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Lang Song stood behind the banyan tree, his fists were clenched and his cheeks were biting so painfully, his eyes were full of violent anger.He imagined Sun Yanshi's mood at this moment, and he almost wanted to grab Zhuo Li's neck immediately and ruthlessly throw Zhuo Li to the ground.

One foot had already stepped out heavily, but the remaining sliver of reason still pulled him back.Because he knew that if he went out rashly like this, both Sun Yanshi and Zhuo Li would find him there and overhear their conversation.

If Sun Yanshi found out, he would be very angry, right?

Surely Sun Yanshi didn't want anyone to know about this, he didn't want anyone to see him in a mess, right?

Lang Song took a deep breath and slammed his fist at the banyan tree, venting his anger on the tree trunk.When he saw Zhuo Li limp on the ground as if his bones had been removed, he came back to his senses and hurriedly chased forward.

Fortunately, Sun Yanshi didn't leave quickly, and soon caught up, but he was afraid of being discovered, so he didn't dare to approach, so he escorted Sun Yanshi back home just at a distance where he could see the back of the other party.After guarding the dim alley for a while, he made sure that Sun Yanshi hadn't gone out again, and then he turned and went back under the banyan tree—he was going to pick up the car.

Zhuo Li is no longer there.

Lang Song didn't go home right away, he went to the pavilion in a daze, and sat on the stone bench that Sun Yanshi had just sat on.

The roars and whispers of Sun Yanshi not long ago still echoed in his ears, and the truth he wanted to know - the death of Sun Yanshi's mother, the past of Sun Yanshi and Zhuo Li, were laid out in front of him one by one, what he was worried about The thing——Sun Yanshi still has an infatuation with Zhuo Li, and Sun Yanshi personally vetoed it.

But he didn't feel relaxed, these cruel truths weighed him down.

He didn't quite understand it before, but now he fully understood what Zheng Ye meant by "If only he liked women".

That's right, if Sun Yanshi liked women, if he hadn't fallen in love with Zhuo Li, then he wouldn't have entered the same precept room. His mother is still alive, so he should already have a perfect family with a beautiful wife. Wife, lovely children.He will not suffer all the cold faces and criticisms, and he will live a happier and more stable life than most people in this world.

Waves of soreness and pain made Lang Song's eyes warm, and what Sun Yanshi had experienced made him distressed and angry, but he couldn't do anything, even if he could, it was too late, which made his heart well up I felt a deep sense of powerlessness.

He inserted his fingers into his hair, scratching his hair angrily, and Sun Yanshi's heartbroken questioning voice appeared in his mind again.

"You made me lose the most basic trust in people, you made me lose the courage to love someone again, you made me half-dead because of regret, and you made me full of hostility to the world and the people around me, How dare you tell me that you want to do it again? Do you think you can do it again! "

Although these words were spoken to Zhuo Li, he felt that every word was like a needle piercing into his heart, so it was a reminder to him.

Can Sun Yanshi still trust others?Do you still have the courage to love someone again?Dare to do it all over again?

What does the phrase "I also want to bow to reality" mean?

Lang Song was so confused that he couldn't grasp a clue, but he was worried about Sun Yanshi, so he didn't dare to stay outside for too long, so he returned to Lanying Lane with complicated emotions.

He thought that Sun Yanshi would be depressed and would go upstairs and pretend to sleep or stay in the yard, but when he arrived at the door, he saw Sun Yanshi sorting out the shelves.

When he heard the sound of the battery car rolling down the alley, Sun Yanshi knew that Lang Song had come back, but he waited for a long time but did not hear footsteps entering the door, so he poked his head out from the middle of the shelf in doubt.I saw Lang Song standing motionless at the door as if he had been acupunctured.

"What are you doing?" he joked, "Do you want to be a door god?"

Lang Song came back to his senses: "No, the light outside flickered just now, I'll see if it's broken."

Sun Yanshi was stunned for a moment. The lamps under the rain still used old-fashioned incandescent bulbs. The glass bulbs had already turned yellow and were covered with a layer of dust. Occasionally, spiders were still weaving webs there.It is not known exactly how long it has been used. Anyway, he has not changed it since he returned to Lanying Lane two years ago, so it has been at least two years, and the service life should be up.

Sun Yanshi glanced at the halo of yellow light on the ground, and smiled: "Change things that are broken."

Lang Song couldn't help but froze, always feeling that Sun Yanzhi's words had deep meaning, but soon realized that he was too sensitive.

Sun Yanshi squatted halfway, his hands kept moving: "Come in soon, isn't it cold?"

"Hmm..." Lang Song dragged the little e-Donkey into the door, glanced at the neat display cabinet-like shelves, and said in a normal tone, "Let's clean it up tomorrow, and there's no rush right now."

Sun Yanzhi paused, sniffed, and suddenly asked, "Are you smoking?"

Lang Song: "..." He frowned lightly, paused for a moment and said honestly, "I took two sips, Xiaohe gave it to me."

Sun Yanshi looked Lang Song up and down, apparently not believing it.

Lang Song looked a little uncomfortable, and changed his words: "I smoked two." In fact, it was more than that. In the afternoon, Xiaohe stuffed the remaining half pack of cigarettes into his pocket, and he forgot to return it when he got busy. I ordered it all, and inhaled it into my lungs inexplicably, but I didn't feel relieved like Xiao He said.

Sun Yanzhi snorted and said, "If you don't learn well, you can just smoke two cigarettes for fun, but don't get addicted."

Lang Song turned his eyes away, and raised the corners of his mouth mockingly.It turns out that "younger brother" is considered optimistic, and in Sun Yanshi's eyes, he is probably in the same generation as Lang Yue.

Feeling disappointed, Lang Song gave a faint "hmm" and urged in a low voice: "Don't mess with it, I will clean it up tomorrow."

Sun Yanshi didn't raise his head and said: "You take a bath first, I can't sleep, I will go upstairs later."

Hearing Sun Yanshi say that he couldn't sleep, Lang Song's heart twitched, but he didn't know what to do. He couldn't even open his mouth to say a word of comfort, so he had to drag the little electric donkey into the courtyard.

Lang Song knew that Sun Yanshi should want to be alone now, so he went upstairs directly, took a shower and went to bed, and waited until after eleven o'clock, but Sun Yanshi did not arrive.He turned off the light, lay with eyes open, and didn't hear Sun Yanshi crept upstairs until midnight.

Immediately the door was opened, and Sun Yanshi opened the cupboard door in the dark, took his pajamas and went to the bathroom. There was the sound of rushing water and the whirring of the hair dryer. After a while, Sun Yanshi returned to the room and climbed into bed. Then there was a soft gasp.

Everything is the same as in the past, Sun Yanshi hid his emotions very well, if Lang Song hadn't already known what happened not long ago, if Lang Song hadn't been used to Sun Yanshi's even and gentle breathing after falling asleep, he could He was so keenly aware of the hypocrisy of that breathing that he would even think that Sun Yanshi had fallen asleep.

Lang Song opened his eyes in the dark and did not fall asleep until dawn, of course he also knew that Sun Yanshi also did not close his eyes all night.

When he turned over to get up, Lang Song heard the person above turned over. After getting out of bed, he took a look at the upper bunk, only to see a thin back and a section of calf exposed outside the quilt.

He stretched, and then yawned lightly, pretending to be just waking up, and then gently pulled the quilt to cover his calf.

In the next few days, Sun Yanshi appeared to be the same on the surface. If Uncle Bing came to take a look, he would probably feel that there was more than nothing unusual. Compared with the past, he had completely changed his mind and become a normal person.

But Langsong could see the undercurrents of calming down and hiding, but Sun Yanshi just kept some emotions tight behind a false smile, he kept looking for things to do, using busyness to distract and cover up his emotions.

Sun Yanshi cleaned every corner of the house spotlessly, the shelves were neatly arranged, the kitchen stove was bright, the bedding on the bed of the three of them was replaced and cleaned, and even the soybeans were almost washed away A layer of skin.In the dead of night, when there is nothing to do, Sun Yanshi can't sleep all night, and can barely sleep for a while in the early morning.

Fortunately for Lang Song, Sun Yanshi didn't yearn for the comfort of alcohol. Compared with alcoholism, cleaning is obviously a much more positive way of venting.

But Sun Yanzhi was sleepless and restless, and Lang Song worried that his body would not be able to hold on sooner or later, so he started regular daily feeding, soft-shelled turtle soup, sea cucumber porridge, squab soup...every meal was different every day.He was afraid that Sun Yan would be suspicious, so he lied that the restaurant was changing new dishes recently and asked someone to try them.

Sun Yanshi didn't notice any abnormalities at all, and he ate with gusto every day.In fact, he was not as depressed as Lang Song imagined, but he didn't digest his emotions so quickly, otherwise, why would there be so many people in this world who need a psychiatrist to treat him.Because of his insomnia, his addiction to alcohol seemed to be making a comeback, so he kept finding things to do for himself to distract him.

The effect was quite good. During the day, he played and studied with Lang Yue, and then cleaned up, exhausting his body to the extreme. After a few days, all the hatred, anger, and resentment that made his heart fluctuate slowly returned to calm like an ebb tide. .

This morning, he was playing with Lang Yue on a scooter at the door of the store. From a distance, he saw a handicapped person driving an electric wheelchair slowly into the alley. He called Lang Yue and reminded her to give way to pedestrians.

Lang Yue obediently slid the scooter to the bottom of the wall, ready to wait for the man to pass by before continuing to play, but the electric wheelchair drove slowly, stopped at the door of the store and stopped moving.

Sun Yanshi was pulling Soybean's dog's head. He looked up suspiciously, the corners of his raised mouth froze immediately, he moved his lips in disbelief, and after a long time he called out hoarsely: "Auntie."

Sitting in the wheelchair was Zhuo Li's mother, Qin Yuping. If it wasn't for the iconic mole under the corner of her mouth, he couldn't believe that the thin, old woman with half-white hair sitting in the wheelchair was Zhuo Li's mother. .It was only autumn, and she had already put on a thick down jacket, revealing a part of the collar of the hospital gown.

Counting it, the last time he saw Qin Yuping was more than two years ago. Although Qin Yuping was thin at that time, he was by no means old, and he could still see his youthful appearance.

It's just that I haven't seen you in just two years, so why are you so old?Is it because of illness?But is the gap between the eyebrows that cannot be stretched also caused by illness?Is the gloomy eyes that are as silent as death also because of illness?

Sun Yanshi couldn't help thinking of his father, who also showed his old age prematurely. Perhaps the most important reason was not illness, but his son exhausted them physically and mentally.

With a smile on the corner of Qin Yuping's mouth, he looked at Sun Yanshi gently: "You don't even recognize him?"

Sun Yan smiled politely. He didn't know what Qin Yuping's purpose was, but what threat could a patient pose? So he said, "No, let's push you into the room and sit down. I'll pour you a glass of water."

Qin Yuping stretched out his skinny hand and waved it: "Don't bother, I will leave after a few words."

Sun Yanshi didn't force himself, he pushed the wheelchair to the side, and he sat beside Langyue with his arms around him.

Qin Yuping looked at Langyue lovingly, took an orange from his pocket and handed it to Langyue, and asked, "This little girl is so beautiful, did you adopt her?"

Sun Yanshi was stunned for a moment before replying, "It's sort of."

Qin Yuping sighed softly, his eyes lingered on Langyue, and he murmured softly: "It's good, it's good like this."

Then Qin Yuping asked some trivial matters, such as how he was, and whether the business in the store was good, and Sun Yanshi answered them one by one.

After chatting for a while, Qin Yuping sighed quietly and got down to business.

"Zhuo Li came to see you a few days ago?"

Sun Yanshi couldn't help but straightened his back and answered the question honestly.

Just when he thought that the other party would tell him not to meet Zhuo Li in the future, Qin Yuping suddenly said: "You should think that we are unreasonable as parents, right?"

"You" refers to Sun Yanshi and Zhuo Li, and "we" refers to both parents.

In fact, the parents of the two parties have never met each other. Sun Yan didn't know whether Qin Yuping had heard anything from Zhuo Li, but after thinking about it, even if Zhuo Li didn't say anything, since he didn't say anything in those years Qin Yuping can also guess the attitude of his parents when he goes home for the New Year.

Sun Yanshi couldn't answer this question. He did think so many times, but compared to Qin Yuping threatening his son with his life, his parents seemed not so unreasonable.

Qin Yuping didn't expect to get an answer. She raised her head, looked at a small piece of sky above with cloudy eyes, and seemed to be talking to herself: "But in the eyes of our parents, why are you all obsessed with obsession..."

Sun Yanshi gently kneaded Langyue's soft fingers, silently waiting for Qin Yuping's next words.

Qin Yuping withdrew his gaze, and said slowly: "We all insisted that we were right, and we both wanted to convince each other. In the end, we both lost. Only when one party compromises will the winner be considered."

Sun Yanzhi took a deep breath. It is undeniable that this is indeed the case, but there is no winner between him and his father.

Qin Yuping wiped the corners of his eyes with his hands, then looked at Sun Yanshi: "I seem to have won, and I seem to have lost completely. For more than two years, Zhuo Li has not sighed much about what I have said to me. Know he hates me."

Sun Yanzhi didn't know what to say, he couldn't express the hypocritical relief, and after a long silence, he could only ask, "Is Zhuo Li okay?"

Hearing these words, Qin Yuping could no longer restrain the soreness and pain in his heart, two tears fell from his eyes, and he sobbed softly.

Langyue wrinkled her nose, jumped off Sun Yanshi's legs and ran into the store. She tiptoed to get a tissue box on the counter and drew a few facial tissues, then ran back to the door and stuffed them carefully into Qin Yuping's hands.

Qin Yuping stared blankly at the little girl in front of him, thinking of the smiling grandson at home, the pain in his heart was diluted by the child's innocence and kindness like honey.

She wiped away her tears, slowly regained her composure, and replied with a sigh: "He is very bad." Zhuo Li has been serving her in the hospital for the past few days, and he has done nothing that should be done, except that he talks less than before, It looks the same as usual.But as a mother, how could she not see the melancholy and dullness in her son's eyes, and how could she not see his silent accusation against her!

Qin Yuping looked at Sun Yanshi with begging eyes: "What should I do?"

Sun Yanshi smiled lightly, shook his head and said, "If you ask me, I don't know what to do. This is how I've been here for the past two years."

Qin Yuping froze, and it took him a long time to look away helplessly, lowering his eyes and apologizing in embarrassment: "Son, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for you."

Sun Yanshi shook his head: "You didn't feel sorry for me." Speaking of it, he should be glad that Qin Yuping didn't come to threaten him back then, otherwise his sense of guilt would be overlaid again.

Staying outside for too long made Qin Yuping exhausted and his breathing became heavy.

Sun Yanshi glanced at him and said softly, "Shall I take you back?"

Qin Yuping bent the corner of his mouth reluctantly and said, "The nurse is waiting for me at the entrance of the alley. Can you take me there?"

Sun Yanshi picked up Langyue and sent Qin Yuping out of the alley.

Although the euphemistic temptation already had an answer, when he reached the alley, Qin Yuping still looked up at Sun Yanshi without giving up, and asked carefully, "It's too late to regret it now, isn't it?"

Until now, Sun Yanshi finally believed Zhuo Li's words "my mother has agreed" to be true, he squatted down and gently held the old hand, and said: "People can't live backwards, auntie, take care."

Qin Yuping was choked up, and tremblingly said: "I'm sorry for you."

The author has something to say:

I saw some comments saying that the progress was too slow, so I apologize first, but I have been writing according to the progress of the outline, and it is definitely not the word count, otherwise I would not have added the "slow heat" tag at the beginning of the article.Regarding the progress, my personal understanding is that the protagonists have been interacting, experiencing some things together, and promoting the development of the plot is a kind of progress.

I wrote a separate outline for the emotional line of Gong Shou and Gong Shou. From Xiaolang's perspective, the emotional line is very clear and fast from knowing to liking.

But from Xiaosun's perspective, it is not so easy to develop feelings. First, he has to heal, then let go, then discover Xiaolang's feelings, and finally accept.Even if you don’t talk about the harm and shadow caused by the ex, the age difference between the two requires Xiao Sun to think carefully before he can accept this relationship, so I still write according to the progress of my outline. If you feel that the relationship line is too slow, you can Wait for Tunyi Tunju chapter to see, I love you. (●′З｀●)