chasing light

The second time Song Jinhang saw him was early autumn.

The school just had a midterm exam, and after the exam, there will be a routine commendation meeting, and Song Jinhang met him at the commendation meeting.

The boy was the first speaker in the third grade, Song Jinhang was the second, and the first and second positions were next to each other.

I haven't seen him for a few months. The young man is so thin that his face is as pale as paper, his lips are pale and bloodless, and his eyes are a little dull.

While reading the manuscript, the boy lowered his head and spoke steadily, but Song Jinhang noticed his slightly trembling body.

Song Jinhang thought he was unwilling to speak.

After the meeting, Song Jinhang went straight back to the classroom.

He felt a little irritable.

More irritable than before meeting people.

If it's just a school, why don't you come to him?

If you're having a bad time, why don't you come to him?

If you have to leave, why don't you say a word?

At least leave a note or something.

At this time, Bai Quan shouted at the door: "Jinhang, someone is looking for you!"

Song Jinhang left the classroom, and at the door was Lu Shen—the thin boy who had been picked up by him and disappeared for several months.

When Lu Shen saw him coming, his eyes lit up, but he just stood there looking at him without speaking.

Song Jinhang didn't know where the anger came from. He was usually very gentle and grabbed Lu Shen's wrist and dragged him all the way down the fourth floor. He walked all the way to the back of the stadium before letting go.

Lu Shen stood there uneasy and at a loss, only looking at Song Jinhang with those crystal clear eyes.

Song Jinhang said: "Speak. Don't look at me. Didn't you just speak well."

Lu Shen suddenly became nervous, wanted to pull his arm but didn't dare, so he just stood there and looked at him, his lips were tightly pursed, looking aggrieved.

Song Jinhang knew that he didn't want to speak, but he just wanted to force him to speak. He could speak in front of so many people, but he couldn't speak when he saw him?The words they said did not add up to more than three sentences!

"Can't tell?" Song Jinhang said lightly, "If there's nothing else, I'll leave first."

Lu Shen was so anxious that he grabbed his arm, opened his mouth for a long time but couldn't speak, and was afraid that he would go away, so he grabbed his arm tightly and didn't let go.

"Let go."

Lu Shen looked at him, but instead of letting go, he pulled him even tighter.

"Let go." Song Jinhang said it again, seeing that he was not moving, he forcefully broke his hand away, and left without looking back.

Behind him, the deer bowed his head deeply, unable to see his expression clearly.

After a long time, Lu Shen heard that someone seemed to sigh, and then someone lifted his chin, wiped away his tears little by little, and then hugged him into his arms.

"Don't cry, dear. It's my fault." Song Jinhang's gentle voice sounded beside his ears, "It's my fault."

Lu Shen's tears flowed out again, and Song Jinhang couldn't finish wiping them no matter how hard he tried, he said helplessly, "If you cry again, your eyes will swell."

Lu Shen bowed his head not to look at him, Song Jinhang turned his head, paused, kissed his red eyes lightly, licked away the salty tears from the corners of his eyes, kissed his cheeks, and finally his lips.

The warm tongue pried open the jaws, drove straight in, hooked his tongue, and licked it gently in his mouth. Finally, Song Jinhang withdrew from his mouth and kissed the corner of his mouth soothingly.

"Still crying?" Song Jinhang patted Lu Shen's head.

Lu Shen's eyes were still red, he shook his head and looked at him.

Song Jinhang kissed his eyes again, held his hand, and said, "Let's go home."

Song Jinhang wrapped ice cubes in a towel, hugged Lu Shen and applied it to his eyes. After a while, Lu Shen's eyes were no longer so red and swollen.

Song Jinhang touched his face distressedly, "Why did you lose so much weight? Did you have a bad life? Did someone bully you?"

Lu Shen shook his head and nodded again.

"Then why don't you come to me?" Song Jinhang asked.

Lu Shen didn't speak.Song Jinhang hugged his thin body tightly, pinched the back of his neck, "You can trust me, I will protect you. I am different from those people, you know?"

Lu Shen gave a soft "hmm".

"Are you still angry?"

The deer shook his head deeply.

"Are you so easy to coax?" Song Jinhang laughed.

Lu Shen nodded, carefully approached his face while observing his expression, then kissed the corner of his mouth and licked it.

Song Jinhang smiled, "Are you hungry? I'll cook for you."

The deer nodded deeply, and then smiled at him, with starlight in his eyes.

After the meal, Song Jinhang still asked the question, "Did you go back before? Why did you leave without saying a word? Why didn't you come to me after you left?"

Lu Shen looked at him hesitantly, took out a pen and paper, and wrote: "It was my stepfather who came to look for me back. I don't remember where you live after I left, so I didn't come to look for you. Are you angry?"

"Yes, I was very angry at first." But now seeing you like this, how can you be angry.

"I didn't do it on purpose. So do you forgive me now?" Lu Shen wrote again.

"Well, I won't be angry because you cried a lot."

Lu Shen laughed again, his eyes were crooked.

Song Jinhang said: "Don't leave in the future. If you don't want to go back, don't go back. You live with me, and I can support you. Don't worry about your stepfather, he is not a problem. Okay?"

Lu Shen nodded foolishly.

Song Jinhang touched his eyes and smiled.

That night, Song Jinhang fell asleep with the deer in his arms, and the two cuddled together like a beautiful oil painting.

Song Jinhang knew that Lu Shen's stepfather must be the culprit for all the things he had suffered over the years. No matter how Lu Shen tried to hide it, the fear and anxiety in his eyes always made Song Jinhang's heart ache.

Now that Lu Shen doesn't want him to know about this, he can just pretend he doesn't know anything.Now that he can't resist that scumbag and can't find any evidence, then it's better to keep Lu Shen by his side, at least he won't be hurt again.

As for his stepfather, Song Jinhang thought, it's better for that scumbag not to appear in front of Lu Shen again, otherwise, there are so many things in his house that can be used as weapons, so there is no guarantee that he will do anything impulsively.

In the darkness, Song Jinhang hugged Lu Shen into his arms, feeling the warm temperature of the person in his arms, and slowly closed his eyes.

I will protect you, you can trust me, you can rely on me, you don't have to worry that I will despise you, loathe you, hate you, abandon you, and no longer love you because of your past.

You can tell me everything, because if I say I love you, I will love everything about you, including the good and bad of your past, everything about you, everything.

Honey, I love you, if you don't want to tell me, I will act as if I don't know anything, if you are willing to tell me, I will bear all this with you.

Lu Shen, I love you.

I will love you until the day I die.