No matter how dangerous the Linxi road is

He was very close, and I was wearing very little clothes, and then I could clearly feel him hard.Right on my lower stomach, obviously. " Xun Zhiyuan was a little embarrassed, he couldn't help but put his arms on his forehead, so as to calm down the ups and downs in his heart.

Yan Yilong twitched the corners of his mouth, feeling that the surrounding air seemed to condense, he was a thin-skinned person, he didn't know what to say for a while. "Then what about you..." Yan Yiyu was startled when he asked this sentence, and felt the air pressure around his body suddenly drop again.

On the other hand, Xun Zhiyuan was more relaxed, except for the momentary embarrassment at the beginning of the topic, he was not restrained when he continued the discussion: "I didn't think about this kind of thing at all at the time, and I didn't react when he pushed me. I wanted to tell him what was in my heart quickly. In fact, our posture was quite awkward. After I pushed him against the wall, after all, there was such a big height difference. I pushed my knees between his legs, thinking that even if he pushed me, they would be able to trip him and fall together. Well, I didn't expect him to have no resistance at all."

tbc.

No.: ☆, capable single

Yan Yiyu tried to imagine what kind of posture this was, and couldn't help but blush when he roughly knew what kind of composition it was.He brushed his hair, then grabbed Xun Zhiyuan's hand, and said, "Brother Xun, it's broad daylight in public now, please pay attention to R-rated when you tell stories. Also, Brother Long, I'm a gentleman, Some plots may not be so explicit."

Xun Zhiyuan continued: "As I was talking, I cried myself. The incident between me and Jin hit me hard. But I didn't want Lin Zi to see me cry, so I tried my best to hold back my tears. You also know the height difference between me and him, I guess from his point of view I looked a bit like asking for a kiss, because he obviously lowered his head and approached me, and held my head from behind."

"Damn it!" Yan Yilong's surprise was beyond words, but he was too embarrassed to ask too bluntly, "Then you, have you..."

Xun Zhiyuan shook his head and explained: "I didn't realize it at the time, but I just didn't want him to think I was weak and weeping, so I pushed him aside as hard as I could, and turned my back to wipe my tears. When I finished wiping, I turned around When I turned around, I found that he raised his hand in the air again, and after struggling for a long time, he dropped his hand again, and he didn't touch me in the end."

"If he is really interested in you, your push will really hurt his heart." Yan Yiyu felt that good luck tricks people, if one person's various unintentional actions are ulterior motives in the eyes of another person, Then the gap between the two people will definitely get deeper and deeper.

"Although he didn't say much that night, I couldn't understand almost every sentence. For example, when I asked him what I meant to him, he said that he thought we were more than brothers. I doubted his language. Did you learn from the physical education teacher? What I asked was who he regarded me as, how much weight I had in his heart, and he suddenly said what kind of relationship he thinks we have." Xun Zhiyuan was a little annoyed, he felt himself There are too many unsolved puzzles between Lin Xuan and Lin Xuan.

"Love is not enough." Yan Yiyu blurted out, seeing Xun Zhiyuan's puzzled face, he further elaborated, "A relationship that is more than brother means that love is more than friendship. He may feel that he is not reconciled to just being a brother with you Well, I want a higher position, but I don't know how to tell you."

"According to your way of thinking, it's not that he doesn't know, but he doesn't dare to say it." Yan Yilong's explanation seemed to have inspired Xun Zhiyuan, "Later, I told him about my breaking up with Jin, and I said I don't need him to pity me, and he said inexplicably that he envies me, that I dare to say anything, but he doesn't have the courage to say many things. Now I really want to ask, he didn't have the courage to say it, after all what is it then?"

Yan Yilong hesitated for a moment, but decided to ask: "Then do you like him? If he has the courage to tell you, will you agree to him or reject him?"

Xun Zhiyuan didn't speak, he pursed his lips and smiled, tilted his head to look at Yan Yilong, thinking that Brother Long is really good-looking.Seeing him like this, Yan Yi thought that the question he just asked offended him, and felt a little sorry, and said: "I didn't mean it..." Before he could organize his words, Xun Zhiyuan interrupted him: " Doesn't Brother Long know what I think about Brother Long? I remember I told you about it a year ago. "

"Yes, you told me." Yan Yiyu was surprised how Xun Zhiyuan suddenly mentioned the two of them, "But I'm very straight, you and I can only be very good brothers."

"I know, I don't have any thoughts other than being a brother now." Xun Zhiyuan didn't mind, took Yan Yiyu's hand, and smiled frankly, "My friend for several years, I knew you were a straight man of steel, I completely I didn't think about getting you to accept my intentions, but I just felt that I couldn't hide this from you, so I chose to tell you the truth. If I deceive you by taking advantage of your ignorance, and pretend to be brotherly love to you secretly, I I think this is despicable and shameless. I have always pursued honesty in dealing with people, and it is impossible that I can't even face my feelings directly."

"What Lin Xuan said is right. He envies you for your straightforwardness and daring to say anything. I think you really dare to say anything." Yan Yilong couldn't help but sigh, and he also admired Xun Zhiyuan's in his heart. Candid and straightforward.

Xun Zhiyuan smiled, looked directly at Yan Yiyu, and said: "Tomorrow I will take pictures, in order to prevent you from oversleeping, how about I sleep with you at your house tonight? When you wake up in the morning, you can't hear the alarm clock and I will call you .”

Yan Yiyu really didn't know if he asked this question on purpose, and felt that he wanted to write the four characters of being upright and upright on his face. He just talked about this embarrassing topic, but he didn't know how to avoid suspicion at all. He blinked his big eyes at Said to sleep together tonight. "Okay," Yan Yilong refused for no reason, but still a little concerned about the topic just now, couldn't help but add, "But we are just good brothers, you are not allowed to do anything."

"We have always been good brothers, what do you think I can do?" Xun Zhiyuan seemed to be completely indifferent to Yan Yiwu's guard, he acted upright and sat upright, and a few words were enough to explain his interests, "Why doesn't Brother Long think about it, If I really dare to force others to make things difficult, then is there a future between us? What's more, that matter is only interesting if you agree, if you don't agree, what fun can I make, and in the end, the good brotherly relationship will become stagnant Well, that's not worth it."

Yan Yilong returned an apologetic smile, and did not continue this topic, it is true that he is too sensitive, six years of getting along is enough for him to trust Xun Zhiyuan's character.He felt a little ashamed for the wariness just now, and knew that it would only be more embarrassing if he explained again, so he directly put the phone upside down on the table, and said to Xun Zhiyuan: "Then I won't set the alarm clock at all, and just wait for you to wake me up. "Xun Zhiyuan naturally understood, and replied with a smile: "The relationship is good, if you stay in bed, I will throw you out."

tbc.

Article: ☆, there is no love

After dinner, Xun Zhiyuan went to Yan Yilong's bedroom to play games online.In order to help Xun Zhiyuan as much as possible in the matter of re-reading, Yan Yilong rummaged through the boxes and selected the wrong exercises and class notes he had compiled in his third year of high school. "Is there any possibility between you and Lin Xuan?" Yan Yilong asked while cleaning up.

"You mean friendship or love?" Xun Zhiyuan asked casually, still staring at the screen and focusing on the situation of the battle.

"Uh..." Yan Yiyu was at a loss for words for a while, "Forget it, let's talk about it after you finish this game, I'll find your notes first." They can be shared, so Yan Yilong picks and chooses the notes that are suitable for Xun Zhiyuan.

At the end of the game, Xun Zhiyuan took the two notebooks from Yan Yilong and put them on the table, then went to the living room and poured two glasses of water into the room, and had a serious talk with Yan Yilong about their relationship face to face.

"Actually, I don't think I have feelings for him." Xun Zhiyuan said this unexpectedly, fearing that Yan Yiyu would not understand, he further explained, "No matter what kind of feelings it is, friendship, love, brotherhood, nothing at all. .”

"But the two of you once..." Yan Yilong was a little embarrassed to continue.But Xun Zhiyuan is not as thin-skinned as him, he can't talk about even a little sexual topic, upon hearing this, Xun Zhiyuan said bluntly: "Brother Long, do you want to say that we have done it?"

"Yes..." Yan Yilong was a little embarrassed, even though there were only the two of them in the room, he also felt embarrassed to say such words, so he tried to avoid mentioning some too straightforward words, "You told me that at the time. "

"Then I should just mention it in a few words, and I definitely won't say anything about the details. If you preach this kind of thing, it is impolite to the other party and disrespectful to each other. You shouldn't even tell others. Since I told you You said that you trust you very much." Xun Zhiyuan is self-disciplined, and although the romance is blank, he insists on basic morality.

Yan Yilong once again lamented in his heart that he was really straightforward and said what he had to say, facing his frankness, he couldn't be too reserved, so he followed his words and said: "You just said in a general way that there is such a thing, Didn't say much else."

Xun Zhiyuan nodded, and went beyond this point to continue discussing the relationship between him and Lin Xuan: "I think the relationship between me and him is more about morality than emotion. He has no scheming, and he doesn't know why I especially trust me, have no reservations about me, and don’t set up any defenses. To what extent, for example, many times I easily have the opportunity to add insult to injury, and I am sure that I can cause him unbearable serious harm. There are many such opportunities. However, from a moral point of view, I don't think I can do such immoral things. But in the end, it's just my introspection and moral constraints, not how deep my feelings for him are. He regards me as a close friend and treats me Confidentially, and what I did to him was to give him a reciprocal response as much as possible. If he betrayed me, it seems to me that I don’t need to respond to this person’s trust in the future, and I don’t feel so sad at all. , and maybe even a little contemptuous, thinking that his previous feelings for me were ridiculous."

Yan Yilong felt that this was a bit unbelievable. It was the first time he heard that such a way of getting along could still exist, and he vaguely felt that this state was not stable enough. If it lasted for a long time, it would inevitably lead to problems—just like Xun Zhiyuan and Lin Xuan now. . "Are you serious about what you say now? Are you really angry? In fact, I feel that you usually care about him and take care of him like a brother." He asked his doubts.

"I asked him how I treated him, and he said I was fine. But all he thought was good was my response to him as a thank you, that's all. I don't like his character very much, but It can be seen that he is not wary of me. Since he really cares about me, I have to restrain myself not to let him down from the moral level, so sometimes I will do something good for him. If I carefully analyze what I do for him , you will find that in fact, everything has his shadow, because he has treated me like this before, so I try to respond as much as possible." Xun Zhiyuan tried his best to calm down his tone, saying every word He said it very seriously, as if he was examining his various practices all the time, and he really wanted to define a right or wrong for himself.

"It's... not good for you to be like this." Yan Yiyu felt that it was very difficult to judge rashly with right and wrong. He could only say that the one who was deeply involved would be more likely to be sad, "If he knows you If you don't like him at all, and he likes you very much, and still treats you well, then he should be quite sad."

"I know, sometimes I also feel a little scumbag. Maybe it's because of guilt, I have worked hard to give back his sincerity. I can see that he cares about me, I am very touched and grateful to him, so I try my best To respond to his wishes, not occupy his friendship in vain, let alone use him or hurt him. I said that he is so simple that I want to protect him, and I am also worried that his personality is easy to be bullied. These It's all sincere, but I know it's not out of friendship, it's just out of the morality I personally believe in. I thank him for his dedication to me, and at the same time discipline myself so that I can't let him down. I think I'm a more careful person, Most of the time, I understand most of his care and care for me, whether overtly or secretly, and I really appreciate and cherish him, but I can't treat him as an iron buddy, because I really don't like it. He is this person." Feeling at a loss, Xun Zhiyuan couldn't help picking up the pen on the desk and turning it between his fingers, distracting part of his attention to make himself less restrained.

tbc.

No.: ☆, Destined but not divided

Yan Yilong thought for a while, and tried to give him a suggestion: "I think, friendship should be possible, right? Just friends, there are not so many restrictions, even people with different personalities can play together."

"I used to think so, but the fact is that I really don't even have friendship with him. People with different personalities can get along happily, but you also know that I have a lot of self-loathing emotions, and I really hate it. Those dark thoughts in my heart, I know very well how dark I am. And Linzi’s external personality is very similar to mine——I’m not talking about his heart, I can’t easily comment on subjective things, so I’m just talking about objective facts—— ——In addition to personality, I am very similar to him in many aspects such as growth experience, family background, living environment, etc. When we first met, I said with emotion that the other party is like myself in the mirror. This high degree of similarity makes me really helpless Treat him as a friend." In a daze, the pen in his fingers was thrown to the ground, Xun Zhiyuan bent over to pick it up, and made an apologetic gesture to Yan Yiyu.

Yan Yiyu waved his hand to show that it was all right, but he wanted to say a few words of persuasion, but he didn't know where to start. In the end, he just took the cup and handed it to Xun Zhiyuan, saying: "The water is still warm, don't let it get too cold. You It's not convenient for me to get involved in the matter of the two, but if there is something that needs me, if I can do it, you can just say it."

"I was really moved by him during last summer vacation, which was the period when my depression was the worst." Xun Zhiyuan buried himself in drinking half a glass of water, and continued to tell the story between him and Lin Xuan, "I feel that every day is special. Painful, and then one afternoon I wanted to commit suicide. I guess it was because I was seriously ill. A lot of desperate jokes in the style of sad prose. At that time, I was still a face-saving person, and I didn’t want too many people to see me as a joke. I deleted all unfamiliar classmates in the contact list in advance, and the entire account Only seven or eight of you were good friends. At that time, you were basically in school. Although it was summer vacation in name, the school has always been used to making up lessons in groups, so no one paid any attention to me."

Yan Yilong was shocked, and couldn't help interjecting: "I really didn't see it, and I didn't expect you to be in such pain at that time..." He had never heard Xun Zhiyuan talk about this matter, and now although Xun Zhiyuan Zhiyuan said it calmly, but he couldn't help but feel a little uncomfortable when he heard it, "I'm sorry, I really don't know this..."

Xun Zhiyuan stopped his self-blame with gestures, and continued to talk about the events at the time: "Lin Zi lived in school at the time, and his mother enrolled him in remedial classes online, so he could carry his mobile phone every day. When he was checking the schedule, he accidentally looked at it. After seeing the posts I posted, he lied to the class teacher that he needed to leave school for urgent matters and come back after evening self-study, then borrowed a battery car from a classmate and rushed to my house to confirm my situation. When he came to my house, see What happened was that I cut my wrists and bleed a lot, and I threw a lot of bloody toilet paper in the trash, and I couldn’t help but take a lot of sleeping pills because of insomnia for many days, so my whole body consciousness was unconscious at that time.