[HP] Blast! Word Small Universe

"Professor." Jane called Snape softly, but he didn't seem to hear him, sitting there looking at the notebook without blinking.Jane refused to give up and called Snape twice, but he still looked at the book as if he didn't hear him.Jane found that since that Christmas, Snape had begun to treat her like air.Although they sat together, she was like transparent air a lot of the time.She thought that he would be somewhat disappointed that she hadn't appeared in front of him for more than a month, maybe he would not continue to be so indifferent to her, but the reality is often the opposite.Snape seemed eager for her to do this, and he would respond more or less before, but now he didn't even respond.

Jane wondered if Snape was going to completely ignore herself, because no matter how much she teased him, he wouldn't have any reaction.

Such speculation made her feel anxious, because she didn't want to face Snape's indifference at all, and she would rather he yell at her or speak nastyly than turn into a piece of wood.

"Are you going to never talk to me again?" Jane pushed the parchment away and stood up from the chair, trying to squeeze his jaw to force him to react, but Snape seemed to have As if expecting her to do this, she flinched and avoided it.

Jane was furious. He felt that his good temper would disappear completely when he confronted Snape.

"Look at me!" Jane put her hand on his shoulder angrily, not going to let him continue to escape: "Look at me, Snape!"

Snape closed the book and got up from his chair, ready to leave.

Jane didn't seem to intend to let him go easily. She grabbed his cloak and hugged him tightly from behind: "Don't go, please."

Snape looked at the hands wrapped around his waist, and he felt a tightness in his throat.As early as the night after Christmas, he was determined to dig a gap that Jane couldn't bridge. He didn't intend to give her any more reactions, and he couldn't let himself be confused on her anymore-it was too dangerous. .No matter how you look at it, being with Jane Jean is like a predictable death, without any hope.

But she is so sweet, like the most wonderful wild honey, always tempting him, luring him into unexpected traps at any time.

If it weren't for the guilt and nostalgia for Lily in his heart, he would definitely fall under her sweet pursuit.

Snape thought wearily, on the cold Christmas night, after Jane Jean left the office, the cold wind blowing in from outside completely woke up his swollen mind.He already knew that he could no longer go on like this, and he had to control the development of the situation.

So not giving any reaction or response, this is the best way he can think of to deal with Jane.

In more than a month after the start of school, Jane Jin unexpectedly did not come to see him, and did not come to kill his time, which was simply a good thing he could not have wished for.He figured he should be happy about it, that he should even find a place where no one was around to celebrate, that he'd finally gotten away with a huge problem - she'd finally got bored of her greasy Potions professor!Nobody likes a mean old man!

Snape thought so, and was so grateful, but he couldn't deny that there was an indescribable loneliness in his heart, a loneliness that had tasted sweetness.He hated himself for having such a disgusting emotion in his heart, and then he began to hate the guy who disturbed his mood even more - if it wasn't for her, he would still be the same Snape whose heart was as still as water or ashamed, It should still be the black bat that was cast aside and hated by others.

Sitting at the desk countless times, Snape stared blankly at the chair Jane Jean used to sit on, and then cursed her and cursed her viciously in his heart.

It wasn't until a few hours ago that she wanted to hold his hand as before, that he was surprised that there should be a safe distance between them.So he avoided it and did it without thinking.

But when Jane Jin asked him where he was going for a while, he felt that he should let her go far away, or simply give her a name indiscriminately to dismiss her, he actually went against his reason and said that in the office Such nonsense—he knew she was trying to catch him in the office!

Especially when Jane Jin told him to come back to him, shameful joy appeared in his heart again.

When he was sitting in the office, he silently looked at those cold bottles and jars, looking at those specimens, he felt that he was so ashamed of Lily - he should not be able to dream of any feelings in his life!He should live with his sins on his back!Protect Lily's son until the moment of death...

So when Jane Jin pushed the door and entered, he made up his mind to let her leave in despair, or to completely cut off her unrealistic delusions.

But when she hugged him from behind, he heard her trembling voice pleading, and he felt so shameless and low-spirited—because he was shaken by her pleading...

"Don't go..." Jane whispered, she hugged Snape tightly, worried that the person in front of her would completely disappear in front of him if she let go: "If you don't want to talk... I think we You can just sit like this for a while." Jane compromised: "Recently, Hermione and Ron have had conflicts. Because of their pets, I have to accompany Hermione for this matter. Her condition is terrible. I After all, they were all gone..." Jane paused, her voice trembling, as if she was about to cry: "I just want to be alone with you for a while, I don't know when the next opportunity will be... "

Listening to Jane's words, Snape felt that someone was scratching the bottom of his heart with a feather.He was struggling and uncomfortable, and at the same time, there was that unspeakable ecstasy, and he was ashamed of this undeserved ecstasy.

"...I'm just going to change a book." He heard himself say: "It's finished."

Jane froze for a moment, and slowly let go of her hand.Suddenly, she realized that she was acting like a fool—like a fool without the ability to judge.She blushed, and immediately backed away, lowered her head and returned to her seat, pretending to pick up her potions textbook, unaware that she had knocked the book down.

Snape was just as he said, he just stood up and went to the shelf beside her to change a book, and then he sat next to her and flipped through it silently.

Jane felt that there was nothing better than this.

But just as Jane breathed a sigh of relief, Malfoy's panicked shouts came from outside the office: "Sir, sir!"

The author has something to say:

The professor's psychological activities are so difficult to write... I hope there is no collapse...