something to ask Ji Shuyan.

With a distance of several hundred kilometers and the cold winter months, they will meet again in two days, so why bother to catch up on this hour and a half.

But he knew well what Ji Shuyan was doing.

The bright lights in the guest room were shining, and Duan Zhi's tall shadow was reflected on the window alone. His hands rested on the window sill, and he exerted force unconsciously, showing his veins.

When he was kicked out of the house, he only felt cold-hearted, and there was no grievance.

But now hearing Ji Shuyan's clear and cold "um", his heart felt sour as if he had been soaked in lemonade.

There was a man who drove late at night for him, left his happy home, and bore the blame of his parents, and traveled thousands of miles just to see him.

Duan Zhi sighed, "Ji Shuyan... I found that you are also a little crazy in your bones." He thought for a while, and added, "You're still a little silly."

The Ji Shuyan he knew was obviously calm and restrained, his words and deeds seemed to be measured by a ruler, and he never lost control.

But now, Ji Shuyan's behavior seems to have shattered his rationality of the past thirty years.

Ji Shuyan snorted coldly, "Why do you talk so much?"

Of course he knew what he was doing, if he could really restrain himself, he wouldn't be with Duan Zhi in the first place.

He said to Duan Zhi, "Do you have anything else to do? If you don't have anything else, I'll hang up first. Remember to send me the hotel room number too. I'll get there at two o'clock. If you're sleepy, go to bed first."

Who can sleep here.

Duan Zhi turned his back and leaned against the wall. He stared at the painting on the opposite wall, which showed the sky full of night and a snowstorm.

He didn't tell Ji Shuyan to go back.

Ji Shuyan has already driven on the highway, which is a road that will not turn back.

"Then I'll wait for you here, drive carefully and don't fall asleep," he said, "or don't hang up, I'll chat with you."

But Ji Shuyan refused, "Forget it, you distracted me instead. I brought coffee, so I won't sleep."

Duan Zhi hesitated and didn't hang up the phone.

He half sat down with his back against the wall. He still had a lot to say to Ji Shuyan, but there was no rush, he decided to wait until Ji Shuyan came.

"Then I'll wait for you." He said again.

"Ah."

Ji Shuyan hung up the phone and concentrated on driving. The total distance from his home to Yongshi, where Duan Zhi is located, is 290 kilometers, and it would take three and a half hours to drive faster.

He turned on the music, opened the window a little, and lit a cigarette.

On this quiet highway, he remembered that one year he accompanied his sister to see her brother-in-law who was on a business trip.

At that time, he was just in his freshman year, and he was puzzled to see that his sister insisted on seeing her husband. Although his brother-in-law had a fever, his brother-in-law was a doctor himself, and his sister couldn't help her there.

But his sister raised her eyebrows and gave him three words, "I'm happy."

He didn't understand at the time.

But now he understands.

It's really just me being happy, and I'm willing to do it, nothing else.

I don't know if the coffee played a role, or if he wasn't tired today. After driving for more than three hours, Ji Shuyan didn't feel too tired after arriving at his destination.

He registered the information at the front desk and found 1510 according to Duan Zhi's room number.

Before ringing the doorbell, he suddenly thought that he didn't know if Duan Zhi was asleep. He just came all the way and forgot to send a message to Duan Zhi.

Holding the mobile phone, he was debating whether to make a call or send a WeChat message, when the door in front of him suddenly opened.

The light spilled out from the door and shone on him, and the pale golden mist enveloped him, as if dispelling the cold air all over his body.

He raised his head blankly.

Duan Zhi was standing in front of him, wearing a black sweater and long trousers, he didn't look like he was going to sleep at all.

Even though we haven't seen each other for a few days, inside and outside the door, it seems like a century has passed.

Duan Zhi didn't seem to expect that he was outside the door, staring at him blankly, his amber eyes were magnificent and beautiful under the lamp, like jewels.

Ji Shuyan put down his phone, and asked in confusion, "How did you know the door was opened?"

Duan Zhi said, "I don't know, I just suddenly felt that you were here."

He sat inside the door and waited. In the dead of night, he seemed to hear something suddenly. For no reason, he felt that it was Ji Shuyan.

Then he opened the door, and he found that it was not an illusion.

Ji Shuyan really came.

He looked at Ji Shuyan, he was too tall, making Ji Shuyan even more thin, wearing a black coat, plain white face, pointed chin, and pitch-black phoenix eyes as clear as water, anyone who looked at him would feel proud and noble.

But it was also this person who never wavered after talking about staying with him. He clearly only knew that he was not a good choice, but he still threw away the road of the first 30 years.I drove almost four hours at night just to see him.

Too stupid.

He stretched out his hand, grabbed Ji Shuyan's elbow, and slowly hugged him into his arms.

His warm body was locked into his arms, and his heart, which had been wandering for a few days, suddenly fell to the ground.

He smelled the faint smell of tobacco on Ji Shuyan's body, and thought of Ji Shuyan's small villa, the fish pond and plum blossoms in the courtyard, the reunion dinner they had together that day, and the fireworks they set off together.

"I miss you so much."

The gloom that has been hidden for several days and nights, the depression and sadness that have been covered for a long time, are all contained in this sentence.

He buried his head on Ji Shuyan's shoulder, his eyes slightly hot.

Ji Shuyan was startled.

He was very calm all the way, even when he opened the door and saw Duan Zhi, he only breathed disorderly for a moment.

But when he heard Duan Zhi say he missed him, his calm seemed to be pierced by a small hammer.

He felt the weight on his shoulders, and hugged Duan Zhi with difficulty.

"So I'm here," he said.

No matter how far apart, as long as you need me, I will come.

Duan Zhi understood.

He hugged Ji Shuyan tightly, smiled lowly, and raised the corner of his mouth, but a tear rolled down Ji Shuyan's neck.