God said I would meet you

In the office separated by a wall, everyone sits peacefully at their desks and works - except for the nosy little man.

He was sitting right next to the wall, and he was pricking up his ears to listen to the movement in the corridor. A colleague behind him asked him what he was doing, and he hissed, "It's gossip, it's useless to listen."

The check-in time was over, and the director happened to be passing nearby. Just after turning the corner, he heard noises in the corridor. Three people who didn't know who were crowded together seemed to be arguing.

Lin Jinyu's side is in chaos now, the little cousin finished his babbling, Zhang Xinli started to quarrel with the little cousin, the two of them finally came to an end, Lin Jinyu and Zhang Xinli started to fight again, what's the matter.

"What do you mean by that?" Lin Jinyu said, "If I say I can, I can."

Zhang Xinli said, "Now you think it's easy."

Anyway, Lin Jinyu should never really be in the situation he is in now.

"You asked yourself if I could bear it for a while, and I said yes, but you started to change your mind and criticize me for empty talk and bragging?" Lin Jinyu said angrily, "Who is it!"

The little cousin looked at it and thought, this is not good, if you can quarrel in front of yourself, wouldn't it be more disharmonious in private?How can this go on?

"Xiaoyu," said the little cousin, "don't tell him, it's not suitable for you two to be together, come here, I'll tell you something."

He felt that he had roughly understood the situation so far, and the debt owed could directly determine life and death, and it was time to enter the next stage. He told Lin Jinyu that besides seeing him, there was another reason for his visit this time— ——In fact, this incident was actually the main reason that prompted him to go back to Shanghai.

The little cousin thought: Now that my cousin is arguing with Zhang Xinli, he should no longer bend his elbows there, and refuse to listen to his warning words.

However, the facts were completely beyond his expectations. After Lin Jinyu yelled at Zhang Xinli, she turned around and asked him to shut up, saying that she would not listen: "Stop talking, I have said it several times, he is really not what you worried about." , can you just stop meddling!"

The little cousin is suffering and can't tell, he still doesn't want to intervene, is he free?Find something to do for himself. If he didn't come, he would just stay at home and watch TV and drink.

"You two can quarrel in front of me, isn't that what I think?" The little cousin tried to pull him: "Come here for me."

"I do not……"

"Who are you, what are you doing here?"

The sharp female voice that sounded from across the sky made Lin Jinyu pause suddenly, and immediately shut her mouth tightly, ending the second round of verbal tug-of-war between the two cousins ​​that hadn't come to a conclusion yet.

The director, that is, the female leader who was in charge of speaking to them the day they first came in, looked at this and that, asked again, and said, "Who are you, why are you making such a noise here, disturbing other people's work. "

Strictly speaking, the intern is just a temporary worker. There are so many people. It's normal for her to be unable to put everyone's face and name on the number. Living.

He took his little cousin's hand away from his arm, stood up, and said, "...Hello, Director."

Zhang Xinli also turned around and closed his mouth.

"We are interns, sorry, the voice is a little louder," Lin Jinyu apologized, "Return to your seat right away."

"Oh, intern, it looks familiar." The director turned his eyes to the completely unfamiliar face of the little cousin, and said, "What about you?"

"He's my cousin," Lin Jinyu said, "Come here...to see me."

"Non-employees are not allowed to enter during working hours. Didn't your master tell you?" The director's slender eyebrows frowned: "How does he do things?"

"I've said it, it's my problem," Fat Master is a good person, Lin Jinyu must not deceive him, any explanation at this time is superfluous, and it is easy to be regarded as sophistry, it is better to bow your head and get over this problem first Then said: "I forgot the time, return to my position immediately."

Formal units are not like nightclubs. In front of their faces, even the direct leaders are generally too embarrassed to say harsh words to subordinates who have made mistakes. What's more, Lin Jinyu is just an intern who works for nothing. It is necessary to be polite on the surface. Dissatisfied, but didn't say anything, just said: "Well, hurry up..."

"Okay, okay, sorry," the little cousin said, not wanting to affect Lin Jinyu's internship performance, "Excuse me."

The director asked Zhang Xinli and Lin Jinyu for their badges, and Zhang Xinli handed over their temporary badges. The director looked at their badges and read: "Lin Jinyu... Zhang Xinli..." She seemed to suddenly think of something: "Oh, you guys It was introduced by Chief X, right?" She said a name named Xu, Lin Jinyu knew this name, she was a relative of Xu Zhao, but she didn't know which uncle it was.

"Yes," Lin Jinyu couldn't deny it, and could only say, "I'm sorry for the trouble, please take care of me."

"Oh, it's okay," the director said, "Then... Hurry up and send your cousin off, I won't allow it next time." After finishing speaking, he left.

When the director walked away, the little cousin said: "Who is Xu? Why did he introduce you? Didn't you two apply normally?"

It's... a normal application, but not completely normal... Lin Jinyu kept complaining, was it necessary to subdue a few monsters after just capturing a few monsters: "Uh... this..."

There is nothing more embarrassing than a lie that has just been exposed, and it is about to be revealed again. All the lies Lin Jinyu told before were just to make the little cousin's impression of Zhang Xinli better. He said the lie. You can't "betray" your object, so you can only falter.

The little cousin's eyes became more and more puzzled. At this moment of dilemma, Zhang Xinli actually took the initiative to say: "It's not a normal application." He was already tired of lying to get credit, but at this moment he was finally relieved: "The acceptance letter has nothing to do with me. He asked Xu Zhao to help him get it."

???

Lin Jinyu was dumbfounded, why did this person not call himself so easily?Anyway, try to round it up, it's one thing not to get round it, but it's another thing not to call yourself.

The little cousin was also stunned: "What do you mean... mean you didn't contribute? Then you just said that you ran up and down to apply for it?"

"That's what he said," Zhang Xinli was a bit shabby. What's the use of whitewashing the big-tailed wolf? Can he be fooled for a while? He's tired of arguing, so he can do whatever he wants: "It was a lie just now. I don't have the ability to find a relationship."

"Are you still putting the blame on Xiao Yu?" The little cousin was a little sullen under the blessing of the "buff inside the elbow", but Lin Jinyu felt that he was unreasonable, so it was necessary to be so sincere?And he sold him without saying hello.

"I didn't, I was just stating the facts," Zhang Xinli said, "You are his cousin, you should know the truth, the facts are like this, you can do whatever you want." After speaking, he pushed the door and went back to work.

Lin Jinyu's fucking words stuck in her throat, she was so speechless, although honesty is a good character, it's not for you to show it here, okay?

The little cousin said: "Xiaoyu, have you seen him clearly? He is too paranoid. You have to think about it."

Lin Jinyu was really angry with Zhang Xinli, but she couldn't do it in front of her little cousin, so she said, "Okay, I'll send you out first."

It was already working hours, and there was no one in the aisle in the building. Lin Jinyu led his little cousin all the way to the gate, hiding himself from going out, and showing him the way.

The little cousin said: "Xiaoyu, don't go with Zhang...Zhang Xinli after get off work today, wait for me for a while, I have something to tell you."

"?" Lin Jinyu said, "Is it okay to say something now?"

He is now in a miraculous state, feeling inexplicably heavy, depressed and suffocated, like a can of compressed air that is about to reach its limit, and it will burst at any time. Speaking, I just want to send people away quickly, and then stay alone.

"Now..." The little cousin thought over and over again, and said, "I can't tell right now, but actually... I want to take you to meet someone."

"?" Lin Jinyu didn't understand at first, he was stunned for a moment, and then an inexplicable premonition came to his mind: "Who? Is your friend...my dad?"

"...uh, no..."

Before the little cousin finished speaking, Lin Jinyu raised his voice an octave, grabbed his collar and asked, "Didn't you say he didn't know? Didn't you tell him?!"

The excited look shocked the little cousin, Lin Jinyu pulled his hand very hard, the veins were exposed one by one, the eyes were not to say that the eyes were tearing, and the red bloodshots were clearly visible, the whole person followed It was like a different person all of a sudden, very scary.

From a psychological point of view, a person who avoids something does not mean that he does not care about it. On the contrary, the more he avoids it, the more it shows that it is a heart disease of him. It becomes some kind of switch, if it is not triggered, the person concerned is exactly the same as a normal person, nothing happens, once it is triggered, he will show varying degrees of manic-depressive tendencies.

"No, no, no," the little cousin was so frightened that he stuttered: "It's not him, I... I didn't..."

This series of denials made Lin Jinyu calm down a bit. He paused, realizing his gaffe, so he quickly let go of his little cousin and said, "Sorry... I seem to be a little excited..."

It's not a little bit, it was quite excited. After the catastrophe, the little cousin tidied up his clothes and smoothed things over: "Hehehe, what, it's understandable."

"So who do you want to take me to see?" Lin Jinyu thought that the little cousin saw that he was having difficulties in life, and planned to introduce some friends with backgrounds to him, but the little cousin dragged his feet and said something that he never expected name--

The little cousin said: "... I will take you to see grandpa."

……

During the Chinese New Year last year, Lin Jinyu didn't see his grandfather in the family video. He thought it was just that he didn't capture it, or that the old man was too old and didn't have the energy to be lively, so he watched TV alone.

I often hear people say, "If you survive a catastrophe, you will have good fortune." Why didn't this sentence work on his grandfather?

The scene of his grandfather lying in the intensive care unit is still vivid in my mind. When he was discharged from the hospital, the doctor said that the old man has reached a certain age, and it will be fine if he gets through it. Just a comforting lie sometimes.

Or maybe the old man has enjoyed too many blessings in his life. He was not beaten to death when he was young, and when he was old, he had a lot of children and grandchildren. He never had to worry about food, clothing, housing and transportation in his later years. , a big family lives happily.

People will leave one day. Mr. Lin will be [-] years old this year, and his life is considered wonderful. He has seen bullets and bullets, jumped in the queue and worked as an educated youth, lived in a compound and entered a building, fed pigs and took a pen. He has experienced ups and downs, he has tasted bitterness and bitterness, and life and death have not been so important to him. If that day really comes, he hopes that God will give him a chance, so that he can talk to his sons, grandchildren, and the living ones decently and calmly. The old friends said goodbye, wished happiness to the living, and then passed away without dragging their feet or closing their eyes.

He is decisive in his work, and what he dislikes the most is procrastination.

When Lin Jinyu looked at the long tube directly into the airway through the thick glass for a long time, he thought: If grandpa is still conscious, he would rather let go than rely on intubation to maintain his life.

"It was fine at first, but one day it was cold, he went out to ride a bicycle and bought some of your favorite dishes, and suddenly he couldn't do it... It is basically impossible to be discharged from the hospital when the cutting tube is put on the ventilator." There was no one other than the nursing staff. The little cousin and Lin Jinyu stood side by side, wrapped tightly in protective clothing, staring at the grandfather with his eyes closed on the hospital bed, young life staring at old life.

Only the beating broken line on the side of the electrocardiogram proves that this once strong heart has not stopped beating.

"The doctor said... How long will it be?" Lin Jinyu never thought that they would meet again in such a situation. His eyes were gloomy, and he asked his cousin in a low voice.

"Maybe," the little cousin put his hand on his shoulder: "I still have consciousness, but I can't do without the machine. My lungs are not good. I can't breathe when I sit up. I can't talk. I can only fall asleep. The doctor said that it will take a month or two. A year or two, it's possible."

No one can predict the matter of life and death, but Lin Jinyu feels that eternal sleep is no different from death.

The label on the small card at the end of the bed has changed from "common food" to "liquid food". There is half-yellow liquid food flowing in the nasal feeding tube. After finishing the previous sentence, the little cousin was silent for a few seconds, and then said: " At that time... the weather was very cold, and the old man was nagging, asking your mother to send you a sweater, in case you would be cold, and said to go out and buy some of your favorite dishes, and wait for you to come back to eat and chat with him... Unfortunately, no I catch up with you for the last word, and I will be intubated."

He tried his best to speak calmly, but at the end, his voice was still a little choked, Lin Jinyu's throat moved, and he tried his best to endure the sore feeling in his nasal cavity.He still remembers that when Lin Huainan became busy when he was a child, he would often send him to the compound, where the sun was very sunny, and his grandfather carried him on a bamboo stool, took a piece of hair cake, and fed the ants under the pine tree, sitting all afternoon.

"You come here, forget about grandpa's wish, those of us who have married have also married, and those who have worked have also worked. You are the only one who has not settled down. You have to live a good life, do you understand?"

Lin Jinyu also wants to live a good life, who doesn't want to live a good life?But probably, people come to this world to suffer. From the moment they are born, they must be entangled in love, hatred and obsession. There must be gains and losses.

A piece of transparent glass separates the two worlds. Grandpa said to wait for him to come back to talk to him, but now Lin Jinyu is standing here, but the old man who was once hale and hearty can't speak, and the sound of his grandson's young breathing is long, but can't reach there.

He didn't answer his little cousin, but just stood there, looking at his grandfather quietly.

"Yes, family members have come to visit just now—"

Suddenly, the on-duty doctor's protracted voice came from the entrance: "Mr. Lin, it's actually past the visiting time now. If it weren't for your face, the old man is really not easy to say, I don't want to violate the regulations..."

"Yes, I'm sorry to trouble you." Lin Jinyu heard a very familiar voice and said politely: "I bought this fruit by the way when I came over. You have worked hard, so bring it back for the children to eat."

As if someone had poured a tank of liquid nitrogen on him, every nerve and every pore in his body began to stiffen, just like a stressed Tennessee sheep, his limbs were stiff and unable to move.

The little cousin's sad expression froze instantly. He stared at Lin Jinyu with wide eyes, and almost crossed himself on his chest, swearing to God Jesus Tathagata Buddha Jade Emperor. Here it comes.

"You're welcome. The old man is doing well these days. You can eat. We wipe our bodies every day before going to bed."

The doctor's voice was very kind, but in Lin Jinyu's ears, it sounded like the whisper of a demon from hell. He transitioned from great grief to great panic... No, he didn't want to see his father, hiding under the bed, lying on the toilet, what are you doing? It doesn't matter, even if he is allowed to jump off the hospital building now, he just doesn't want to see his father!