winter suicide plan

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The address of the apartment is close to the nearby villages. The sound of firecrackers and fireworks resounded throughout the night, and the sky never darkened throughout the night.And I hugged Tang Fengxing's arm and slept peacefully all night with my legs on his lap.Afterwards, my waist was sore and my back hurt, and he fed me the water. If I didn't have the energy to toss around again, he could only go to the toilet to solve it by himself.I feel a little sorry for him, because I have been depleted of physical energy for four years, and I am really not as good as him.

He asked me to wipe my body and wiped off the messy liquid immediately to prevent me from feeling uncomfortable and having a fever.I slumped on the bed refreshingly, waiting for him to come up.I hugged him, wrapped my body around him, rubbed his chest, and fell asleep comfortably.

At the beginning of the new year, Tang Fengxing didn't buy a ticket to go back to his hometown, and planned to go back on the first day of spring, after all, the winter vacation was still long.And I began to officially suspend school from the winter vacation. I went to school, handed in the hospital certificate, and followed Tang Fengxing to ride an electric car to several places. We wore two red festive cotton hats and shuttled on the school road.Just happened to pass by where our bikes had collided.I patted his waist and said loudly in the wind: "Student Voldemort, do you still remember this place?"

He turned to look at me and said, "What Voldemort?"

"On the day you hit my bicycle, it was too dark. You were like a black shadow of Voldemort in "Harry Potter".

"Ah, I remembered." He turned a corner and stopped talking.

I shook him: "Why didn't you say it?"

"What to say, it's a big villain like Voldemort. What's the point of leaving such a bad impression on you, such a shameful thing." The voice became smaller and smaller, and the voice disappeared in the whistling wind beside my ears.

"What's the matter, don't be ashamed, if it wasn't for that time, you wouldn't be able to save me." I lowered my head and leaned on his back.

I felt him let out a long breath, and said softly: "Yes. Thanks to the bump that day. If you are a big villain, you should be a big villain, and a big villain can embrace a beautiful woman."

I pinched his waist suddenly, making him ride unsteadily: "There are no beauties here, only a pretty guy like me." He managed to stabilize the bike and replied to me: "You can be a pretty guy, anyway, it's you."

Since I finished the non-vaping treatment, I have really improved, my mood is stable, and I don’t have too many ups and downs. Except for the newly prescribed medicine, I have to get used to it, and everything seems to be getting better.Although the Spring Festival is still in winter, the leaves are all fallen, and the fallen leaves on the ground are buried in dirty snow. They will rot into the soil next spring and return to the trees.

But I feel that spring has come at a certain moment. From the morning of a certain day, I woke up from the bed, and I didn't feel like I was drowning, and I no longer had chest tightness and shortness of breath.The scent of chamomile overflows a little bit.Unknown seeds sprouted from the barren soil of the heart.

I got up from the bed and looked for Tang Fengxing. He was sitting at the table by the window flipping through his topics and typing on his computer.The sound was in the silent room, and he didn't hear me brushing my teeth.The white curtain was blown up through the crack of the window, fluttering and falling softly.

He turned his head when he heard my footsteps, put his hands on the back of the chair, smiled and said to me: "Are you up?"

I walked over and hugged his neck and let his head rest on my stomach. His short hair pierced my body. I heard the sprouts absorbing nutrients quickly, and the sound of "clack-clack" growing accompanied by the beating of the heart. Today's The wind is soft, sweet and refreshing.

I thought about what else was missing, I lowered my head and closed my eyes and kissed his lips, he rubbed it and then smiled and said: "I brushed with mint-flavored toothpaste."

His smile is the same as the current sunshine, not dazzling, not stuffy, sunny and soft. "Bang!", and said in my heart: "Today is consummation."

He pinched my face and said, "What are you thinking about?" I didn't answer his words, I looked into his eyes and said, "The flowers are blooming."

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Chen Shuning's perspective