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Zhou Buyi felt a little uncomfortable when he entered the classroom with a big bag of fruit. With such a big bag in his hand, it would be conspicuous no matter what.

Zhou Buyi tried his best not to look at others, sat down on the seat and took out a peach to Xu Zhengyang.

Xu Zhengyang was working on a problem, and when he saw him handing over a peach, he didn't react.

"Eat a peach." Zhou Buyi said.

Xu Zhengyang was stunned, staring at Zhou Buyi, Zhou Buyi was uncomfortable being watched by him, and whispered: "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing." Xu Zhengyang smiled, took Tao Zi, and said, "Thank you."

Zhou Yi said nothing, then lowered his head again.

After that, Xu Zhengyang looked at Zhou Buyi many times, as if he wanted to say something, but he still didn't say it in the end.

In the evening after self-study, Zhou Buyi packed up his things and planned to go back to the dormitory. Although he and Xu Zhengyang were sitting together and lived in the same dormitory, he was not confident that others would be with him, so he carried his schoolbag and prepared to leave.

But Xu Zhengyang stopped him when he turned around: "Wait, let's go back together."

Zhou Buyi was a little surprised, "Ah".

"What? Are you going back with Fang Weizhuang?"

"No." Zhou Buyi shook his head.Fang Weizhuang would stay in Sister Fang's store for more than an hour at night before going back, so every time he went back to the dormitory, he was alone.

"Then let's go back together, we are together anyway." Xu Zhengyang said.

"En." Zhou Yi complied.

Both of them were a little silent as they walked on the road. It was Xu Zhengyang who spoke first: "You... don't you like the people in our dormitory too much?"

"Ah! I didn't." Zhou Buyi hastily denied, how could he hate others?It is lucky that he is not disliked.

Seeing him flustered, Xu Zhengyang said, "But you usually don't smile much, and you don't talk at all. It looks like you don't want to deal with us at all."

Zhou Buyi lowered his head and remained silent.

"I'm sorry... I don't hate you guys... it's just... I don't know what to do." Zhou Yi said in a low voice after a long time.He knows that he is useless, he knows that he has been misunderstood, he is really sorry, the feeling of being hated is really uncomfortable, sorry, sorry...

Xu Zhengyang was taken aback for a moment, and said, "That's it... But you have a kind of temperament that makes people feel that you can't get close. You are usually indifferent to us, so everyone will naturally think so."

"When you handed me the peaches today, I thought you were quite obedient looking at you. After I observed it specially, I found that it didn't seem like it was in the dormitory. The aura was a little bit lower."

"Aura..." Zhou Buyi panicked, what kind of aura could he have?It's just that I'm afraid to communicate with people, and I dare not try the pain of loss, so I automatically alienate everyone.

It turns out that in everyone's eyes, he is so annoying, no matter whether he is pretending or not, or whether he is a close friend, as long as he knows him, he will be annoying.

Zhou Buyi stopped talking and lowered his head deeply.

Seeing that he fell silent, Xu Zhengyang didn't know if he said something wrong, and added: "I don't mean anything else when I say this, I just think that if you don't have that idea, don't let everyone misunderstand you."

Zhou Buyi felt a twinge in his heart, misunderstood?Is this a misunderstanding?This is obviously also caused by his behavior.He's obviously annoying.What kind of misunderstanding?How to get rid of it?

Zhou Buyi shook his head in his heart, but still didn't speak, Xu Zhengyang saw that he was closed again, so he didn't say anything, just sighed in his heart.

Back in the dormitory, Zhou Buyi remembered what Fang Weizhuang had told him during the day. Fang Weizhuang said that he would distribute fruit to his roommates.

He didn't want to use this to seek any favor, he was convinced that his behavior would not attract any favor, but Fang Weizhuang asked him to do it, so he just did it.

Zhou Buyi felt like he had become Fang Weizhuang's dog, he would listen to whatever he said, but what's wrong with that?He will give himself a warm embrace, care about him, and make trouble with him...

Although he doesn't know why he treats him so well, in his heart, Fang Weizhuang has been worshiped as a god. Maybe he just doesn't want him to commit suicide, but he just wants to deal with his conscience. Maybe he will see him clearly soon and hate him. His cowardice, his inferiority complex, everything about him...

But no matter what, no matter what his purpose is, Fang Weizhuang is willing to spend his time and energy to deal with him. Maybe he hates him very much in his heart, but he is still very good, so good that he will use everything he has in return .

Although sometimes I am still swayed by my cowardice, just like yesterday I did not dare to disobey the teacher's "order" and chose to be at the same table with Xu Zhengyang...

But no matter what, as long as he can do it, he will definitely do it!

"Do you want to eat fruit?" Zhou Buyi walked to the nearest Shen Qing, and opened the bag for him to see.

Shen Qing was sitting on the table and chair and arranging her hair, she was taken aback when she heard this, then said "thank you" and took an apple.

Zhou Buyi went to Gong Dou again and said the same thing. Gong Dou was a little hesitant at first, and then took a banana to thank him after curling up repeatedly on his head with one hand.

Zhou Buyi finally walked to Zhang Ao's side, Zhang Ao might still remember the unpleasant confrontation with him before, and felt a little uncomfortable.

He turned away and said, "I won't eat, thank you."

"Hmm..." Zhou Buyi seemed a little disappointed, he put the fruit on his table, and said softly, "If you want to eat, just take it."

"Okay, thank you." Gong Dou said with a smile while biting a banana.

Zhou Buyi shook his head lightly and said, "It's nothing."

After finishing speaking, Zhou Buyi prepared to take the toiletries to take a bath, and then went directly into his small confined space.

However, Gong Dou didn't want to give up the opportunity to break the ice. After all, they were all under the same roof, and they would have to get along for more than a year in the future.

"Hey, Zhou Buyi, wait a minute." Gong Dou walked up to Zhou Buyi and said, "Don't leave, I have something to say."

Zhou Buyi put down what he was holding and listened carefully to what he said.

Gong Dou grinned and said, "Tomorrow is a holiday on Saturday afternoon, why don't we go out to play together in the dormitory, and I'll treat you."

"Ah..." Zhou Buyi didn't expect to go out with them?But he...he can't do anything, can't joke, can't fight, he will be like a mute, he will be like an air conditioner to cool down the atmosphere, so they should be very hard.

"What? Don't you want to go?" Gong Dou asked when he saw that he was silent.

"No..." Zhou Yi said, he lowered his head: "It's just that I never went out to play with my classmates..."

"It's okay, then this is your first experience, how precious!"

"How about you, are you going?"

When this question was asked, Zhou Buyi felt a little flustered.going or not?He didn't know, he was afraid, he was afraid that he would mess up the happy atmosphere, he was afraid that he would trouble them, but... Gong Dou looked at him expectantly, and he couldn't be too disappointed.

Besides, Fang Weizhuang also said, get along well with your roommates.Even if you will be cold, it is good to show your friendly attitude.

They are willing to play with themselves, willing to take a step to get along with themselves, it is really a great blessing, otherwise, just be brave.Make an effort to fit in with them.

"...Okay." Zhou Yi said after lingering in his heart for a long time.

"Great, how are you guys, can you go." Gong Dou asked the rest.The few remaining people knew that Gong Dou wanted to do team building, and they didn't want the relationship in the dormitory to be too rigid, so they agreed to go together.

On the second day, Zhou Buyi was very nervous, and when he went out to eat with Fang Weizhuang at noon, he seemed a little embarrassed.

"What's wrong with you?" Fang Weizhuang saw his nervousness and asked.

Zhou Buyi looked at Fang Weizhuang, his eyes showed some fragility and helplessness.Fang Weizhuang was taken aback for a moment, and suddenly felt that he really wanted to hug him, and wanted him to eliminate the restless eyes in his arms.But when he came back to his senses, he slapped himself in the heart again, what was he thinking?

"It's a holiday in the afternoon, we're going to hang out in the dormitory together." Zhou Buyi said, his hands couldn't hold the chopsticks because of nervousness, so he put them down directly and put them on his trembling legs.

"It's good." Fang Weizhuang said, "It just broke the ice. What are you afraid of such a good thing?"

Zhou Yi lowered his head, bit his lips for a long time before saying: "But... I can't talk, I can't play around, I will definitely mess up the atmosphere!"

Zhou Buyi became more nervous as he spoke, his hands on his knees were clenched into fists, and his body was trembling uncontrollably.

what to do?what to do?Suddenly regretted agreeing to him.What if it really makes them unhappy?

Just when Zhou Buyi couldn't restrain the fear in his heart and his body trembled uncontrollably, Fang Weizhuang came to him at some point, squatted down and held his hand on his knee, and said, "Okay, don't be afraid. I believe you can do it. Don't worry, you won't be cold, you just need to be yourself."

Fang Weizhuang's voice was very soft, and the temperature on his hands was very warm, Zhou Buyi could see Fang Weizhuang's smile and eyes when he raised his head slightly.

"Being me? But I... I can't talk, I don't know what to do... I really will... be hated..."

Fang Weizhuang looked at Zhou Buyi's erratic eyes, and held his hand tightly: "You won't be hated."

Zhou Buyi was stunned, looked at Fang Weizhuang, and said: "You have such a good heart, there is something wrong with people who hate you, don't be afraid. As for you, you just lack a little expression."

Zhou Buyi was even more stunned, a strange feeling rose up in his heart, a little painful and warm at the same time.

"I...have a good heart?" Zhou Buyi's voice was a little hoarse, why would he want to cry every time in front of him?

"That's right." Fang Weizhuang said: "Actually, most people in the world are kind-hearted. It's just that sometimes, people lack communication and don't communicate with each other, which leads to misunderstanding and disputes."

"As for you, you lack communication, communicate more with others, and when others understand you, you can also eliminate some prejudices."

Zhou Buyi hangs his head, is he kind?He still doesn't feel that he has a good heart, but Fang Weizhuang is so kind that he thinks of everyone so well.

What he said seemed to make sense, but communicating, it was too difficult for him.If he could, he wouldn't be what he is now.Sometimes he would think that it would be great if he were not so cowardly, if only he could be braver.

However, he is always not brave and always surrenders.

Seeing that he didn't respond, Fang Weizhuang knew that a person's personality is not easy to change, so he said, "It's okay, let's take our time."

"We..." This word made Zhou Buyi completely stunned, his heart seemed to be hit by something, and suddenly turned into soft pieces.

we……

we……

we……

He said we...

Zhou Yi couldn't express the feelings in his heart for a while, he could only repeat in his heart countless times, Fang Weizhuang is really good, really good, he is with him, and has been with him since he found out that he wanted to commit suicide .

How can there be such a good person?How can there be such a kind person?

There was a surge of tenderness and emotion in my heart, and then it was occupied by fear, but why?He is so ordinary, so useless, and even so cowardly, how can he be worth all this effort?He's not worth it, not at all.All his help will be wrong!

Zhou Buyi's emotions suddenly took a roller coaster ride in his heart, rose to the sky for a while, fell to the bottom for a while, and finally continued in a low stage.

Yes, no matter what his purpose is, no matter why he treats himself so well, he is not worth it, he is not worth it, he is not worth it...

Fang Weizhuang saw his tears falling numbly, without blinking his eyes, looking extremely frustrated, like a puppet that lost its soul.

"What's wrong with you?" Fang Weizhuang was at a loss, what did he say wrong?What's up with him?

But Zhou Buyi still shed tears numbly, there was no emotion in those eyes, it was like a broken faucet, just tears.