No matter how dangerous the Linxi road is

Say something, but don't know where to start. After a long while, he sighed and said, "Dude, don't get emotional. I've been a little upset recently, and I don't want to pass on these negative emotions to you."

Hearing this, Xun Zhiyuan decided to break the last ounce of restraint, thinking that now that he has reached this point, he might as well indulge to the end, no matter what the outcome of the two of them will be in the end, it is better to have this opportunity to speak out tonight than to hold back all the time. Heart is better.

"You are upset, what about me? I am also unhappy, and I am also upset! Is there anything you can't say directly? You hesitate to speak all day long, let me guess but I don't want to guess. I don't want to rely on subjective feelings for any relationship. To speculate, because I don't want my wrong judgment to affect the relationship between the two, so even if there are too many things between us that I can't understand, I still choose to convince myself to believe in your friendship with me, and try my best to persuade myself not to be narrow-minded and not to question You. Of course, I have asked you all these things, but you have never given me a positive explanation. Since you don’t want to talk about it, what else can I do? I keep all my emotions in my heart to prevent you from showing them. I Just one question tonight, what's the matter with us, even if we're too busy to meet each other, why don't you ask me how I'm doing recently?" Xun Zhiyuan took another step closer, narrowing the gap between the two, his body His contact didn't make him feel that there was anything wrong, on the contrary, he thought it was a kind of long-lost kindness.

But for Lin Xuan, this is simply a burden that drives him crazy. His crotch is pressed against Xun Zhiyuan's lower abdomen, and the other's tight muscles rub against his front repeatedly while speaking. Instead of clenching her teeth desperately to suppress it, Lin Xuan felt that she might gasp at any moment.However, even so, he did not push Xun Zhiyuan away, and he never even said something like "stay away from me", as if he expected the other party to take further actions from the bottom of his heart.

"I'm afraid you'll bother me again." Lin Xuan said softly after being in a daze for a while.

As if hearing some unbelievable and absurd story, Xun Zhiyuan grinned sadly:

"Why do I bother you? What I annoy is myself. Didn't you ask me why I repeated the exam? Well, I'll tell you now. I repeat the exam because I am unwilling to accept the status quo. I want to accompany you in the college entrance examination. I am willing to bear no matter how much pressure I have. I want to change my life against the sky and fight for the future. It is because I hope that I can become excellent and stand beside you gracefully. It is because I want to do my best to clear away the haze to be worthy of you. It is because I feel that my life is chaotic and you are like white. moonlight.

"I found that the relationship between each other may suddenly be completely broken. I said before that I wanted to go to L City to study a certain college. It was because I planned to accompany Jin. I told you about this person. When I was in high school, I was in We met online, and he accompanied me a lot in the three years of high school. Then at the beginning of this month, he broke up with me.

"I've worked hard for three years to feed the dog, and I've paid the wrong price with my heart. I used to think that it is rare to have a confidant. As long as he is by my side, it doesn't matter if I study a junior college. If I can't take the postgraduate entrance examination, I won't take it. I'm not around anymore? What's left of me?

"Do you know what he said at the end? He said that friendship is not a loan, that I shouldn't pay attention to what I give to him, that he doesn't feel that he owes me, and that a clean break is a clean break. To be honest, this hurts me very much. I'm almost sad to death. Yeah, I'm so devastated. But I dare not look for you, I don't want you to feel sorry for me, I want your friendship from the heart, not sympathy for my miserable situation.

"But I feel that I owe you. Many times I don't cherish you enough. When Jin and I were in a good relationship, we chatted non-stop all day long, wishing to run to the other party's house along the network cable, and sometimes ignored you. Now that I have broken up with Jin, why should I dare to think that you can comfort me when I am hurt and heartbroken? I think sympathy in this situation is simply ironic, so I don’t allow myself to tell you these things , I don't need your sympathy, I don't need you to pity me."

Xun Zhiyuan couldn't help choking up as he spoke, but stubbornly felt that it was a shame to cry in front of Lin Xuan at this time, he tried his best to keep his head up and insisted not to let the tears overflow, reflecting the dim light, he looked a bit vicissitudes.

tbc.

No.: ☆, the past yesterday

"I don't think so." Lin Xuan reached through his hair and supported his head from behind, unable to bear to see him pretending to be strong like this.For some reason, Lin Xuan even wanted to kiss his tears away to tell him that she was willing to stay by his side forever, but she didn't know if she had the qualifications.He was taken aback by this sudden thought, but when he realized it, his body had already reacted before his thoughts, and he was already bowing his head and getting closer to Xun Zhiyuan.

Xun Zhiyuan pushed Lin Xuan away at once, turned his back and wiped his tears, and squeezed out a sentence: "Don't pity me." At that time, he didn't realize what Lin Xuan wanted to do, so he pushed Lin Xuan away It was just that she didn't want to show too much vulnerability in front of the other party, but this move made Lin Xuan think that he was refusing, and Lin Xuan couldn't help being a little sad.

"I never thought you were pitiful." Lin Xuan really wanted to put his arms around his shoulders for him to lean on, but because of Xun Zhiyuan's refusal action just now, she didn't dare to go forward, so she could only stand behind him to persuade, "On the contrary, I am very sorry. I envy you. You dare to say anything, but I don’t even have the courage to say many things.”

Xun Zhiyuan turned around, when Lin Xuan's cell phone rang suddenly, it was his mother urging him to go home early.

"I dare not ask you to forgive me." Xun Zhiyuan raised his head and looked straight into Lin Xuan's eyes. He thought it was a respectful ritual to look at each other while talking, "That's all for tonight, the past with Jin , Now that I think about it, I feel ashamed of you after all." After finishing speaking, he walked out of the alley, ready to ride his bike home.Seeing him leave, Lin Xuan quickly ran a few steps, suppressed the thought of hugging him from behind again, and just told him firmly: "I never feel that you owe me anything."

Xun Zhiyuan didn't answer, just rode away, Lin Xuan was also speechless for a while.The way they went home was the same for a long time. In order to avoid embarrassment at the traffic lights, Lin Xuan turned around and decided to go back in another direction.

That night, Lin Xuan couldn't sleep.

He found that he couldn't understand his own mind more and more.Just tonight, when Xun Zhiyuan told him to go to that dark alley, why did he have such expectations?When he was pressed against the wall, he could obviously resist with his height advantage, but why didn't he struggle at all?Seeing Xun Zhiyuan trying not to cry, he actually wanted to kiss him, isn't this idea too crazy?Xia Tian was wearing thin clothes, and when his limbs reacted to friction, not only did he not push Xun Zhiyuan away, but he felt lost after being pushed away by Xun Zhiyuan. Why on earth did he have so many strange thoughts?

He thought a lot, from when the two of them first met, until he was so sleepy that he no longer had the heart to think about it, and finally he was able to rest in his sleep.

At that time, he was just in the first year of high school, and on a whim, he submitted an application form to the school's literary club. Two days later, the editor-in-chief Xun Zhiyuan came to his classroom to find him and told him that he had passed the review and would go to the teaching and research building on time on weekends to participate in the club's recruitment. ceremony.I still remember that when he casually said that the name Xun Zhiyuan had an artistic conception, the other party immediately said a few half-literal jokes, dismantling and arranging the names of the two people together, which made him couldn't help but sigh that the other party was simply flirtatious. Sister up to people.

In fact, the first meeting did not leave a deep impression on him. In his opinion, the dismantling of the half-literal part of the name was just Xun Zhiyuan's mystification in order to show off his own cultural literacy. After three months.When he was young and reckless, it was inevitable that he was full of blood. When he was just in high school, he posted a lot of posts on QQ space because of some trivial matters, and the lines revealed a youthful and frivolous publicity. How should he maximize his strengths and avoid his weaknesses in dealing with people, and he would guess that the other party is looking for a long way after talking too much.

After the identities were revealed, there was no need to be taboo about many things to say. The more they chatted, the more they hit it off, and they often felt that they hated seeing each other too late.After a deeper understanding, I exclaimed that the other party is just like a replica of myself. From personal personality to social experience, to family background and growth environment, there are unimaginably high similarities in all angles, which also makes the time of friendship short and the friendship is short. It is the latecomer who is closer than anyone else.

For Lin Xuan, a turmoil before the summer vacation in the first semester of high school made him completely believe in Xun Zhiyuan.At that time, he got into trouble because he helped a friend act as a guarantor for a campus loan. The friend who borrowed the money put the debt dispute on him with a face of indifference. Unknown people passed by to watch the excitement, and even classmates who had bickered on weekdays took the opportunity to add insult to injury and incite public opinion.But Xun Zhiyuan held up a cut-off thick steel bar in front of him without fear, and questioned the rioters with his sharp tongue, explaining the illegal existence of campus loans and the legal definition of debt disputes. Finally, he slammed the thick steel bar about one and a half meters to the ground to suppress the field with momentum, pushed away the crowd of onlookers, and then took Lin Xuan to ride home together.

"I can't control many things, but I believe that the law can control more things than me. I can't do many things, but I know that the police can definitely do more than me. Before you do anything wrong, make sure you stand Where is the land, if you really don’t mind putting yourself in it, then feel free to do whatever you want, I will accompany you until the end, but I see who of you dares to touch Lin Xuan.” Xun Zhiyuan stood in front of him, and he couldn’t see His expression, but these words still echoed in his ears after a long time, making him unable to forget that Xun Zhiyuan, who was so scared that his palms were sweating, was holding his wrist tightly to declare sovereignty to others.

"Lin Xuan has me to protect him. Some people who take the opportunity to stir up trouble and rhythm, listen, what kind of person Lin Xuan is, you don't need to talk about it. Even if he is rejected by everyone, I have the ability to give him a lifetime. Gentle." Xun Zhiyuan knew what he was afraid of, knew that he couldn't bear those overwhelming criticisms, although he couldn't stop others' mouths, he could hold his hand tightly and tell him, Lin Xuan, you should never worry about being criticized by everyone. Disgusted, because I have Xun Zhiyuan and I will never dislike you.

tbc.

No.: ☆, Tanabata is approaching

Yan Yilong returned from studying abroad and experienced a whole week of closed militarized management. The first thing he did when he got home was to reach for his mobile phone. Xun Zhiyuan's avatar in the QQ contact list was lit up, he looked at the calendar, the scheduled photo shoot date was two days later, he wanted to send him a message to tell him that he was home, he hadn't contacted for more than a week, and he really missed it tight.

"Looking for my brother! Your brother, I'm back! Miss me!" After the message was sent, Yan Yilong waited for a while with his mobile phone, but the other party might not have seen it because he was busy, and he didn't receive a reply immediately.He was not in a hurry, he connected his phone to the charger, went to the bedroom to organize the luggage he had brought on this trip, and took out all the big and small items and put them back in their places.

When Yan Yilong packed up and looked at his phone again, Xun Zhiyuan had already sent several messages in succession, and he could imagine the dancing appearance of the other party through the screen.

"You didn't send me a message until now, men are big pigs, who misses you, hehe!" Don't forget that you are also a man, Yan Yilong helplessly raised his forehead.

"It's really time for Brother Long to come back. Do you know what the day after tomorrow is? Except for the photo shoot, that day happens to be Qixi Festival!" They are all single, so it hurts to talk about this topic, old iron, Yan Yilong is a little bit dumbfounded.

"When will we meet? By the way, this little girl looks like a newlywed, so we have to make out and make out with each other?" At the end of this line, there was a heart-to-heart drooling emoji, and seeing this, Yan Yilong laughed outright.

Yan Yilong got playful, deleted the unsent rule reply, and changed it into a doggerel: "We are both big trotters at the end of the world, and we will spend the Qixi Festival alone together. Why should we meet each other before? Tomorrow morning at eight o'clock in the stadium." Just now After sending it, Xun Zhiyuan directly dialed the phone, the two chatted happily for nearly an hour, and made an appointment to go to morning exercise together tomorrow morning.

It's a pity that the weather is not beautiful, and Xun Zhiyuan was woken up by the rain that poured into the house. Last night when he went to sleep, it was too hot and stuffy so he didn't close the windows. I couldn't help shivering.But he was in a good mood, he closed the window first, then changed the sheets, then soaked his feet in a basin of hot water, and thought of calling Yan Yilong after tidying up.

Yan Yilong is usually used to turning his mobile phone to silent, so many years of answering the phone is all due to fate, even the alarm clock of the mobile phone may not be able to wake up when he is deeply asleep, of course, he cannot answer the call from Zhiyuan.It was nearly ten o'clock when he fell asleep and woke up naturally, so he hurriedly put on his clothes and sent a message to Xun Zhiyuan.

The rain basically stopped, and the two discussed it for a while, and decided to go to the commercial building together to buy clothes for the photo shoot. Although they liked a set two weeks ago, they were chosen in a hurry due to time constraints, and in the end they just kept it as a backup. The option was not bought.I have plenty of time today, so I will go shopping again. It would be great if there is something more satisfying, but I don’t know if the set that was pre-selected two weeks ago has been taken off the shelves.

I walked around the mall, picking and choosing. In fact, the styles of black suits are almost the same. The store I was optimistic about before is doing a discount promotion because the season is about to change. , the price is also more favorable than two weeks ago.Without further hesitation, Xun Yan bought a suitable size for each, and then went to the dining area on the first floor of the commercial building to have lunch.

"I met Lin Zi a few days ago." Xun Zhiyuan bit his straw, took a sip of his drink, and pretended to casually talk about trivial matters.

Yan Yilong stopped swiping his phone to show he was listening intently, and asked him, "What did you two say?"

"I can only say that I don't understand him more and more." Xun Zhiyuan didn't know what expression to put on, and simply lowered his head to fiddle with his chopsticks, "There are some things that I didn't think deeply about at the time, but later I realized that It’s not that I missed something. So I’ll tell you, you can hear whether it’s me being overwhelmed, or he really has other meanings.”

Seeing Yan Yiyu nodded, Xun Zhiyuan recalled the night he met Lin Xuan, and tried to express his doubts: "I didn't make an appointment with him, but I blocked him by looking for an opportunity. Wen Cheng I posted a selfie in the circle of friends and said that I eat skewers, and I saw a figure in the photo that looked like Lin Zi, so I looked for it according to Wen Cheng’s location, and found that it was indeed Lin Zi.”

"Brother Xun is domineering." Yan Yilong sighed.

"What I'm going to do next is even more domineering." Xun Zhiyuan smiled helplessly, and continued to talk about what happened that night, "I just pretended to meet them by chance and greeted them both. Wen Cheng's family left beforehand, and the rest I'm alone with Lin Zi. I guess Wen Cheng doesn't know that the relationship between Lin Zi and me has become stiff recently, so when I greeted him, I deliberately hooked up with Lin Zi to show my intimacy, but as soon as Wen Cheng walked away, I quickly pulled my hands away to avoid Lin Zi's embarrassment, but Lin Zi took the initiative to reach out his hand as if he wanted to hug me, but at that time I had already avoided it, so he pretended to put on his glasses in embarrassment."

"I think maybe he really wants to see you, but he can't figure out what you mean, so he doesn't dare to express his attitude too clearly." According to his description, Yan Yilong imagined this scene and speculated that Lin Xuan idea.

Xun Zhiyuan nodded, and lowered his voice: "I walked with him to a dark path, and then I pushed him against the wall, yes, I admit it was a bit too much, but he really didn't resist at all, originally he His hand strength is stronger than mine, and he is much taller than me, but he is very obedient and is pressed by me."

Hearing this, Yan Yilong was taken aback, and thought to himself, brother Xun, can you still be so fierce? Is that you who grew up eating cute in my impression? "I kind of want to make up a scene where the domineering president beats someone late at night." Yan Yilong said.

"At that time, I was very emotional. I grabbed his clothes and whispered in his ear why I suddenly decided to repeat the study, and asked him why my relationship with him was strange. At that time, we were really close