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The night after the slap, Shen Zui didn't fall asleep early.

He lay on the window sill of the bedroom, watching a familiar figure downstairs walk into the moonlit night from an unknown darkness.

Maybe Yan Mingyang wanted to say something tonight, but he was driven away by intoxication.

Shen Zui is willing to hear about Yan Mingyang's past, and is even interested in learning about "Xia Ke Xing".

But he was unwilling, or dare not, to keep Yan Mingyang for a longer period of time.

Shen Zui drew the curtains and jumped off the window sill.

He hugged the tablet and leaned back on the bed, completely sleepless.

A lot of messages in the afternoon accumulated on WeChat, and Ding Yin asked how Shen Zui was doing among the three groups of him, Shen Zui, and Liu Heng.

Shen Zui replied "It's okay".

After a while, Liu Heng spoke in the group:

"Yan Mingyang is gone?"

Shen Xiaozui: "."

Ding Erhu: "...?"

Ding Yin initiated a multi-person voice call.

"Shen Zui, are you okay?" Ding Yin sighed as soon as the call was connected, "During dinner tonight, I felt that the teacher also regretted his harsh tone."

"I'm fine." Shen Zui said.

"Is the fish soup delicious?" Liu Heng asked, "I thought Yan Mingyang would stay for a while."

"It's delicious." Shen Zui wrote lightly, "I let him go."

"Are you still angry with him?" Liu Heng seemed a little surprised.He paused, "The posture in the afternoon, I feel like you two have reconciled."

Shen Zui didn't speak.Hutu sent the relevant content of Pei Yanxin's script on WeChat. The content was extremely limited, so limited that even an adult with a normal IQ could not understand it.

Intoxicated thoughtful, very interested.

"Shen Zui?" Ding Yin didn't hear Shen Zui's words, and was dissatisfied, "What are you doing?"

"Turning through the script." Shen Zui opened the file sent by Hu Tu, "Pei Yan's new play."

"It's late at night, what script are you watching?" Ding Yin clicked his tongue, "Although I don't like Yan Mingyang very much, he is always better than the script."

"......"

Shen Zui sighed almost inaudibly, and put down the tablet resignedly.

This phone call tonight was obviously discussed by Ding Yin and Liu Heng.After all, the emotional state of intoxication has always been worrying, but when he saw Xia Rusen again after such a long time, he was scolded.

"I went to see the teacher today, and the teacher asked me to think clearly about what I want." Shen Zui narrated calmly.

Ding Yin hummed to show encouragement, "And then?"

"Then," Shen Zui pursed his lower lip, "After I came back, I lost my mind and slapped Yan Mingyang."

"......"

There was three seconds of silence in the multi-person call.

Shen Zui could only bite the bullet and continue, "Yan Mingyang comforted me, he said that it is impossible for people to never let others down, so we have to distinguish clearly what we really need."

"Have you thought it through?" Ding Yin asked.

"I don't know." Shen Zui said frankly, "but I fell asleep. Compared with this real world, I seem to prefer to live in a movie."

"I love the unrelenting love and hate in dramas, they allow my neurotic sensitivity and thoughtfulness to come into play."

"Today I told Yan Mingyang," Liu Heng said, "you broke up with Liang Ce."

"Oh. No wonder he stays at my house and doesn't want to leave." Shen Zui picked up the tablet again, "Anyway, that's how it happened."

"I'm not mad at anyone, it's just that I shouldn't be in a relationship for a long time."

There was a longer silence in the multi-person call this time.

After a while, Ding Yin seemed to notice something.

"Shen Zui, I know you are a talented actor, I discovered it when you were filming "Tassel"." He hesitated, "But you,"

"But what about me?" Shen Zui chuckled, with a fragile open-mindedness in his tone, "I used to act for my livelihood, to keep my teacher from being disappointed, to not be abandoned, and to pour out the emotions that have nothing to depend on in real life acting."

"Now, there is no need."

The next day.

Insomnia at night, intoxicated and predictably overslept.

The call to wake him up was not made by a fool, but by Jiang Kai, the producer of "Under the Blue Sky".

Shen Zui was impatient, but still frowned and connected.

"Hey."

"Intoxicated." Jiang Kai spoke harshly and directly this time, ""Under the Blue Sky" is for next year's Silver Cloud Award."

"As far as I know, apart from your teacher Xia's "Spring Habitat", there should be no one that can beat our "Under the Blue Sky"."

Shen Zui propped up his arms and sat up from the bed, "So."

"So," Jiang Kai asked indifferently.He stumbled before continuing, "The Silver Cloud Award is not given every year. If you missed this one, it will delay your career advancement."

"I know that Pei Yan has also started a new project. Not to mention that it is too late for him to start it now, you must know that Pei Yan has never won the Silver Cloud Award."

"Pei Yan lost to Teacher Xia back then," Shen Zui paused calmly, "with me."

"If it's a matter of price, we can continue to discuss." Jiang Kai said, "Mr. Tan is willing to transfer part of the investment to Mr. Yan. Based on your relationship with Mr. Yan, "

"Why do you insist on inviting me?" Shen Zui interrupted Jiang Kai.

"People in this industry are somewhat superstitious." Jiang Kai was silent for a long time before he said helplessly, "You are considered to have debuted at the Silver Cloud Awards, and you have always been favored by this award."

Shen Zui was stunned for a moment, then suddenly burst out laughing.

He prides himself on being an artist, but he is just a mascot in the eyes of others.

"Mr. Jiang," Shen Zui said coldly after laughing, "As far as I know, the Silver Cloud Awards have never awarded Best Director and Best Leading Role to the same movie in history."

While Jiang Kai was still in a daze, Shen Zui hung up the phone neatly.

The movie that Pei Yanxin is preparing is called "Zuo Liu".

Shen Zui went to listen to Pei Yan's "Painting Cake Meeting", and signed the male number one without much hesitation.

Because the script of this movie is still in its infancy, and Pei Yan made it clear that he hopes that Shen Zui can combine himself to find inspiration and make suggestions for the story and characters.

Whether the actor is playing his own role or not, the audience can tell at a glance.

Intoxicated longs for a role that truly belongs to him.He has already missed "Spring Rest" and must not miss "Zuo Liu" again.

As for Yan Mingyang, he has been very knowledgeable during this time.

Apart from the occasional caring harassment of Shen Zui on WeChat, he has done little.

Even Liang Ce took the initiative to tell Shen Zui that Yan Mingyang had transferred himself to a more relaxed and useful position.

Shen Zui didn't respond to this, he just let out an absent-minded oh.

"Zuo Liu" is obviously different from Pei Yan's previous films. It is a serious literary film in the true sense.Intoxication, as the main perspective of doing my part, simply feels that "the world is vast and there is a lot to do".

He showed unprecedented enthusiasm and enthusiasm for this movie, and he was so devoted to it that he almost killed Pei Yan himself.

Yan Mingyang has been keeping an eye on the progress of "Zuo Liu" in secret.He knew that Shen Zui was busy, so he approached him every day to disturb him.

When Pei Yandong pieced together the team of "Zuo Liu", Yan Mingyang felt that it was time for him to come to the door.

"The film "Zuo Liu", "Pei Yan was neither delighted nor surprised by Yan Mingyang's coming, "there is a high probability that he will rush."

"......"

Yan Mingyang subconsciously wanted to say, "What are you doing with the film you want to shoot", but after thinking about it for a few seconds, he still held back.

"So, I won't fool you into investing money." Pei Yan, who returned from vacation, was a little more serious than before, "Anyway, it's a literary film, and the cost is controllable."

"You asked Shen Zui to act in a movie that hit the street?" Yan Mingyang asked.

"When I said it hit the street, it was aimed at you;" Pei Yan rolled his eyes, "For Shen Zui, it won't jump."

"You are an investor, and your goal is to make money; Intoxication is an actor, and your goal is to make a good movie."

Yan Mingyang looked at Pei Yan, the director in front of him has always been one of his "assets" with the highest return on investment.

"Why did you suddenly make a good movie?"

Pei Yan: "......"

"There are too many ghosts, you won't be a human anymore, right?" Pei Yan said angrily, "I heard that you had a few red marks on your face a while ago, you must have been drunk."

"At least I can often see Shen Zui, and there are overlaps at work." Yan Mingyang showed a meaningful smile, "My junior brother, I'm afraid it doesn't make you worry so much."

"I understand Zhou Dafei very well, and even understand why he doesn't like me." Pei Yan disapproved, and smiled sarcastically, "And you, you know almost nothing about intoxication."

Yan Mingyang laughed off Pei Yan's sarcasm, but turned around and invested a sum of money in "Zuo Liu".

One day when he was reviewing the report in the office, he asked Sang Lili how the publishing house was doing recently as if he suddenly remembered something.

Sang Lili didn't react for a moment.

"That publishing house that specializes in unpopular books," Yan Mingyang didn't blame her, "I promised to give them a sum of money every year."

Sang Lili thought for a while before remembering.She looked up the information, and said concisely, "In continuous loss."

In fact, Yan Mingyang could more or less guess it.In this era of declining paper books, it is a blessing that a bookstore with high reputation can not close down.

"Have they released any new books recently?" Yan Mingyang asked.

"There should be several books." Sang Lili said, "According to what I said at the beginning, every time they publish a book, they will give you a trial reading."

"Would you like to see it now?"

Yan Mingyang glanced at the time, he had another meeting in half an hour.

"No," he said, "just a random question."

A few days later, the "Zuo Liu" crew, which was finally set up, will hold a script reading meeting.

Shen Zui met Luan Wei, the heroine of "Zuo Liu" for the first time.

Luan Wei is Pei Yan's college classmate, a peerless actress.She took on this hastily started movie, which is more or less humane.

"Hello, Teacher Luan." Shen Zui, younger than Luan, greeted him proactively.

"Mr. Shen, you don't have to be polite." Luan Wei was like a bright lilac plant, and his voice seemed to exude a fragrance, "Although I am a few years older, you made your debut earlier than me."

Shen Zui smiled neither humble nor overbearing.

"In the early years, I almost had the opportunity to cooperate with Teacher Liu Heng." Luan Wei sat down beside Shen Zui.

"Oh?" Shen Zui asked, "And then."

"Then they said that I was too imposing, and I had no sense of sympathy with Liu Heng." Luan Wei blinked playfully with a charming expression.

Shen Zui was holding the latest version of the script in his hand, the corner of his mouth was smiling.He still doesn't quite understand the intention of Luan Wei's words, maybe it's just chatting.

"When I came last time," Luan Wei whispered close to Shen Zui's ear to make sure no one else would hear, "I saw Boss Yan leaving Director Pei's office."

"They're talking about Left Stream."

Shen Zui tilted his head slightly, "Boss Yan?"

"Mr. Shen, I know you are a talented player." Luan Wei smiled like a silver bell, "But you also need to be logical in acting."

"In our line of business, no one knows about Mr. Yan."

"This matter has nothing to do with me." Shen Zui closed the script and said bluntly.

He hadn't heard about Yan Mingyang's involvement in "Zuo Liu", and it seemed that Yan Mingyang deliberately concealed it.

It really can't change that.

Luan smiled and didn't say any more.She picked up the script in her hand, "Because Director Pei is not here, let's get acquainted first. Teacher Shen, which part do you want to write first?"

"Let's meet for the first time." Shen Zui said.

The first encounter in the movie is to some extent a reflection of all subsequent plots and even the ending.

Shen Zui hooked up with Luan Wei a few times, and gradually found some feelings.

After a while, Pei Yan came.

It was Yan Mingyang who appeared with him.

Yan Mingyang participated as an investor. He didn't speak much throughout the process, but sat quietly watching the director and actors read the script.

But to a certain extent, Yan Mingyang's restraint is not very useful.Almost everyone present was unaware of Shen Zui's affair with Yan Mingyang.

After the reading round, Shen Zui picked up his coat and went outside.

Yan Mingyang wanted to pretend to chase after him unintentionally, but he was not skilled enough.

"Intoxicated!" He held a book in his hand and blocked Shen drunk at the elevator entrance.

Xiaoan walked around two meters away knowingly.Shen Zui raised his eyelids lazily, "What are you doing?"

"Don't be angry." Yan Mingyang said.

"I don't have one." Shen Zui caught a glimpse of the book in Yan Mingyang's hand, which seemed to be a collection of poems.

""Zuo Liu" is a literary film, so it is not very easy to attract investment." Yan Mingyang said, "Besides, there is no time."

"Oh." Shen Zui said.

"I want to give you a book," Yan Mingyang handed the book of poems to Shen Zui, "it's just that you're too busy these days, and I can't find any other opportunities."

Shen Zui took it expressionlessly, and on the cover was written "Selected Poems of Li Taibai" in five large characters.

After opening it, there are even some traditional characters inside.

"I've seen giving books written by myself, and books that others like." A smile floated on Shen Zui's lips, "It's the first time I've seen giving books that I like."

"I don't know what books you like." Yan Mingyang smiled, "As for myself... I have written quite a few reports, do you want to read them?"

"I don't understand." Shen Zui held the spine of the book with his backhand, counting it as acceptance.

Yan Mingyang calmly breathed a sigh of relief.He pressed the elevator button for Shen Zui.

"There is something that I feel is necessary to tell you." Before entering the elevator, Shen Zui said nonchalantly, "For my happiness in life and artistic pursuit, I will devote more emotion and energy to my acting career."

"That said, I'm not going to like anyone for the foreseeable future."

Yan Mingyang was startled, and frowned for a while.

"The two," he didn't seem to understand, "is there any necessary relationship?"

Shen Zui walked into the elevator and turned around.The door slowly closed in front of him, and he showed a lively smile to Yan Mingyang.

That night, Yan Mingyang had another dream.

This dream is beautiful. He is sitting in a theater that has not yet started, and the surroundings are full of guests and voices.

Suddenly, a side door opened, and a figure stepped out of it.

The theater fell silent for a moment, and everyone's eyes were focused on the man.

The figure slowly stepped out of the shadows.He is like Hamlet in the dark when he is in the dark, and like the Happy Prince in the sun when he is in the light.

His intoxicated eyes glanced casually at Yan Mingyang in the auditorium, and under his stunned gaze, which hesitated to speak, he resolutely walked onto the stage.

Yan Mingyang hurriedly wanted to stand up and bring back the intoxication, but he couldn't move, he was destined to be an audience who could only sit.

The theater lights go out.

The scarlet curtain was drawn up, and Shen Zui was already standing at the focus of the light, smiling at Yan Mingyang through the fourth wall.

"If it's a play, our play should be over."

"For me, not yet."

The third volume is over.

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"Hamlet" by Shakespeare

"The Happy Prince" by Oscar Wilde

The fourth wall: referred to as the fourth wall, it belongs to the theater term and refers to a fictional "wall" in the traditional three-wall mirror frame stage.It allows the audience to see the audience in the play.From another perspective, the appearance of audiences in movies and TV programs can be regarded as "breaking the fourth wall" (source Baidu Encyclopedia).

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