winter suicide plan

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The first night we brought the cat back, the cat was not used to it and kept meowing.Chen Shuning was woken up, I have been torturing him for a long time tonight, and he fell asleep after kissing him.Now I don't even wear a coat, and I run out in a hurry.Seeing that when he bent over, the soreness in his waist should have come up, he kept rubbing his waist, and even searched through the refrigerator for goat milk powder bought from a pet store today.When pouring, the goat milk powder was spilled out with trembling hands, I smiled unconsciously, and he glanced fiercely, complaining, but I also thought it was very cute.

I didn't help him, just leaned against the door frame and watched him. He cooked the kitten and blew it seriously.As the kitten ate and ate, it licked and licked, retracted its paws under its stomach, and fell asleep.

Chen Shuning was sitting on the floor, not knowing that the floor was cold.He leaned against the wall and watched Sanhua lick the goat's milk. He kept watching like this, but he didn't dare to reach out to touch it.His head followed Sanhua bit by bit, just like that Sanhua, he fell asleep with his eyes closed.

I couldn't help laughing, why do the two look alike?

I got out of bed and picked him up, covering his eyes with broken hair, I put my arms around his waist, perhaps a little stronger, which made his waist sore, stimulated, trembled, rubbed against my chest, and wrinkled uncomfortably He frowned.

His typical malnutrition, bones wrapped in skin, a pure bone frame, without fleshy feeling, made me feel distressed.But the warm person is in my arms, and my heart is at ease.

"Feed me milk, why did you fall asleep?" I rubbed his face with my lips.

"Tired...my waist is so sore, take it easy." Chen Shuning put his hands around my neck as he said.

I gently put Chen Shuning on the bed, secretly kissed him on the ear, and whispered, "Shall I rub your waist?"

He vaguely responded to me: "Uh...uh..."

I just lay down under the blanket, pulled his cold hands and feet closer to me, and clamped him with my thighs to keep him warm.We were close together, and he occasionally trembled uncomfortably. When he woke up and opened his eyes, as long as I said: "It's okay, I'm here." He would touch my earlobe, and after touching it, he continued to sleep quietly.

When he was reviewing at home, he was always focused on the questions and always forgot that he needed to eat, but it was different with Sanhua, when Sanhua was hungry, he would run to Chen Shuning's feet to scream and bite his trouser legs.Chen Shuning just came out of the Tihai case, went to get cat food for Sanhua, and remembered that he was going to cook.

I said I would give Sanhua a name, "Tomato".He said the name I gave was not advanced enough.

I went on to say that is called a "tomato"?

He smiled and hugged Sanhua and said: "Tomato is cuter. Tomato, you see, this person seems to be uneducated in naming him, but luckily he didn't name him cherry tomatoes."

"You dislike my low Chinese level?" I sat on the sofa with him, lowered my head and pretended to be wronged.

Chen Shuning smiled and said, "Okay, isn't this named after you?"

I continued to keep my head down and did not speak, and pinched the barb next to my finger. He grabbed my neck, kissed you and said: "Okay, the name you named is the most cultured, and the best to listen to. Tomato, dont you agree?"

After Tomato heard this, he escaped from the gap between the two of us, flicked its tail arrogantly, and limped back to his warm nest.

After having tomatoes, Chen Shuning has a lot of energy, and in his spare time, he will look up the precautions for raising cats and write a lot in his notebook.

Once the depression period comes up, Chen Shuning will lie down and not exercise, I will hug Tomato, Tomato with good feet will jump on the bed, keep walking around him, keep rubbing his face, and nestle in his arms.

Chen Shuning would start by stroking it to soothe and relieve his sad emotions, and then he was motivated to get out of bed, but his expression was still disgusted and he couldn't lift his spirits, but it was much better than lying on the bed all the time.

Tomato likes Chen Shuning very much. I also want to be a cat when I have time, so that I can be in Chen Shuning's arms and be by his side all the time.But because of work, I can't stay with him all the time. Chen Shuning is not used to making requests. Even though he feels that he needs someone to accompany him, he will not open his mouth. He will just shut himself in the room, reading the questions and reviewing the knowledge points. , Thinking about the second half of the semester.

It's almost the end of the year, and I'm working on my performance, thinking that I can get more year-end bonuses, so I got busy, and when I got home, Chen Shuning had already taken the medicine and fell asleep early, and Tomato was sleeping in the same sleeping position as Chen Shuning.

I found that Chen Shuning was very similar to Tomato. Tomato didn't allow me to get close at first. No matter what I did to please him, he would arch his back as soon as he walked over and be on guard.

Just like Chen Shuning, who was once psychologically hurt, he was wary of all those who approached him, coldness, hostility and indifference, these were huge and terrifying empty airs, scaring away everyone, no one dared to approach him.Now the shelf has collapsed, and behind the scenes is a little 12-year-old boy with a knife stuck in his heart, struggling to hold on to this loose shelf.

I let it collapse, let the original Chen Shuning be exposed, and kept getting close to him without pain.It doesn't matter if I get scratched by a cat's paw, because it's just a little pain, and to me, it's just a drop in the bucket.Continue to approach and break the defense mechanism, so as to obtain a complete "Chen Shuning" that will always belong to me. I really occupy him, and I will take everything he has.

Another cat-like thing is that when I go home at night, Chen Shuning and the cat are eating, and when I unlock the door, they all look up, turn their heads, and look at me happily.

Tomatoes will come and spin around my feet, and Chen Shuning will refill the rice and set the chopsticks for me.One person and one cat are welcoming me home, I feel like I was shot into my heart by a cupid's arrow, so cute that people melt, and people are bubbling with happiness.

I endured it until after I took a shower at night, and I went upstairs to Chen Shuning, leaned him against the wall, pressed his foreheads together, and rubbed his cheeks together.The two lips were pressed together, the tongue grabbed his escaping tongue, and licked the soft flesh of his palate maliciously, he panted itchyly, breathed out a soft breath, dazedly unable to open his eyes, scratching My back, refusing no matter what, it just makes me want to take all of him even more.

Thinking back to the appearance of having dinner just now, the screen replayed and zoomed in.

He is so cute, the way he turned his head to greet me just now is so cute, his eyes really light up, just like a kitten.I couldn't help but started biting his lips, wrapping them from top to bottom.His slight trembling and gentle refusal in his voice meant that he would go out for a trip on the winter solstice, but he couldn't do it tonight.

The sound, breath, movement, and eyes all stimulated me to increase my strength.

No, how can I stop the unbearable temptation, the one who stops is the impotence, I am not impotent.

He is so obedient, he is so obedient, how could anyone be willing to abandon him.

The longer I stayed with Chen Shuning, I found that my desire to possess gradually became stronger, as if the desire I had endured for four years had accumulated in this year, and sparks burst out from the instant vent, and the sparks splashed on the boundless wilderness, like a snake swimming Diffuse, burn brightly, burn hot, burn hot, burn endlessly.

Violation, possession, he is mine, constantly singing in my mind, Chen Shuning will always be mine.He screamed after being inserted by me, wrapped in the hot buttocks, twisted waist, beautiful eyes.

The eyes are stained with the red of my lust, the bare skin is also the pink painted by me, and the kissed lips are red and swollen.

Beautiful, good-looking, just like the apples in the Yixun Garden, which are obviously taboo fruits, but they lure me to approach them, baring my teeth and gnawing on them.

The sweet juice, the sticky sweat, the white turbid fluid, the lifting of the waist when reaching orgasm, the tightening of the buttocks, and the red tongue licking my fingers, all of them are tempting me and breaking down my rational wall.

I am falling, falling into the red dust of "Chen Shuning".

On the day of the winter solstice, Chen Shuning was tossed by me for a long time last night, and he didn't get up until noon. He kept blaming me in the news, causing him to waste time sleeping until noon.I also kindly promised to be lighter next time, but that was only a verbal promise, not necessarily a physical one.

He asked me to boil the water first, and he went to buy the ingredients to make hot pot for dinner tonight.

Today is Friday, I came back from get off work early in the evening, Chen Shuning hasn't come back from buying ingredients, so he poured cat food for the tomato first.

I washed the pot first, wondering if it will take so long to buy vegetables, is it because he wants to go shopping, or if he encounters something he wants to do, it is always a good thing to go out more, and you can’t spend all day with pens and paper , dealing with computers, although I am also like this now.

After thinking about it, I heard the sound of Chen Shuning opening the door and coming in. I heard him walk into the kitchen and stand behind me.He was wearing the scarf I gave him, his face was sweaty, and some bangs stuck to his forehead, as if he had run back.

He said: "I want to wash the vegetables, you cut them." His attitude was very strong, he must do the washing, and he said that he must wash.

I thought it was a bit strange, but I smiled and made room for him to wash, and I waited for his dishes to come and cut.

After washing the potatoes, he stretched them over to me and reminded me: "Here, potatoes, take them away, don't look at me, and focus on cutting."

"Okay, concentrate."

I cut it almost, Chen Shuning handed the carrot to my hand: "Here."

I took it and continued to cut it skillfully.

I heard the sound of water and wanted to take a look at him, but he yelled, "Don't look at me, if I give you anything, just turn around and continue cutting."

I don't know what's wrong with Chen Shuning today, what's on his mind, I can't figure it out, so he smiled helplessly and said: "Okay, listen to Ah Ning."

"Here." He stretched out a handful of cucumbers, and I took them as usual and began to cut them.

"Give."

"Okay." I was moving my eyes away from the cucumber, and was about to take it habitually. First, the touch told me that it was a hard object, not the touch of vegetables. A square red box appeared in front of my eyes. There are two simple silver rings, smooth silver, reflecting the kitchen lights, shining in front of my eyes.

My whole body trembled like an electric shock, and I stared blankly at Chen Shuning, with heat gathering in my eyes.

Chen Shuning supported the stove with a smile and said, "I thought you would cut it directly."

"This is……"

"Tang Fengxing, are you willing?" Chen Shuning knelt down in front of my eyes like the idol dramas in TV and movies, like the beginning of a dream.

It's kind of funny to remember that I was still wearing an apron.

But at that time, my whole soul was impacted by the hope in Chen Shuning's raised eyes, the ring box I was holding was trembling, my throat seemed to be blocked, my throat was hot, and my words were stuck in my throat.

Chen Shuning pulled my wrist and kissed the back of my hand: "I bought it with my salary. I don't know what is good, but I bought the most expensive one. I think the style you like is the most expensive one. wear it on you."

"Tang Fengxing, are you willing, let me tie you up with this little 'collar', and let you stay with me for the rest of your life, are you willing?"

In an instant, all my suppression was lifted. Chen Shuning was proposing to me. He has worked so hard to work in the flower shop. He is full of fear and fear of those flowers. His fingers are cracked and painful when touched by water, and he has overcome the summons of death in the nightmare. , he endured them one by one, overcame all these discomforts, and followed me to the present.

He endured it to the end just to save enough money to buy me an expensive ring.

I should have told this fool earlier that I don't care how expensive the ring is, even if it is one yuan, which is considered cheap in the eyes of others, I will wear it on my finger like a treasure and never take it off.

Why is he so stupid, expressing his love in a single line.I shed so many tears for the first time, and I kept nodding, and he happily asked again and again in affirmation: "Really?!"

I kept saying Ah Ning, I am willing, I am willing, I am very unwilling.

He happily put it on for me, and it dangled in front of my eyes, shining with silver light.In four years, my dream has come true.I clenched his hand tightly, interlocking my fingers, and the rings touched together crisply. I kissed his lips that still had bite marks from yesterday, and the tears on my face stained his face.

I hugged him, put his legs around my waist, ran my fingers through his soft hair, kissed the ring on his finger, and looked at his tearful eyes.

"You will never abandon mine, right?" Chen Shuning asked softly with his arms around my neck.

"A word that I have never thought of. I have never thought of owning you, possessing you, I love you, let me love you, Chen Shuning."

Chen Shuning lowered his head and kissed my lips: "Tang Fengxing, don't let me go, just hold me tight for the rest of your life, don't let me go, don't let me fall, I like your possession, I want to possess everything about you, I... I love you... Tang Fengxing..."

"Your salvation is my Nirvana rebirth in the world."

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Tang Fengxing's perspective