winter suicide plan

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Chen Shuning's perspective

On the day of graduation, I brought Tang Fengxing's flowers home with my favorite golden sunflowers and blue gypsophila.When Tang Fengxing gave flowers, I deliberately refused to accept his flowers.He looked at me suspiciously: "What's the matter, is there something wrong with the flowers?"

I pursed my lips, looked at him and said, "I missed something before I gave the flower."

Tang Fengxing still didn't understand it, hugged the flower in his arms, and brainstormed seriously: "Is it you who want a graduation gift, but I..."

I sighed, and before he could finish speaking, I pinched his chin and kissed him and said, "Idiot, I missed a graduation kiss."

In the past year, I have been busy defending, resume and reviewing my medical condition, so I seldom have leisure in the past.I have undergone psychological counseling for a year, and have taken medicine for nearly three years. People's thoughts are not so chaotic, and many memories are no longer chaotic fragments, and emotions fluctuate at a normal level.

I still want to give credit to Tang Fengxing and my own efforts, even though it was difficult to prove my value due to bottlenecks, I felt like I had no particularly valuable life goals, and it was difficult to control my anxiety and paranoia , compulsive emotional outburst, but fortunately Tang Fengxing will always be there.

He will always tell me that people don’t necessarily need any goals in life. The goals in life are not the only pass to survive on the earth. The real pass is enthusiasm. If you love this life, you will have the courage to survive.

He is a huge part of my passion for motivation, like the saying in philosophy books that "the economy determines the superstructure", he is as important as the "economy".

I have already mastered a set of ways to regulate my emotions, such as recording Tang Fengxing's singing, as well as his typing, writing and his whispering, and playing them in mp3.These can burn all the balls of wool in the mind and heart, leaving only the feeling of his warm existence.

We managed to spare some time and went for a stroll in the commercial street. We passed McDonald’s and saw Mai Xuanfeng buy one get one free. I glanced at him and met his eyes.

He smiled and said, "Go buy it."

I was not very emotional when I stuffed the Mai Xuanfeng into his hand. He asked me what was wrong, and I showed him the Mai Xuanfeng.

"Ok?"

"Don't you think Mai Xuanfeng is different?"

He followed my gaze and looked at it, and he suddenly realized: "Mai Xuanfeng is not spinning anymore!"

"Yeah, it doesn't spin anymore. I bought it a year ago and he can still spin it. Damn, I thought he forgot, so I asked him to spin it for me, but he said that if I replaced it with a wooden spoon, there would be no spinning machine. .There is no soul, and I will never buy it again next time.”

Tang Fengxing patted my head, smiled and said, "Wait a minute."

He picked up the spoon and spun the ice cream manually. I couldn't help but widen my eyes, and he handed it to me: "Eat it."

I snatched his small bowl: "I want to help you too."

Maybe I didn't continue to rotate properly, or my hand was too strong. I picked up a huge piece of white ice cream covered with Oreo pieces, and one of them fell to the ground without paying attention.

I quickly used a paper towel to take advantage of it before it melted, and threw it into the trash can, leaving only a thin layer of white ice cream in the bowl.I looked up at him: "Oh, yours is gone, what should I do?"

"Then yours will be mine."

"what!"

Subconsciously, I thought of refusing, but after thinking about it, I did a good job, which made Tang Fengxing have nothing to eat, so I was instantly discouraged and said, "Well, okay, this bowl is for you."

Tang Fengxing pursed his lips, scooped up a spoonful and fed it to me brilliantly, saying, "Little idiot, are you stupid after learning? We can eat together."

I swallowed a spoonful, and the Oreo pieces clicked on my teeth, and the sweet and greasy ice cream melted and slid on my tongue. I took a big mouthful, and the ice reached my brain, and my facial features shrunk unconsciously.

I whispered in my mouth: "It's so cold, so cold..."

I tilted my head and kissed Tang Fengxing's lips, put his tongue in his mouth, let him taste it with me, let him go for a few seconds, wiped my lips and said, "It's a bit cold, I want you to warm me up."

He took my hand, kissed it again and said, "It's still a little cold, let's warm it up."

"Then... wait until Mai Xuanfeng has finished eating, and then we will go home to warm up. I bought the ice cream flavored one this time, it should taste good. It seems like we haven't had it for a long time..." I licked the stain on my upper lip Ice cream, rubbing his fingertips provocatively.

"Ah Ning..." Tang Fengxing slid his Adam's apple.

I held his hand and asked him to feed me again, and I said inarticulately, "What's wrong?"

"Compared with this ice cream, I want to eat the ice cream you bought at home now."

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Some sweet and sweet daily relaxation begins, maybe there is a stalk and I really want to write