Heartbeat misses Nick Charlie

Simply put, I hate hearing Nick talk about college.

I'm such a bad person.

He couldn't be more excited about college.He has every right to do that, and I'd love to see him do it.

But he's been talking about college all the time lately.Every time he talks about it, I'm reminded that my life is now ending.From September 9st, I will be left behind.

I'm scared.

I've been messaged on Tumblr talking about this and they haven't been helpful at all.I have quite a few followers on Tumblr, and many of them have an odd interest in my relationship with Nick.I guess it's because we're both guys, the internet is obsessed with same-sex couples, I have to delete a lot of questions about our sex lives every day.

Since I mentioned on the Internet that we are going to start a long-distance relationship in September, I have been receiving overwhelming messages asking me how to deal with the many problems brought about by a long-distance relationship.They got really mad at me, so I haven't responded to messages for a few days, but they still keep sending.I don't understand why these people are so concerned about our affairs and insist on sending me messages.

Thank goodness Nick didn't mention college again today, not when we took Henry out for a walk, not at dinner, not when we watched Alien.When he went to take a shower around 10, I glanced at Tumblr's inbox, and there were more messages.

Anonymous: Did you talk to Nick about what life would be like with him gone?I've known many couples who struggled to stay in the relationship after one of them left for college, only to end up breaking up.You must have a chat with him.

Anonymous source: Don't you think it's a bit strange that you have been together for so long? Is it too early to start dating at 14...you don't have to chain yourself into your first relationship...

Anonymous message: Brother, it is impossible to succeed in a long-distance relationship.Believe me, it's better to break up now, or you will have painful anonymous news later: Everyone should stay single and go to college! !College is the sexiest time of your life! !Get as many sleeps as you can! ! ! !I really didn't want to bring this up with Nick because I didn't want him to feel sorry for going to college.He could totally be excited about it.

It doesn't matter what I think.

Nick came out of the bathroom in pajama pants, toweling his hair. "What's wrong?"

"what?"

"You're frowning again." I quickly turned off Tumblr. "Is there?" He walked to the mirror and picked up the hair dryer. "Um."

"Maybe my face looks like that."

"No, you look much better than usual." I picked up the pillow and threw it at him, but he smiled and avoided it.

I can't tell him, he will definitely blame himself.He's had enough grief because of me, and my mental issues have made me the most annoying boyfriend ever.

"Let's take a photo together," I said. "I'm going to piss off my Tumblr fans." Nick was amused, and he put down the hairdryer. "Why does this piss them off?"

"Selfies can piss everyone off."

"You're called passive confrontation." He came to the bed and plopped down next to me.

I turned on my phone camera, kissed him on the cheek and snapped the picture before he had a chance to speak.

Nick laughed again. "Wow. So you're posting pictures like this online now?" I hugged him. "That's all they want to see."

"At least let me fix my hair first."

"It looks good with wet hair." We leaned our heads together, and I posed with my scissors hands before snapping the photo with the other hand.Then I took a picture of us kissing in real life, but I didn't post it on Tumblr.Some things are better kept to our secrets.