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The weather on Saturday was exceptionally good. The sky was still clear when school was over in the afternoon, and the weather was not too hot, with a few breezes blowing from time to time.

Zhou Buyi's mood was not as bright as this weather, he was a little scared, he had never gone out to play with other people, he was really afraid that he would screw up.

A few people left the school gate, Shen Qing and Xu Zhengyang walked in front, Gong Dou and Zhang Ao walked behind them, Zhou Buyi walked at the end alone.

Looking at the figures of the other four people, Zhou Buyi feels that this position is safe, at least he won't be stared at his back, making some unreasonable guesses, and he won't be slightly disappointed when he is found alone.

He was clutching the strap of his schoolbag with both hands, with his head slightly lowered, like a child who has done something wrong and is waiting to be punished.

Gong Dou didn't know when he turned his head, and suddenly made a sound which startled him.

"Zhou Yi, you haven't gone out with other people, so have you ever played around here by yourself?"

"Ah... no. I don't go out very much." Zhou Buyi was asked suddenly, a little nervous, but still lowered his head slightly

"He usually stays in the dormitory or stays with Fang Weizhuang on weekends. Didn't you notice?" Zhang Ao looked at Zhou Buyi's cold head down, feeling a little dissatisfied in his heart, and his tone of voice was tinged with disdain .

Gong Dou could hear Zhang Ao's displeasure, he laughed twice, not wanting the atmosphere to turn bad again, and said, "Why should I pay attention to these things? But where is your home? Don't you go out at home?"

Zhou Buyi nodded and said, "I'm in Anshui District, and I don't usually go out much."

Gong Dou was startled when he heard that, his eyes widened: "Where do you live? That's the villa area over there, damn it! Zhou Buyi, so you are a hidden rich man!"

Zhou Buyi didn't speak, villa area?Mansion?It's more like a big ice cave with no temperature.

Zhang Ao looked at Zhou Buyi's seemingly indifferent expression, "tsk", and said to Gong Dou, "Isn't your family quite rich? Why do you envy him?"

Yes, there is nothing to envy.Zhou Yi said in his heart.

Gong Dou said: "That's not the same. Most of the people living there are high-class people, and our family is a local rich man. This is incomparable."

"Oh, no wonder, high-class young masters look down on us and don't like to play with low-class people like us." Zhang Ao's tone was a little mocking, no matter who it was, he could clearly hear the malice in that voice.

Seeing that something was wrong, the two people walking in front turned their heads and looked at Zhang Ao and Zhou Buyi.

Gong Dou poked Zhou Buyi with his elbow. His intention was to break the ice, not to quarrel.But does he really look down on them?Gong Dou frowned slightly.

Zhou Yi actually didn’t care about what he said at the beginning, he was not used to explaining, and always looked for reasons from himself, which would cause people to misunderstand. Communicating with others, not talking to others, causing others to feel that they are noble and feel that they cannot see others clearly.It's all my own fault.

This time it's all about blaming myself, he's not good at explaining...

but……

But everyone looked at him, Xu Zhengyang looked at him, Shen Qing looked at him, Gong Dou also looked at him, they seemed to want an answer, they seemed to want to resolve this struggle.

Zhang Ao, he raised his head slightly to look at him, and he also looked at him. There was actually some kind of uneasiness hidden behind his aggressive demeanor.

"In fact, most people in this world are good. It's just that everyone lacks communication, so misunderstandings and disputes arise."

Zhou Yi knew that he was not a good person, and he was not worth much, but Fang Weizhuang said that if you want to communicate, you should always keep your words in your heart, and no one will know what you think.

Although he is really scared, afraid that no one wants to listen to him, afraid that no one wants to understand him, afraid that after communicating, he will be found to be a worthless body.

But so what?Even if you are hated, so what if you are blamed?What could be worse than the current situation?

"No." Zhou Yi lowered his head, trying to pour out his thoughts to the ground, not to face the reaction of the crowd: "I just look down on myself, I just think I'm bad, I don't look down on you, it's me I don't like myself! I'm also afraid that you don't like me..."

After Zhou Yi finished speaking, sweat broke out on his forehead, his body trembled, and his heart was pounding. He never said these words, but said them thousands of times in his heart.When I said it this time, it was as if I was being whipped fiercely by a slender whip, bleeding all over my body.

He often used these words to ridicule himself in his heart, but when he said them, it was indeed so painful, as if he had pulled a muscle.

The hard shell that protected him was gone, and he exposed himself to everyone, what would they think of him?It's really disgusting for a big boy to say such things in such a gloomy manner.

He bowed his head deeply, not daring to look at anyone, they must be looking at him with the same disdainful eyes as his heart, must not know how to answer the words, yes, they must also hate him for using such words It's abominable to leave them speechless.

The atmosphere was silent for a moment, but it was as long as years for Zhou Buyi. He regretted it so much, regretted saying it out, and he wanted to escape again, into the shell where he was the only one.

Just when he was about to leave, Gong Dou suddenly said in a hearty voice: "No way! You look so handsome, and your family is so rich, yet you still have low self-esteem!" He said and patted Zhou Buyi on the shoulder. , said: "Thinking too much, thinking too much, if I were you, I would be envious to death."

Zhou Buyi was slightly stunned, raised his head, and saw Gong Dou smiling silly as usual.Zhang Ao's eyes narrowed, but he was a little at a loss.Xu Zhengyang didn't know what he was thinking, his eyes looked out of focus in the distance, while Shen Qing lowered his head and frowned, not knowing what he was thinking.

Xu Zhengyang came back to his senses in a moment, looked at Zhou Buyi, walked up to him, put his arms around his shoulders, and said, "I understand how you feel, I have thought about it before, am I bad, bad, bad? rotten."

Zhou Yi was startled and looked at Xu Zhengyang in astonishment, everyone was also surprised.In everyone's eyes, Xu Zhengyang is a top ten student in his grade, an outstanding student who can challenge Tsinghua University and Peking University. He is kind, helpful, and friendly to everyone, but why would he feel bad about himself?

"My God, are you scaring me?" Gong Dou said, "If you all say that you are not good, then I won't be a trash, no, I may not even be worthy of trash." After finishing speaking, Gong Dou made a gesture of wiping away tears, looking a little funny.

Xu Zhengyang smiled and said: "You can do it, don't compare yourself here."

After speaking, he looked at Zhou Yi and said, "I understand that you have such thoughts, and I can't interfere, because no one can control your thoughts, and I can't help you. You have to come out on your own to really get rid of these things. But You have to remember, in fact, you are not as bad as you think, and one day, you will like yourself very much."

Yeah?Will that day come?Zhou Buyi was a little skeptical, for so long, for many years, he had never liked himself.

From the very beginning, the atmosphere has been a little heavy, and Gong Dou didn't want to stay like this, so he cried and said: "Okay, are you hungry? I'm starving to death! Let's go, my dad has a restaurant nearby, I'll take You go and eat, the most expensive and the best will be served."

"Okay, I haven't eaten expensive dishes yet, let's try today." Xu Zhengyang laughed.

Zhou Buyi glanced at Zhang Ao secretly, he didn't say anything, he didn't look at him, he didn't know what he was thinking.

In the following time, Zhang Ao rarely spoke much, Xu Zhengyang, Shen Qing and Gong Dou chatted from time to time, and asked Zhou Buyi from time to time, Zhou Buyi didn't like to take the initiative to talk, and basically asked whatever he asked and answered whatever he asked. The atmosphere is not too cold.

When they arrived at the restaurant, Gong Dou took a few people to the box, where the furnishings were quite luxurious.Gong Dou ordered a few dishes and asked others to order.

"Come on, anyway, my dad will reimburse you, so I'll go to the more expensive ones." Gong Dou said boldly.

"This expensive one may not be delicious." Shen Qing took the menu and said.

"What are you talking about, there must be a reason why it is expensive. But it must first depend on what you want to eat." Gong Dou said.

Shen Qing smiled, ordered braised fish in brown sauce, and passed the menu to the others. The dishes were all ordered, but there was silence during the ordering.

Gong Dou sighed in his heart for the dissatisfaction of these people, all of them were silent like water, it seems that it would be impossible without him among the five people.

Gong Dou then asked Zhou Buyi the question he had always wanted to know: "By the way, why do you have such a good relationship with Fang Weizhuang?"

"Aren't they at the same table? Being so close, can the relationship be bad?" Shen Qing said.

"Oh, don't interrupt, besides, my relationship with my tablemate is not that good."

"Your deskmate is a woman."

"..."

Shen Qing always liked to find fault with his words, so he stopped arguing with him and said, "Okay, let Zhou Yilai answer, I don't know Fang Weizhuang very well, but I still want to make friends with him." A friend. I see him going out a lot and sometimes skipping class, super cool."

"What's so cool about this? Are you out of your mind?" Zhang Ao said, "You want to learn to be bad?"

"No." Gong Dou said: "I think he seems to have his own ideas, and he doesn't care about the constraints of education at all. He looks quite envious."

Zhang Ao said: "What? You want to learn from him? What can he think? Now you envy him, and he will envy you in the future. He probably won't even be able to go to college in the future."

"..." Gong Dou felt that he and Zhang Ao couldn't understand, so he decided to stop this topic, and Zhou Yi's grades didn't seem to be very good, so it's not appropriate to say more.

Alas, I just want to inquire about Fang Weizhuang, why is it so difficult? !

"Fang Weizhuang is not as bad as you said." Zhou Buyi has been holding back since Zhang Ao spoke just now, he seems to regard Fang Weizhuang as a bad boy, but he knows how good Fang Weizhuang is.

Zhou Yi never spoke for himself, and naturally he never spoke for others, but Fang Weizhuang's matter, he must not be misunderstood, he is a very good person, and he should not be thought of that way.So even if you are afraid, you have to tremble and tell those who look down on him what he is like in real life.

"When he is not in the classroom, he is not going out to play or go out to fool around. He went to the store to work part-time as a chef. He likes to cook. For him, all the ingredients are meaningful. He found in this incident He has lost his own value. So he is just doing what he wants to do, not being carried away by worldly prejudice."

Zhang Ao was taken aback for a moment, and frowned slightly.

Gong Dou's eyes lit up, and he said, "Wow! It's very cool. Many people don't know what they like to do. I am, my dad told me to study hard, and then learn management to make his family bigger, but I didn't like it. But I didn't know what to do, so I followed my dad's path."

Shen Qing lost his mind again and fell into his own thoughts.

"Then I really want to make friends with him. It's just that he's usually outside, so there's no chance." After a moment of silence, Shen Qing said, "I'm even more curious about him now that you've said that."

Gong Dou also said: "I have always been very curious about him, but I have never had a chance to make friends with him. I will go to him next time in physical education class."

Zhou Buyi was a little happy, but also a little flustered.I am very happy that everyone likes Fang Weizhuang, but I am a little worried whether Fang Weizhuang will like others to disturb his life.

Does he want to communicate with them, does he want to be friends with them?

I just got to know him better, do I really have the right to intervene in his life?What if he hated himself because of it, loathed himself?

Thinking of this, I felt lost again.so afraid.But looking at the smiling faces of Shen Qing and Gong Dou, he didn't want to say anything to spoil their interest.

The dishes came out one by one, and the five people ordered a lot, probably more than they could finish. Gong Dou asked someone to take a take-out box and take it home as a supper.

Although the time for a meal does not allow people to get acquainted all at once, but Zhou Buyi finally solved the misunderstanding that existed in people's hearts.On the way back, apart from Zhang Ao who was still a little awkward, everyone was obviously getting closer to Zhou Buyi.

Zhou Buyi was delighted and frightened by such a small change. Just like in the past, he was very afraid that there would be a day when his emotions would be broken, and he was afraid that there would be a day when he would be hated and left out.He knew that kind of loss, and he was fed up with that kind of loss.

He probably doesn't deserve happiness, because happiness is always mixed with anxiety and restlessness, which makes him unable to settle down for a moment.

Thinking about Fang Weizhuang, he became even more frightened, what should we do?Shouldn't he have said that?He may not want others to join his life at all, why should he make such a decision on his own?He must hate it!

My heart is in a mess, but I don't want everyone to ruin their good mood because of him.So he put on a look of being happy because of Gong Dou's joke on his face, but his heart was already in a mess.