Don't try to bend me

Why else.

Gu Jiqing felt that his willpower had been gradually weakened by the drug, so he could only rely on his last rationality to hook Zhou Cibai's neck and asked in a hoarse voice, "Don't you not like men?"

Zhou Cibai paused slightly.

Gu Jiqing was not surprised, he was greedy for the coolness of the wind and snow on Zhou Cibai's body, hugged him tightly, but the words he said were still alienated and gentle: "Look, you can't accept hugging and kissing with men , but I'm really feeling bad now, so Pei Yiming, he... um..."

Gu Jiqing hadn't finished the rest of his words when he was brutally blocked back by a fiery and clumsy kiss that smacked of the northern winter night's wind and snow in an almost vicious gesture.

He felt that the hand that was hugging him seemed to have endless emotions, it was so hard that it seemed to rub him into his flesh and blood, and the kiss was so strong that he couldn't resist it, so that he almost couldn't breathe.

And the person who kissed him covered his whole body under his body, involuntarily plundering his last thinking ability.

Zhou Cibai felt like he was going crazy at that moment, he didn't know if he could accept hugging and kissing a man or even do some more absurd things, because he had never thought about this scene.

All he knew was that he couldn't accept Gu Jiqing hugging and kissing other men until the last step.

Just thinking about it makes me mad with envy.

Because he has seen Gu Jiqing's ignorant desires, seen Gu Jiqing's innocent charm under him, and also seen almost every inch of Gu Jiqing's aesthetically beautiful body.

What's more, this person still likes him.

He likes him, so why should he do that with others.

Therefore, at the moment when Gu Jiqing calmly said Pei Yiming, Zhou Cibai had only one thought, he wanted to break Gu Jiqing's gentle calmness that was maintained all the time, he wanted to see him lose control, he wanted to see him be like himself , to become a mean and real human being ruled by emotions and impulses.

Then he kissed it.

No thinking, only instinct, close to madness.

Only then did Gu Jiqing know that a person's breath can be so hot, so hot that it seems to make him temporarily forget all control and calmness, and it also seems to make waves in a cold pool that has been calm for a long time, so that it will not let him He wasted in those calm and meaningless tenderness.

He thought this might be the last straw that could save him.

So after a long time, when he was about to drown, he hugged Zhou Cibai's neck tightly, panting slightly, and said, "Zhou Cibai, take me back to the hotel."

·

When Gu Jiqing woke up the next morning, the wind and snow outside the window seemed to have stopped, only the sunny winter day turned into a vast expanse of white after being reflected by the snow, and fell into a room through the white gauze of the floor-to-ceiling windows. .

Gu Jiqing doesn't like sunny days, except for sunny days in winter.

So he turned over in a good mood, and then his body felt a tearing pain.

Crazy memories from last night hit him, he closed his eyes, and sighed inwardly, as expected, he shouldn't have found a big dog for the first time.

Still a big dog with no experience.

It was the first time the two bumped into each other, and he was the one who suffered in the end.

In other words, this is not a big dog, it is simply a wolf.

On weekdays, looking at Chunqing is extremely shy, but in her bones, she is full of predatory aggression just like her appearance.

Not only is it aggressive, but also powerful, and its physical strength is surprisingly amazing.

At a certain moment last night, Gu Jiqing almost thought that he would pass out because his physical strength could not keep up with the other party.

To be precise, he did pass out afterwards.

But what surprised him was that every place on his body was clean and fresh. It should have been carefully cleaned by someone, so it was just a little pain, and it would not cause fever and diarrhea because it was not treated well.

For this point, Gu Jiqing is very satisfied with Zhou Cibai.

But Zhou Cibai, a straight man with no experience, how could he do this.

As Gu Jiqing thought about it, the door of the hotel room was swiped open.

He opened his eyelids, and happened to meet Zhou Cibai who was carrying two big bags at the door without hindrance.

"..."

They looked at each other awkwardly.

Zhou Cibai's ears blushed quickly, and he quickly averted his eyes: "Well, I went out and bought you some porridge, and I went back to the dormitory to bring you some change of clothes."

Thinking of the clothes that were ruined to the point of being unwearable last night, Gu Jiqing said softly, "Thank you."

Then he asked again: "Did you clean it up for me yesterday?"

The tone of his question was very natural, without the slightest ambiguity or intimacy, but because his voice was so hoarse, Zhou Cibai remembered his excessive behavior that he almost paranoidly wanted to make Gu Jiqing cry last night.

He lowered his eyelashes guiltyly, said "um", paused, and said in a low voice, "Because I read Baidu and said that if it is not cleaned up, it is not good for your health, so... I didn't mean to offend you." .”

After finishing speaking, the knuckles hanging by the side were tightly clenched, the corners of the lips were drawn into a straight line, and the ears were red as if they were about to bleed.

The whole person looks like a big boy who has made some mistakes.

But obviously Zhou Cibai did nothing wrong, on the contrary, he didn't refuse the other party's help in that situation, it was too indulgent of his own feelings and needs.

Gu Jiqing thinks of the picture of Zhou Cibai carefully checking Baidu while cleaning himself up carefully and clumsily, and thinks it is a little cute.

After being cute, I felt a little sorry, because I felt that this was too embarrassing for a homophobic straight man.

So he adjusted his voice to a gentle state during negotiations, and said softly: "What happened last night..."

Before he finished speaking, Zhou Cibai's body instantly tensed up in a state visible to the naked eye, his knuckles were pinched red, and blood seemed to be dripping from his ears.

Gu Jiqing suddenly felt that he was lying on the bed wearing only a nightgown, and the gesture of saying this slowly was a bit like a prodigal son who defiled a good woman.

He paused slightly, and began to think about whether Zhou Cibai should be given a little more time to buffer his mind.

Before he could think of a suitable answer, the phone rang.

The caller is Yin Lan.

Gu Jiqing said, "I'm going to the bathroom to answer the phone."

Then got out of bed with the phone.

As a result, as soon as his feet touched the ground, his legs went limp.

Zhou Cibai hurriedly stepped forward to support Gu Jiqing, who just happened to be wrapped in his arms.

Because of lowering his head, on the exposed skin at the neckline of Gu Jiqing's pajamas, large areas of light red marks directly hit Zhou Cibai's eyes, showing his absurd crimes last night.

Zhou Cibai tightened Gu Jiqing's hand, and just about to say something, Gu Jiqing pushed him away as if nothing had happened, said "Thank you" in a low voice, and went into the bathroom by himself.

The moment the door closed, Zhou Cibai couldn't help but sat down beside the bed, brushed his hair irritably, and cursed himself in a low voice.

Gu Jiqing was drugged last night, but he was conscious.

Obviously there are other better ways to solve this problem, why did he choose the most absurd, incredible and difficult way to deal with?

He knew very well that Gu Jiqing was not to blame for this incident at all, because he was the one who wanted to make Gu Jiqing lose control at the time, and he was also the one who made such a poor choice in which physical desire overcame rationality.

But he himself didn't understand why he made such a choice at the time.

Is it purely due to the man's inferior sexual impulse or because he likes Gu Jiqing?

But whatever the reason, he found it ridiculous.

He is straight.

He has girls he likes.

He knew very well that his liking for that girl at that time was definitely not because of youthful impulsiveness and memory filters, but because a teenager really met someone he liked when he was just beginning to fall in love.

So how could he have a relationship with Gu Jiqing when he still pretended to be someone else in his heart?

What is the difference between him like this and those half-hearted and extremely irresponsible scumbags?

But he had to admit that he was attracted by Gu Jiqing.

It's not because Gu Jiqing likes him, nor is it because he needs to express himself.

Because since high school, there are quite a few men and women who have pursued him. Among them, there are many excellent, gentle, active, and beautiful ones. There are even two or three with moles at the corners of their eyes. He just wants to wait until that girl shows up.

So he was sure that he didn't have such a desire because he was pursued by an excellent person.

It was because when he got along with Gu Jiqing, he felt a certain quality similar to that girl at that time.

That kind of gentle, calm and rational tolerance, that inadvertent sense of loneliness and brokenness, and that kind of amazement that always makes his heart beat when he looks up, all satisfy all his desires for beautiful things. Yearning and the protective desire of heroism in his bones.

Except for Gu Jiqing and that girl, no third person has ever brought him this feeling.

So does he like Gu Jiqing?

Realizing this, Zhou Cibai's heart skipped a beat, and before he could deny himself, the bathroom door opened.

Zhou Cibai immediately stood up reflexively, with his hands close to his sides, standing upright, looking at Gu Jiqing nervously, like a dog that has made a mistake and is waiting for the sentence of its master.

Gu Jiqing paused slightly as he opened the bathroom door.

For some reason, at that moment, he suddenly worried that Zhou Cibai would say "I will be responsible to you" in the next second.

But Zhou Cibai is homophobic, even if homophobia is cured, he still has a girl who he likes so much that he would not marry unless she is the only straight man.

So how could it be possible to be responsible for him.

And he doesn't have to be responsible.

What happened last night was just a forced accident for both parties.

However, based on his understanding of Zhou Cibai, the other party's overly strong sense of morality and overly loyal view of love will definitely make him feel a completely unnecessary sense of guilt and responsibility.

After a short pause, Gu Jiqing said softly: "You don't really need to worry about what happened last night. If you have anything to do, go and get busy first. I can handle the rest by myself."

Because he was exhausted last night and his body was still aching, he wanted to settle this matter early, let Zhou Cibai leave, and get a good night's sleep.

But Zhou Cibai's heart tightened when he heard it.

Why is Gu Jiqing still thinking about him at this time?

No matter what grievances this person has suffered, he will only bear it himself, and will never cause trouble to others, or ask others to help share it?

And Baidu also said that after doing that kind of thing for the first time, it is very likely to have a fever and abdominal pain, how could he leave Gu Jiqing here alone?

"I am fine."

Zhou Cibai tried his best to answer in a low and steady manner, trying to give Gu Jiqing a feeling that he was very reliable.

Gu Jiqing paused slightly.

He felt that even if Zhou Cibai had nothing to do, he could leave first.

But it's kind of impolite to say that.

And Zhou Cibai may feel that what happened last night has not been explained clearly.

Gu Jiqing looked at him seriously again and said in a gentle voice: "I'm sorry for the unpleasant experience last night. If you need me to make compensation, such as moving out of the dormitory, or cutting off contact, I will treat you as a complete stranger in the future, and never give up. I can do without contact."

He thought the solution he proposed was sincere enough.

Zhou Cibai suddenly felt an unknown fire in his heart.

When did he say that last night's experience was not pleasant?

Or did Gu Jiqing feel that last night's experience was unpleasant?

But even if it was unpleasant, this was the first time for him, and there was no room for improvement in the future, so why did he want to move the dormitory and delete his contact information?

However, before he had time to ask, Gu Jiqing's cell phone rang again.

This time it was Pei Yiming's call.

When Zhou Cibai saw these three words on the caller ID, his expression immediately sank.

Gu Jiqing didn't care.

Pei Yiming's sensible and measured voice as always came from the other end of the phone: "Hey, Jiqing, are you awake? I went to the bar to look for you yesterday, and they said that Zhou Cibai took you away, and he answered my call , I think he should be quite reliable, so I didn't call the police, are you okay?"

Gu Jiqing vaguely remembered that when Pei Yiming called last night, he was a little confused.

Fortunately, Zhou Cibai answered the phone for him, although he just said angrily "he is with me" and hung up the phone, but at least Pei Yiming didn't really call the police, and he didn't ask any more questions.

Unlike Zhou Cibai, even if he said he was fine, he must guard himself and confirm with his own eyes that he was really fine.

Maybe big dogs are clingier than kittens.

Gu Jiqing replied in a low voice: "It's okay, thank you."

Pei Yiming said "hmm": "That's good. It seems that your roommate is really reliable, but why do I feel that he has some opinions on me? Could it be that he really likes you?"

The last sentence had some tentative jokes.

Zhou Cibai's face became even more stinky in an instant.

Does he like Gu Jiqing Guan Pei Yiming?

But Gu Jiqing noticed that Zhou Cibai's mood was not right, thought that he could not accept this kind of misunderstanding and joke, and quickly explained in a gentle voice: "No, he just looks aloof, but he is actually a very nice person."

Zhou Cibai's face softened slightly.

Gu Jiqing also said: "Besides, he is a straight man, and it is absolutely impossible to like the kind of boy, so he is just a simple person, and if he was replaced by other people last night, he would also help, so don't think too much about it."

Zhou Cibai's complexion immediately stinks beyond measure.

Who said that he would help if he was replaced by someone else last night? !

And why did Gu Jiqing explain to Pei Yiming? !

Pei Yiming wasn't his...who.

After Zhou Cibai's heart crackled, he suddenly realized that he was not Gu Jiqing's.

Moreover, he had repeatedly emphasized to Gu Jiqing that he was not interested in men, that the two of them should keep a distance, and that he should not try to bend himself all day long.

Thinking of this, Zhou Cibai clenched his fists.

No wonder Gu Jiqing pretended to be calm and said that it was fine, that he could handle it alone, and that it would be fine to move out of the dormitory or cut off the relationship in the future.

It must be because his previous attitude was so bad that Gu Jiqing felt that he must not accept what happened last night, so he said these words of comfort to him.

And he knew that Gu Jiqing liked him and regarded him as his only protection, but he still said those excessive words.

Thinking of Gu Jiqing's words "I only like you, only you" when Gu Jiqing was in a daze that day, Zhou Cibai's heart was sour.

And Gu Jiqing had already hung up on Pei Yiming's call, because Gu Jue called again.

"I'm going to the bathroom," he said.

Zhou Cibai nodded.

After the low voice of talking came from the bathroom, Zhou Cibai sat down beside the bed again, took out his mobile phone, and clicked on the exclusive album whose number of photos was displayed as "1".

The pixels of the photos are very low, and they were captured by mobile phones several years ago.

The girl in the photo didn't have a front face either, she was just wearing a white gauze dance dress, and she was wearing the haircut that Nanwu Foreign Affairs University uniformly asked girls to keep. She was squatting on the ground, hugging a small dirty white dog.

Because of the lowered head, the forehead hair and the slightly longer hair on both sides hang down docilely, covering almost the entire side face, only the slightly raised right eye corner and the small red mole under the corner of the eye are a little overexposed Under the light, it looks very dazzling and gentle.

That was when he went to Nanwu Shiwai to join a class in the second year of junior high school.

When Hao Hao happened to meet the school art festival, he was a newcomer and a little fat, so the whole class did not bring him to the program. When others were rehearsing, he could only hang out alone.

One time when he was wandering around, he ran into a group of gangsters from the gym class. As soon as he saw him alone, he started looking for trouble. One of the men even tried to lure him to the toilet, saying that he was cute and chubby. Why don't you give your brother a touch.

At that time, he couldn't hold back his nausea, and he didn't care about his long-standing tutor, so he fought hard and beat those senior bastards to the ground before running out.

As a result, he lost his way while running, and when he accidentally opened a door, he happened to bump into the girl changing her dance clothes.

The snow-white shoulders that only showed a back, gave Zhou Cibai, who had just entered puberty at that time, a heartbeat that he had never experienced before.

And the girl wasn't even angry with him, she just put on her clothes, and after seeing the bruises on his face, she asked him warmly if she needed help.

When she helped him apply the medicine, she was as gentle as when Gu Jiqing helped him wrap the bandage.

But that girl seemed to be the same as Gu Jiqing, although she was gentle, she was alienated, and she never asked who he was from the beginning to the end, as if she didn't intend to make friends with him.

And at that time, because of his low self-esteem in appearance, he didn't dare to ask.

It's just that after that, the number of times he resisted and fought became more frequent, and every time after a fight, he would "accidentally" meet that girl in the Art Building.

The girl would also give him medicine every time, and tell him that his eyes are very beautiful, and he will become a good-looking little boy, and he must work hard to become stronger.

At that time, he thought that he must get rid of baby fat, become a good-looking little boy, and then confess his love to this girl.

But the last time he helped that girl snatch back that poor little white dog who was abandoned by those gangsters, he was reported by those gangsters, and his fighting behavior and isolation were finally Known by his father.

So he was transferred back to Beijing overnight, and he didn't even have time to formally say goodbye to the girl.

And when he later asked someone to ask again, because he didn't know anyone well, the search was not smooth, and the answer he finally got was that there was no such girl in Shiwai junior high school, maybe she was a third-year junior high school student who graduated after performing the show.

Therefore, he directly studied the content of high school for a whole year during the summer vacation of the third year of junior high school, and then took the college entrance examination one year in advance.

Just thinking that the girl's grades should be very good, if they meet again in the same school.

When we meet again, he must tell her that later he fell in love with sports, grew a lot taller, and lost a lot of weight. He may be considered a good-looking little boy. Would she be willing to be his girlfriend?

But instead of meeting that girl again, he met Gu Jiqing.

He thought that because of what happened in junior high school, he would hate all the homosexuals who tried to contact him, but he didn't.

He will not even be able to control his desire and jealousy with reason.

The rubber boots and lubricating fluid in the trash can are all evidence of his loss of control last night.

And the sentence "Gu Jue, I didn't resist before, doesn't mean I can be bullied at will, and the Gu family has nothing to do with me from now on" faintly leaked from the bathroom door, so calm and gentle, but sadly alienated.

Reminds Zhou Cibai of Gu Jiqing's profile picture.

What a lonely and sad princess lived in that tower.

Will he finally be unable to bear jumping off the tower one day?

At that moment, he felt that his distress had made a decision for him.

He will never deny his long-term secret love and joy for that girl, but he can't ignore his concern for Gu Jiqing either.

Although he is not sure whether his heart for Gu Jiqing is due to the secretion of hormones, or because he really wants to be a partner, but since he has already had a relationship with Gu Jiqing, he should not think about others .

After all, people and things in the past were predestined, so he should at least take responsibility for the present.

And if he can't be with Gu Jiqing wholeheartedly, only likes him, only takes care of him, only protects him, why should he accept Gu Jiqing's liking.

Thinking about it, Zhou Cibai gripped the phone tightly, as if he couldn't control the entanglement and struggle in his heart.

However, after a long struggle, he finally gritted his teeth, as if he had made the most important decision in his 19 years of life, he pressed and long pressed the photo, and delete popped up, ready to click.

Then a voice came from above my head: "Why do you have photos of me in junior high school?"

Zhou Cibai: "?"

Before he could react, Gu Jiqing lazily hooked the phone from his hand, and said with confirmation: "It is indeed a photo of me when I was in junior high school, and this dance dress is still at my house."

"???"

How could this be Gu Jiqing? !

Zhou Cibai felt unbelievable: "She kept her younger sister's head!"

It's still a little bit longer than the average girl!

But Gu Jiqing just felt a little baffled by his reaction: "When I was in junior high school, I kept my little sister's head."

After finishing speaking, he blinked, and the forehead hair that had just been wet in the bathroom also collapsed and drooped, as if it had turned into bangs like a sister's brow.

At that moment, he just decided to forget the goddess and bid farewell to Zhou Cibai, who was wholeheartedly responsible for Gu Jiqing in the past, and remembered what he said to Gu Jiqing seriously a week ago, "When I was in junior high school, I liked a girl because I was attracted by the girl's own qualities. , so I like her, I will always like her, and I will even pray in my diary every day, see her again and stay with her for life" words: "..."

Three seconds later, with a blushing face, an extremely ashamed and indignant sentence burst out in her heart: Shit!