pig like age

With excitement and anticipation, I got up early in the morning and began to dress up.

For makeup, I can be said to have some experience now.I used to buy sports shoes, snacks, and occasionally a few pieces of clothing with my pocket money, but now I spend most of it on skin care products, cosmetics, clothes and shoes.

Although I started a part-time job, the expenses were high.It is said that it is for the family, but in fact, it is not very helpful.This is still very ashamed.

Speaking of it, I feel like I climbed from the bottom of the mountain to a small hill and saw a wider landscape.So I upgraded my equipment and planned to climb a higher mountain.I think this is a necessary stage, so I didn't push myself too much.

Besides, since the financial crisis in my family, my mother has a sensitive string in her mind.I originally wanted to make her happy, so I showed her the blockbuster I shot in the magazine, but she had a gloomy face, thinking that I was "selling my appearance" to make ends meet.

Fortunately, my dad was not there at the time, otherwise it would have turned into a family conflict.I had no choice but to lie, saying that the school's brother magazine lacked a few models, and chose some of us who were tall to shoot, voluntary labor, and gave some transportation expenses, and she was relieved.Later, when I took photos for magazines, I didn’t show her much.She occasionally saw her in my room, and I just said that the response to the last shoot was good, and people introduced it to me one after another, to earn some pocket money, which was not much.

I didn't push myself, and there was no pressure at home, so that the determination to fight for the family weakened a bit at the beginning.But shooting magazines does make money, so I save part of the money and "upgrade equipment" with the former for emergencies, and the latter allows me to go smoother and smoother on the flat model road.

I don't know if I was born with savvy.The photographers and makeup artists I have worked with have a good relationship with me.Most of them were engaged in guerrilla warfare, and they had more than one owner, so wherever they went, they knew where there was a shortage, so they called me over.

It may also be that I have a bright and cheerful personality. I grew up among boys since I was a child, and I have a "buddy relationship" with me.Men like to call me brother and sister, and think that I am a hero among women, not so many things, good enough for friends, and show loyalty.

This is not my bragging, I am more face-saving, and my mother taught me since I was a child that when I encounter difficulties, I will help others if I can.Basically, I always respond to the requests made by others; if others ask me for big or small things, even if I can't help them temporarily, I will take them to heart.I think this concept benefited me a lot when I first entered the society.Gradually, I got to know more and more people and gained some fame in the circle.I'm making more and more money.

At the beginning, I bought cheap cosmetics, but later I started to buy high-end products. I think you get what you pay for. I am still young and my skin is relatively fragile. Using poor cosmetics will enlarge the pores and age the skin.The same goes for clothes and shoes. At the beginning, I went to the zoo to search for goods in Sanlitun, which was a waste of time and looked cheap.Later, Mais took me to Dorset and Lufthansa, and taught me to read fabrics and brands.I also started to buy some small brands, and then occasionally added some basic models of big brands. Now I basically don’t buy non-famous brands, even those light luxury and luxury goods. As long as I feel that the budget is sufficient, I will buy some simple ones to match.

To sum up, I think I still have a good understanding of fashion.At least I have been in this circle for a while, listening to makeup artists and fashion designers bragging every day, listening to photographers and various creative design directors talking about composition, proportion, and artistic conception.I have been fascinated by it, and no matter how dull I am, I will become enlightened.

So I am full of confidence in my outfit today, I think the goddess will be fascinated by me no matter how picky her eyes are...

Wait, why should I make her obsessed with me?

I looked at the modern girl in the mirror, suddenly a little confused.

I have really changed. The original Xi Xiaochen seemed to have died of an illness. The new Xi Xiaochen still has a sunny personality, but he has also learned to smear himself into a commodity and put it on the big shelf of society for sale.And since when did I get used to it.

Yes, I am used to dressing up to gain attention and resources.In this environment, no matter how beautiful your heart is, you will not be affirmed by the prospective employer during the interview.They judge you from the top down, not the inside out.And most of the people I come into contact with are a group of well-dressed species who only discuss senses and tastes. Is it normal for me to be affected?

Forget it, don't want to.I just think that since we've known each other for so long, now that we're meeting for the first time, we should leave a good impression on her no matter what.

But when I was ready to knock on her door, she was not there.

I'm a little frustrated.

I found that she is a person who never makes a sound and disappears.Although she has no obligation to report to me.But somehow, I just care about it.

When I got home, I was in a bad mood.Sit on the sofa and leave her a message, and wait for her to reply.

The reply this time was shorter than I expected, but more than half an hour has passed.

Her: I'm going back to my mother's house.

I quickly sat up from the sofa, and immediately returned: Are you coming back today?

After waiting for a while, seeing that she didn't answer, he asked again, "What time will you be back?"

She replied: No, go back to Shanghai directly.

My mood fell to the bottom in an instant...

I typed sullenly: When will you come back?

Her: May Day.

May Day... It's May Day again, time flies, and it's another year.I counted with my fingers, there is still almost half a year left!

No, I can't wait!I turned over and sat up: Aren't you coming back for the Spring Festival?

Her: No reply.

Me: Then can I go to Shanghai to see you?

She: I want to go to another place to do a project with my tutor.

I counted, if Fu Chunlei's information is correct, she is already in the second year of research, and she will be in the third year of research after the summer vacation.She will be graduating soon, so what about after she graduates, will she return to Beijing to develop?Even if we return to Beijing, it will take such a long time to see each other.

I was still very disappointed, and I typed unconsciously: Don't you want to see me?I found that with her, I would always speak directly from my heart.Normally, such hypocritical words would kill me and I would not be able to say them.

Only this time, she didn't reply.

I don't know what kind of feelings I have for her. I say that fans have feelings for idols, it seems that there are too many selfish desires.The selfish desire I'm talking about is probably similar to possessive desire, exclusive desire, or always wanting to chat with her with my mobile phone... Later, I almost never leave my mobile phone, because I was afraid that she would reply, but I didn't see it.They're all obsessive-compulsive.

If it is said that I have a heart for her, but to be honest, I have never even met her face, would I really have such feelings?

There is one more thing that bothers me.That is, Binzi is determined to pass the entrance examination in Shanghai, and to go to the school of Sister Fairy.

I helped him calculate the scores of Shanghai Jiao Tong University and University of Aeronautics and Astronautics, the former is even more difficult.Visible wolf ambition!

Maybe it was stimulated by him, or maybe I really didn't want to wait so long to see her, or maybe I had the idea of ​​taking the postgraduate entrance examination. In short, I calculated my small coffers and found that the money was used to pay me three years. The annual tuition fee is no problem.Besides, my resources in Beijing can be extended to Shanghai, so it shouldn't be difficult for them to find me a part-time job in Shanghai.

Of course, my parents are in favor of this matter, they have firmly supported me to take the postgraduate entrance examination.Next, I just need to lobby for my major and future direction, as well as my current scores, and let them agree to let me take the exam in Shanghai.

The hardest part is Ji Shuyu, I know she has worked hard to earn a dollar in the United States, and she just wants me to get out.

In fact, I have also seriously considered going abroad, and imagined studying and living happily in a foreign country, and then plating a layer of gold, becoming a sea turtle, returning to serve the motherland, and galloping in the mall.But in this way, I will always live in Ji Shuyu's shadow.

I don't know if you have an all-powerful sister, or such a brother or sister?

You seem to have lived in her shadow from birth.If she doesn't have a good relationship with you, it's fine, at most she has low self-esteem, no matter how good she behaves, no one can see it, and so on.But if everything she does is based on you, even sacrificing herself in exchange for what you want to achieve, you will feel more pressure.It was an emotional burden.

This burden has been formed since knowing that she sacrificed her chances of recommendation for me.I'm afraid of her like this, but I don't know what to do.

Push her away?she is my sister;

Accept her?I can't reciprocate, and even look down on myself because of it.I don't think this is right, I shouldn't always grow up attached to her.

Therefore, I think the best choice is to be able to take the postgraduate entrance examination.As for why I was admitted to Shanghai, I admit that a large part of the reason is because of the goddess.

It is also for this reason that I re-examine my feelings for her.

I vaguely, as if...have fantasies about her...

Blurred, not very clear.It didn't happen at any one moment, but was formed imperceptibly and accumulated over time.

Yes, I can't recall when it started.It was Yao Ye who left me on the highway, and she guided me to find my way back with her gentle voice?Or, every time I called her or chatted with her later, although I was not very enthusiastic, I always answered my questions and kept my appointments?Or is it because she can always disappear when I feel passionate about her, which makes me feel infinite longing in my heart?Or is it her cute contrast?Can she remember my cell phone number accurately?I only told her once that I like to eat special snacks in the Jiangnan area, and she remembered it, so I gave the youth group as a gift?

She's polite, caring, committed, helpful, brilliantly intelligent...

Also, there is...

Although I don't know what she looks like, I always think that a kind heart is a beautiful person.What's more, her temperament is so outstanding, her appearance is outstanding, and her looks should not be bad.

Thinking of this, my heart became more and more chaotic.I think that my feelings for her have only just sprouted a small bud.It cannot be hastily concluded that this is the bud of love.I need to get along with her.I needed her so badly that we hardly ever got along.

Maybe, in my subconscious mind, I wanted to have a chance to get to know her better when I went to Shanghai for the exam?

Maybe.

But since the decision is made, there is no return, and we will work hard to move towards the goal!