winter suicide plan

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*2014.2.145°It was a cold and embarrassing day*

When I wrote down this date, I realized it was Valentine's Day!

Then I am not!Spend a Valentine's Day with Chen Shuning!

It turned out that Tang Rumeng had to come to see a movie with me today.

She is also really a good sister. The two of them sat in the back of the eighth row, and I sat in the sixth row, for fear that I might see something.

Isn't it just to talk about boyfriends, isn't it just to ask people to watch a movie, isn't it just to be embarrassed to tell parents the reason at home, and to use me as a shield.

But I thank my sister today, thank you thank you (100 thank you omitted)

I met Chen Shuning, and he was sitting next to me!

Did he go to the movies alone? I didn't see the people he usually followed. He actually went to the movies alone. By the way, what movie did I watch today?

Ah, I was patronizing to watch Chen Shuning, and it seemed that the song was pretty good, ah no, what’s the matter, it’s over, it’s over, it’s over, it’s over, I remembered, I kept the ticket stub, it’s called "Frozen".

Why watch "Frozen" on Valentine's Day?

What is my sister thinking?

No, why did Chen Shuning watch this Disney cartoon? It seemed that he was quite happy after watching it.

He likes to watch Disney animation?

When I was thinking about this question, I saw Xue Bao jumping around on the screen, and when I reached for popcorn, I touched Chen Shuning's hand.

I took the wrong popcorn!

what am i doingWhat a stupid thing to do now, so stupid.

I said sorry to him, I took the wrong one.

He just smiled and said it's okay, he can eat whatever he wants, he just bought it for watching movies, and he doesn't like popcorn.

And then I... ate both buckets of popcorn.

He really didn't eat a bite.

When I was watching a movie, I couldn't keep my mouth shut. He just wanted to be polite, so I really ate them all.

I took the opportunity to grab the popcorn and secretly watched him.

The screen was on, and the shadows on his face were distinct. I slowly touched the popcorn and watched his jaw line, eyelashes fluttering, under the bridge of his nose... lips... have you applied lip balm?

Moist with a little red.

It should be because I stared at it for too long, he turned around and asked me what's wrong, I lied and said, I've finished eating, don't you mind?

He smiled, eat it, eat it, what does it matter, if he doesn't eat it, he will waste it.

The smile is also beautiful, the canine teeth are slightly exposed from the edge of the lips, the tongue flicks slightly, and the breathy voice of speaking in the movie theater is a bit ethereal, like a raving in my ear in a dream.

I almost spilled the popcorn because the popcorn in my heart popped so much it took up room in my head to think.

When marking the subtitles, I habitually waited until the subtitles were all finished. The movie theater was almost finished, and Chen Shuning hadn't left yet.We glanced at each other, and he said that he was not the only one who likes to wait for the subtitles to finish, to see if there are any easter eggs behind.

This is the first time that Chen Shuning took the initiative to talk to me. It seems that I have never had this opportunity. When was the last time I met him face to face.

When he was drunk and crying last October, he came out to see the back of him going to the library during the moot court this year.

It was still time to step on Chen Shuning to eat breakfast, and when I saw him coming out, I passed him by the door, and it was time for me to go buy instant noodles.I saw him go to buy beer, I was standing on the instant noodle shelf, and he was standing in front of the freezer, only a few meters away, but I could only watch his back leave forever, his shadow completely disappeared in front of my eyes.

I haven’t kept up with his topic for a long time. When I came back to my senses, I quickly said that I also look forward to the later eggs, because there are always people who don’t like to wait, but this kind of behind-the-scenes eggs, like this movie, gives me a unique reward for waiting. .

Chen Shuning said that he thought so too, so he continued.

He said that now the easter eggs in the movie belong to the two of us alone.

It was as if he had pressed the pause button, and my whole body stopped, my movements, my thinking, and even my breathing.

Just the two of us.

That's really the reward you've been waiting for.

My own, an award from Chen Shuning.

All the lights were turned on, and there were only the two of us left in the audience. On the red stools No. [-] and No. [-] in the sixth row, only Chen Shuning and I were in the same room.

Chen Shuning and I watched the last egg and walked out of the cinema together. He asked me if I majored in the same university as him, and I said yes.

He seems to be very cheerful today, he has a lot to say, and he can't stop. He sometimes skips a bit and speaks very fast. I can't catch his words. I want to ask him if he can speak slowly. too clear.

He said yes, but he didn't slow down in the end. I tried my best to hear what he said clearly. This is an opportunity that cannot be missed, and I dare not waste it.

Will there be opportunities like this in the future?

When I was dreaming, I never dared to dream of being in the same movie as Chen Shuning, talking to Chen Shuning for so long.

I heard him ask, Aisha couldn't control her emotions, and locked herself in the castle alone, in fact, she didn't want to hurt the one she loved, right?

I looked at him at my level, and I looked at him for a few seconds, and I smiled and said, yes, she is willing to endure loneliness alone, and she is not willing to hurt her loved one because of emotional instability and unable to control her magic power.She is great and kind.

Chen Shuning nodded in agreement and said, well, she is not alone, she has Xuebao by her side.

He began to imitate the song at the beginning, Anna asked Elsa to build a snowman together.

He sang crisply and softly, **doyouwanttomakeasnowman? **

I smiled unconsciously, and his ears were a little red and said, sorry, I talk too much today, I'm naive.I shook my head and said no, watching cartoons is not only the right of children, adults can also have fairy tales.

I joked, what kind of crime should those people who climbed into Elsa's castle be considered guilty in the law?

He answered me in an instant. According to Article 245 of the "Criminal Law", anyone who illegally searches another person's body or house, or illegally invades another person's house, shall be sentenced to fixed-term imprisonment of not more than three years or criminal detention.

This is considered a crime of trespassing on another person's residence, and a case can be filed immediately.

We tore out a bunch of statutes and laughed at each other.

He seemed in a particularly good mood, and said he would treat me to milk tea, and I said I would treat it as an exchange for popcorn.He didn't refuse, and put his arms around my neck, we squeezed together, I felt the sound of his down jacket rubbing against my ears, it was also like the sound of my heart being rubbed wantonly by him.

I have never expected to have such a close contact with Chen Shuning, the smell of good soap permeates from the sweater, I feel like a pervert, I want to touch his soft skin.

Today's Chen Shuning is extraordinarily cute, like Xue Bao in the movie, chatty but endearing.

In the end, when we went back to school, when we said goodbye, I watched his back walk into the dormitory. This was the first time I said goodbye to him solemnly, and watched his back leave.

But the moment he closed the door, I remembered that the light leaking from the dormitory door disappeared.

He never asked my name from the beginning to the end.

I really just got lucky today, I'm afraid I won't have any in the future.

He probably won't remember me, I was just someone who watched a movie with him one night.

Parallel lines may be temporarily wrongly intersected tonight, and this wrong intersection is like a dream that I don't want to wake up from.

I use the joy from the back of every encounter to anesthetize my unwillingness and sadness that I can't have Chen Shuning, and I can't be Chen Qingning's destination.

The kind of anticipation that is getting deeper and deeper into the bone marrow makes me have an attempt to get close to Chen Shuning, and I no longer willingly just pass by his footsteps silently.

I don't want to be submerged in the crowd behind him, I try to own Chen Shuning.

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Tang Fengxing's Diary Perspective