[Spell Back to Battle] Asuka

67.

In the morning, my world lights up again.

The joy and fear of regaining what was lost made me hold his hand tightly, sit beside him with my legs bent, and bury my crying face into my knees.

We were sitting on the same sofa, and Qihai glanced at me sideways, her eyes helpless.His coat was also held in my arms, and my face was now pressed against his coat.

"I don't have pheromones, I can't build a nest with my coat." He tried to pull his hand out of my palm, but found that my strength was much stronger than he imagined.

"I don't care," I said sullenly, "Anyway, this coat belongs to me, so as to save some people from suddenly disappearing in the future..."

Nanami sighed, but still didn't point out the fact that I had held him for most of the day and had no intention of letting him go.

"At that time, I was still breathing," he explained in a calm tone, as if he was talking about someone else's story, "I can hear you calling my name all the time, and I feel... I still have a lot of regrets, I can't just Get out of here like this."

"Mr. Yigu saved me with the inversion technique, and I stayed on the starship to recuperate. I wanted to leave a few days ago, but after discussing with Mr. Gojo, we both agreed that if we want you to leave the military headquarters If you are in control, you cannot expose your weaknesses."

"Then come here now..." I gripped a little tighter, "Will it be because of me..."

"Don't think about it." Qihai sighed and rubbed my head with the other hand, "The soldiers monitoring you have all been replaced by Yi Gu's people and the forces of Principal Ye Moth in the military department—in other words, Now you are not under the surveillance of General Aili."

"...That's fine." I buried my face in my clothes again, and replied sullenly, "As long as you're fine..."

Shier sat across from us, his eyebrows almost raised to the sky.

This kind of harmonious and friendly scene really makes one's teeth sore... As he thought about it, he still suppressed the urge to sneer.

——After all, he always has a premonition that his employer will kick him out if he makes a discordant voice now.

The scene fell into a brief silence again.

"So..." I handed him his hand and asked softly, "Did you come back to blame me? Senior Qihai? Blame me for being like this..."

"Why do you think I will blame you?" Qihai pinched my wrist again and asked calmly.

"...Because I did something wrong," I lowered my eyes, and said to myself, "weak, incompetent, against principles, and became the person I hate. Some people accused me of being a liar and a murderer. I Know they're right."

"Do you think you did something wrong?"

I was slightly taken aback: "Of course, even if this is my best choice at the moment, most of the choices have not made me feel regretful, but I still have moral flaws..."

"Who sets this moral standard?" Qihai pulled me up from the pile of clothes, looked me in the eyes, and said solemnly, "Look at me, Asuka Hisakawa, you did it to become the perfect leader in the eyes of others. These things—what are you standing here for?"

"I..." I stared blankly into his eyes, and subconsciously said, "I want to be free, I want to break classes, liberate Omega, and turn this society into a free society, and I want everyone to have an independent world." , the chance to choose your own life..."

"Are you working on it?"

"...yes, I'm working on it."

"So what you're doing is what you want to do, the right thing?"

"……Um."

"Since you firmly believe in this, why do you choose your own life under the interference of others' expectations." He looked into my eyes and said word by word, "Why put yourself in a cage? Asuka ?”

"You are worried that others will disappoint you, so you impose too high moral standards and requirements on yourself, which also makes you lock yourself into a cage that you and others have built together, and live as the 'Jiukawa Asuka' that others look forward to. We We all know that the original you would at least not question your own existence because of so many negative emotions or even guilt over these things.”

I looked up at him blankly, and he was watching me calmly, his gaze was the same as before.

"Society requires you to be a perfect person with no moral defects, but no one is perfect, and you don't have to force yourself to be a god anyway. You are locked in your own cage by the eyes of the world-and you could be more Be free."

"Everyone has desires, everyone hates, everyone burns out, everyone is vulnerable, everyone has regrets, everyone has regrets. You're not perfect, you're not pure, but you're still who you are, That's enough for you and the people who value you. It doesn't matter what other people hold of you morally, in fact the people who criticize you don't care what you are, they are just your critics in your life Passers-by who point fingers, they don't matter at all."

“You don’t have to beat yourself up to be perfect, you have people around you who will help you, teach you, be with you. If you do something wrong there will be someone to correct you, so don’t worry about doing something wrong – you’re never alone. "

"And no matter what you become, I...we will be by your side."

"Listen, Asuka, you didn't let me down. I blame you for forcing yourself, not for what you did."

He held my wrist and repeated it solemnly.

"You don't have to be responsible for anyone's expectations, as long as you have a clear conscience, you won't let me down."

"And starting today, you are truly free—the control of the military department can no longer really threaten you, and your companions will become your power and your arm."

I heard a cracking sound from something that had been stuck around me.The outer shell of the heart disintegrated little by little, regaining its freshness.

Did I want to be like this in the first place because of other people's expectations?

—No, it's not.Perhaps my idea of ​​liberating Omega through genetic evolution was born under the hints of General Eri and Kamo Xianren, but my original intention is indeed completely my own idea.

I want to do what I want to do, I want to save Lixiang, and I want to live happily with her and my companions. This is my ideal.

What kind of person I am and what I want to do should depend only on myself from beginning to end, and have nothing to do with others.

I wanted to break out of the cage of society, but in the end I locked myself in: from the moment I decided to become a "god", I locked myself in the cage.

But I still had time to break out of the cage completely.

Holding Qihai's coat, I straightened my back and raised my head: "So is there any other arrangement? I will go to sleep without me. There are still several speeches at dawn-my speech is Not at your place, Shir? Bring it back so I can fix it."

It was the same confident and high-spirited Omega face as before.

Shi'er looked at my face, the corners of his lips raised slightly.

"This is the way to look," he muttered, the smile on the corner of his lips widening, "This is the way... the appearance of being crowned king soon."

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The Empire is in darkness and chaos, yet the sun rises like every day that passes.

"I am not a perfect leader, nor am I an omnipotent god."

"I'm just an ordinary person, standing on this land with everyone in the empire, looking up at the sky, and yearning for freedom and equality."

"But every promise I make will come true, and every vision will be realized through the efforts of me and all of you—even if it is a lifetime, even if it will suffer a lot."

"I have always believed that genetic grade and gender should not be the criteria for dividing human beings. Everyone's lifestyle should be based on their own spirit, not limited by it. Genes are just carriers, with huge room for improvement, and every Individuals can do it. But each soul is unique, and there is no template.”

"I may choose misery, but that does not mean that choosing ease is a mistake."

"I know that some people criticize me, some people praise me, some people love me standing on the top to guide others, some people hate me for pointing at their pain. But what I want to say is that I don't intend to assimilate the whole world into one shape, Everything I do is about helping people break out of the prisons around them, so that everyone can freely choose their own future."

"After that, no matter what choice you make, as long as your choice comes from your heart, no one should tell you what to do."

"I don't want to judge anyone's suffering condescendingly. I just hope they get one more chance. I don't want to criticize anyone's comfort and happiness, no matter how huge the difference between my perception and theirs is."

"Some are radical, some are conservative, some are content with the status quo, and some look forward to change. None of these practices are wrong without harming the legitimate rights and interests of others."

I stood on the podium and looked down. The crowd was clamoring and looking up at me, with my shadow reflected in their eyes.

General Aili stood under the awning in the distance, looking at me with complicated and confused eyes.I saw her shaking her head and sighing, but she showed a somewhat old wry smile.

"We just started from different paths and stopped at the same end. We ran in opposite directions, but we ended up with the same goal."

"But our differences will not affect our same goals. We all hope that the world will become better, and we all hope that Omega, Beta, and Alpha can have equal rights as human beings."

"As the first step towards equality, the carrier of genetic hierarchy will be broken. We will co-evolve and break the hierarchy brought about by genes."

"And after that, once again wish everyone to live in a world that understands each other and is free to choose a reasonable way of life, regardless of anyone's dictates."

"Let's create this world together - thank you."

The sun has risen to the highest point, and the beam of light voting on the virtual screen is climbing crazily, smashing through the window lattice, and heading straight into the sky.

At the last second before the voting ended, the beam of light almost connected the ground with the sun.The young, expectant eyes were condensed on the beam of light, as if watching a new era descend from the sky.

Qihai, Gojo Wu, and Xia Youjie were standing together discussing something. Xia Youjie was still wearing handcuffs and a collar—he was still serving his sentence, but he was released on bail as a consultant.

The students stood together, started by Wild Rose, and discussed where they would invite me to have dinner later.Principal Noctua Moth stood by the side helplessly while talking with Glass.

Shi Er stood beside me and glanced at Yi Gu behind me.

Not far away came the faint scent of roses, Yi Gu was standing behind me, and Li Xiang was holding my hand with her claws, and stuffed a small rose in my palm.

I took her by the hand, held the little rose, stood in the crowd, raised my head together with them, and saw the birds flying high above the clouds and flying towards the scorching sun.

There is no cage at the end of the sky, only the infinite far end.

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The author has something to say:

After being serialized for more than half a year, "Asuka" has finally finished its main text.

How should I put it... In order to construct such a world and give it a happy ending, it really took me a lot of time and energy, but it also feels very fulfilling after writing it.

Thank you guys for taking the time to read this long and thoughtful story patiently. Thank you for your company for so long!

I also wish that everyone can finally break the rules and live for themselves like Asuka in life.

I will probably only put a little bit of the side story here, and the rest will be included in the book, initially including the following:

Qihai Jianren-Accompaniment

Gojo Satoru-ideal

Xia Youjie-dictator

Bone Youta, Satoka-Accomplices

Shir-employment relationship

Fu Heihui - Peer

The notebook can join the group 1014465982 to stay!

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