wake up from dream

"Qing'er..." Standing in front of Ziqing, Rong Ruo had a lot of things to say but didn't know where to start.

Zi Qing turned her back to Rong Ruo, looking out of the courtyard from the window, she didn't know how to continue her love with Rong Ruo, maybe it was the conversation now...

The brilliance of the setting sun surrounded Ziqing's whole body, Ruorong only saw a figure, he was in a daze, and seemed to be unable to grasp it... If he knew that telling Ziqing his feelings for Qi'er would lead to this kind of result, You may choose to keep your mouth shut.He knew that Ziqing's final decision to be with him had drained her courage, and in the end, he had given her such an unbearable result... He knew very well that his feelings for Qi'er were not love, but they were better than family affection. More advanced, if this child hadn't come, would I never know that I still have such unequal feelings for Qier, even though it's not love...Rong Ruo doesn't know why he always emphasizes his love for Qier in his heart You's feelings are not love, just like he would hope that Ziqing can understand his feelings for Qi'er, which are deeper than family affection, rather than family affection. The suspicion is getting darker, and Ziqing probably hasn't firmly believed in herself...

"I want to meet Ling Yun..." Zi Qing couldn't think of what to say to Rong Ruo, when they love each other and are determined to grow old together, it's good to say nothing, yes, it's sweet , but in the current situation, I feel that even if I say a word or look in my eyes, it will make people feel wrong!What is wrong?Ziqing couldn't think of it herself.

"Okay. I'll go with you!" Rong Ruo was suddenly a little afraid that Ziqing would reject herself and everything she wanted to do for her, but she didn't expect that Ziqing would just say "yes" lightly.

This time, Rong Ruo didn't let Zi Qing take the carriage. After Zi Qing got dressed, when she reached the door, she saw Rong Ruo riding a big horse, waiting for her.A word immediately came to my mind: Why ride a horse?Where is the carriage?

"Get on the horse!" Rong Ruo stretched out his hand without any explanation.

"En." Zi Qing didn't ask, so what about Wen Le?The answer is always just such a simple sentence, and in the end, it may not be the original intention... She still cares in her heart, she cares about Rong Ruo's sentence "There is a place for Qier"... It would be strange if she didn't care thing?Because of love, so care.

"Is it cold?" Rong Ruo asked.The dusk in spring is still a bit chilly, Ziqing is afraid of the cold, so she wears more clothes, but because the wind is not blowing, her hands gradually lose the warmth...

"No..." Zi Qing's hands were cold, but she still stubbornly refused to admit it, just like a child who loses candy and is very unhappy, but still pretends to be mature and doesn't matter...

"Hands are stunned, do you still want to lie to me?" Rong Ruo held Zi Qing's cold hand with his free hand.

"I didn't... It's just cold hands..." There was no violent quarrel, as if a couple who had been together for a long time got used to reconciliation after quarreling, so the days returned to calm...

"Qing'er, I only love you, I only love you!" Rong Ruo said in Ziqing's ear, Ziqing seemed to have gotten used to having such a person, always speaking sweet words in her ear, Said, and then, my ears always feel itchy.

"I..." Zi Qing wanted to say, "I know." But she still didn't say it out, thinking that saying this would make her appear indifferent, and now she realized that she didn't want to be a cold person in Rong Ruo's heart Woman, so let's not talk about it. In the future, there is still a chance to change, right?Ziqing comforted herself like this, entrusting her relationship with Rongruo to the uncertain future...

"Seeing you sad, I..."

"Rong Ruo, stop talking, I want to stay quietly from now on...until I see Ling Yun." Zi Qing leaned against Rong Ruo's chest and closed her eyes.To be honest, she is not angry with Rong Ruo, Rong Ruo is not wrong, he does not need to admit his mistakes, she is only angry with herself, and her heart is not broad enough, maybe because of the possessive desire derived from loving Rong Ruo, but she has no real love for her. Be mentally prepared, knowing that Qi Er is pregnant, I suddenly realize that I want too much, too much for Rong Ruo to give...

Seeing that Ziqing was finally willing to lean her body, which had been tense since the moment she got on the horse, against her, Rong Ruo felt relieved.Qing'er still has herself in her heart, and even loves herself more than she imagined. This point is almost certain, fortunately, fortunately!

Then along the way, Ziqing closed her eyes and waited for the end, while Rong Ruo enjoyed the rare time for the two of them leisurely. Since Ziqing married to Mingfu, although they could meet every day, it was rare for two people to meet each other. When we are alone, there are always one or two "idlers" at home.

Bamboo house, Lu Lingyun was very surprised that Zi Qing and Rong Ruo would appear in his bamboo house at dusk. They looked tired, not the joy of newly-married, but exhausted?Lu Lingyun was puzzled.

"Zi Qing, Rong Ruo, why are you coming back?" Lu Lingyun went up to meet her.

Rong Ruo got off the horse, then hugged Zi Qing, and then let go of Zi Qing's hand, or, Zi Qing took the initiative to let go of Rong Ruo's hand, and deliberately opened the distance between the two of them.

"Ling Yun, I'll stay in the bamboo house tonight, okay?" Zi Qing didn't look at Rong Ruo again, so she didn't know. When Rong Ruo heard these words, her heart suddenly hurt, and even her expression changed Painful.

"This...you..." Lu Lingyun looked at Rong Ruo and Zi Qing, wondering what happened between them?

"What?" Ziqing didn't answer Lu Lingyun's question, but instead held on to her own question.

Kiki

"It's fine, but... are you okay?" Lu Lingyun finally asked.

"Then thank you." Ziqing pulled a smile, which was so ugly that she couldn't smile at all.Then he turned around and said to Rong Ruo: "I'll stay with Ling Yun tonight, if Er Niang asks, you can just say that I'm going back to my mother's house..."

"Okay." Rong Ruo paused for a while, then said, "I'll pick you up tomorrow."

"En." Zi Qing lowered her head, and a barely audible "En" came out of her mouth.

"Then let's come again tomorrow, Rong Ruo!" Lu Lingyun looked at the two people's distant conversation, and knew that something big must have happened between them. If it was a small matter, they could solve it by themselves given their circumstances...

"It's okay, I will take good care of her." Then she whispered to Rong Ruo.

"I'm sorry to trouble you." Rong Ruo drove away.

Looking at the dust raised on the ground, Zi Qing wondered if Rong Ruo was angry with herself because of her unreasonable troubles.Unreasonable trouble?Are you yourself?It seems that there is no trouble, right?Ziqing thought.But Ziqing didn't know that such "no trouble" is more lethal than "no trouble", and there is nothing more terrifying than indifference, let alone in front of the person she loves the most and the person who loves her the most?

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"What's the matter with you and Rong Ruo?" Entering the room, Lu Lingyun cut straight to the topic.

Ziqing smiled lightly, so she was really right, Lu Lingyun was really a woman with a real temperament.

"Where is Ning Runyi?" Zi Qing looked around the bamboo house, but did not find Ning Runyi.

"Not at home." Lu Lingyun answered Ziqing's question, but did not blame Ziqing for not answering her own question.

"Well, then it's time for our sisters to chat..." Ziqing originally wanted to pretend to be indifferent and tell Lu Lingyun about herself and Rongruo, but she couldn't stop laughing at this point. .

"Don't force yourself if you can't laugh." Lu Lingyun said, "Are you hungry? Let's eat! I just got ready, and you came here, what a blessing." Lu Lingyun pulled Ziqing to sit down.For a table of small dishes, Lu Lingyun ate a lot by himself, but who knew that it was not for Ning Runyi?

"It's really a blessing..." Zi Qing said with a smile, but the sadness that has not faded in her eyes.

"Eat some!" Lu Lingyun knew that Ziqing must not be able to eat at this moment, so he said that just out of gratitude to himself.

"Okay." I found a reason for myself in my heart, I can't waste such a good table of food!But when the food is put into the mouth, it tastes like chewing wax.

Lu Lingyun and Ziqing finished their dinner quietly, Lu Lingyun didn't bring up the matter of Ziqing and Rongruo again, Ziqing also enjoyed this rare quietness, more precisely, peace.

At night, the sky is full of shining stars, some of them are motionless, and they stop at a certain place in the sky far away, and some of them are flickering, like a pair of eyes, Ziqing looks at the twinkling stars The "eyes" blinked, oh, no, the stars, it was like seeing those black eyes, sad, bright, and loving eyes, not separated for a long time, she has already started to miss..." Hehe" laughed, it seems that I have gotten used to it, I have fallen in love with it, there is no way out, and I have never prepared myself for a way out, even though I know that "Lu Shi" will die in three years, but I still love desperately, It turns out that love can really make people so brave!

"Can we talk now?" Lu Lingyun lay on another rocking chair, turned his head to look at Zi Qing who was staring blankly at the sky.

"He said that Qier has a place in his heart..." Ziqing was silent for a long time before uttering this sentence slowly.

"Qi'er? The first woman he married?" Lu Lingyun was not very clear about Rong Ruo's affairs, but he still had a little impression of the name Qi'er. Back then, when the emperor referred to her marriage, her ama had mentioned it.

"Yes. Qi Er is Rong Ruo's personal servant girl, and she has been serving him since she was a child."

"What's wrong?" Lu Lingyun asked directly without guessing.

"She's pregnant..." Then Ziqing was silent for a long time, "Rong Ruo said that Qier has a place in his heart."

"He loves Qier?" Lu Lingyun was a little surprised, she didn't see such a flirtatious man in her eyes!Absolutely not!

"No, he...just treats her as a relative...but I, maybe I'm too sensitive?" Zi Qing began to doubt what she was doing.

"I can understand, but Rong Ruo is not a man who is promiscuous. I think you should know this better than me. It's just that you can't accept it for a while. He has special feelings for another woman in his heart. Even if that It's not love. I don't think I need to say more about what kind of person Rongruo is. He is such a gentleman, so he is destined to be unable to make up his mind to be so decisive with Qier. He is a kind person, and he cannot be so cruel. Absolutely, if you really do it, then you won't be the Rong Ruo you love." Lu Lingyun's voice was gentle, without much emotional ups and downs.

The wind was blowing, Ziqing didn't answer, she closed her eyes and slept on the couch, slowly chewing on Lu Lingyun's words in her heart.Yes, if Rong Ruo didn't care about a gentle woman like Qi Er, and didn't even care about Qi Er's feelings, then would this Rong Ruo be the one she loved?Everything about this man attracts me, in a deeper level, including his tolerance, love and respect for Qi'er.

"I actually know it, but I have been stubbornly avoiding it, and I don't want to face it. In fact, this tolerance is real. He is affectionate and righteous, right?" Ziqing waited for Lu Lingyun's approval.

"You don't need to ask me, you know it in your heart, but it will take some time to accept this matter. I think, now, you have figured it out." Lu Lingyun smiled.

"Well, I'll..." Zi Qing thought about going back with Rong Ruo tomorrow and living a good life.

"Hehe..." Lu Lingyun smiled.

"Where's your child?" Seeing Lu Lingyun laughing at herself, Ziqing realized why Lu Lingyun's child hadn't been seen all this time?

"It's in Lu's house. My mother, Ama'er, thought about the child so quickly that she picked him up."

"So it is."